You can bet
The conversation
Is about money

I don't make
Much money

My health insurance
Was raised by 15 dollars
Now I have to pay
$169 dollars
A month

For my health insurance

Lol I make
About 800 dollars
A month

Listening to music
Writing poetry
Reading articles

The machines are what help me feel!
God bless the machines

But the machines are always there
I think I will read about impermanence

About 7:30 p.m.

These are like slides
Picture frames in my mind

In the morning
Sitting in the car

The birds fly
From tree to tree

Stay with the ancient Tao

Watchful, like men crossing a winter stream
Alert, like men aware of danger
Courteous, like visiting guests
Yielding, like ice about to melt
Simple, like uncarved blocks of wood

Oh men of Tao
The ancient way is not lost
It is not lost

"When you are content to be simply yourself
And don’t compare or compete,
Everyone will respect you.”

You leave me alone
Alone Alone Alone!!!!!

Don't threaten me
I'll strike like the cobra

Descend on you
Like the Hawk

Pounce like a fierce lion
Snap my jaws like the crocodile

Float like a butterfly
Sting like a bee
Don't you ever threaten me!

The man of Tao
Seems dull
And confused

He is not driven on
By some shouting voice

Aimless and wandering

The customer service representative
Was a bit obnoxious

"What you can do
Is have a seat over there
For me please"

Okay?

I sat after a few moments

He just could have said,
"You are welcome
to have a seat, if you would like"

It's fine

What a terrible job
Working at a rental car place

A hierarchy of sales representatives
Trying to climb some ladder

I got the car
So I have it to go to work tomorrow

Drive carefully
Extra carefully
I remind myself

The car is a big boat
A big unwieldy Camry boat
Blah

Wish they would have had a Jetta there

I was taken
To a room
With paintings
Large and small

Of beautiful
Women and men
***** and Feminine
Or strong and tall

A beautiful woman laughed
And said,
"You're neither,
Now, I'm going to have a ball"

Please Maddeline
Be a dear
And Get on your knees
By that wall

A strong Arab stud
Came marching in
And he said
"Open your mouth"

And with a grin
He slid his large
Thick *****
Right in

Not much confidence
Perhaps none at all
The woman
Laughed at my fall

I ******, I blew
She has a ball

And his thick c**?
She made me swallow it all...

Thank you
Oh Thank you

For my
HUMILIATION!

The woman across the street sits in her living room
Watching the television

A man walks down the street
Doing bicep curls as he walks
I put my clubs back into my bag

This is the Tao

The body is just
This thing

It has desires
For food and for ***

And the mind wonders
What this life is
Anyhow

Hours alone
My akward shoulder
Never changing
Never improving
Despite my efforts

And look at the beautiful
Fitness goddess
On instagram

In love with herself
With her body

Better I suppose not to
Take so much pride
And devote so much time
To the body

Although I do enjoy fitness

I just wish I didn't have
An akward shoulder

Oh well, nobody cares
Walking akwardly
From here to there

A world full of emptiness

Pleasuring myself to fitness babes
On instagram

And after that desire is fulfilled
The desire to eat again

On and on and on
God the clockmaker

Sitting on his throne
Or whatever

Your earth has really gone
Terribly wrong

We are tired of waiting
For the second coming
Of your Son

The saints are crying out
When will justice be done?

Life isn't that great
Sometimes it seems just plain dumb

It turns out it is a lonely place
And not much fun

100 years more or less
Will one day be over

I guess it's just a test
There better be something
Better in store

Because human life
Can be a bore

Is there golf in heaven?
I like that game

Never loved or cared for
By a female friend
What a shame

Alone sitting under a tree
Same dull face
No one can help me

My shoulder will never change
Forever akward
Still the same

The Men At Job SItes
Just doin' what they do

Some lawyers, doctors, construction workers
Some study the microbes
In beetle poo

They are good decent working men
Through and through

I am a man at a job site too

The Men At The Job Sites
Do what they do

They are kind and considerate workers
Just trying to do their best
To make it through

