Penny wishes
Sink to the bottom of clear water thought blue--
Stealing credit from teal paint

Maybe I am unmotivated
Maybe I take too much time
But from whom?
It is mine

Achieve great things
What does it mean?
Make the money that tears us apart
Make a drug to keep beating a sorry, broken heart

Play important
Play smart
Teach with your bimillenially biased brain the meaning of ancient art
Exercise your mind in a hamster wheel of antique thought  

Wandering through obstacle courses we built ourselves
We build higher and higher until one day we look down
See the rounding of the earth
And crawl back to the ground

I clench jet wings to keep me high and windswept
Open cargo doors to free the heaviness they kept

You knew I’d fly anywhere you led me
You find comfort as my wits neglect me

Press your smile into my neck til I find it
We play like children, spirits rewinded

Sun salutation in darkness - we’re laughing
Til I lose my footing - the darkness creeps back in

In-house clergy clang Hail Mary through my organs
Sick to my stomach, I let a requiem pour in

Stunningly unlovable, the ugliest seductress
Inevitably ******, penance with reluctance

I knew better than to love like before
When swept off my feet I will groan on the floor