I'm just tired
I'm giving up
I want to go to bed
I wanna sleep forever
I'm just tired
I don't care anymore
But I'm not tired enough
I still act like I'm fine
And if people knew I would win an oscar
For acting so **** good
I mean it's ok
I celebrate in my head thinking everything will be fine but I just keep lying to my face
And I look in ther mirror and see this misery in my eyes.
Only you knew about my dreadful tears that I would shed and my awful thoughts that would come pouring in at night.
Im tired but not enough
I wanna sleep but I won't let myself
I wanna eat but I'll starve myself
You see that's me
I'll try to fix myself but find a way to break me.
As I said im a great actress.
Im so great that I forget that I am hurting myself every **** day just because I wanna win the oscar.
I will continuously try my very hardest to win the oscar.  I will always try my hardest to keep my mask as clean and prefer as possibly.
Im just tired but I'm not tired enough.

Never shall I forget the moment we met.
Never shall I forget the good morning and I love you we would text.
Never shall I forget the details of your face.
Never shall I forget your eyes and your smile, and how many times you made me laugh.
Never shall I forget your name that will never be told from my lips again. Never Shall I forget all the beautiful moments we had together.

Never shall I forget the love we had for each other.
Never shall I forget how everything turned into memories in seconds.

Never shall I forget how you forgot me.
Never shall I forget how you treated me.
Never shall I forget when you left me drowning in the sea.

Never shall I forget how our souls were destined to hurt each other.
Never shall I forget that I don't need you.
Never shall I forget that we don't need each other

Never shall I forget that I am better without you.
Never shall I forget that I am alright without you.
Never shall I forget that I am strong.
But …. I forgot all of that as soon as our eyes met once again.

the horrid evil
is someone who was so delicate and fragile
until the beautiful good came and broke him
the real evil is the man that everyone says is good
since he had cracked open evil
he let evil's ugly demons out
for all evil could do was sit there and watch until
everyone knew he was the worst thing alive
for he could not be called human for all the mistakes he had made
while the beautiful man was called good for he had no imperfections
and deep inside he hid all the horrid things he did to evil
for he started to call evil a horrid thing
and that was his new name horrid evil
the beautiful good loved being the most perfect good there was
so he wanted someone who was horrid and evil to compare him to.

that is why i broke you he told horrid evil as a tear slid down
while horrid evil just sat there in shocked
moments later beautiful good felt some arms embrace him
and at that moment he knew horrid evil was even more beautiful and good than he could ever be.
with a shaky breath he said his last words to horrid evil
and thats how horrid evil became who he was and lived up to his name.

sad is an emotion too
so dont be afraid to feel it
you have to let yourself go with sadness
because sadness cures itself and becomes happiness
it may take awhile to get there but you will eventually be there in no time
so embrace because it is also sad.
and people tend forget about that
so hold it in your arms
so tightly because it will eventually leave
and it is always sad to say goodbye

the little hope i had
has now been banished from my life
why
because you've hurt me again
on valentine's day
the worst day you could have hurt me
we argue now on every single day
no matter where we are
no matter what time it is
how are we suppose to take this any longer
i know you're hurting
but ill be selfish and say
i hurt the most today

ive cried so many times and ive still have to dins what im crying for
the saddest wont stay away from me
i have no tears left
you know artist have to pay a price for there work to look goo
you give up happiness
at least with me
im good at drawing because ive felt every brush stroke on my canvass
every line tells a story of what i have suffered
ive cried before when i draw because i ask for help in them
but nobody seems to get the memo
maybe i am just good actress
just maybe.

You're this ghost in my head
in my heart
you're everywhere
but nowhere
i constantly think of you
And i wonder if you're alright
if you're happy
or if you have found someone new
but i ended it
i shouldn't be asking these questions
you're like an unfinished chapter that i forgot to read
why cant i get over you
your like a painting that was never finished
a sentence that got interrupted and was never spoken of again
you're that person that will forever be in my head
You're my unfinished love.