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Jan 2016 · 260
The Day The Dollar Died
Matt Jan 2016
The day the dollar died

They showed the people
At the NYSE
Pulling their hair out
Screaming and crying

The money
The money
The money has died!

Oh no?
I just laughed to myself
Well it was only a matter of time
After all

R.I.P. American dollar
Jan 2016 · 252
Still Poor
Matt Jan 2016
Full of desires
And hopes
And on and on

Human beings
Strange creatures indeed

I don't care
About a "career"

I am just
"The guest teacher"

No official position
For me
No commitments

Why?
Oh it's much better
This way

I don't work
For a district

They hand me
The script
And I follow
The daily program

I'm a play actor
Playing a role

And I'm content
To be poor

Jesus was poor too

The love of money
Is the root of all evil
Jan 2016 · 487
Lonely Feelings
Matt Jan 2016
So this is it

This miserable
Pointless terrible

Meaningless
Existence

On this stupid planet!

Hahah listen to that
Sounds like some stupid
Whining petulant child

I can't get what I want
bangs fists

I want a female friend
I guess I'll never have one
And nobody cares

Sometimes I laugh
Other times I cry

The world is a
******* up place

And I'll tell you why

Because nothing is real
It's a programmed deal

What am I
Suppose to feel?

My body I do not like
That much
Not too much fun

I worked out
And went for a run

And this morning
I spurted c**

They'll send you to
An institution
And lock you away

Just put on a fake smile
And pretend
It's all okay

It's just another day
And it's all the same
All the same
All the same to me

Walking on the edge
Of eternity

It is a blessing
And a curse
To see and to see

Is this all you have to offer
Nothing more?

This miserable life
Is such a bore

I do nothing all day
And nothing all year
A world full of nothing
I find it so queer

They lied to me
About this place

I like friendly women
I have an honest face

And so I go walking alone
And I return home

To watch movies again

I am a part time worker
And in the morning a jerker
Jan 2016 · 154
Another Lonely Day
Matt Jan 2016
The world
Does not care
One bit

How I feel

I enjoy eating my meals

The therapist left
You know the deal

It's all an illusion
Is it even real?

Just keep saying
"Good"
When asked how you feel

Human beings aren't
Suppose to spend
So much time alone

I write these thoughts
I write poems
Jan 2016 · 3.2k
Adult Breastfeeding
Matt Jan 2016
I would like
A woman to hold
And comfort me

To taste the warm milk

I want her to have
A "breastgasm"
As it is called

The warm milk
******* into my mouth

I would be so grateful
And be so thankful
Jan 2016 · 143
Tired
Matt Jan 2016
Don't mean to be
Too negative sometimes

But I get tired
Of going through
The same motions

My female friend
Does not come

And neither does
The hug that
Would come from her
Jan 2016 · 338
The Safe Harbor
Matt Jan 2016
You'll be more
Disappointed by the things
That you didn't do
Than by the things you did

So throw off the bow lines
And sail away from
The safe harbor...

The poster said

How do I know I
Will be more disappointed
By the things I didn't do?

I didn't do them
So how can I be sure
I would have enjoyed them
More then the things
I did do
If I never did them

There are two roads
We must choose one
And we will never know
What it was like
To choose the other

As far as the harbor
I like it

The ocean is dangerous
And though great adventures
May await

Also great dangers
And the possibility
That the ship will be destroyed

So I'll stay in my safe harbor
Not being disappointed
By the choice I made
To stay there

Just watching the otters
Eat their lunch
And paddling around on a kayak
Jan 2016 · 391
Life Sucks
Matt Jan 2016
Flogged and whipped
And tied to a chair

My mistress is mean
And nobody cares

My body is ugly
Life's not fair

One day
It will all be over
And will be done

I'll just sit
Underneath
The hot summer sun

Look at them scream
And look at them run

Just relax
The end will be fun

Bombs dropping here
And there

The flashes are bright
Try not to stare

And as
The buddhist monk burns

I ate a pear


And I'm just a brain
Floating in space

And I ate my own ***
I enjoyed the taste

And whole biospheres
Are laid waste

The next world war
Will destroy the human race
Jan 2016 · 259
Just An Observer
Matt Jan 2016
Just an observer here
An observer of the times

I often feel
As though
I have never really
Lived at all

To love is to live
And I love a few people

Friendship is important to me
I would like to walk
With a woman
To share our lives
To have dinner together

If it doesn't happen
It doesn't happen
I guess?