I heard some scientific materialist
Talk about the future of robots in our society in a podcast

He said human beings are just machines
He laughed at the idea of consciousness

I'm not a machine
A man is not a machine

A man has hopes and dreams
People show empathy and love
People create and inspire
And overcome cancer

Any fool can see
We are not machines

Regardless if you are atheist, agnostic
I don't care
I have respect for you even though I disagree

Don't call me a machine
I am man

No plans
No plans to do anything
Except wander

Chipping golf *****
Eating dried apricots

Sitting alone on the trail
It's wonderful

Know thyself and love thyself

This morning I talked to a woman
About her boyfriend's big 9 inch *****

I squirted ***
And wasn't it fun
To enjoy the creamy treat

Mmmmmm

Two dollars
And fifty-eight cents
In my account

Not sure about
This life
Or what
It's supposed
To be about

People are going here
Going there
Running some race

I don't really care

Walked around in some gardens
And wasn't it fun
To see all these forms
Underneath a Spring sun

Asian babies
Russian ladies
Indian families too

An American Indian
With a shirt of blue

I like it there
And so will you

$2.58 in my account
What's it all about?

Drifting from here
To there

Oh?
This is the end
Of the world?

Well,
It was enjoyable
While it lasted

Who cares

When society has collapsed
When there is no internet
When the food is gone

When emergency services
Are too busy
To reach anyone

We will be alone
In our homes

And when they try to
Make us go
To government camps

I will not go
I will have things
My way

I will live in the mountains
For as long as I can

No clinging
No grasping

Changing names and changing faces
Seeing different places

A strange world of happenings

One time to next time
That's it

gym
eat sleep
golf

repeat
repeat
repeat

haha

really great

It's like a computer

LEAVE ME ALONE

LEAVE ME ALONE

I spent so much time alone

I don't care

I just like to walk around streets

He experienced a great loss
His wife
She jumped
Off of a building
May she rest in peace

He tried to help her
Pills and more pills

Why, why did she do it?
He must have asked himself
Driven
Far, far, away

Iceman goes
Goes into the wilderness
Of his native land

The biting cold
The sharp air
The plunge into
Deep waters of despair

He had dug a hole in the ice
And it was under the ice
That he swam
A rope secured him

His retina froze
And for a moment
He said he reached a deeper consciousness

He learned to manufacture
Adrenaline
Hyperventilating
And taking in more air
Than he let out

He has been in the HImalayas
In his shorts

And holds the world record
Of being able to be submerged
in icecold water
For two hours up to his neck

These are his records
But it is not for his records
That we should admire him

But for his desire to help others
Who had their own health problems
He helped them face their own problems

One man had cancer
He talked of how empowering this was
Not that he could be cured
But that he could do something now
To fight

And these people they jumped together
In the snow
In the freezing cold
In their shorts

And the interviewer
He climbed
He climbed with the iceman
Up the mountain
No shirt, just shorts
In the freezing cold

The iceman said it himself
It is love
He wanted to bring love
Through a strong body
And a strong mind
And this love that he showed
To people

Through his method
Empowered them
Strengthened them

I admire you iceman
And though
As a man of Tao
I would never hyperventilate
Or control my breath

I would venture into the cold with you
I would climb with you
Upon those mountains

I would swim with you
In the icy water

It would be good to know you
Good to know you

And as you suffered from loneliness
When your wife passed
I suffer from loneliness too

American life is so isolating

Maybe after we will share some tea together
You were right all along iceman
To show each other love

All we can do
On earth
This difficult place

You are one of the most loving people
I have ever met

Maybe closer to an angel than a human being
Thank you for listening to me
With such understanding

A vocalist, musician, therapist, professor
And soon to be mom too
Is there anything you can't do?

