Lost Indeed

Lost Indeed Apr 15

When I'm old, I’d love to hear you sing,
To fall gently in your lap as I dream.
I would go, as long as your hand is in mine,
And I hope that you are my last sight.

When I'm old, I’d love to see our family,
Like sinking leaves in cold tea—
Their gentle laughs carries your kind eyes,
My curious soul and humor in their minds.

When I'm old, I’ll show you tricks on the porch,
The warm summer breeze lifting your hair as it soars.
I’ll write you poems until my hands grow frail,
And till I die, if you call me—I won’t fail.

Lost Indeed Apr 15

Love is to give...

I say your name on repeat like a spell,
I beg God in prayer for help.
I cry out to the universe to send you a sign,
I write in stars and constellations of mine.

In sweet fire, harsh blood, and delirious sweat,
Our futures combined—our love is set.
Even now, in your silence so cold,
I still dream of being with you when I'm old.

Maybe that is my cross to bear,
Because love is giving, and mine is theirs.
I will live forever in our gentle twilight,
I will love you kindly, profoundly, eternally...
You are worth the fight.

T

Lost Indeed Apr 15

I'm not ready but if you choose...

My biggest fear scream at my pillows loud—
That all I am won’t make her proud.
That love and heart and soul and fight
Will still fall short in her gentle light.

That she might choose, in quiet thought,
A better life where I am not....
And it breaks me just to feel
But I will never bound her to my will
I will never Control, manipulate or change what should be real.

If joy means walking far from me,
I’ll walk the flame.
I'll fade into the dark,
Quietly...
Her happiness means More than my could be—
So I’ll walk the night and set her free.

T

Lost Indeed Apr 15

Dare I

God tossed us each in weird ways,
Changed our hearts, rewrote our days.
We grew apart, but not alone—
Like roots that came from the same stone.
He rewind the winds, He bent the night,
And still, we feel each other light.

It’s wild how you always crossed my mind,
Like some old song I couldn't find.
Feels like we’re wired from the same spark,
Even when life pulls us apart.
Not chance, not luck—just something true,
Like God’s been pushing me toward you.

T

Lost Indeed Apr 15

If she knew...

I said the words in the wrong way
What my heart wanted my lips couldn't say.
She read words, but not my soul—
Now silence carves a deeper hole..

I wanted to run until she reached my sights,
Collapse into her arms as I kissed her goodnight
Apologize with aching eyes,
No need for words, no need for lies.

She is a wave I cannot flee,
A love too hungry, it swallows me.
Each breath I take, I fall again,
In bliss and blessed rain.

She is my gravity, my fate—
A black hole dressed in something great.
Love described in heaven's Gate
She is my duo, my love, my soulmate.

I love her. Fiercely. Wild and true.
And if she knew....God if she knew—
She’d see the boy behind the mess,
Just begging for one small "yes."

T

Lost Indeed Apr 15

I feel I’ve hurted you

Even though I only tried
To hold you close, not make you hide.
Now I can only hear your quiet eyes,
And in that hush, my spirit dies.

Your silence wraps me like the night,
No blame, no words — just the fading light.
But I will honor what you need,
No hurt nor chain, no selfish plead.

For love, to me, is not to cage,
But inspiration like your books page to page.
It spreads like stars before the dawn,
An endless sky to dream upon.

I’ll be the ground beneath your climb,
The clock that waits through endless time.
To wonders vast — your voice, your fire,
Deserve the world, deserve the higher.

My love is open — raw and true,
The key of my sorrow is held by you.
I give it freely, come what may,
Forever yours, to keep... to Throw Away..

T

Lost Indeed Apr 14

Til past my last day

When you're with him, you shrink and hide,
Afraid he'll catch the words you said and the tears you cried.
You walk on glass, you speak in fears,
While I would only kiss you and wipe your tears.

I offer love, not chains or pain,
A gentle love through sun and rain.
Where he brings doubt, I can only bring you peace,
A warmth that begs your soul’s release.

The universe has whispered clear and loud,
In stars and silence, through infite crowds.
So many chances, signs we missed,
But I still dream of you and when we kissed.

And now we stand where roads divide,
I can’t choose for you — though I tried.
This path is yours, and yours alone,
But know you’d never walk unknown.

For even if you walk away,
I’ll love you though my nights and days.
With hope and kindness, I will be...
A quiet fire that sets you free.

T