For years they’ve ignored the mental challenges that people like me face
The struggles we go thru protecting ourselves from a mind driven by self hate
Most consider us “mentally ill” or simply place judgment
Advising us to seek professional help from these highly trained consultants
Or if we go to our family member just for them to tell us to pray
And ask God for the guidance to living a better day
Suicidal contemplations on a daily basis
Hoping to end it all to seek peace to avoid anyone from being courageous
Knocking on the door to death, waiting to see what awaits us
Cause if they make a certain phone call, they’ll send an institution to detain us
They question why we’re never positive but always ignore the negativity in life
Which makes us feel outta place or like living has this dangerous price
Never allowing anyone to get close enough to read the tears that flow
Or understand the scars on our hearts that obviously glows
Yes we need help but not the help being recommended
Cause deep down, we know it’s the feeling of being sorry that’s intended
You feeling sorry for us because we’re overwhelmed by this feeling inside
Of being a burden to those we love & how we’re dying inside
We try our best to be strong but even that gets old
When all hope dies finally being that this world is so cold
You can’t relate to the struggles we face cause you don’t understand our world
Or the pain within is too much at times so we seek an exit instead of waiting for it all to end

Every I try walking away from what we have, your voice pulls me in closer
& I can never tell you how I feel without staying sober
Keep telling myself that I’m no good for you but I’m hopeless when my feelings take over
causing me to always lose my composure

I can’t have you, you can’t have me yet I’ve fallen in love with you
just by the ways you’re always there for me & make me feel like I’m right next to you
I know you hate it when I let someone else in my life to love me when you’re here
but you’re not here so I attempt self harm to avoid those tears

You’re like my Guardian Angel that came outta nowhere to love me dearly
but I don’t deserve your love & I mean this sincerely
Your voice sends chills thru me, your love makes me feel like I’m lost within the mind
that makes me never want to wake up to live within the times
I don’t want you to save me cause I’ll eventually break you down with your every attempt
which mainly proves that it’s my heart that you’re trying to protect
So when my butterflies cry, it’s just the feeling in my stomach that make me love you
more than I did the last time we spoke & my last dying wish is see you one last time to hold you

Poetic Venom

It’s complicated to find a Queen of my generation who isn’t caught up in the hype
of getting likes over selfies & pictures
I’m no Martin Luther King but I need a Coretta
that loves me for the man I am & does her best to make me better
I’m not an easy person to love but sometimes I question if it’s worth the patience
that women go through when they want my love but always catch themselves chasing
after just to feel what it’s like to be close to someone like me
or to know how it feel if a man of my value would consider making them wifey
It’s funny how I’ve never had a chance to love before but I always seem to panic
when a woman says she’s into me but that love is hard to manage
when you take none serious due to the same games being played
in exchange the interest being given then I’m left feeling betrayed

Love’s gotten too complicated. It’s either that or maybe I’m looking in the wrong places
Searching for the lady in my dream world in all the wrong faces
I keep ending up with these temporary players who do nothing but cause doubt & stress
which will eventually lead to the right woman coming along but I’ll no longer have a heart to invest
Why would you want a man like myself, I’m damaged goods with an expired interest in love
Tired of the let downs & failed expectations from those who only care to judge
Me cause I’m different from the way I walk & how I talk or how I carry my presence
Yet you see through it all still trying to love me pointing out the essence within this broken heart of mine

- Poetic Venom

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

Let me make love to your mental, I promise to be gentle
Undress the elegance of your intelligence & bless you with a personality beyond suspenseful
You can never guess what I’ll do next but you feel the butterflies in your chest
That moved from your stomach but then you realize that it’s my words that caress
You which may lead you second guessing
Then there’s this sudden feeling of your heartbeat tap dancing
But that’s just me, the poetic metaphoric melody & it’s interesting to see
How I send chills thru your body when it’s just the thought of me
So let me undress your mind & in due time, I’ll read between the lines
Discover a world within a sweet smile that may tend to go over or bypass most minds
Who lack the knowledge of understanding of a presence so elegant yet demanding.
A Queen in her own right, standing on her own 2
Feet with the characteristics of oneself that’s bound to possess you
So let me undress your mind & in due time
I’ll then see why this Queen who’s so divine & at that moment
I’ll find out why she’s indeed one of a kind

- Poetic Venom

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

What started as a hobby 16 years would soon become my passion
The art of telling stories or expressing myself in ways I couldn’t imagine
I went from reading my moms poems to copying poems from english books
to rewriting those poems in my own words to writing raps doing what I saw on TV
but somewhere down the road, I never thought I’d fall in love with this thing we call poetry
I could’ve turned out to be another statistic by hanging out in the streets
instead I stayed in the house watching TV & listening to beats
I had many things running thru my mind but it was nothing I could tell anyone about
even if it was something interesting about me that they could learn about
Fast forward to my senior year of high school when I recited my 1st poem in front of my class
explaining the anger I kept built up for so long & I watched their eyes grasp my wrath
All i could remember was blacking out to let my emotions steer the ride of my heart
as the passion & pain would tear me apart
That one moment of truth made me realize that maybe this dream of mine isn’t a dream
but a way to connect to the intellect & strangely enough boost my self esteem
16 years of perfecting my craft, 16 years of keeping my passion alive
16 years of becoming what I am today & 16 years of that I’ve been able to survive
I’d tell you that you’re crazy if you told me that my poems would save a life
when it’s just me telling the struggles & battles that I’ve faced in my life
I became someone that some consider a hero & developed a fan base that love my pain
& for them, seeing someone brave enough to tell their story is the sunshine of our dark rain