Well,
It is a great joy to spend time with you

Wasn't it ******
And wasn't it fun

When she squeezed
Her hubby's c*
And made it squirt ***

There are
Very few ideas
That will
"Transform the world"

That term is overused

Also
Why must
We be "great"
At everything

People seeing acknowledgement
Awards
Seeking recognition
And fame

All this is unnecessary

Why not be just
A bit better than average
At most things

I have a small room
Clean sheets
And this warm bed

I hope a woman
From this site
Gives me a
Loving kiss
On the head

Dum Dee Dum Dee Dum Dee Dum

Isn't human life fun?

Go here, Go there

And nobody seems to give a care

America, land of the debt slaves

Corrupt banksters, and foreign wars

America the Great *****! (Of Babylon)

I hope the Lord's judgement

On this nation soon will come


The American nation

DOOMED and DONE!

I enjoy Monty Python
I am watching it tonight

I was at peace
While lying next
To the red brick wall
Near the gym
Last Night

Looking up
As the sunlight
Streamed through the
Tree above

Maybe one day
I could meet a woman
To spend some
Time with

I am about as loving
As a guy
As you will
Ever meet

Tonight I had
A glass of chocolate Ovaltine

And earlier
This evening
I tear or two fell
Down my face

As I observed the
Beauty of the Tao
The coming and going

Of the cars and pedestrians
In the evening

I considered the fact that
I am living in the end of days

I pictured a war in
The Heavens
A battle of the army
Of the Lord

Against the forces
Of evil

I thought about
The book of Revelation

I would like to see
The battle first hand

No harm shall come
Of me

Divine Protection

I believe Jesus is Lord
Amen.

You know the middle class
Here in America

Is being destroyed

And other nations
Won't want to trade

As much with us
With our devalued currency

And the price of food
Has been slowly but surely
On the rise

And what happens
When America
Can't just print more dollars?

Big corporations
Like Staples
And Albertsons

Are closing more stores
We are losing more jobs

Fun to be a part
Of this divine plan

What do I know
I am just a man

I was at the golf course
Chipping golf ***** today

I heard a man say
Something about money
And the house too

Getting worked up
Doing what American men do

And I just stood there
As content as could be

If I was him
I wouldn't worry

For it all works out
In the end

We are predestined
My friends

Words John Calvin
Did teach

Is salvation
Within your reach?

You cannot decide
Nor your sinful feelings hide

In the Master's grand design
He will decide how you spend
Eternal time

Now I just jest
I really do

Taking that teaching to heart
Is not good for you

Worrying am I saved?
And how do I know?

Simply ask for
Forgiveness of your sins
Keep on sinning
Then ask for forgiveness again

You will receive
His divine grace
And not have such
A worried face

Saved by grace through faith
Luther once said

Now you can sleep
Soundly in your bed

Someone Once Said
I needed to work
40 hours a week

As if it was
An order
From some
Computing Machine

I don't and I won't

The machine can
Only give orders

It cannot answer my questions

It requires
40 hours a week

Sorry Machine
I believe in non action
Just give it a try

A simple question
It cannot explain why

Now let's watch
The machine
Overheat and die

I will do what I enjoy
Less than 40 hours
A week

I am not striving
To reach some
Non-existent peak

Down through the mountains
And through
The valley
I will flow

The Tao is like water
This I know

Sometimes
I like to do
Different things
With my time

Eating a pear
Underneath a tree

This is who
I am meant to be

And I will live here
As long as I want

I think this text
Is Times New Roman font

The loneliness of life
Crushes me
In a way

Thousands upon thousands
Of hours of documentaries

Podcasts
Some reading

That's my life
I have a selfish life

I once substituted
It barely paid anything

Mom put 100 bucks
In my account for food

A brain
A brain in the world

Ugh

Well I'm thankful
For intellectual life

Quit saying hello
I live here

I'll make a comment
About whatever garbage

You watch on the television
You ****

Wasting away
At the office

A miserable existence

The email served
As my official letter of resignation

They wished me all the best
In my endeavors.

