i forgive you for breaking me
i forgive you for forsaking me
i forgive you for tearing me apart
i forgive you for hurting me from the start

i never asked for much
i never asked to be crushed
i never asked to be here
i never asked to live in fear

i never asked to be hated
or to be let down from all the years I've waited
for a bond that'll never see the light of day
or the love I never had, you gave it away
but the one thing that hurts more
is seeing my younger siblings being loved more
by a father that cared for me
but I forgive you for never being there for me

Forgive me for the pain

& any errors I’ve created

for I know you’re pure

& full of love, yet I’ve

underestimated your Greatness

Willing to put others 1st who’ve only used you as a Replacement

You stayed true no matter I put you through

& truthfully, I don’t deserve you

for all the things you do

Loving unconditionally & making many lives beautiful

From the second I saw her, I knew things were about to get brighter
from the way you felt in my arms
to the fireworks within your eyes
to the way we talked for hours
it wasn’t long before I realized
you’d be the key to helping me fly

That one minute we spent with a kiss;
I heard my heart shed it’s 1st happy tear
joyful that you wouldn’t bring it any fear
caught in a daze as if we were both dreaming
falling for the melodies that our hearts were singing

An Aquarius Kiss;
you made me look at myself in a way like never before
made me feel these emotions to which I’ve never felt before
opened my eyes to make me realize just how charming I am
although from the 1st introduction, I was worried about a scam
but here we are still hanging on by a thread as I pray we grow stronger
because I’m afraid to lose you to someone else & what we have is no longer
present but I’m working to ensure this last for a while

Be my Light when my World goes Dark

Be my Strength when I feel Weak

Be my Happily Ever After minus the Cost

Be my Faith when all Hope feels Lost

Be my Forever, not just my Today

Be the Sun in my Sky, Be the Tear in my Eyes

Be not another Goodbye

I’ve tried taking this away cause it was too much
been at war with myself since my world was crushed
Tell me why a man with a good heart has to be so dark
& only feel safe when he’s talking through his art
it’s like I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m confused
trying to find a way to the light & follow the tunes
of happiness but each time, I come to a dead end
looking for my peace in these temporary non friends
who claim the same thing as the last person before them
& I’m stupid for given a chance or to even believe them
I wanted to throw life away cause it didn’t mean anything
do me a favor & let me join my family if anything
I know I’m selfish for taking away what you created
but the gift of words or being a loner couldn’t save it
a good heart turned cold being mixed in with the wrong world
picture perfect in your eyes but it’s my vision that’s blurred
So forgive me for not appreciating what you took the time to make
flawless in a way & it’s honestly my mistake
threw my life in the trash, the only thing besides my dad I hate
but I understand now that the greatest stories ever told
have the worst nightmares before the beauty unfolds
attached with a few storms from tornados & hurricanes
with the rainbow shining right behind the depressing rains
of life when the sun decides to fade away
& everything aligned becomes a disaster before we see the replay
of the carnage left behind when happiness no longer exists
with pain being the only way to end a story like this
Forgive me, for not appreciating life for what it’s worth
being blind by the lies, deceit, & the hurt
the disappointments led by false expectations
of those who cause harm without hesitation
using our fear of letting go to bring more misery
further making our self worth feel like an unsolved mystery
I stand here in tears as I plead for another chance to get this right
to embrace the lessons that come with life
never again shall I question your reasons
even if I’m overwhelmed when fighting demons
All faith placed in you through hell or water, my friend
as you guide me to peace & further protect me, Amen

The picture is clear
but the essence breaks me
to admire the concept
yet the idea hates me

To feel appealing
but lack the origins
or the praise from within
to accept the
beauty within the ugliness

They say pictures are worth
a million words
but sometimes, the art
can’t get over the curbs
fearing what lies
on the other side of life

To most, it may seem pointless
but to certain eyes
it’s a work of expression
afraid of indulging in its
own blessing   - Pencasso

I’ve written my whole life in words
over 1,900+ poems to date
but what’s a poet to do
when he’s run out of things to say  - Pencasso