These thoughts have been teasing me for quite some time
thinking of ways to stop the madness without crossing the line
You say you wanna wait when I’m ready to commit
but this decision that you’re making won’t let my ego quit
See I’m out here on the prowl trying to see how much damage I can make
when I fail to really see how much pain one could create
And I can’t even blame you for the decisions that I’m making
trying to fill the avoid of being lonely & the one night stands I’m chasing
You ask me how I feel but I can’t really explain it
how the love I’m dying for, I can’t obtain it
I’m trying not to lose myself loving you but every day I lose a piece
I reach out for your help but you’re never there for my reach
You taught me how to be a King but what’s a King without his Queen
& a castle without a foundation to keep it withstanding his dream
of raising a kingdom for his Prince & Princess to herit
cause I refuse to let em carry the torch when it’s too shattered for them to carry it
You want me to be that King but you make me question if I’m really that
the love a King is supposed to give, I stopped feeling that love coming back
I'm running outta time, please make up your mind
cause I refuse to lose myself anymore trying to love you
I gotta save myself before this stress gives me the flatline
mentally passing on & it's all because of you
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I really can’t explain the thoughts running thru my mind
or the confusion that have grown with time
Thinking of you & wanting to work things out
but going back to you won’t exactly bring my happiness out
Yes, you’re the one that I’ll always love more than the world
it’s just the fact of me loving someone else when you’re supposed to be my girl
I’ve had many times to fall in love but I can’t love someone else
when my heart still rest with someone who made me appreciation myself
A friendship that’s turned into the unknown from what used to be a fairytale
& me not giving anyone a chance to love me knowing their love won’t prevail
So how do I move on from someone that has my heart in its entirety
someone who’d go to the end of the world for me & give their last for me
A part of me is ready to be loved for the 1st time
but I can’t let someone else love me when you’re supposed to be mine
A part of me wants to stay single just to wait for you
since I’ve fallen so deeply knowing that my heart adores you
You know you’re more than just a best friend but I can’t wait around forever
& who’s to say that we’ll end up together
Love is complicated especially when the one you want probably isn’t the one you need
but loving someone else just seems wrong which makes it harder to leave
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I’m that struggle trying not to cut my wrist from the pain of life
trying not to blow my brains away so I think twice
I’m that struggle you face when you contemplate on a pill overdose
after being shattered from being let down by those you love most
I’m that struggle looking at you in the mirror when your tears dance on your face
falling from the cracks of your heart that could never be replaced
I’m that struggle waiting along with you in the night when sleep won’t arrive
so you sit thinking about life thru the music that assist with the terror you hide
I’m that struggle you face when you awake another day, healthy & alive so I pray
that he guides you thru the current stages of hell that taunts your every day
Life as we know it can be a roller coaster & we’re bound to fall
but if the landing doesn’t **** us then we’re granted another chance to crawl
I’m that struggle within that convinces you that you’re worthless
teaching you to settle for whatever or that you deserve it
I’m that struggle when you wanna give up but you know you can’t surrender
looking for the motivation for happiness but happiness is something you don’t remember
The struggle of being your own worst enemy, tearing yourself down with the lack of self love
loving others more than you’ll ever love yourself
I’m that struggle but I’m also that hand of guidance trying to be the source towards the light
letting you know that this war isn’t being fought alone, I’ll guide you thru every fight
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

These past few months have been the most devastating thing to watch
fighting for a legacy that nearly came to a life ending cost
Sometimes I blame myself for allowing this distraction to fool me once
until one conversation filled me in on the blueprints of the upcoming stunts
Buried in silence, I observed as my household was turning into the pits of hell
as a demon was on its rise of his plan with the motivation to see it excel
Went from living in happiness to now fearing the lives of my own as well as the Queen
& the Princess, what’s a man to do to protect the castle
Numbing the pain to try to cure my sleepless nights, I nearly fall into that addiction capsule
that snatches my soul from me while I fall deeper in anger
Contemplating on ****** to risk it all for my loved ones, heading closer to danger
I’ve done a great job of holding in the rage but it’s soon to erupt
as the Queen’s heart falls to the floor & the world around me glows up
into flames as my eyes go from pure blackness to blood shot red, all I see is destruction
throwing me off my focus, unable to concentrate or function
I left my castle only to soon return as I face the Devil for the battle of our well being
asking God to keep me sane when it’s pure evil that’s all I’m seeing

- Poetic Venom

We haven’t spoken for the past few weeks & I’ve lied to keep from telling the truth
saying i’m busy with work but I’m sure you can still see the proof
Somewhere along the road, I started seeing us from a different light
I started seeing a world without you as a lover & i started loving the sight
But then I’d ask myself, how can one get over someone who did so much
can’t just walk from all that happiness & leave a beautiful heart crushed
I know keeping the truth from you isn’t right but telling the truth, I may lose you
& I can’t just sit here to allow my broken heart use you
I still think the world of you, it’s just the feelings that used to be don’t exist anymore
but the heart that I’ve grown with, I’ll love unconditionally forevermore
What I’m trying to say is that I have to move on to keep from drowning in false hope
of keeping faith within something that may never be again
& it’s that drug you gave me that I can no longer allow my system to overdose
I’ve done a thousand laps in my head trying to go about this in the right way
but in order for us to be happy, one of us has to swallow the pride to walk away
So my silence wasn’t because I was busy, it’s because I’m trying to leave
& holding on is only going to prevent me from waking up from this long never ending dream

I've been writing 3 books back to back & I'm happy to announce that my 2nd book 'Coming of Age: The Journey from a Boy to Man' will be releasing very soon in both digital & audio version & my 3rd book 'The Eulogy: A Final Farewell' will be dropping around my birthday (Feb. 14th). For those who're interested in reading it, i'll post the link when it's out & also provide the audio version thru email for those who wanna listen to it on the go. Thanks in advance for the support & sorry for the absence.

I’ve been enjoying this single life for quite some time now
but I’m still lonely, yearning for one to hold me down
I admit that I’m not perfect, I’ve been creeping on the prowl
a few one night stands but it’s no fun to me now
It used to be fun wit me but my feelings have gotten a hold to me
got me wishing one was there to love & spoil me
Just a simple man wanting love without the games or mixed signals
just wanna be corny around the right one just to make her giggle
This ******* lifestyle was cool but there’s still something missing
the love of a woman that wants all of my love & attention
I tried living the life as other men but I found no excitement
but when a woman request the love of my heart, it’s all silence
Don’t know if I’ve been hurt too much or rather not waste my time
cause I keep meeting girls with different zodiac signs
So tell me what’s a man to do when he’s ready to settle down
tired of missing a Queen’s love & falling for the lust waiting to be found
You live & your learn, my old ways taught me that pleasure can’t fill the void
of real love that my heart is waiting to enjoy