Not To Laugh,

Not To Lament,

Not To Judge,

But To Understand.

~Baruch Spinoza

I Am The Lonely One.
Too Scared to Make The Leap.
Too Charred And Disfigured To Near The Flaming heat.

A Lonely Place Gazing At This Flame , Knowing It Can Open The Door To A Lost Vigor For Life.

That Spirit Of Love.
Oh To Ignite The Joy, That Love Of Life
To Make That Vault  into This Beautiful Flame
To Once Again Revel In The joy Of Love.

I'm The Lonely One
On The Sideline, Indecision Plaguing My Mind.
Disunion and Cognitive Oppositions,
CURSING  My Mind.
Love Is Surely What I Desire.
Safety For Heart And Soul
Paramount, Practical Postures For A Creature So Tortured By This Flame

I Am The Lonely One
Too Scared To Leap
Too Charred And Disfigured to revel in This  Flame And Heat
I Dare Not Gaze At This Crystal Flame Lest I jump In and
Revel once more, no, no, no, Dancing With This Flame Is A Much Too Precariously Dangerous Proposition.  I will Never Be Branded again,  Emotionally ***** Again. Unfortunately For Me,  My Answer Lies Here...

I Am The Lonely One

Music Beget Joy
And
Joy Beget Love.

Revel In The Music,
While Dancing Amidst The Joy In Your Soul.

Clinching Love Most Of All
Never Consigning it to oblivion.

For Love... Is...Life.

Too many blades of grass
Can't seem to reconcile the past

The past is now and the past is then
Unsure if I'm capable of love again

Parts of me shattered here and there
Love for me is a perfect scare

Betrayals here are everywhere
Breaking my heart, tearing my spirit apart

Calling out for a safety line
Reaching grabbing nowhere to find

I pray out to God, help me in this time to fix my mind
Please dear God would you be so kind

Torn from my family 3 girls a boy and me  
.Like a branch ripped from a tree and thrown into this river misery.
Help is everywhere and help is nowhere. You call out to God but empty air. So much despair I'm losing my care. I'm walking thru life with an empty stare. The laugh you hear, that smile you see is simply not me. Only distant remnants of who I used to be, Phantom me an empty soul, Phantom me a man with no spirit or place to go. This empty vessel is drifting fast in need of rescue before another big crash

Recalling memories of a great friend,                          
                      and I wouldn't be happier to see him again.

                          This small wish will never have been,
                       for heavens spirits have called upon him.

                     So my heart sad with cheer I'll lower my chin,
               So in heaven our friendship can  begin all over again.

,

Love is here then love is gone, our love now is nowhere found
Friends are here but never stay, grumblings of a world about to fray.
I said sure go away when I should have said no baby plse plse Stay.
All I wanted was to prove my trust, and you went out to do what ****** must. Less than 5 hours from my arms you gave another your sweet charms. All my life I had waited for you, all my life my love for you. You were so wonderful and you were so true.
I was so wrong and now I'm Blue.

Summer days and lazy waves
             To Mother Nature we'd give praise
             Half full beers and friend filled days
                Soaking up those summer ways
            Too tall trees and a warm summer breeze
              Wish these moments I could freeze
                Cool wet wind as the water falls
                           Sometimes its best just to take a pause              
         So Stop
              Soak it all in and revel in your friends
               Cuz you'll never know where it all ends.