Admiration
Don't stop showing up
Don't slow down the pace
Don't relent your attention
Don't cheat on me
Don't expect much from me
Don't hurt me
Don't take this for granted
Don't think I want one thing
Don't leave me
I will die if had to look for another
Don't exaggerate
Don't expect the worse
Don't think I won't commit
Don't think I can stop loving you
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               Abrasive
Don't stop committing to me
Don't get loud with me
Don't be surprise
Don't hurt me please
Don't expect much from me
Don't touch me
Don't hide
Don't block or fight back
It will only get worse
Don't let anyone know
Don't let them see the bruises
Don't run from me
Don't think you can do better
Don't think I don't love you

I have a friend she’s long and Slim.
She loves to wrap herself only around my neck.

I have another friend who's cold to the touch.
He like to get in your head when you're weak and alone.

This one friend who have other friends, to many to count.
All they want to do is party until you are blue.
They'll put you to rest before they are gone.

My other friend she's transparent and childish.
She like play this game with the doors lock and windows rolled up then she wait until you close your eyes.


My other guy he have these intension.
He'll rob you of your oxygen and make you panic. The whole process is way over you head

My last friend is very tall and stands so high
He'll carry you on his shoulders then drop you to the ground.
Before you make contact you will regret ever doing it

Night like this I'm sitting at the table writing again
Slowly drinking but not yet drunk
This the only time I'm not fun to be around
The only time I'm not laughing or smiling while alcohol in my system
All I write are thing that a little dark or depressing
I've even wrote one were I compare myself to the moon
I was introduce to so much in a young age
I have some happy moments but not enough to counteract the negativity
Writing is the best way we all can express ourself
It's the least dangerous way I can alleviate myself
Hopefully for the ones they call broken writing can help fix themself

Sometimes my life is a mess.
Some days I need a friend or two.
Alot of time I want to be held or have someone give me affection.
Other times I don't want to be bother by anyone but that doesn't last too long.
Some nights I don't want to live.
Almost everyday I don't want to see the sun.
Everyday I fake a smile and hope it look genuine.
Or as genuine my sad state allows me to be.

What I listen to is not for everyone.
The sound that come from these earphone or speakers are loud and unpleasant.
What's playing depend on your mood or it may change your mood.
Painfully loud your ears will ring and bleed just a little bit.
The music is my only company.
A room dark is my only friend.
And the vibration of a melancholic song is my only drug.
My only recreation.

In the darkest parts of my being.
So many category of monster would surface.
The constant mistake and behavior of people allow them to break restraints and attack.
My mess up needs and wants help feed their selfishness and taint all the uncorrupted parts of me.
It's weird how they don't leave any bruises or mark but somehow they can hurt me.
I have found and forge so many weapons against them.
I have develope different tactic against those who bring them to life.
Let's just say it a on going battle.
It's obvious who's winning.
One vs infinity.
But it's OK.
All that they stole from me I'll somehow take back.
Lord knows when I will find other to join the psychological fight.
'til then I'll deal with this alone.

I will embrace that you and I come from dirt and now we walk above It.
As I walk on the surface of this earth
I can feel all of the insignificant thing we're made of.
All the insignificant thing we're made of to become something so Important.
To become something so important to do important thing.
As I make my way through life I pretend I'm on a staircase making my way to the blue sky.
Every year is 365 steps.
Every steps I feel further and closer.
I won't stare at the ground but I will stumble and miss my footing.
That OK because it part of the journey.
I will embrace that you and I come from dirt and now we walk above it and soon ascend to the sky.

Are we powerful or weak?
We have the power to hurt other and they call that weak!
Those who are weak, they tell them they have power.
If we know and accept our limits are we powerful or are we weak?
Can being weak be something more?
Not knowing our full potential and keep trying until we get stronger.
Can being powerful be something less?
Understanding we can't go further and this is all we have to offer.
Are they one in the same?
Are they two different thing?
I think of myself as both.

Today is a good day today it's bright.
My demons aren't whispering in my ears.
Nor are they placing their hand on my shoulder.
They're not even reflecting back at me in the mirror.
Not a single episode.
I think I've finally regain control.
No voices, no lies, no laughter, no possession
They all are unrelenting and have a lot to say, so after awhile I fall for their prevarication
Nothing is pulling or compelling me to feel down
As I enjoy this day and not consume in melancholy
And balance myself with joy
I'll leave the door unlock and wait for their arrival
Cause everything is temporary

We all have something inside of us.
Some of us can feel it.
Others are truly uncertain.
But it's waiting to be explored.
Just anxious to come out at will.
Maybe it's dormant until the right moment
Take over and alternate your personality.
Compel to react without your command.
Slowly to possess or at your possession.
Not knowing if it's part of us.
Will you accept?
Or just their to help.
A chance you might reject.
They could probably trap inside us.
Better yet maybe replace us.

Share your time
Share your words
Share your animosity
Share all that hurts
Share your thoughts
The darkest parts
Share what make you cold
Share what make you hollow
Share what keeps you up at night
Share your demons
But keep your angels
Share everything that prevents you
And take what you need from me
To make you strong