I guess it would make
Life feel more real

Then I wouldn't be
Just a thinking brain
Floating in space

But I'd be a body too
A body that a woman
Wants to hug
And hold at night

Should I just laugh
Laugh at life
The big joke?

It seems as though
That is what it is
After all

And so I laugh
Shouldn't take it
So seriously
Jan 2016 · 385
Obnoxious
Matt Jan 2016
Is there anything
As annoying
And pathetic

As a 65 year old man
Cheering and shouting

At a political debate?

Nobody cares
Jan 2016 · 477
I Envision
Matt Jan 2016
They announced
It was the end
Of the world today

I just smiled and laughed
And thought
It will all be okay

And so what
Is after this life
We will one day see

Heavenly and peaceful fields
For you and me

I create what it would
Look like
In my own mind

And I envision
How I would pass the time

A conversation with Socrates
Maybe Epictetus too
Oh how intellectually stimulating
And good for you

I will climb pristine peaks
Wade waist deep
In crystal waters clear
Great love is always near
Jan 2016 · 181
Far Away
Matt Jan 2016
Always Far Away From Me
These human beings

Except maybe a few

Only to a couple
Have I said
"I love you"

I wonder what it would
Be like to hug a woman
That really cared

To take a nap with her
To hold and to care
Matt Jan 2016
After all these years
They still watch this stuff

It doesn't matter much
Who is president

My life won't change
Doesn't affect me much

I'm laughing
Laughin' all the way
To the park

Full time "work"?
I decided my life would be
A permanent vacation

Why?
Because I can
And I will

I do as I please
As I please

Why would I work
To earn more money
When it's not even mine
To begin with?

Why should I care
About saving
Our country is trillions
Of dollars in debt

Blah Blah Blah Blah
It's the debates
Who cares?
Matt Jan 2016
I enjoy the movies
In them people spend time
With each other

It's not like my life
My life
Is spent mostly alone

I don't think
They would hire me
For full time
Anyhow

I'm too "out there"

You know
It's going to be terrible
Terrible, terrible

Drones
Foreign troops
Food shortages

And crying
Won't do you
Any good

Why couldn't I have
Been "normal"
Whatever that is

I refuse to see my doctor
For my yearly physical

Doctor is for sick people

I "work" part time
Or whatever it's called

Money is the root
Of all evil

Stay far away
Far far away
From everyone

Better that way

Not like I ever got
To go out to a bar
And meet a pretty woman

My life isn't
A fu** movie

What am I
Who am I
What is this earth?

I find it strange that
I occupy one time
And one place

Why this house?
I don't know

I can only live my life
Not the lives of others

Maybe it is
Just a big matrix

All predetermined

One day you'll see
How mean people
Can be

No water or food
Has put them
In a bad mood

I hope they keep the gym open
In an emergency
I like it there

Same Same Same
It's really all the same

I don't think I will park
In the underground lot tomorrow
Too risky

Don''t want my car trapped in there
In case of an emergency

Pills. Pills, and more pills
These people I live with
Are pathetic

If they had a legitimate
Reason to take them
I would understand

But they just take them
Because they want to
Be medicated I guess?

I wonder when everything will
Go wrong
Things always go wrong
In history

Your freedom, prosperity
Three meals a day
Etc, etc
Is no guarantee

I'll take my chances
In the mountains
I suppose

If I had any money
I would buy a shovel
And more emergency food

Multiple locations to stay for
A few days
With supplies there

The drones
Maybe they will be coming
And the occupying forces

Let me tell you they will
Kick you right out
Try to make you leave your own home

I won't leave
I'll stay here
And there are those
Monastery grounds

What's really the point
Of human existence

Maybe I'll spend
All of it alone
Haha
Wouldn't that be funny
I halfway expect to

How does the song go
"Nice guys finish last"
Or something like that?  

