I can't do this
continuing
this
charade
as if
we'll go further
than we've been.
I don't have it in me
to play
these heart wrecking
games
Say what you want & say what you must
but
when it comes time
You'll
Thank me.
You'll
see*
I did you a favor
walking out
as
I've done
I've given you
freedom
instead of
moments spent
*cursing
the days you've ever
met me
or
complaining in anguish
for
the rest of your life
You'll thank me
I'm sure
of it
I'm just not
right for you
I'll ruin the fabrics & fibers
in which you so live by
I'll
demolish
the peace that
tranquilizes
your inner mind
&
thoughts;
You'll have nightmare
I swear
&
they'll be all of me
I can't do this
Don't put faith or trust in me
Some day
I promise
without me
You shall be happy
without
my miserable
company
You don't need
someone
* like
me
I'm mean & nasty
down right raunchy
I'm overly
argumentative & so very overbearing
I don't like washing dishes & dislike listening
I wont compromise or consider your feeling
not to heart.
I'll **** up yo world & rip it all apart.
I can't do this
none of it is going to work
I have no faith & no trust
I can't help you
*because
I don't wish to
I don't like
feeling these weird things
like
when you
look at me
or touch me just right
I feel as if my flesh's on fire
my inside do flips
my mouth waters up
&
my heart beats faster
I get goosebumps & all tongued tied
I feel things that
SCARE
the hell outta me
I have no empathy
least I doubt I do
I've been told
what it is
but
doubt I can feel it
I think & feel
completely
different than you
Enclosed in this darkness
comforts me
You'll never understand
This bleak soothing
presents of loneliness
it's for me
The emptiness
is far better
than
anything good
you'd possible bring
These shattered
glass-like pieces
of my broken heart
helps me
Never to forget
I'm
no good
*NOT
for you
&
One day
Someday
real soon
You'll Thank Me
**Always Me Ayeshah ™ ®
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