I don't have any
I just want to go here
Go there

No goals
Or endeavors
I don't
******* care

1+1 does not equal 3
But it does on earth
So **** me

A rational mind
In an irrational world

A hurky jerky coaster
Can make you hurl

Always some scene
Happening away from me

People chatting
People walking
Often they have a friend or lover

I just have my podcasts
And articles

I'm content with that

I like to observe the Tao

My body is akward

I never got the chest I wanted
I feel ugly
Like gollum

Never touched
Or hugged
By any woman

Probably not capable
Of loving a woman
When I can't learn
To love this body

I don't see how a woman
Could ever

In a world full of emptiness
Full of times
Nothing leading to nothing

On and on

The ******* operator
She was pretty good
At her job

The slogan of the site
"Is speak to your desire"

I did
Now its over
The desire met

Feelings of boredom
Emptiness

Never thought
That highly
About life on earth

Hours and hours
On end

Looking for online
Chat friends

I just want to talk
To women online

To find a companion
To pass the time

I am an American
Who spends many hours alone

And so this internet
Is like a home

If I ever see that mental health
Magazine in this home

I will throw it in the trash

If that woman asks me
Id I had a "nice day" again
I might light her on fire

When the world ends
I won't care

God the clockmaker
Made me too ugly
To ever have a gf

Self hatred
Mutates into hatred
For selfish
Obnoxious people

Jesus will preserve me
My precious Jesus friend
Nobody else cares

Everyone is afraid to die
I'm not

Some better place
Beautiful women

I get what I want
In heaven

For all the suffering
I went through here

When the world ends
I will not care
One bit

I choose
What days I will work

I refuse to be a slave
To a system

I have the freedom to choice
Where I want to go
When I want to go there

Three days a week
At most

I will show up to work

I don't believe in a 40 hour
Work week

That is what my father does
What a terrible existence...
Well he needs the money

And with more possessions
More money is required
To pay for them

The car payments
The country club

This is my time
And I go where I please
Most of the time

And I do it
Without any guilt
This is my life

I remember when this guy
Told me I should work
40 hours a week

I don't think so
This is my time
This is my life

I won't change

Americans

They think
It will just be
Business as usual

This nation
Is at its end

It will be judged
By a righteous God

The leaders corrupt
The economy in ruins

And they just keep
Acting like
Everything is the same

And up until the very minute
That our nation collapses
They won't ever think
That anything is wrong

It's just business
As usual

It will be an EMP
Or multiple terrorist attacks

The certain collapse
Of our economy

A terrible time
Is coming
For America

My own family
Doesn't even seem
To care

About the grave danger
This country is in

Who cares

No good jobs anymore
My education doesn't matter

Content to go to the gym
Content to be poor

Content to walk around
Striking my walking stick
Against the ground

America is ruined anyhow
So who cares?

The dollar is worthless anyhow

Prepare for emergency
It will all collapse one day

Live a life of solitude
Used to it by now

The talking heads
Are bla-bla-blabbing
On the television

About the politics again

B-oooring

Bla bla

bla bla bla

I hope we will get a leader
Who will see the need
To cut government spending
Republican or Democrat
It doesn't matter

We are so deeply in debt

John the painter
Stopped by today

A delightful asian man
I would say

He told me about a hike
He had just been on

I told him about Mt. Baldy
I hope he enjoys it there

He offered his hand
And I shook hands
With him

Try to Remember
Remember your fellow man
I do

They are mostly all
Just like you
Just trying to live
A good moral life
And make it through

And I try to show love
To people I meet

Whether in the marketplace
Or on the street

God bless you John my friend
Enjoy the mountains, as I do

O I see
They want more money
And more power

And they don't care
Don't much care
About the earth

And the Arctic circle
Is meltingggggg

Global economies in debt

This planet is really ******* up

Jesus have mercy on us all
A terrible time is coming
Have mercy on me Jesus
For my wicked thoughts and deeds

Do not rely on the strength
Of your own flesh

God is greatest

We will not live with fear in our hearts!