Well the last shall be first
And the first shall be last

Only a few days
Before all the food
In the fridge goes bad

Stay out of those
Lowlands
Lowlands are badlands

Just saw an Arabian man
Run across the street with a weapon
In downtown San Diego
On the news

I won't be surprised
If there is a terrorist attack
In America

If not a terrorist attack
Than an EMP attack
Or a nuclear bomb

And you think your bank account
Is secure
That you have access to that money there
You could only get probably one tenth of it
One tenth of it is what
The bank actually has

Save that floss
Hold on to every last piece
Of floss

Dentists will be shut down

Who is this guy
Just walked in

That's the lousy thing
About living here
Always some person
That you don't know

"Just dropping in"

Hope he leaves soon
Whoever he is

These people are so clueless
As to the dangerous times
They live in

They're good people
And I care about them
But they are obnoxious
Obnoxious to live with

What if all of life
Was just forgettable?
Well there were certain moments
At least

I had some friends
And I try to do what's right
And be a kind person

I spent some time
WIth fellow park dwellers

Listen to them blabbing out there
Blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah
Get out of here guy

Whoever you are
I wish you well
But I wasn't informed about you
Just stopping by

The world is not
A trustworthy place

People think
Their money will
Save them

Sorry
Think again

It will be like the old days
When what you can
Put your hands on
Is what you own

If I can just store up enough
Canned foods
To make it to
The holy city
The one that has been prepared

The one that was spoken of
In her prophetic dream

Why is life
So monotonous
And boring?

Am I Neo?
That's why the therapist
Played her little game

I was getting on
To the big sceheme
Hehehe

They don't like
Me knowing

I told her there was something missing
She said oh, "You shouldn't feel like that"
Heheheh
Because she wanted me to be
Like one of the automatons
Thought she could just
Plug me into the machine

I saw on the porch
Watched her pull up
In her car one day
She prayed to her "higher power"
Phony liar

No Christian at all
Wouldn't even say the name
Of Jesus

I want to believe her
But I don't think
She would ever sell
Her possessions
Or give up
Her stylish life

To follow Jesus

She was a great person though
Kind to me
Fairly kind

I don't know
Any women now

I'm a full time
Part time worker

Relationships
Are for the movies
That's why I'm typing
On this machine

Hoping someone will read
And like
This random
Stream of consciousness poem
Jan 2016 · 338
What's The Point?
Matt Jan 2016
Lol I'm part time
Full time

Inside my home
I created my home
It's my room

You stay out
You here

And when the homeowners die
This place will be mine

I never bought into
A 50 hr work week
To live in some apartment

So I'll stay here
Jan 2016 · 285
Lazy and Dumb
Matt Jan 2016
Have you ever known
Someone so lazy and dumb?

They did nothing
Their whole life
And called it fun

People like this
Deserve to suffer

And when they do
I won't care

They deserve it
Jan 2016 · 581
I Want A Female Friend
Matt Jan 2016
This Is It?

What?

I thought there was something
More to this life

Too much time alone

When is my female friend coming
Jan 2016 · 567
The Scissor Hold Queen
Matt Jan 2016
The scissor hold Queen
Is so mean

She wrapped her legs
Around my head

And made me scream

Oh what a dream

To be trapped
Between the thighs
Of the scissor hold queen
Jan 2016 · 311
Misery
Matt Jan 2016
It's A Miserable
Long drawn out
Painful story

My life

And I'm tired
Of being alone
Everyday

I can't seem to make the
Left side of my back
Totally even with my right

What if
I just don't like it

I think the whole
Idea of life
Is just stupid
And meaningless

What a sad person
I must be to write all this

I suppose one day
Some day soon
America will collapse

It's a world
That never cares
That never changes

You know I make about 125 dollars
A day to substitute teach

Katy Perry makes millions
To sing about *** and stuff

Do I even exist at all?

I am writing this
So I must

I got angry at God
But then I asked Jesus
For forgiveness
So everything is okay

Why do I have to have
This body

I emailed a family member
I shouldn't have done that
I'm bad at relationships

I want a woman to be mean
To get me in a scissor hold
To squeeze my head between
Her powerful legs
And make me cry

Life *****
I think I'm just a deist now
But I'm not really

Couldn't the creator have come up
WIth something better
That this place
Hahahah

The experience isn't changing

I want female friends
******!
Matt Jan 2016
I know you are out there
Somewhere
In Internet land

Maybe you enjoy poetry
Like me

Perhaps you enjoy nature too

And I want to hug you!

