You left & made it clear you're not coming back.
I still can't let go of maybe a little hope.
I can't look at you without smiling.
But you keep walking away & I'm drowning.
I can smell you on my sheets.
I can remember your every move.
Baby, I want you saved.
You're worth the wait, but there isn't anything to wait for.
You're to far gone & I'm to deep in.
I thought I was getting stronger,
But I still remember the all nighters.
You're to far gone
&
I'm waiting on a miracle.

I never wished pain on someone, but I hope you never smile.
I never wish hell on someone, but I hope you can not sleep at night.
I hope when you see me your heart burn & you ache for me.
I swear I'll be the "one that got away."
I wish you fail at everything you try.
I hope you never succeeded.
I hope your life is filled with
broken promises and lost dreams.

I hate you.

I hate you with every breathe I take.
I hate you with every thought of you.
You took my beautiful life &
turned it into a dark nightmare.
I woke up one morning angry from the night before.
You made me miserable.
Thank you though, I do have to thank you for leaving.
Something I did not have the strength to do.
I look at you now with only regret.
You were the worst part of my life.
But you left the only good part of you
when you left.

I was blinded by lies and charm.
Drained by your self hate.
As much as I lacked at seeing
I am the one who made all the mistakes.
Falling in love was a curse.
Falling out of love is the cure.
No more being distracted by the lust.
No more being pulled into your hurt.
You are right I do not need you.
You are right you can not help me.
I was on a destructive past.
I only have to thank you.
Thank you for doing what I did not have the strength to do.
But here I am pulling through.

Marry me  for tomorrow my never come.
Marry me for this is my only wish.
The stars have never shined so bright.
The mood has never lite up my entire sky.
This world has no guarantee.
There is not a single written rule.
Who is to say we are wrong here.
It is the pull of the earth I feel when you hold me.
Its the touch of an angel when we kiss.
Marry me for this is my only wish.
Marry me for tomorrow my never come.

The times you have lied.
The many many things you tried to hide.
The ****** up reasons you left me alone.
I gave up all my hope for you,
but something changed my mind.
You fooled me once again.
This time you are not the one to blame.
I was so foolish to believe any kind of certainty would ever come from you.

Today I read the letter you wrote so long ago.
You wrote to tell me I was no good anymore.
You were hundreds of miles away,
You were to afraid to pick up the phone.
Would my voice have changed your mind?
Could I have convinced you to stay?
Today I burnt the pictures, the ones you took in Maine.
I watched them go up in flames.
In the letter you said I was your safety.
What am I to you now?
Nothing but a memory.
I wish I didn't reremember you.
After all the beautiful words you wrote
how can I ever believe anyone else.