Today is your day to fly
Up to the heavens

Because yesterday
Was your day to die

Sitting in my room
Tears streaking down my blotchy face
Packing everything connected to you
Everything that you’ve touched
Into a box
Though, that’s everything
You’ve touched my skin
My face
But most of all,
You’ve touched my heart

Can’t really pack that away in a box, can I?

The only thing
Worse

Then you leaving
Me

Is seeing you
Look at me

With such hatred
In your eyes

Unable to see me for so long
Because of how much
I disappointed you

I just found out
That as of Tuesday,
My dad will be back in my life
We have a schedule planned out
1 month to get reacquainted,
And then into a new routine
I’m nervous
To see him after so long
After only ever thinking about
Seeing him again
But also
I’m excited
For him to be back in my life again
And I’m worried
That I’m going to cry
When I see him
At the restaurant
And make a fool of myself
But really,
All I care about
Is seeing my dad again

-you're starting to exist more in my writings than in my reality