I want to be loved and cared for

And you are such a strong woman
And I love you
My female friend

I just want to hear
That you cherish me

I am one of the most
Loving people ever
I think

It's okay if you have
A hubby or a boyfriend

We are just friends
Who take a nap together

My female friend
One day I hope to meet you
Matt Jan 2016
Oh how terrible
I was threatened with death
Haha

I wasn't scared at all
It's life that is most terrible
And life is what I know
This experience

No one threatened me with life
And I never had a chance
To say no

I was just born
And that was it

Figure it out
I'm on my own
And that's it, haha

So death, why worry?
It's just the end
Of this ridiculous
Thing called life

And I sit typing on this IPad
Like some extension
Of this IPad

Oh Brother
Oh Brother Where Art Thou?
That was a popular movie, right?

What about
Oh, People Where
Art Though?

Apparently not in my life

You know I would be completely
Content to die alone
It would be fitting too

Having lived alone

Sitting under some tree
As nukes go off
Jan 2016 · 192
Sfsdfs
Matt Jan 2016
Sfdsfsd
Jan 2016 · 248
I Won't Leave My Home
Matt Jan 2016
They thought we would just
Up and leave

Just like that

This is our home
After all
We have lived here
For the past 17 years

I don't care what disaster comes
Or where the government tells me
To go

I'll face the end
In my own home

If I have to
I'm not scared

You can't imagine
The awkwardness
The emptiness
The pain
I have felt

I'm not afraid!

Let the terrible times come

They will come
They will come in my life

Persevere
I will persevere

On to glory
The licensed plate said
Matt Jan 2016
I watched good movies
Because I don't have any
Relationships in my life

I hardly know any people

And I'm 30

And I sat alone all day
In this f** house

And I don't know any women
Any kind and loving women

So here is to the movies

Where I can pretend
I know people

Because I don't

And I am an ISOLATED American!

Well I suppose crying
And complaining on here
Won't change a **** thing

Well if I wasn't so poor
I guess then I could go out
And try to meet a woman

Well I think I'm just about
One of the best people
That ever lived

Well not to brag
But I am

And any woman
Would be grateful
To have me as a friend

So where
Where have all the people gone?

They are on their iPhones
They are somewhere far
Somewhere far
Away from me

But I can watch a movie
And pretend I know people
Pretend I am on an adventure
With the people
In the movie

And I know it's sad
But what can I do?
What can I do!

I'm poor and I work part time

Are you isolated like me?

My social life is experienced through
An IPad

Chat rooms or movies
That is how
I interact with people
Jan 2016 · 437
Scissor Hold Queen
Matt Jan 2016
The body of
A Greek goddess

If you know what I mean

She is indeed
A scissor hold queen

She has mastered judo
Jujitsu too

Don't anger her
If you know
What's good for you

Trapped between
Those powerful thighs
Is where I long to be

Totally helpless
I obey her demand
Of "Pleasure Me!"
I do find physically powerful women to be ****.
Jan 2016 · 198
Please Don't Bomb Us
Matt Jan 2016
All was quiet
All was calm

And then our enemy
Dropped the bomb

A nuke perhaps
Or maybe an EMP

Life will change
For you and me
Jan 2016 · 300
The Absurd
Matt Jan 2016
A hunger
An affection
A nostalgia for unity

Camu says

Where do you exist?
You exist in the world

The world is irrational

Ultimately
You don't control
Time, Space, or Causality

Other living beings and
Their motives, actions

And you are going to
Make sense of all that?

