Love is the feeling I get when I feel you near
Love is the feeling I get when I hear
your voice.
The voice that I imagine every night in my dreams
but can't seem
to get it right...
You used to hold me tight
Now I just might
Cry.
I'm shy
When I'm telling you how I feel
But I can't deal
with the thought of losing you
It's been too long.
But it's wrong
for me
to intervene.
especially when it seems
I am not who you want
Love is the emptiness of my heart
when I am not with you.
I feel a spark
I'm sure you've felt it too.
I love you.
and this is true.
like my love for you.

I fear
I fear the uncertainty that I have for myself.
The uncertainty of what lies ahead.
Therefore I lie awake...
Hoping that I can stay in that moment forever.

Close your eyes, see the blank space...

Smell the light scent of vanilla...

Hear the soft sound of the piano...

Taste the peppermint on the tip of your tongue...

Feel your muscles letting go...

.... Relax.

Positivity.
Where art thou positivity.
Where art thou love while my heart is enlivening.
Help me find the chambers,
as to where my heart is confined.
Help me
becasue the adrenaline is leaving my conscious behind.
Help me find the path.
For once I find this path,
My negativity will not counterveil.

I'm a mean person.
I'm selfsih.
I'm careless.
I'm depressed but blame it on my mom.
I let people know the truth about how others feel about them...
Even though I know it will hurt them.
I don't apologize for hurting their feelings.
I'm mean. I'm terrible.
But most of all... I'm me.
Rotten to the core, little ol me.
An unforgivable, hellbound soul.
I'm on a roll.
ding ding ding
You got it!
I'm worthless.
I'm the worst there is.
And everyone knows it.
But let me be.
Let me die alone.
Go to hell.
And be a lonely soul.
Because I'm rotten to the core.
And I won't grow.

I get this feeling...
This tingle throughout my body.
My mind soars.
I feel this constant vibration like i'm being shook in a box,
and the next thing I know, the bell rings.
It sings...
constantly in my ear...
My eyes sting.
Constantly threatening me with tears.
I get this feeling
in my head.
Like someone is talking to me.
If only you all can see...
that these walls are crashing on me.
I get this feeling...
that I am not me.
But I understand now.
My limbs are being pulled by strings.
And It's only when I feel pain, that I am in control.
Because I need to feel that pain...
to be alive.
I need to feel.

She feels the weight on her shoulders
She's almost to the border
Her bones breaking
Legs are shaking
She's losing her mind
Her soul is leaving her body behind

There was a sound on the floor down the hallway.
it sounded like the thunder before a storm.
like the soound of my heart when it is no longer warm.
The sound of someone falling on the floor,
because they were fighting and ******* take anymore.
There was a sound on the floor down the hallway.
The sound of childrens feet running from fear.
Sound of feet that weren't there while you were near.
There were sounds down the hallway...
that you could hear, even though there's no one there.
You can feel the prescence, but you're alone.
You're alone in the world...
There were sounds down the hallway...
It's in your head.
But where is the hallway.

My mind is clouded.
It's surrounded.
By all of these temptations,
I constantly go on these vacations,
letting the demobs take over.

I hear the sounds getting louder.
The demons are coming.
I'm running.
Trying to get away.
I start to sway.

The demons catch me.
I am now out of my control.
How can this be...
that my life is taken from me.
In 3... 2... 1

I'm back...
My mind no longer clouded.
I guess you could say i'm back to normal.
But the temptations are everywhere.

Perhaps I am strange.
But
I know life is short,
so
I'll live out my life
like it isn't falling apart.
I'll smile and breathe
until I cannot,
and
I'll say that it's fine,
until my heart stops

The rains pour down in perfect harmony
Silently summoning me
Soaking life into the souls of my feet

Like an angel fallen from the highest kingdom, into my arms, you stood there with arms wide open... Effortlessly loving me, whole heartedly. Not knowing what the shared love will bring. The most perfect imperfect combination. Melting into each other like it was meant to be. But we... You are an angel. And you need to spread your wings. You need to be free... But you can't be, when you're with me.

We fall... silently,
violently clawing at the particles in the air
that we, human beings, cannot see.
For we are free-falling,
through an underestimated state of mind.
Silently breaking.
We don't see the world around us,
as it evolves from something so small.
Into something beautiful like a lotus.
Everything having many meanings.
But we do not see.
We do not care to see... the evolutions.

Momma, you left me broken like glass on the cold hard floor
You didn't want to clean up the mess like you didn't want to clean up your act

Momma why?
Why do I have to ask you for forgiveness, when you have made me this way?
Momma why?

Momma why are you cryin?
Is it because of me?
Because of everything you took from me?
Like my freedom?
My family?
My father?
My siblings?
... Or is it because you're out of drugs?

Momma why?
Why do you make these promises?
You just left me in the crevices of these promises I call your lies.
Momma why?
Momma can't you hear those cries?
Those are your cries...
that I hear in the middle of the night.

Momma why?
Why do you take these pills?
Momma you're rollin over these hills
you can't prevent these spills

Momma why?
Why won't you change?
Can't you see the range of possibilities?

Momma why?