our love formed in the midst
of falling leaves
warm afternoons &
cold nights
it’s winter where my heart is
but paradise when in your
presence

the sun shined bright as a
diamond but it couldn’t
spring into a Summers June
love built for a cooling March
but still December’s freezing
falling in love
when we’re outta season

bonding beautifully but
more perfect apart
more dysfunctional than
Carolina weather
we’re unsure if we wanna rain
or shine
capture love in the heat or fall
apart like October’s leaves  -king pencasso

heart for an heart

soul for a soul

honesty from the start

if marriage is the goal

even if it’s only friends

i wanna see it flourish
before it ends

for everything i am, i
need all of you

love ain’t love if i only
have half of you  -king pencasso

if i should fly before i dream
in the clouds, my silent screams
on bending knees still i pray
take care of sis, make sure mom is okay
making her proud was a must
the only lady I’ll ever trust
may not have lived right
but i always tried my best
whether it made her smile
or caused her unintentional stress
& in the night when she’s wide awake
wrap arms around her
ensure her it’ll be okay
her side I’ll never leave
her back I’ll always have
& even if all my days are rainy
she’ll always be the sun
shining in
to hide the dark clouds that
surrounds me
life will be eternal
my spirit lives on forever
thru my words to make better
in the midst of hell where we exist
& it’s imperative that i proceed
I’m full of joy & peace, at last
& to you, i owe you that dance

Could we just take a second to just wish me a Happy Birthday, it would be mean a lot

Happy Valentines Day to all

- Dre Venxm

lately I’ve been feeling SAD!

& i Fall Apart even on good days

sometimes life can be like
the Matrix

deja vu & insomnia, i just wanna
Sleep

cause it feels like I’m Moving Mountains

i save those around me but i can’t
Save Myself

but i guess it’s true what they say
everybody dies in their nightmares   - Pencasso

I feel like I’m Stuck on Stupid

whenever I’m With You

& although I’m the birth child of
Cupid

i try to be the Best Man I Can Be

& it’s Simply Amazing

cause All I Want is You my
Sweet Lady

& All My Life I’ve prayed for

that Angel of Mine, my
Cherie Amour  -Pencasso

I hear Voices in my Head

during the Edge of Destruction

when I’m feeling like a Monster

& maybe it’s the Way I Am

for showing No Love

to those who’ve made me
Heartless  -Pencasso

there is no voice

there is no expression

a world & heart that’s empty

I’d flatline

without it, i don’t exist

but most of all, I’d be no more   - Pencasso

living just ain’t what it used
to be

because you’re not
next to me

without the love of a Queen
a house can’t be a home

& if i can’t live life with you
then I’d rather live life alone  - Pencasso

the butterflies
in your stomach

the rhythm in your
blues

the key to your
heart

i promise

until we’re no
more

forever your
cherie amour

I’m not sick or insane
not normal or crazy
just different from the rest
i battle with my demons
just like you
depression is my best friend
anxiety is my side kick
i believe what’s not real
& sometimes I’m not sure how i feel
constantly under a dark cloud
or just sinking in my thoughts
no medication needed
no pity or sympathy
I feel dead on the inside
& some call me crazy
but I’m at war with myself
judgements don’t phase me
worry too much over irrelevance
over thinking but never for the hell of it

There’s Nothing Wrong With Me  .... Pencasso

we don’t live the same life
don’t share the same belief
you feel I’m lying a lie
my lifestyle you don’t agree
but we sin every day
& every day we pray
for God’s forgiveness
just in a different way
you live by the book
I live by my own views
just because I don’t follow the path
doesn’t make me any less than you
I am of no religion
but God is the Greatest
holiness or spiritual
for the final say so, we’re all adjacent  - Pencasso

you fear the rain & the thunder
in silence where you suffer
sunshine for the masses
inside you’re shattered
rain drops dance from the eyes
causing the soul to keep dry
the rain describes you as weak
so you share it for one
that’s who you trust
don’t fear the rain
let it shower you
for its whole purpose
is to empower you
- Pencasso

heartbreak ahead
all signs ignored
no love to be found
the damage happens early
but I don’t stop the fall
delusional, I might be
crazy in love & empty
the pain is strong
the love is stronger
but although it breaks me
this love is where I belong