Dear Brother in Christ Jesus,

I corresponded with Greg Evenson back around October of last year. I shared with him the rapid deterioration of the situation in San Antonio, TX. I felt in my heart that my wife and needed to leave San Antonio. Greg agreed and recommended that we leave as soon as possible. We sold all of our possessions that have no value to us any more and moved to a northern Rocky Mountain state (that you know quite well). One thing we didn't escape was the chem trails. :(

Several nights ago I had an extremely vivid dream. It started in our old neighborhood. There were multiple fires burning and there were bodies in the street. Then, I drifted upward and saw the city of San Antonio. There were literally hundreds of fires burning and black smoke filled the sky. I saw a mob of people marching towards the north side (more affluent part of town). Again, dead bodies littered the streets. Military, both US and white NATO vehicles were all over the city.

At this point I drifted very high into the air. I saw the entire lower 48 states of the USA, with the individual states outlined. Smoke was billowing from virtually every major city and some mid-sized cities that seemed to be in strategic locations.

I remember having the thought, "When?" A loud clear voice gave a one word answer, "SOON!"

I woke up, praying for all of our brothers and sisters in the Lord. I also prayed for all the watchmen that have been on the wall.

Steve, my wife and I have been in the ministry for over 30 years. We believe that God has prepared a new congregation for us to minister to "wherever" we end up (NOT A FEMA CAMP)!

May the Lord continue the work He has given you, Pastor Nathan, Greg, Dave, the Haggman's and everyone else serving on the wall. May His protection surround you all.

In the Name of Jesus Christ our Lord!

Should you publish this:

Precious Saints, make haste and prepare physically, mentally, and most of all SPIRITUALLY! Don't fall into the trap of thinking that because you are a Chistian that you are immune to the coming turmoil. You, like our brothers and sisters in Syria, Iraq, and in multiple African nations, are the targets.

To those who are spiritually "on the fence," QUIT PLAYING GAMES WITH YOUR SOUL! The old saying that you aren't guaranteed a tomorrow is more true than ever before. REPENT and accept Jesus as your Savior NOW!

With URGENT Sincerity,PASTOR P.K.

Is there anything
As annoying
And pathetic

As a 65 year old man
Cheering and shouting

At a political debate?

Nobody cares

My left shoulder
Is a bit bigger
Than the right

I don't know why

If this could change
I would be a more content guy

Still it's just a small thing I know
I just try to let it go

I just don't feel
Like working full time

I enjoy part time
Besides
Even If I was full time

I'd have enough for just
An apartment
And if I moved out

I wouldn't be saving much
After food and rent

So why not just continue
To live here?

Why change dwellings?
I only use my room
The kitchen
And bathroom really

Why pay for that
Every month?

And what is the motivation
In making more money?
So I can store it
In a bank?

I have nothing to
Spend money on really

I just need a new pair of glasses

I don't buy into
This system

I will not work
As a full time employee

I refuse to
Call me lazy

Or whatever
But it suits me

To hike
Or hit golf *****
On a certain day

It suits me fine

I'm just going
To take it easy
Like the sone says

Take it easy
Breathe deep

Expect no job
No girlfriend
No money

Expect a lifetime alone

A friend I cared about
She left me

Expect people to lie
And not to care

Expect no change :(

Gosh
I am such a great loving person
Yet here I am again
Alone at my computer

I have my podcasts at least
I was listening to this one podcast about the end
Of the Roman Empire

I heard the talking heads
Blabbing today on Fox
About how the American dream is still possible
Blah Blah
Who really believes that?


