shadowy figures flowing forth from mirrors,
and not a hope or light to slow them,
while heads with features undefined,
attempt to grasp my shattered mind,
and searching through the depths of knowing;
speed the grip that holds me growing;
my self so wanting is controlling,
i seem to be a beacon glowing,
a signal light so ever loathing,
and they get closer, never showing;
feeling crawlings always knowing
as new things exist forthgoing.
darkness brooding never slowing

Have you ever written about love
until your eyelids were heavy
and tears drip dropped
from your eyes,
when clearly you knew
you had awakened the beast
that lies inside you,
deep and wide.

This is when I hear the world begin
to count the ways
it can swing
against my pride.  
When I want to hear you say
I am beautiful
wipe away
the tears I cry.

I could proclaim that roses
slide over all of my shadows
and hold me close
until I no longer want
to be anywhere else.  
Say farewell
to these lines I write,
put them on a shelf.

Yet still, I write of the love I know,
day by day, on paper
until the ink of my soul
becomes a gentle scent
which fades into each page.
Again I wake the beast
inside of my heart's cage.

you can wear your heart on your sleeve
and carry the world on your back

your arms bare the weight of maybe skulls and chains
and honor life and remember the souls

you can dance with the dragons
that surround you

you endure the burn
and outlast the time

the trickle of blood and ink
is just the price to pay

and the reward...

Between going and staying the day wavers,
in love with its own transparency.

The circular afternoon is now a bay
where the world in stillness rocks.

All is visible and all elusive,
all is near and can't be touched.

Paper, book, pencil, glass,
rest in the shade of their names.

Time throbbing in my temples repeats
the same unchanging syllable of blood.

The light turns the indifferent wall
into a ghostly theater of reflections.

I find myself in the middle of an eye,
watching myself in its blank stare.

The moment scatters. Motionless,
I stay and go: I am a pause.

Frozen by the look in your eyes, I shiver
and then I melt.
Your touch revives my skin, lights up my soul, and shakes my heart.
The world and all that it holds is moving around us,
but I hear nothing.

We are rooted in ice, surrounded by glaciers:
they shift and they change, yet stay frigid and sharp.

Then, you breathe out, and I breathe you in;
your devotion could dissolve even the heaviest of frost.
When the earth thaws from the fire we set,
I will still be standing there with you - frozen, but ignited.
We are the ice that will never melt;
We are the flame that cannot be extinguished.

Hush , freaze, pause, breath,
Hold onto what it really means,
Even if it means it’s changed,
Even if it’s changed every thing.
I think if I blink I might die again.
I think if I breath it will be the end.
But my chest is so so tight
That air can't find it's way in.
Restart my brain restart my heart,
And think of it and spin
The hardest part of all of this
Is knowing how it ends.

superhero holding friendship

I admire, I spectate , I watch and learn and notes I take
On a thunderous beauty, on this breath taking sight
Quivering breath at a mountains height
Those close around I fear they might drown
Terrified of what’s making change
Terror stricken, I flip through pages
that would never be re-written, never changed

I’m waiting for struggle, for flailing arm
for loneliness , peoples pulling up guards
Fences that we build and view as our shields
Just a horrible thing ,that wont let me in
Misunderstanding transforming
Now it’s a black mask of confusion, dooming

I panic at thought spinning around
Head is to full ,I feel for the ground
Darkness threatening my light life
I gasp for friendship and understanding
Then you flew in with a quiet landing
Tiptoeing around you lift me off the damp dirt
Wiping the darkness of my clean world

A new view of refuge, I need and needed you
Just a boy with good intention
Transformed into a superhero holding friendship.
Together walking side by side
we sort through what’s wrong and right
We plan a way to save the drowning
Climb fences and break through walls
Tear down others guards
I walk a walk , no longer alone in the dark.
I have you.thank all that is good
We stand were I stood
I love you