tired of not loving myself enough

tired of not giving myself enough credit

tired of not seeing the greatest within

tired of not loving me overall

tired of not appreciating who i am

tired of allowing others to use me

tired of allowing others to abuse me

tired of not loving me

tired of being tired

tired of crying

tired of feeling unappreciated

tired of wanting to disappear

tired of wanting to die

tired of being frustrated

tired of being sick & tired

loyalty overlooked
love unappreciated
affection never accepted
locked in for too long

when do you let go?
when is enough enough?
when do you get fed up?
how much pain can you suffer?

you cried one too many tears
too many sleepless nights
you've hated yourself far too long
for a fool that doesn't appreciate greatness

in the circus with the clowns
in the bins with the trash
in the clubs seeking flesh
in the streets dying slowly

they say good men don't exist
truth is, we exist within plain sight
often overlooked due to preferences
that only lead to broken hearts

questions of our existence have no answer
we appear where eyes don't look
but when least expected
once our presence is felt, it's magical

pain is a drug
& most of us can't get enough

falling for errors
while loving those we don't trust

red flags ignored
true intentions come to light

feelings get hurt
hearts are never taken in consideration

pain is a drug
some of us can never get enough

in silence where we reside

smiling with pain inside

guilty for following intuition

our blessing as well as our downfall

the cons of having a huge heart

As a man, I’m not ashamed to admit that I cry sometimes in the dark where I can’t be seen to anyone else who may not understand the concept behind my pains rainfall or the aftermath of the destruction from my damaged heart

Almost everyday, I question my stance as a man looking for any errors that may need correcting or any part of my spirit that maybe in need of improvements

Sometimes, I feel weak for being so emotional about what I feel or passionate about sharing love with another soul that needs me

Overall, I feel I am amazing but fall short on qualities needed to attract certain eyes that see through my false happiness & see the treasure that’s tucked away behind this pure heart of mine