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At times, these thoughts become not mine
It is all kind of stuffs of anger, unsatisfied feeling, sadness and excuses
That made simple thing
Way complicated
Far deviated
But though I knew
It consumed my own voice, my very word
Made my language die

Being happy is grand
A poor me can't afford that
Still the heart has its right
To feel whatever there
So when happiness is given
True it won't be long
So appreciate the moment
Before it'll forever gone

No love is definite cause love is infinite
Not worthy of love you say easily
Not knowing the love God bless you with endlessly
With His mercy, His care, His gentleness
You spoke such words when you don't even know how love is
Love is not a thing of possession
It is a smile of a mother to her child
Laughters with your friends
When your mistakes are forgiven
When you're in need of help, someone gives a hand
Love is... The silence people choose instead of getting mad
So the relationship is not shaken by mere anger
Love is... When you do kindness in secret
not for the feast of the eyes
Love is... Not limited to romantic affection
It is even the smallest gesture
With the sincere feeling in their heart
To show you
Or to act to themselves
This is what we are
A family
Friends
Partners
Lovers
Creatures

I surrender to You in both fear and hope
But fear dominates more
That my hope is fading away
I'm scared to live as much as dying
I feel guilt in happiness
And sometimes I tremble upon joy
I'm jealous of others smile
Though I knew they had their pain too
I feel the worst of myself
I ashamed.... I'm not good nor enough

O happiness
where else do you know it reside?
It is there in the past of your present
And could it be the last

I put all my hopes up before the morning
And I woke up still dreaming
It's possible, it's possible
I chanted
But the the spell wore out
Everything cracks and crumbles
What's left is a wet wound
Dripping blood stains my road back home
What should I do? What would this be?
I stare beyond the stars into the wonder
There is nothing left in my power

Even a messy paint can be an art
When the value shines over its colour
Even in the worst we can make a new start
When you put your hope as a humble believer

All the pieces inside me is screaming
They cry for something...
I'll take forever to give

I hoped he wouldn't notice
If not, it'll be a shame
Had he knew I loss focus
When I turn at him upon hearing his name
Had he knew I froze from awkwardness
When my eyes accidentally got up to his
We are definitely nothing
And I **** all my hopes and expectations
There's not a thing left so please
Stay in the different frame
For at least
I can just look and admire
Just this far and not nearer

Everyone can be bad
Everyone can be kind
It's only them who choose which
And only they know why

Age and year
Are passing through me
Changing my phases of life
And blend me into reality
Still sometimes, it'd get me isolated
From the road I walk
From the noises around
From the busyness of town
Sometimes I gaze upon the far azure color
An earthly creature
Wondering on the divine
Isn't here I born?
Why did this heart long for the sky?

Him...
that put sorrow in his eyes
Make it sparkle a bit like glass marble
Heavy eye lids, and wet lashes
His pupils turn deep black
And I was immersed inside
I felt as if we are
At the end of rain where sun slowly
peaking over grey clouds
Those last tiny sprinkles
Refract a faint colourful arch
Our breaths are still misty
Yet we are gradually warmed

I know very well how happy it is
when getting something
But nothing here is ours to own
I end up being afraid of 'having'
Cause at some point of time
It will be taken back from me
As it has never been mine

Standing out of circle
It's the place that I once thought
Would accept me
But now it seems like they don't want to
I hoped here I could reside and be
Alas, no they say. Oh what should I do?
In the end,
I will be left
in the land that makes poetry inside me

My clumsy self...
What have you done?
Look at those regrets, all you had made
See how I unable to bear
The weep of the eyes
and pain of the fear

My poor heart...
What had happened?
It's so empty inside
and your light darkened
What had you put in there
that seemed to be taken

If ever time could turn back again
Would I not make the same mistake?
Walking through different lane
Could've this heart of mine not ache?

