Back at one from being over & done
under your moonlight with me as the sun
Watching the glow from far away
awaiting my time to make a play
to win your heart & marry your soul
with one shot to score my last goal

Back at one from where the chapter never ended
falling in love still, only from a respected distance
You smile not the same but we know why
when you smile now, it’s followed by a cry
in your heart where I once reside
around your spirit & forever by your side
- Poetic Venxm

It hurts me to hurt you
cause a part of me cares for you
but i didn’t deserve the pain from you
& who would’ve ever knew
that it’ll come to me ignoring you
Being around you & completely silent
I don’t speak cause my soul is crying
Sorrow’s raining from the let down
from the one who shouldn’t let me down
I was wrong for putting so much faith in you
feeling like you were rare only to view
the real you, lonely & confused

Karma’s a trip but i still wish you well
the past is the past & i choose not to dwell
Cry your tears but I’m not the blame
for the results of these childish games
coached by your ego & what a shame
how things just aren’t the same
between us, the effects of the rain
falling from the damage before it’s own hurricane
- Poetic Venom

What it means to be King coming from a broken home
raised by a single back Queen with no Kingly role model on the throne
showing me how to be a man or what’s right or wrong
Mama keeping my head in the books although the street life looked more appealing
from the nice cars & flashy jewelry, but the limelight is deceiving

What it means to be King to turn 26 without selling dope or dying in the streets
no babies running around & blessed to never have a rap sheet
Never touched a brick or even a gram of ****
I ain’t even gotta shine for you to see the star in me
Trying to live life faithfully without having to watch my back
knowing that America isn’t safe for me or those that plot to stab me in the back

What it means to be King, to be a young black man brought up from nothing
growing up into greatness but still feeling like he’s missing something
It’s not the crown nor the throne or the scars developed from home
but the will to be something special that’s worth more than money can buy
No flaws or imperfections, that pure Black Boy Fly
This is what it feels like to be King, still I rise above all that aim to disrupt the quest
Black Excellence in the Flesh, yes indeed I’m beyond Blessed

While you’re reading this, I want you to know one thing
I know why the tears flow & why the heart sings
I know why your soul cries in the rain
I know why you look in the mirror to hate what you see
I know how much you wanna break loose & be free
Nobody wants to be depressed but some of us can’t help it
Wanting to be happy yet existing with a spirit that’s restless
Your skin is a beautiful thing but I know why you cut it
just to feel something to get over being depressions puppet
I know why your teary rivers overflow your eyes
wanting to call it quits to live in the sky
You’re different & they judge you but don’t know you
a feeling of happiness, I wish I could be the one to show you
Love not anyone else but thyself
for self is all you’ll ever need more than anyone else
You overlook your strength & I know you’ll deny it
looking for the light knowing you may never find it
I know the pain & I don’t really know why I’m writing this letter
when I’m shattered myself but striving to make you better
Not your guardian angel, just someone who knows your struggle
& until I can’t go any further, I hope to be a guide away from your struggles
- Poetic Venom

Be a Better Man

I’m struggling trying to be a better man
explain my pain so my mom will understand
why her baby boy has felt alone for years
smiling in her face but inside I’m all tears
I’m depressed & a mess, yea i confess
I can’t go a day without being depressed
tried to overdose but it never would work
cause i can’t see my mom crying til her soul hurts
I got women coming in my life tryna show me affection
but I’m stuck in the past getting over aggression
from dealing with someone who i thought was a blessing
only to be left in the dirt, guess that’s where i was destined
for since I’m never placed first or at least second
Sleeping around just isn’t my thing, that’s only to hide the truth
& many say they want me but i never see the proof
I’m just tryna be a better man so my kids will understand
how their father made it thru hell & still here i stand
Not perfect by any means nor do i aim to be
just trying to do right & what’s best for me
Don’t wanna cry no more, don’t wanna fly no more
Don’t wanna hate myself, i just wanna love me more
And my apologies to the women who’ve tried their best to show me
that I’m an amazing guy, I’m learning now but slowly
see i was blinded by the pain so i only saw the flaws
so I’m catching myself, God please don’t let me fall
just show me the real me & heal me from what makes me feel empty
I just wanna love myself cause i know I’m my biggest enemy

I’ve seen you weather many storms without breaking a sweat
& the Devil’s trying to break you but you ain’t gave up yet
I know you must be overwhelmed & tired although you won’t say it
helping those around you more than yourself though you’re not obligated
to put anyone over you but you still do it
just for the same ones to make you feel stupid
Through all the betrayal, not once have you thrown favors in the face
of those who’ve spat it back in your face
to make you feel like loyalty should be your reason
when that word is more of a tattoo & they’re only good for leaving
you in the dirt once they’ve used you for their personal convenience
But please, give yourself some credit for having the heart that you do
& I know ***** to feel unappreciated for the things you do
to be overly loyal to many but most do nothing but mistreat you
take you for granted & completely ungrateful
You’re a rare breed, there will never be another you
Give yourself some credit, you’re entirely too unique & special
- Poetic Venom

She came around at a time when i wasn’t myself
moving around like the rest but i had no love for myself
She graced me with a smile and that i never took the time to cherish
& gave me her heart that i refused to cherish
Silly me, silly me. A good woman on my arms that i took for granted
& breaking her heart was a terrible thing to manage
cause down the road, i realized what i did ... how selfish of me
to break something so precious when it could’ve been the best of me
Here i am living the life of a bachelor while stringing her along
proving the stereotype of men & singing the same old song
of someone who’s tired of being hurt when I’m no better
The Right Girl at the Wrong Time, i should’ve loved her better
They say things get better with time but this time, it only got worse
cause the love i had to offer at the time was nothing short of a curse
I can’t even justify my actions cause what i did was wrong
made a good woman doubt herself cause she placed her all where it didn’t belong
Why’d it have to be me? The one to destroy something rare & sweet
She only wanted to love me but my love made her feel incomplete
- Poetic Venom