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I don't want to fall in love
And I don't want you to fall in love with me
I break easy
I don't want you to hurt me
But more importantly
I'm a loose cannon
And I don't want to hurt you
When I'm mad...I take it out on other people
I don't want you to be caught in the crossfire
That's why I'm afraid to fall
I start to move on with him
He makes me laugh
Makes me happy
He makes me forget about everything

But then someone mentions your name
Brings you into a conversation
My head starts to spin
How can I move on...if you're not really gone

My brain is all about you
Only you
And when I start to forget you
You break your way back through
I’ve dated many guys
No one really stood out
I never believed in love
Yes, I had my doubts
Never had a need to be guarded
Because I’ve never really been broken hearted

Then he walked into my life
No danced into it
His eyes lit up the entire room
And out of everyone
His eyes drifted to mine

It wasn’t even official
He didn’t ask me out
But we never ran out of things to talk about
My dreams for the future
What happened in the past
He listened to all of it
And didn’t judge or laugh

When it became official
I was already in love
Spent most of my time with him
There was never a dull moment
I gave everything to him

There was no hesitance
I fell right away
And just as fast
It was all taken away

One mistake
One stupid remark
One fight
One broken heart

Then he was gone
I can’t even say that my heart is broken
Because you see, he took it with him
He never gave it back

He may have smashed it with a hammer
Because I always feel sharp pains
All I know is there is now an empty space
And no pieces remain

Except for maybe one
That will help me learn to love once more
To help me find a man
That will make me once again feel whole
Me
I've been called ugly
I've been told I don't fit the perfect mold
I'm too short
My hair is too thin
My stomach sticks out too much
As I look into the mirror, I see that all of this is true
But I also see many things that are beautiful too
My eyes
My nose
My clothes
These things are all perfect to me
And you know what?
I wouldn't change a thing
When you need help I'm always there
Car troubles
Boyfriend troubles
Whenever you need a friend
A shoulder to cry on
I'm there for you

But when I need you, you always say you're busy
You're never there for me
I need you...
But you don't need me right now
Therefore
At this moment
I am nothing
We were both wearing purple
Such a beautiful color
It made your eyes pop
And you said it made my eyes sparkle
You said you loved me
Repeatedly
And I loved you too
I wanted to kiss you but I knew that I couldn't
So instead I held you until the music ended
Then you kept leaving me to dance with your friends
And I said something that I would soon regret
On our way home we said some things
Or rather, yelled some things
And that was our last dance
And my last chance to hold you
I let my guard down
That's when you swooped in
I wore a huge frown
And somehow you turned it into a grin
I don't know how you did it
Not sure how it all happened
All I know is that it's all gone now

My trust is gone
Depression moved in
I look like a huge clown who can't even paint on a grin
It all happened so fast
You started to talk behind my back
I don't know what to do
I hope this is over soon!

And I don't know who to trust anymore
If you don't love me walk right out the door
You always make fun of me then say you're joking
You call me stupid
I don't think that's funny
I thought you were my friend
Will someone tell me where the misery ends?

Now I need help building my walls
To save myself from another fall
To protect my heart
And keep me from losing it all
I'm building my walls
I won't let them fall
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