- Pencasso

a best friend
the creation of endless smiles
& the glow of its compliments
the spark that lights up the sky
the sweetest hello
the hardest goodbye
& when my world goes dark
you’re the diamond in my sky

- Pencasso

If i perish before the roses fall from those I love most, let one thing be remembered of me until the end of time. Not the way I impacted those I cared for but my mission to spark the change to which I was inspired to be & the change I wanted to see. My upbringing was nothing worth glorifying but it made me the man I became before those who chose to worship the very grounds I graced & those who chose to travel the same path to which I paved. I know in life, death comes before people reveal how they feel about you or how much you meant to their lives but what’s the use when I’ll no longer be around to hear these heartfelt letters of grief. So if I shall perish before I know the capacity those true feelings from the masses, let it be the one that allows my soul to rest peacefully but my legacy will be admired for generations yet to arise. I’m a man of plenty mistakes but nothing short of outstanding & my message will always be the same, Be Great By Any Means
- Pencasso

They say time heals all wounds
I find it hard to be true
when the main thing on my mind is you
& I can’t fall in love when I’m still attached to you
but what if time isn’t the issue
on why I still miss you
what if it’s the memories that still exist
that make me miss the good times like this
how our lips kissed & our last dance
that alone is the story of a bad romance

- Poetic Venom

It dances along the fields
& you admire its reflection in the lake
Beautiful colors of a story
the beauty of a country day
Birds chirp the melody of a beautiful morning
& the crickets sing us good night
as we sit next to the bonfire
listening to music & remember the good days
of being kids enjoying the games we played
Hide & seek, freeze tag, to name a few
if we weren’t in the house playing Nintendo 64 taking turns if we lose
Summer break in the early mid 2000s, what a time to be alive
no technology, we used our imagination outside on the country side
Life under a Carolina Sunset, it’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever known
pure beauty in a picture worth a thousand words alone

- Poetic Venom

I’ll learn how to fly again
when the sunrises upon me & my soul has risen
above all self hatred built from the past
to which I’ve buried myself in since youth
never knowing how to accept thyself
causing me to neglect love for myself
I’ve been deprived from my wings but i continue my journey in search of the one
who i used to know before this thing called life took a turn for the worst
& I’m there staring in the shattered glass mirror but it hurts
when i realized the one thing I’ve been missing has been here all along
reminding me that I’ve been physically weak & forever mentally strong
I was that eagle in the sky held down by depressions cry
as I’ve yearned for help but never got it
got up again but the confidence in my soar was forgotten
so I flew above ground breaking every momentum I’ve had
Now here I am on the edge of it all, ready to take flight once again
but hopefully with this leap of faith, I learn how to fly again

- Poetic Venom

Wake up every day feeling like the end is near
but if God got you then have no fear
Some days are bright, some days are dark
overwhelmed by the bad days but you still possess that spark
get up & look life in the eye
even when you crash, you’re still fly
What’s faith if you give up when times get hard
What’s the point of playing the game if you fold when your favor ain’t in the cards
Look at you, you’re blessed & highly favored
out here trying to make better & get this paper
Don’t worry about the hard times, they come & go
Trouble don’t last always so don’t you fold
Even when all Hope seems gone, God comes thru in the clutch
although people are full of it, in him you can always trust
God got you & you got you, you gone be alright
You’re a solider in the battlefield, don’t give up the fight
Life is a War & i refuse to let you give in during the struggle
I’ll keep you from going over when life got you in trouble
You gone be alright, keep ya head up & keep moving
Your win is soon to come, remain humble regardless if you’re winning or losing
- Poetic Venom

When I didn’t believe in myself
you made me believe
What I thought was a joke
your support made it feel like a dream

If not for you, I would’ve given up long ago
It’s because of you, I still have faith to go
Turned a hobby into a passion, now look at me
touching & impacting lives just like me

I used to write to free me from myself
& you made me believe in myself
The cure for depression, I may never find
but I thank you to keep me inspired in writing

