Im blinking away the tears as i excpect the hurt to fade with them. Im sitting on the floor legs crossed trying to understand how i can be mad at someone for being what i want them to be. I want to understand how my heart aches and longs for a soul that turns away as i shout out their name and beg. Beg for love beg for help beg for them. I want to know why its fair to get my heart broken to pieces over and over again by someone i keep handing myself to. Cause i would get my heart broken a thousand times as long it means you would never leave and i would never have to lose you
Even if having you means losing myself

My heart is mourning for your loss
Its more toture than being nailed to the cross
I hurt, I cry, I shout
I can't really live without
I need you here with me
I need you to see
That you're my light
You're my star so bright
You're my smile when I frown
My happiness when I'm down
You're the reason I hold on to my heart
Because my heart's with you, far apart
My soul longs for yours
But you're no where to be found, there are no open doors
So I sit here and ponder
I sit here and wonder
What's love without you here
What's love without you near

• A letter from the numb girl •