Divorce between
The human being
And the world

The absurd depends
As much on man
As on the world

Absurdity
Is the confrontation
Between the irrational
And the yearning
For clarity
Within the human heart
Jan 2016 · 484
Thanks
Matt Jan 2016
I am happy
When people like
My poems

When people
Comment on my poems
If there is a criticism
That's okay too

Such kind people here
What we write here is important

I send my good wishes
To the writers here

In an ideal world
I would invite you
To my living room

To share the warmth
Of the fire

And offer you a glass
Of warm tea

Or hot chocolate Ovaltine
Jan 2016 · 224
I Dream Of A Female Friend
Matt Jan 2016
"Lonely_Christian

Do you have a mic?
Then we could both chat"

Said in a loving and kind
Female voice

I don't I thought
And I said that I didn't
In the chatroom

And she left

I was close
If only my mic
Could hook up
To my ipad

That beautiful voice
She is out there
Somewhere

What a kind lady

I am a young American
I do not know
Any women

I spent my time alone
Reading books

I dream of a female friend

I dream of a female friend

I dream of a loving friendship

Of hugs

And smoothies

Of loving each other

But not too deep

Of sleeping with each other

But not having ***

I'm kind and romantic

Hehe
Jan 2016 · 540
My American Saturday
Matt Jan 2016
I got my haircut
By the same women
I have been going to

For the last 10 years

And at this barber shop
A woman in her 60's

Helped her father
In his 80's or 90's

Get his haircut

And the young man opened the door
For them

And there was the father
With his young children there

And I saw
The farmer's market
At the park

And people exercising
Young and old

And I thought
Overall
We are a pretty good people

And I thought how grateful
I was to have food
And shelter

And I considered
A day when
This would all be gone

It's no guarantee
What we have now

Well
At least I appreciated it
While everything
Was so easy
In America
Jan 2016 · 366
Online Hugs
Matt Jan 2016
To the women
Of hello poetry

I send out
A cry
And a plea

Please hug me

You are so creative
And supportive too

It's just amazing
What your online hugs
Can do

I send my love to you
Jan 2016 · 299
Park Dweller
Matt Jan 2016
If I am ever kicked out
I will simply live
As an ascetic

In the park

With my yoga mat

Eating the food here

I waved to my friend
The park dweller once
And he waved to me
Jan 2016 · 181
Can't Answer My Questions
Matt Jan 2016
I never bought into
A 40 hour a week
Work week

Who cares
I'm not going

To play the game

Rather sit on the sidelines
And do nothing

And why should I?

I do as I please
I enjoy time alone
I am a moral
And loving person

You can't make
Me do anything

People say "Why"
"Why am I this way?"

I say, "Why not?"

You have no answers
They have no answers
To my questions

I will do the minimum here

And I do not care
How much money you have

I almost got hit coming out
Of my driveway
The window was fogged

I thought it was clear
A car passed right by me
After I had made a loop

And turned down the street
I suppose I could have
Been seriously injured

I will smile
Do not make demands
Or threaten me

I spent the day at the park
From 1 to 3

I stood outside
Taking a ***

When the parents die
It will be just like
A stranger dying
I won't shed a tear
Haha
Jan 2016 · 216
Happy to Be Poor
Matt Jan 2016
I don't care
Much about money

I do as I please

One day
The economy
Will collapse

I watch a man repeat
The same actions
Over and over

Like a hamster
On a wheel

It's the money
They love
Most of all

Money is the root
Of all evil

They hate me
Because I'm poor

They would hate Jesus too

If He lived now
And asked him to
Give up his possessions
And follow HIm

He would get
Some response
Like
"Time Is Money"
Jan 2016 · 327
Thoughts
Matt Jan 2016
I never cared
Much for this life

The lonely intellectual

I remember how beautiful
She was

And how she seemed to care

She probably didn't care
Too much at all
Just lies and a big act

Perhaps she is no Christian
At all

Just an atheist or
A "spiritual person"

Never got a Christmas card

Her husband wears
Those Obey shirts
That have the heads
Of Giants on them
The children of the Nephilim

Does she know about that

You and your Starbucks
And Disneyland
You love Disneyland

Home of the
Illuminati
And every kind of
Wickedness

Should have been
Reason enough
Not to trust you

Maybe you think you are better
Than me

With your Master's degree

You left
Only gave me
A week or two notice

I enjoyed your company
Do you have any idea

How much time
I spend alone

No
And you don't care

Nobody cares

I build the tower high
I don't let anyone in

High walls
To keep me
From the people
Who are full of sin

Lord Jesus have mercy
On my soul

I will remain chaste
Until I grown old

Even Augustine
Enjoyed the pleasures
Of the flesh

But I have not penetrated

Who would have guessed

Man is full of pride
And his wicked secrets
He will try to hide

I am alone on this day
Trust no one
That is my way

The night it turns
Into the day

I do now know
What to write or say

America has debt
It can never pay

Maybe World Wor III
Is on its way

We strive, we struggle
We cry we fight

Do not go quietly into
That good night

No one to comfort me
No one to care

I write alone
On this **** chair

I believe in love
This love
I try to show

But I have no one
To give it to
You know?