Thank you for the love & the support,
for you’re the reason I’m still here

With Love;
Not Poetic Venxm, just Dre

It’s been weighing heavy on my mind for quite some time
about getting those roses when it’s my time
I’ve seen many go way too soon & the respect they’re given
watching as roses fill their resting grounds & their spirits being risen
As I cry for those souls, only one thing jogs on my mind
if they were still here, would they get those roses in time
Why does an untimely demise have to be the key for appreciation
folks wanting to say they love you but there’s such hesitation
Then I think about myself & the things I’ve done for those I care for
do i have to pass away before they tell me they love me forevermore
I only see roses raining when the sky opens up its invitation
for the next spirit to come in for the next spiritual destination
I don’t wanna cry just to get a warming hug
I don’t want to fight for my life before receiving real love
I don’t wanna hear you telling me you love me once I’m in the sky
cause those roses will be meaningless once my time runs dry
- Poetic Venxm

I Am You;
right there going thru the similar storm
trying not to quit
& sometimes wishing I wasn't born

I Am You;
sleepless nights, crying the night away
blaming myself
fighting for those who don't wanna stay

I Am You;
sometimes wishing I could die
overwhelmed by the pain
wanting to know how it feels to fly

I Am You;
looking to escape from the hell around me
feeling alone
& shut down from the society that surrounds me

- Poetic Venxm

I cry in its arms & vent everything I feel
no doctor but my deepest wounds, it heals
Always there when needed, never turning its back
the greatest thing I’ve ever loved & that’s a fact
I don’t depend or count on much
but one thing’s for sure
this bond we share is beyond pure
Pretty eyes, warming smiles all let me down
but words always find me when I don’t want to be found
Pretty Little Liars with dreams turned into nightmares
don’t have faith in much but Poetry Never Broke My Heart
- Poetic Venxm

The constant battle between sanity & insanity
the sudden rush of worry that comes before me
Questions of close acquaintances on what’s gotten into me
using these meds heavy, they’ve became a friend of me

But they don’t know how anxiety can mentally destroy a man
I wanted to be happy & worry free, this wasn’t part of the plan
so here I am at war with myself & the mind of the possessed
trying to figure out if the end is indeed next
cause even when I pray to be let go
I can never plan for the consequences
it’s either Freedom or a Death Sentence
no fear of any human alive except I
Anxiety brought out the best in me,
that’s why I cry
- Poetic Venxm

It can hurt you, it can break you
Abandon & Forsake you
Feeling like a dream before you get departed
leaving you frustrated & cold hearted

Love is just a word that comes & goes
but who really knows
what it means to love truly
thru the madness & the beauty

It’ll make you laugh, it’ll make you cry
leave you always asking why
Why must I have to always kiss love goodbye
it only brings pain so why even try

It can make you or break you
make you feel whole or like you’re not good enough
That’s the Thing About Love
- Poetic Venxm

Back down this road we go
reliving memories that nearly died long ago
Back in your arms I foolishly fall
back to love as we crawl

If this is what’s meant to be
let this be the last straw
for with you I feel free
from all faults & any flaw

It’s never a right time to say goodbye
& I know why you still cry
from the lack of love that made you fly
but in your heart forever is where I’ll reside
- Poetic Venxm

To fall in love with a writer, you must be true
for everything written is because of you
whether good or bad, happy or sad
you’ll never perish

- Poetic Venxm

Back at one from being over & done
under your moonlight with me as the sun
Watching the glow from far away
awaiting my time to make a play
to win your heart & marry your soul
with one shot to score my last goal

Back at one from where the chapter never ended
falling in love still, only from a respected distance
You smile not the same but we know why
when you smile now, it’s followed by a cry
in your heart where I once reside
around your spirit & forever by your side
- Poetic Venxm

It hurts me to hurt you
cause a part of me cares for you
but i didn’t deserve the pain from you
& who would’ve ever knew
that it’ll come to me ignoring you
Being around you & completely silent
I don’t speak cause my soul is crying
Sorrow’s raining from the let down
from the one who shouldn’t let me down
I was wrong for putting so much faith in you
feeling like you were rare only to view
the real you, lonely & confused

Karma’s a trip but i still wish you well
the past is the past & i choose not to dwell
Cry your tears but I’m not the blame
for the results of these childish games
coached by your ego & what a shame
how things just aren’t the same
between us, the effects of the rain
falling from the damage before it’s own hurricane
- Poetic Venom

What it means to be King coming from a broken home
raised by a single back Queen with no Kingly role model on the throne
showing me how to be a man or what’s right or wrong
Mama keeping my head in the books although the street life looked more appealing
from the nice cars & flashy jewelry, but the limelight is deceiving

