Wake me up from this dream
telling me that all it has been was some crazy dream
with loads of b.s that has never even happened
so that when I get up, I can correct the mistakes I made in my nightmare.

Happy Birthday
I sing with noone in front of me
noone beside me and
noone behind me

A stupid cake with silly candles that represent 20
and happy birthday with no name scribbled in blue icing
sit on the table before me, along with my favorite ice cream
Your favorite ice cream.

I remember because we used to play 21 questions
asking each other nothing of importance
assuming we'd be friends forever
as if somehow our friendship would be preserved forever and ever

I smile as I remember each fond moment with you
as I blow out each candle one by one, in remembering you
the stupid things we said and would do
and the stupid way life tore me apart from you

As I get to the last candle I can only imagine where life would take you
and I hope it takes you farther than what I dreamed you would do
I am happy for you, dont you see?
so please ignore the tissues in the floor beneath me

I do not know why I decided to be such a girl this time
when I do this sortof thing every year to remind me of a time
where me and you could've been an item
but now we are lost and out of time.

Forgetting you had not been an easy task,yet i tried desperately to forget

          Warmth of you fingertips, and of your body and breath i felt warmth

         Nothing like the chilling cold that has ***** my bedroom, so i try to think of nothing

I want you beside me but the thought brings a tear to my eye

Alas i threw out all memories of you, i am free from you alas

Calling for you still is my heart, you have it your grasp,calling.

The mind and soul will not permit me to be anything less
Of being nice,nor will will it let me become a pessimist
Optimistic as they come and  smiling when others have done me wrong, holding out hand

Now take it, grab on. because I cannot bare the thought of someone not holding on
Initially, people will only offer twice and then walk away. but I am stubborn
Caring too much will be my downfall
Eventually, this will be my grave's call

people gathered round,
when gunshots fire in the air
it is new year's day

She is sitting in a corner crying
huddled with her legs close to her chest
face covered from the nose to mouth
slowly dying

she stares at me with her eyes red and watering
never removing the mask she has made for herself
tears stream from her face, like rain pouring

I tried to tell her it'd be okay but she turned and hid  from me
I tried to tell her to be strong but she never stopped whimpering

I even told her about my bad times and how i overcame them
but it seems shes not listening
i tried to give her a hug but then i started disappearing