All the people
Have gone away
And so I sit alone today

I do not want
A full time career

Sitting underneath trees

Do you find it queer?

The character
In this show
Says you have to
Decide who to trust

I'll trust in my savior
It is a must

When we are done
With life this game

Not everyone
Will be treated all
The same

I love the times
I love the view
It seems sometimes
There is nothing new

Just one night spent
To hold someone

I suppose it would
Be fun

Who knows in the morning
They may decide to leave

Tell you they don't want
To hug again
They will not grieve

It's just their will
To do as they please

That one night
Of hugging
Was just a tease

And so I hold
My pillow tight
Thankful I am alone
As I turn out the light

People will hurt you
But that is okay

I learn to ignore them
And love myself
Everyday
Jan 2016 · 281
No Reason To Trust
Matt Jan 2016
No reason to trust

This person
Could be a gnostic

Or a mason
Or a pagan

I wish my therapist
Hadn't left

I trusted her to stay
I understand why
She had to go

Still
Was nice to
Meet with her
Each week

Oh well
Jan 2016 · 173
Zero Theorem33w
Jan 2016 · 328
Just A Brain
Matt Jan 2016
Just A Brain
Floating In space

And isn't it all the same...

This time next year
The temperature
Will be the same

Perhaps our economy
Will collapse soon

The money in the
Bank accounts
Just digits
On a computer screen

All one big game
I suppose

And nobody cares

They store the food
In the underground bunkers
For the wealthy elites

And who knows
What will be
Our country's ruin

I saw my reflection
A reflection of my reflection

Sitting at the gym
On a mat
A mirror in front
About 10 yards away

And a mirror directly behind

So I saw my head
And three heads
Behind that

Fairly wealthy
Or poor
Human beings
Starve the same way

When the food is all gone

I made an improvement
With my akward body

Still not what I would like

But that's okay
I suppose

I do not want
A place of my own

I do not care

My therapist
Shouldn't have had
A baby

That child is likely
To grow up
In one of the worst times

In the history of our country

I enjoy sitting in parks

Sitting on yoga mats in parks

When everything goes wrong

I won't care or panic

I'll just go hike a mountain
Way high up

Away from everyone

I wonder
Will I meet someone there

A friend?

A caring woman
That I dreamed about
For my whole life?

Probably not

Oh well

I'll have the view
And my granola bars

And my podcasts

You left me Liz
You were a caring woman

Because you left
I am going to do what
I please

For the rest of my life

You didn't send me a card
For Christmas

Not that I thought you would

Just would have been nice

You probably just halfway cared

Just pretended to care

I like to be alone

Alone with my podcasts

When World War III comes

I won't be surprised

I won't be surprised

When man destroys himself
And his environment
Jan 2016 · 203
The Day The Dollar Died
Matt Jan 2016
People will think
They are better
Than you

If they have more money

I will laugh
When the day comes

When the dollar
Is worthless

It won't matter then
How many of those
Worthless
Paper bills you have
Jan 2016 · 360
Poor
Matt Jan 2016
I graduated college
In the year 2008

I have $2.88
In my checking account

I like youtube documentaries
And fresh fruits

I spend many hours
At the gym

I used to see a therapist
But she left me

I see my three friends
A few times a year

I refuse to work
A 40 hour work week

I know one day
The markets will
Be out of food

One day life will become
Terrible

I am a human being
I was born to suffer
Pointlessly

I talk to women
In an adult chat room

And pleasure myself
While they pleasure themselves
On their chaturbate cams

I enjoy Ovaltine

I would play golf
But I can't afford it

Everything costs money
And I don't have any

Jesus was poor
I'm poor too

Middle class Americans
Love money

I don't care
About money
Jan 2016 · 856
Morning Thoughts
Matt Jan 2016
Listening to
A Youtube series
On the history of China