Trillions of dollars in debt
We are at the end of empire

I am a keeper
There are others like me

Always observing

I went on a relaxing drive that evening
I saw the man in the second floor of his expensive home

This memory so clear

Some are tuned in to the television

I am tuned in to Earth

I will often drive my car
Observing, listening
A man on his rocking chair
In his living room
An old woman makes her way through the kitchen
A woman pulls up to her home

These are all scenes
Memories in my mind
And they are mine
I keep the times

Mother earth
Ancient mother

This planet is a great mystery
This life is like a waking dream

I walk alone

The seeker
The keeper
For what I am seeking I do not know
I do not think it can be found on Earth

The keeper of the times

Reach out to me
Squeeze my hand
Yes, its nice to be touched sometimes

Or perhaps a friendly hug

This life is quite lonely
Nobody told me
I am learning that for myself

The therapist
I doubt she understands
She is kind
But I doubt she understands

Perhaps I will go on a walk
Up that street
To the Iron Gates
Of The Monastery

Wandering, wandering
More times
I am keeping the times

Observing, watching, listening
There is a great beauty
In this way

And I am so tired
It must be life that makes me eternally tired
On and on I walk
Thousands of miles

I would only ask for a bit of bread perhaps
Or a cup of water

I am a kind hearted soul
I will compliment you

Yes there is not enough time
Only time for love
Love overcomes all

All my friends are successful
And they have their money
And their career

My friend seemed annoyed when I called him
As if I was bothering him
It's okay
It's no problem

I am not rich
I do not have a girlfriend
I do not have many friends

But I have the times
I have learned to enjoy the times
This is all I have right now

I enjoy the big picture
That is why I go on my drives
That is why I go on my walks

Strange, how I can only be in one place at one time
Taking pictures with my mind

I am an earth body
I have a sense for things
A sense for the situation
I am watching
Yes I am watching

Earth is a strange and mysterious place
Can you hear my hiking sticks hitting the pavement on the street?
The times, the times, I love the times
Here I come
I am the keeper

Sitting in the white room
In front of a white Mac
Typing text in a chat room

Black text on a white screen

Reaching out
Don't know any women in real life

These conversations online
They dissapoint me
Or they end

Where have all the people gone?
Where are meaningful conversations
And good friendships?

In the white room
All I get is this computer
And chats

Chats with women
Searching and searching
For attractive and intelligent
For dominant and **** women

They fulfill a great need
Giving my **** a hard stroke
Ahhhhh

This ******* white room!!!!!!!

Is so fulfilling

Once I had a therapist
She was kind and loving

She left me
That was not moral

Now I'm in this white room
Typing on my computer

I feel close to this computer

All the hours I spend on this computer

****, ****, ****, **** me

This life can be

Full of misery

I do not believe
In a forty hour work week

In making a small salary
That would barely enable me
To have my own place

I do not care
About accumulating
Material goods

I will not stress myself
I will not work
Forty hours a week

I will spend
Hours walking in a garden

Unproductive hours

Because I can
And I will

And no amount
Of threatening
Or pleading
Will ever change that

This is my life
And my decision

Yes I did cry
I cried because
Of the love

This man shows

With people
He is kind
And caring

"Haji"
He abbreviates his name
His full name is Hajime

For five years he has
Worked on my car

Meticulous
Japanese car specialist

This is to say
Thank you

I said his name
And I cried
Because he is
A truly good man

You can never die

I see he has
A picture
Of a wise Buddhist teacher
On his wall

Thank you
For all you have done
For me my friend

To the women
Of hello poetry

I send out
A cry
And a plea

Please hug me

You are so creative
And supportive too

It's just amazing
What your online hugs
Can do

I send my love to you

On the internet
I can dream

That things
Are not this way

That I will spend
My life
Alone another day

I hope to talk
To a beautiful woman
A "woman of my dreams"

But she is more
Interested in
The Jamaican Davaugn

Women like her
Love strong and powerful
Black men
It seems

I've seen it
Time and time again

And I shouldn't
Even try
To be so manly
Like him

Big and strong
Well-hung too
He's a powerful
Force in the bedroom

She let me watch
What he could do

And As I sat
On the edge of
The bed and
Began to cry

I could only
Help to ask
"Why"

I've worked out
And tried to be
A man

I'm doing the best
The very best
I can

My muscles aren't
Big enough
And my pen**
Is too small too

I'm Maddeline
And I'm a woman
Through and through