The space you occupy makes it hard for me to breathe.
Walls closing in as you get near me.
I used to love the way you touch.
But now I feel a burning sensation even with the slightest contact.

Did I not love you enough
that you had to look somewhere else?
Did I not give you everything that I can give
that you went seeking out for more?
I wish you knew how empty I feel.
Because I selflessly gave my everything.

How do I even fix what is now broken?
Where do I even begin?
If for one moment I let my guard down,
I know I will submit.
Because I will stupidly believe your apologies.

I tried to erase all of you.
But I never realized how difficult it would be.
When I close my eyes, it's you that I see.
How all the good memories numbs me as I forget the bad ones.
As I doubt that letting you go was the best decision.

I must find the strenght to let you go.
And shield myself from your betrayal and pain.
I need to be whole again before I give my heart away to someone more deserving.

-MPS12

It hurts me to know that I can't be with you.
So here I am admiring you from a distance.
I can only imagine how your skin would feel next to mine.
And how you would whisper sweet nothings sending shivers down my spine.

Accidental grazes feels like a jolt of electricity
sending my heart to beat uncontrollably.
The familiar scent when you're near is like a drug that I can't quit.
No matter how hard I try, it's just something I can't resist.  

I pour my heart out of my chest,
hoping for you to feel what I feel.
I can't deny what I'm feeling inside.
Because It keeps me up awake at night.

The past I know, can't be undone.
But we can learn from what's been done.
If there is just a glimmer of hope and faith to forgive, then we can find out what we will become together as one.

MPS12

Dinggin ang bawat salita
mula sa puso ko mahal.
Ikaw lang ang sinisigaw
ng damdamin kung tunay.
Araw araw at gabi gabi,
isip ay hindi mapakali.
Puso'y laging kumakabog
habang ikaw ay nasa tabi.

Totoo ba talaga and nararamdaman?
Na ang pag ibig ko sa'yo ay walang hangganan.
Na sana ako'y mahalin din ng walang katapusan.
Sa paglalakbay,  kamay mo lang and lagi kong hahawakan kung saan man ang patutunguhan.

Ligaya s'akin mga mata habang ikaw ay pinagmamasdan.
Hindi kapanipaniwala na ang pagibig mo'y s'akin lamang.
Ingatan mo ang puso kong madaling masaktan.
At ang hiling, o giliw, ay mahalin ng sapat at ng lubusan.

-MPS12

Weeks have gone since I last saw you.
Your absence creates the loudest presence.
Every where I look; I see you, I feel you, and I hear you loud and clear.
I miss the way I catch your secret glances.
I miss the sound of your laughter, even with my unfunny jokes.
What happened between us?
Why did you stop coming around?
Did I do something wrong?
These are questions I keep asking myself.
Confused to why without a warning, you stepped out of my life.
I spend my sleepless nights wondering if you're okay.
Are you okay?
Because I'm not!
I wallow in my misery of missing you.
I count ever day, minute, and seconds until the day I  see you again;
from a distance and even for a brief moment.
But my heart can only take so much pain that there are times when I feel tired and numb.
Every single day that pass between us apart, the more I feel the need to give up.
Give me the closure that I need
to  move on to new beginnings.
And I will give you yours
if that is what you truly desire.
I ask that you free my longing heart from your tight embrace.
Free my pain so I can feel again.
Maybe now is not the time for us.
Maybe there are other people out there destined for us.
But one thing is for sure, you have become a great part in my life.
You've etched your name in my heart and soul.
And those are the reasons why it's hard for me to let you go.
Even in your absence, I find myself hanging on to our tomorrow.
-MPS12

It's two in the morning laying in bed
catching on sleep that is yet to come.
Thoughts of him running through my mind unrelenting.
"How did it come to this?" I ask myself.
Staying up most nights thinking of possibilities
to reach out to him.
"He has the right to know." Words that I repeat in my head endlessly.
Yet, the thought of uttering the words of affection shakes me to the core.
For fear that I will build a wall and face rejection head on.
For fear of a greater chance of losing him all together.
I often dream that we live in my world, he and I, the way I wish it should be.
But the reality of my dream is too far-fetch.
Because I would wake up alone thinking of the consequences.
I often wonder how simple life can be if only the feelings are mutual.
How seeing his face brings about a smile on my face reaching from ear to ear effortlessly without a trace of sadness.
If only I can scream out what my heart desire.
If only I can look him in the eyes and let them speak the words I've bottled up inside.
If only…
But I'm a coward you see.
I keep this gnawing feelings in secret enduring the pain it causes.
For my role as a friend is what I will remain in his eyes.
Only time can tell if our story will unfold the way I see them in my dream.
Or burn in the depth of longing desire where dreams and feelings are turned into ashes only to be blown away by the wind.

-MPS12