Starts in Imperial China
During the days of the warlords

China looked to Russia
To help them drive out
The warlords

And in exchange
Chinese communists would
Be accepted

The nationalists
And Communists
Worked together
To overthrow the warlords

I had a bowl of oatmeal
Small oranges
And Trader Joes
Honey Nut O's

I don't work that much
I'm poor

And happy to be that way

No plans to
Move out
Or to pay rent

I'm going to do
Exactly as I please

If they try to kick me out
I will stay at the park

I have a house key
But they would never
Do that

Because I help out
Too much here

Besides these people
Will need my help
In their old age

I like to study China
And Russia

I figure one
Or both of these countries
Will attack America
One day

Fun to learn about them

I live near the mountains
I like the mountains

A day with my friends
I had recently

It reminded me how much
I miss them

And how much time
I spend alone

I enjoy podcasts
And documentaries

I've never had ***

I dream about
Beautiful caring women

Their hair adorned
With Lilacs
And daffodils

Their sweet scented
Honeysuckle
Jan 2016 · 256
Adasd
Matt Jan 2016
Adsadas
Jan 2016 · 210
Making Sure He's Gone
Matt Jan 2016
Showed up
To dad's funeral
And here is what
I said,

"I'm just here to make sure
He's dead"
I was in a bad mood when I wrote this.  I try not to keep anger in my heart.  I try my best, but people make it difficult.
Jan 2016 · 220
Go Away
Matt Jan 2016
I don't care
What you are
Making for dinner

Or what you shot
At the golf course

In case you haven't noticed
I don't eat dinner

When you are eating

I eat later

Knock on this door
And ask if I want to eat

And I'm going to make
You feel very stupid
Jan 2016 · 246
Go Away And Stay Away
Matt Jan 2016
Go away
Go away

I do not care
If these people
Survive the day

If they die

I do not care

Life is not
At all fair

Not enough money
To move out

Shut up
Shut up
And go away

Or you may not live
To make it through
The day

If you die
I will not care

The funeral
I will not be there

I'll send a representative
To fill in for me

It's plain to see
You really bothered me

I build walls
Around myself
A thousand feet high

When terrible times come
I won't share my food
I'll let you die

Family is obnoxious
And I'm done
Life with family
Is not at all fun

I hate this place
I'll burn it down

Every last pice of wood
Will not be found

The fire was
Very hot

Nothing was left
What a great thought
Jan 2016 · 180
You Will Never Know "How"
Matt Jan 2016
You will not know
Ever know

How I am

Ask it again
And again
And again

You will not know

Won't ever know

You will not know

I do not bother
Answering pointless
Questions

Keep asking how

All you will hear
Is the silence

"F* Off
Jan 2016 · 154
Go Away
Matt Jan 2016
Knocking on my door
Just to say "Hi"

Well, "Hello"
Now, "Good bye"

17 years I've lived here
And I find it quite queer
You feel the need to say hello

Just come, and go

I do not care
Where you went
Where you need to be

Your life is meaningless
Anyone can say

Hello To you
And one day
A final good bye

I do not cry
For fake Christians
Jan 2016 · 353
A Divine Smile
Matt Jan 2016
On this day
At the restaraunt

She smiled at me
So beautifully and kindly

For an instant
A spark of the divine

Yes I do remember these times

And as we walked

An older woman
And her friend walked near

The younger woman
Was there
Her friendship so dear

I am not big
Buff or strong

I do not have
A girlfriend
Who wears thongs

It was good to see
My friends today

My love for them
Is here to stay
Jan 2016 · 229
Wasted Time
Matt Jan 2016
The movie is on
That is good enough
Reason to
Watch it again

It's a mindless
Endeavor

But let it begin

Spider-Man
Came out in 2002
Watch it once or twice

But more than that
Maybe not so good for you

A sad life indeed
Do not waste your day in front
Of the television like my mom

Take heed
Jan 2016 · 641
2016 Poem
Matt Jan 2016
Happy New Year
2016
It is January

And I know what
That means

Save the money
For my car registration
Coming due soon

I bet I still
Will be single
By the month of June

Here is to another year
Filled with random
Experiences

Happy New Year
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