Never again
without your breath
to infuse your love
into everything left
I gave so much
that belonged to you
Anything I could do
to just get through
I was starving
without your touch
Hardened
by hurting too much
Too young to to know
what I really had
in a Goddess that gave
to everything we made

Finally, you're mine
and you'll always be
until the end of time
I'll keep you with me

Even when my breath fades,
my love will evolve to another shade
Drifting & searching
through sunsets and dawns
to lie within your eternal arms

022514 ~ 11a

Longing for you
in the late mornings
Trapped in formality
behind Formica and a paycheck

I just want you
within my arms
when I want you

I don't wanna wait
when the desire comes
to kiss your face
and hold you tight
to spend the day
pretending it's night

No other arms
will ever feel right

031214 ~ 7.05a

My heart eternally raptured
by the suns setting in your eyes
the darkness that is our love
enveloping our painful lives
A midnight dance
serenaded by crickets
the soft glow of the filtered moon
lighting the ceiling of our
****** ballroom
Like the beast to his beauty
I spin you around in broken cadence
My arm around your waist will never release
lost within our poetic conveyance

031914~11.08a

My heart weighs so heavy
pulling my neck to the ground
struggling to breathe
too cloudy to see
All I need
is to just lie down
Wanting to puke these feelings out
wanting to live without the doubt
of when I'll offend and when you'll shout
(by that I mean speaking hard & loud)
It's so odd that I'm to blame
for wanting to act and be treated the same

Either I'm ******* crazy
and losing my mind
or this is emotional abuse.

093014 ~ 12.49p

I love being naked
walking around free in my home,
shuttered
from the world and their judgements
their raised eyebrows and side glances

I love being naked
because it feels like my heart
although my heart bleeds
like a motorcycle wreck
A long red line down the highway
leading to what's left

I love being naked
because there's nothing left to hide
It's me, in all my glory,
forcing myself to accept who I am
who I've been and who I might become

I love being naked
but I'm having a hard time
keeping my heart in a safe place
It keeps falling out
Like us
Getting pieces of asphalt and glass and grime
lodged in tiny bleeding cavities
screaming
over every little move made

I love being naked
but I look insane wearing nothing but tears

I love being naked
but I don't feel safe
when you're holding blades
in your eyes and lips

I love being naked
I have so many scars to bare
You can see them across my chest
down my arms
even in my eyes and in the corners of my mouth
Most are real; All are emotional

I love being naked
when she is naked with me
because nothing else even exists in my head
Only the drive to consume and resume
what we've always hungered for
But now there's so much shame
So much blame
So much negativity and cold rain

I love being naked
but I have to learn to protect myself.

I love being naked
because my voice has nowhere to hide
No bandana to pull up, no hood to pull down
Just free to be myself with me
No shame, no blame
No ******* confusing games
Just life -- no hype
Just a naked guy.

021915 ~ 6.55a