Lye - Hello Poetry

Lye May 2019

I’ve been in darkness for so long
Holding a tiny, lit candle
A tiny glimmer of hope
I’m terrified that one day it will
f l i c k e r o u t
And I will be in total blackness
I want to walk out
Into light
Into beauty
Into a happier life
And farther away from this darkness
Leave it behind
But...

I don’t know which direction to go...

It’s flickering.

I need to get out because my candle is burning out....

May 2019

Stained Glass

Anger.

A saint was asked,
"What is anger?"

He gave a beautiful answer,
"It is punishment that we give ourself, for someone else's mistake."

Lye May 2019

A Change

I just changed my name on HP
From the alias of “ArrowBird”
To my name, Lilah
And I’ve also altered my bio
Because I want to be fully me
On this cite
And I want to stop hiding
Behind the facade of
“I’m always staring off in space”
And though that is true,
I want to show more of
Me
Whoever that may be...
Well,
I hope you appreciate my choices
And enjoy knowing a bit more
About me
Have a great weekend!

Lye May 2019

What Happiness is to Me

Riding home
On the bus
People talking
Laughing
I want to be alone
Earbuds in
Left
Then right

Play

A melody floods my senses
Drowning
In beauty
Close my eyes
I feel peaceful
I feel happy
I feel safe
My body is numb
I am free in the music
Flowing across the strummed notes

This music is my whole world.

Nothing can hurt me if I don’t see it
Nothing can hurt me now
Nothing can hurt me
Nothing will hurt
Nothing

This,
Is pure happiness

From when I was sitting on the bus listening to “Bloom” by The Paper Kites. Beautiful song. I hope my poem captures the feeling of this song that I am trying to convey.

Lye May 2019

Unreasonable

I’m terrified
Of
Rejection
Even when
No one
Is
Rejecting me

Inspired by “echoes in the wind” by ap.

Lye May 2019

Are You Real?

I am the only person
That I am completely sure is real

Because I have never been shown real proof that other people are really real people, I am the only person I can be sure is real. The thought is pretty lonely.

Lye May 2019

Shy But Feisty

I’m horrible at starting conversations
Because I hate talking
About myself
Because I feel selfish
And I’m just overall awkward
And don’t know what to say
I’m shy
And I love it when
People start conversation for me
Because then it makes it easier for me
To get into it
I wish I was more outgoing
I wish I was more talkative
With people I don’t know that well
I wish I wasn’t as socially awkward
But I am
It’s just me
There’s nothing I can do
Or want
To change
And if you don’t enjoy being around me,
You don’t need to pretend
To be my friend
I’m fine
I have a group
Of really good friends
That I know have my back

So don’t **** with me

I like to think of myself as shy to the outside world and feisty with my really close friends and family. It’s like a secret that you only get to see when you prove that you have my back.