It's hard
so hard not to keep thinking about you.
It's hard knowing that you no longer love me.
It's hard knowing you are trying to get someone else.
It's hard knowing that you will never look at me with the eyes you used to.
It's hard knowing that the only way you will ever look at me is with lust or with friendship.
It's hard knowing that I am not over you.
It's hard knowing that you could care less about me.
It's hard knowing that you gave up so easily.
It's hard knowing that anyone can love you and you will love them back more than you did to me.
It's hard knowing that I will no longer be able to say I love you with all my heart.
It's hard knowing that I worry about you and you don't give me a second thought.
It's hard knowing that you will no longer call me baby.
It's hard knowing that you wont give me good night text or good morning.
It's hard knowing that you will never love me again or that you will never say I love you.
But it's harder knowing that you never loved me.

I hate you,
I hate you because you're such a great person to be around with.
I hate you because I love to see your face from time to time.
I hate you because everything you do is so freaking adorable.
I hate you because I'm falling all over again.
And you won't be there to catch me.