You Give Me Life
Never in my life did I think I would ever meet someone as beautiful, loving, and brilliant.

You keep me focus.. Making me feel like I can accomplish all things.

The way you look at me, as if I can see my own reflection bounce off your deep gazing eyes.

You're the missing piece to my puzzle..

You spark fireworks in my mind every time you speak.. Giving me sensations of excellence.

You give me new life every time you smile..

Making me wanna penetrate every part of your mind. Hoping I can join your brilliance. Giving you injections of sublime mentalism. Getting lost in the canvas of pure beauty as I stroke my brush in the gardens of your fountain....

I have found new life..

I never thought life could be this free.
I have my beautiful girlfriend. . Soon to be fiance... and my precious daughter T¡nA.

Who would have thought my steps of growth would leave me here.. but I'm here.

First off, let me tell you about my travels momma.

I finally went back to school and earned my college degree. I know, it took me long enough. You know how you kept telling me to earn my degree with honors.... well I'm at the top of my class!!!

I know right. I finally put full motivation and focus towards my studies for once, instead of the wrong things.

I no longer care what my friends think momma, they clown me for the way I dress and speak constantly, but I can tell they're proud of me.

Oh, and I got the job !!! He gave me the senior tech position right on the spot. Oh and the prez of the headquarters is black .. don't use emojis when you reply back ma..  you overuse them all the time lol.

He told me I was exactly what he was look for. I "fit the mold of excellence!".......
OK, he didn't say that lol. He did say something like that, but the words/Grammer he uses is crazy. Crazy in a good way though.  But anyway, I love you mom, you continue to motivate and inspire me beyond measure. I will make you proud.

Now my beautiful wife..
I mean fiance....
Well gf, for now lol.
I finally took your advice. I'm actually chasing my dreams leah.
Using my brain for good, for once.
I owe you my life best friend. I owe everything to you.
You are light and blessing personified.
Because of you, I knew I had to buckle down and work my a^^ off... (thought you was catch me cursing huh ? No swear jar for me luv).
But, all seriousness. I got the job baby! I already told mom about it, well kinda..
That's not the biggest news though..
On my way home, I bought something.
Something that could change our lives forever.

Dear T¡Na, you are and will always be my greatest creation.

I won't be there on your next birthday. I'm going away for some time. On this new journey I will be away from you, grandma, & mommy.

It's not by choice, but I did try my hardest to avoid the light. Tears are covering my eyes as write this to you.

I won't be able to wipe your eyes when you cry, I won't be able to dance with you at daddy dance and you won't be able to hear my screams when they call your name for graduation.
As you walk across the stage. I will not be there ... physically

But I will be there.
I am in the afterlife.
I will not go to the light until I see that you don't need me every step of the way.

I know you're wondering what happened.
The person that took my life thought I was someone else.
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time my love.
I should have just went home. I'm sorry.
I know, don't cry baby.

This life that I'm choosing now is the in between, but whenever any of you need me just call my name.  

And I'll be there.
I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill our dreams.

I just wish you could read this letter.

What is love? Is love a feeling or just something you say.. Is love just ****** or sensual ? Is love the way you see someone, like a twinkle in their eye when you see each other or the warmth in your heart when you hug. How do you know when you find love? How do you know when someone loves you? And if so, is it true... Love is more than just a saying of "I love you." It is passion and care, devotion and good and bad emotions. Love is and will always be the key to anyone's heart.

This girl man.. Something amazing..

Her beauty was mind boggling..
A smile that could grasp the attention of every man or woman in the room..

Whether it was envy from woman or the lustful temptation from men, she always had eyes on her..

She had gazing eyes that struct you, making you fall in love at sight.. Trapping you in an everlasting heart throb..

A body of a goddess.. Luscious cocoa butter skin with thick voluptuous thighs..  The true meaning of Mona Lisa ..

As we grew closer to each other, I begin to notice something different about this woman..  Although she was astounding on the outside....  she damaged on the inside...

A beautiful sculpture across the room.. But you dont notice until you get too close that she is damaged..

The party girl.. Taking shots back to back like she was doing backstrokes.. Careless, no ambition.. Living life on the edge..

She says "I must advise you, I am stamped with an invisible warning.. Will not commit.. Despite my best efforts, I'm beginning to feel some small cracks in my faux finish."

Unattached, free as a bird.. Doesn't depend on nobody, & no one depends on her..she doesn't have peace of mind.

She was Untamed beauty..