In the midst of Darkness, I've become attached to the forces that's lured me in

to show me the wonders of this world where the rules don't apply & freedom becomes one

I can't escape this rage & the feeling it gives but I don't think I truly want to

although when I transform into this beast, the heart still remains see through

cause even with the aggression, you still see the kid trapped inside being held captive

knowing the pain will begin to explode & the aftermath will be massive

Love doesn’t Love the way Love used to Love
but I’m not sure if we should Blame Love
cause it’s not Love that’s changed
it’s the ones who gave Love but never got Love back that’s changed
it’s the ones who had all the Love in the world to give
but never got the same Love back given to them
when those who Seek Love don’t really want Love
they’re on the Hunt for the Lust
the type of Lust that doesn’t come attached with Love
the type that’s caused Pain cause they don’t know Love
Sneaky Links & hook ups, that’s that new age Love
the Pleasure for the Moment then you’re on to the next Love
settle for the Love in those who don’t confess Love
I need that Old School Love, that Love before the 2000s Love
that Get dressed & be ready by the time I pull up Love
that Love me so much but I don’t get enough of Love
that Meet me at the Alter in your white dress Love
that Here & Now, I promise to Love faithfully Love
that You are my Lady, you got me Feenin’ Love
that All My Life, we Cry Together because I Love you Love

Am I wrong for thinking we could be legit, happy at peace building a foundation that lasts for eternity. Best friends in every aspect & feeding off each others energy

Is it unnecessary to stay safe although I doubt you’ll cause me harm with your heart not being able to handle tearing me apart or looking to you for light when my world becomes dark

Am I crazy for thinking you’re IT for me & everybody else is only a distraction to keep me from loving this source of life that’s the answer for my prayers

And am I fool for falling in love with you when you hold the missing key to this heart of mine & although it’s damaged goods, you still admire it for its true worth that’s intact from the aftermath of loves nature disaster

I don’t believe in luck but I believe in faith, being that it’s the only thing that brought us together when we needed each other the most & taught us that real love deserves to be fought for

My wrongs have a list a mile long from where I’ve tried to correct my wrongs

in the many places of several hearts where a love like mine doesn’t belong

Broken many hearts that completely unintentional but what can you do

when we’re all playing games & their objective is to play you

Burned bridges along the way but they were already collapsing

& equipped with all the attachments that’s not everlasting

Don’t let me fall from grace or the high clouds that I’ve worked so hard to get to & don’t let me parish before I know how much I mean to you for this life of ours isn’t guaranteed to see the sunny rays of tomorrow or forget the cloudy days of yesterday

Don’t let me cry if life gets hard & I see no further reason to live anymore cause I’m tired of the pain inside that I can’t seem to let go of or the happiness that I’m too in fear to reach because of the potential end that may come on the backend as a result to happiness not being forever

Don’t let me go to sleep existing in a nightmare that’s never ending when I’m looking for my dream that may seem to be lost within my fantasy world & when I look around, it’s only me alone looking up to the clouds waiting to wake up again

The next chapter won’t begin until I find the source of joy that I’ve been waiting to see but my own insecurities have blinded me from right in front of me & that’s the love of someone who truly wants to love me although she’s seen that diamond with the cracks but still appreciates the value

Love doesn’t Love the way Love used to Love
but I’m not sure if we should Blame Love
cause it’s not Love that’s changed
it’s the ones who gave Love but never got Love back that’s changed
it’s the ones who had all the Love in the world to give
but never got the same Love back given to them
when those who Seek Love don’t really want Love
they’re on the Hunt for Lust
the type of Lust that doesn’t come attached with Love
the type that’s caused Pain cause they don’t know Love
Sneaky Links & hook ups, that’s that new age Love
the Pleasure for the Moment then you’re on to the next Love
settle for the Love in those who don’t confess Love
but I need that Old School Love
that Love before the 2000s Love
that Baby you are my Shining Star & don't you Go Away Love
that I'm Saving All My Love for you Love
that Meet me at the Alter in your white dress Love
that Here & Now, I promise to Love faithfully Love
that You are my Lady & you got me Feenin’ Love
that All My Life, I prayed for the one like you
that we Cry Together because I Love you Love

The grass is greener on the side, let’s compare the two

I bring Life to you while he takes the life outta you

but you ain’t the only female he’s giving pleasure to

while you ignore me whenever he’s in the mood for you

With me, you feel complete without crying when you feel defeat

wanting love from someone who steals your peace

Love is complicated enough & I’ve enabled you to use me

when you need to feel alive cause his love makes you feel lonely

so yea the grass is greener & I won’t be upset if you leave

You seek Peace but settle for Chaos combined with Toxicity

but who knew the best love I’ve never had would become my biggest enemy