You should hate me just as you hate your worst enemy because that is the way I have been behaving
I'm so sorry

Here i am,
sitting on my bed, smiling like a dork.
All because of you. :)

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

I think I can
I think I should
I think I could

I think I can't
I think I shouldn't
I think I couldn't

And I did not
It was just too hard
No matter how much I told myself I could