What it means to be King to turn 26 without selling dope or dying in the streets
no babies running around & blessed to never have a rap sheet
Never touched a brick or even a gram of ****
I ain’t even gotta shine for you to see the star in me
Trying to live life faithfully without having to watch my back
knowing that America isn’t safe for me or those that plot to stab me in the back

What it means to be King, to be a young black man brought up from nothing
growing up into greatness but still feeling like he’s missing something
It’s not the crown nor the throne or the scars developed from home
but the will to be something special that’s worth more than money can buy
No flaws or imperfections, that pure Black Boy Fly
This is what it feels like to be King, still I rise above all that aim to disrupt the quest
Black Excellence in the Flesh, yes indeed I’m beyond Blessed

While you’re reading this, I want you to know one thing
I know why the tears flow & why the heart sings
I know why your soul cries in the rain
I know why you look in the mirror to hate what you see
I know how much you wanna break loose & be free
Nobody wants to be depressed but some of us can’t help it
Wanting to be happy yet existing with a spirit that’s restless
Your skin is a beautiful thing but I know why you cut it
just to feel something to get over being depressions puppet
I know why your teary rivers overflow your eyes
wanting to call it quits to live in the sky
You’re different & they judge you but don’t know you
a feeling of happiness, I wish I could be the one to show you
Love not anyone else but thyself
for self is all you’ll ever need more than anyone else
You overlook your strength & I know you’ll deny it
looking for the light knowing you may never find it
I know the pain & I don’t really know why I’m writing this letter
when I’m shattered myself but striving to make you better
Not your guardian angel, just someone who knows your struggle
& until I can’t go any further, I hope to be a guide away from your struggles
- Poetic Venom

Be a Better Man

I’m struggling trying to be a better man
explain my pain so my mom will understand
why her baby boy has felt alone for years
smiling in her face but inside I’m all tears
I’m depressed & a mess, yea i confess
I can’t go a day without being depressed
tried to overdose but it never would work
cause i can’t see my mom crying til her soul hurts
I got women coming in my life tryna show me affection
but I’m stuck in the past getting over aggression
from dealing with someone who i thought was a blessing
only to be left in the dirt, guess that’s where i was destined
for since I’m never placed first or at least second
Sleeping around just isn’t my thing, that’s only to hide the truth
& many say they want me but i never see the proof
I’m just tryna be a better man so my kids will understand
how their father made it thru hell & still here i stand
Not perfect by any means nor do i aim to be
just trying to do right & what’s best for me
Don’t wanna cry no more, don’t wanna fly no more
Don’t wanna hate myself, i just wanna love me more
And my apologies to the women who’ve tried their best to show me
that I’m an amazing guy, I’m learning now but slowly
see i was blinded by the pain so i only saw the flaws
so I’m catching myself, God please don’t let me fall
just show me the real me & heal me from what makes me feel empty
I just wanna love myself cause i know I’m my biggest enemy

I’ve seen you weather many storms without breaking a sweat
& the Devil’s trying to break you but you ain’t gave up yet
I know you must be overwhelmed & tired although you won’t say it
helping those around you more than yourself though you’re not obligated
to put anyone over you but you still do it
just for the same ones to make you feel stupid
Through all the betrayal, not once have you thrown favors in the face
of those who’ve spat it back in your face
to make you feel like loyalty should be your reason
when that word is more of a tattoo & they’re only good for leaving
you in the dirt once they’ve used you for their personal convenience
But please, give yourself some credit for having the heart that you do
& I know ***** to feel unappreciated for the things you do
to be overly loyal to many but most do nothing but mistreat you
take you for granted & completely ungrateful
You’re a rare breed, there will never be another you
Give yourself some credit, you’re entirely too unique & special
- Poetic Venom

She came around at a time when i wasn’t myself
moving around like the rest but i had no love for myself
She graced me with a smile and that i never took the time to cherish
& gave me her heart that i refused to cherish
Silly me, silly me. A good woman on my arms that i took for granted
& breaking her heart was a terrible thing to manage
cause down the road, i realized what i did ... how selfish of me
to break something so precious when it could’ve been the best of me
Here i am living the life of a bachelor while stringing her along
proving the stereotype of men & singing the same old song
of someone who’s tired of being hurt when I’m no better
The Right Girl at the Wrong Time, i should’ve loved her better
They say things get better with time but this time, it only got worse
cause the love i had to offer at the time was nothing short of a curse
I can’t even justify my actions cause what i did was wrong
made a good woman doubt herself cause she placed her all where it didn’t belong
Why’d it have to be me? The one to destroy something rare & sweet
She only wanted to love me but my love made her feel incomplete
- Poetic Venom