Sky is gloomy
It cries and groans
There are blizzard and storm
Showing to the whole world
its pain and sorrow
The earth wets with its tears
Even the sky...
Let go of what for it too much to endure

Success is not final
Failure is not fatal

Rise from where life trampled you over
Defeat, first, not the enemy but your own fear

Step on the hard ground
Be where you're bound
Where else would you be living
And what's more can you do
Other than in this world where your life is given
And here is where your life is taken back too

I feel that our time had paused
On the moment  we bid farewell
Then we live apart by far distance
And long duration
As the time flies
And the world is turning
Suddenly we reunite
Though in my memory you're still a friend of mine
But you who I meet now
Is a stranger of future

Behold the golden cracks of the dusk clouds
As the sun's falling below the horizon line
And the dark paint of night brushes across the sky
Its layer gets deeper
Until everything turns into a pure blankness
Ought to seek for the moon and stars
All of those that beam
Cause this entity of pitch black wideness
Is beyond my capability to handle
That my eyes alone could not hold its far

When the weight of your own soul feels like too much to bear
In the darkest of night, where the stars shine brighter than ever
And each one will lead you into the dawn

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the chances are low and the demands are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When all is pressing you down a bit -
Rest if you must, but don't you quit
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint on the clouds of doubt,
And you could never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems far,
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit

Matured
Like how ripped fruits is more likely
To be picked
Society's idealism is the maturity in an individual
It has been a standard that we must reach
And is even more favoured if we exceed
However, sometimes, when we push ourselves
Beyond the line
We fall as parts that can not be mend
We pass the line that meant to be our end

Even though I see you
I feel far apart
I tried to reach you
But all I grasp is a piece of my broken heart
Is that really you
Or just my hope is too high?
Are you gone...
Or never there in front of my eyes?

A decision I made
But it is not solely mine
And the future awaits
for that route I trudge
Then, it is only the matter of time
From that base, what could it becomes?

You got to take your crown off now
Will face a life where you don't know how
You can no longer hold throne
Will set off to the land that is unknown

Look at the ray of sun
It seems like a route, golden one

Letting yourself stay only at the bare minimum
Not having yourself bear the weight of your own expectation
Giving most of you, little by little, piece by piece
After the long run, it seems like you vanish
But actually you spread all over everywhere

Reality is not the villain
But it is what we always blame
Become real is sure hard
As dream is smooth and easy
That's why the real one last longer
Than the fleeting fantasy

Whatever you had done
What you left
There's prints
It becomes your past
That you bear all along your life

Mouth is shut, let it be silence and peace
Listen to the voice that will guide us how we speak
The intonation that you imitate for that is
the basic to get the knowledge that we seek

If you come to be the reason
Then I will take the excuse
Handling whatever that could happen
For that it is a result I can't refuse

Still need to pick up this heart
Though it is covered with pain
Stick it back if it falls apart
For tomorrow, I ought to live again

Bravery
For that he has nothing to fear
Courage
That though he is afraid, he still choose to fulfil the responsibility he bear

Failure gives more to experience
That's why with it we grow resilient

It's one
And never be two
You never know
It's you
You’re the first and the last who come
To me

It's one
And there is none after
It's always you
Not others
You’re the first and the last would be
For me

When you silent to agree or argue
When you work but keep fail
When you stand just to fall
When you live but not alive

Zeal burns like the fire
Then it becomes sparks that floating in the air
I think I can win with my great desire
However it loses against despair

Reality hits with " do you really think you can run away in the fleeting moment?"
At least, I escaped even for only a second

She ask, " How does it feels to run for a living?"
"Well... It is a breathless feeling"
Then, his explanation continue...
"When you run, you don't actually care about things behind...
The only thing that matter is what's right in front of you...
Normally, it would be the finishing line
But today, it is you."
She thought his world is all fine
Yet those words he utters give her the clue
The worlds of these two start to align

Wishing for somebody who can accept me at my worst
Know I am not perfect but I hope you see worth