Maxwell Clouse

Maxwell Clouse Nov 2018

Afraid

Afraid of letting you in...
Seeing my sins...
Seeing me runnin,
down this crazy path.
Something
that I can't let go of.
I try to stay above
the murderous tides
that keep sweeping me in.
But I can't run fast enough.
Everytime leaving internal
cuts and bruises,
that never heal...
I am afraid

Maxwell Clouse Aug 2018

Your Eyes

Alluring and cavernous
The portal to my soul
Shining like the ocean in the midnight moonlight
Suddenly taking my breath away
Melting me to the core
Every-time so depthless
All at once looking into me
Knowing and loving everything
But only your eyes

Maxwell Clouse Aug 2018

Woke up Different

Done with trying to figure out who was with me, against me, or walking down the middle because they didn't have the guts to pick a side. I was done with anything that didn't bring me peace. I realized that opinions were a dime a dozen, validation was for parking, and loyalty was wasn't a word but a lifestyle. It was this day that my life changed. And not because of a man or a job but because I realized that life is way to short to leave the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket.

Maxwell Clouse Jul 2018

A Place

Have you ever dreamt of a city of gold?
Where people go and never grow old? Where people never feel pain?
And they're always sane?
I wish there was a place like that.
A place where I'm not stuck between my thoughts and reality.
Where my dreams have no gravity.
Where they can soar and create more.
A place that's best for all race.
A place where there is no bad judgment of others.
A place where we accept all colors.
I wish there was a place like that.

My family is extremely mixed. And it's been a hard life for my whole family.

Maxwell Clouse Jul 2018

Momma Why

Momma, you left me broken like glass on the cold hard floor
You didn't want to clean up the mess like you didn't want to clean up your act

Momma why?
Why do I have to ask you for forgiveness, when you have made me this way?
Momma why?

Momma why are you cryin?
Is it because of me?
Because of everything you took from me?
Like my freedom?
My family?
My father?
My siblings?
... Or is it because you're out of drugs?

Momma why?
Why do you make these promises?
You just left me in the crevices of these promises I call your lies.
Momma why?
Momma can't you hear those cries?
Those are your cries...
that I hear in the middle of the night.

Momma why?
Why do you take these pills?
Momma you're rollin over these hills
you can't prevent these spills

Momma why?
Why won't you change?
Can't you see the range of possibilities?

Momma why?

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