Yo Excuse Me Miss but I saw you from across the room
Thinking about all the ways that I’ll be Into You
cause I Need a Girl who’s willing to give me the Difference
of love to which my heart has been missing
Me, Myself, & I   is    All I Have
Even being Foolish & still upset with a heart broken aftermath
I don’t wanna Be Without You when No One else
can make me feel the way you do & it’s All Because of You
for every reason that I’m Still in Love With You
I used to have an Ice Box where my heart used to be
but I got Caught Up being in your Spotlight which is unlike me
& I Can’t Let You Go cause you’ve got me Feenin’
but I won’t start Frontin’ & Blame it on the Alcohol
We Belong Together cause when it comes to love, you give the true meaning

You told me I could confide in you
but what’s the use when I can’t get comfort from you
Every time I bring tears your way, you turn your back on me
yet whenever you vent, you can always depend on me
The fact that I’m shut off from the world & you’re the one I chose
to reveal the pain inside that world doesn’t yet know
I’m different from you but maybe that’s the issue
cause you see the hell in me & mad cause I can’t be like you
If you’re your brothers keeper, why make me feel like a burden
why make me feel like the hell I’ve felt, I deserved it
With all the depression that I suffer, what would you do
if you woke up one day & I’m no longer there with you
like I finally decided to call it quits & take matters in my own hands
You see my soul flying away with my blood buried in the sands
So I ask you this, if I’m really your “brother” then why make me feel alone
especially if you told me that your arms is like another home
What are Brothers For? Funny I keep asking myself the same question
when the brotherhood that I honor causes more misery than a blessing
It hurts like hell cause you’re the one I trust more than most
& it’s a shame that when I need to seek comfort, my pain is better off as a death note
- Poetic Venom

While I’m alive & well, I don’t feel the appreciation that one should feel
when he places everyone before him, it’s only a heart being killed
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep asking if life is worth living anymore
cause I look around & don’t see fit to be around anymore
So many tears I’ve cried but my scream for help has yet to be heard
pleading for peace but my world feels too disturbed
So much love will be shared that I’ll never hear
but it’s sad how my homegoing will be the only time they’ll ever feel sincere
I know that once my time has come & it’s time for me to leave
you’ll then see so many fall to their knees
crying those everlasting tears as they realize what’s to come
a world without yours truly & the guilt of what they’ve done
& when the rain comes down on the day I’m sent home
it won’t be from the crying skies but from my sorrowed eyes
while the doves of heaven take my soul through the stormy sky
- Poetic Venom

Not happy or sad
Not enraged or mad
Not confused or lost
More so incomplete & empty
& today I cried feeling like no one can feel me

Frustrated or irritated
i can’t seem to tell which one
but i broke down hard, it was one of those days
& even thru the silence, not a soul asked if i was okay

When our kisses make love under the moonlight
I get this sudden rush of a feeling that i can’t explain
the stars begin to light up as the vibes sing this melody
& for that short moment of time, i feel free from any danger

But it goes deeper than a kiss when i close my eyes
& i dream of a feeling that’s finally come true
of being lost in your presence plus I feel immortal whenever I’m with you
With my heart having no further reason to cry
it’s because of this feeling i get when I’m next to you

Poetic Venom

Is this the life you want?
Is this what you wanna settle for?
Are you happy? Are you sad?
Are you depressed? Are you mad?
You smile on the outside but are you smiling internally?
Are you willing to admit you’re not okay?
I know you’re sad but is it worth throwing your life away?
Will it bring you peace or just ease the pain?
When the sky sheds a tear, will your tears get washed in the rain

Decide if you wanna live or give up
be happy or let others control your emotions
If you wanna be better or stay the same
Cry every night or smile like it’s no tomorrow
******* to evil or cut at your sorrow
Happiness or Misery, the choice is up to you
but your decision won’t be just affecting you

Poetic Venom