This all may be cliche
Yet it is nothing but the truth
So hear me out

I'm the lucky one
No matter how many times she says she loves me more
She is beautiful

It would only take me a sliver of time
To see her in a crowd of a thousand others
My music is her voice

Her eyes
They're a whole other story
Mesmerizing like nothing else

With all this
How could I not see
That I can't help falling in love with you

I tore pieces out of myself
They're in the trash
Staying where I tossed them too

No value
Lifeless
No meaning

Every colour fades
Numbing my senses
Until it is only I who walks my world

I sing a melody
It echoes eerie through the air
A lost frequency to their ears

Tears spill down my face
I have one question for you
What tore through my mind to make me this way?

You do no reflect on what has happened
You ignore what is now
You fail to acknowledge the upcoming possibilities

Was it my similarities to you?
How you fail to see your own faults
Trying to heal yourself by breaking me

This gives me too much insecurity
I can't shake the darkness in my mind
What will happen to my hopes and dreams

Will they slip through my fingers
Like smoke
Does it have to be like that again for me?

Something I want to have
That I can't touch
Nor see

My future is lying shattered in front of my hands

I hate the ambiguity between you and me

Are we friends?
I thought no yet you still talk to me
Act as if it was all a dream

You know I'm not about that

It's not easy for me to say
Every since you went away
Things have changed around here

I am not the same
I wish I had tried harder
I know that that's not it
That's what I say to myself when I hurt

You left on your own accord
I wish I could have saved you from it all
Save you from what she did to you
You deserved much better

Back then I called out for you
No answer I came
I had to assume the worst
I had to trust your words

"I can't do this anymore"
I didn't want you to let go because of how toxic she was
I wish I could have reached out and saved you
Saved you from her

"I'm going to **** myself"
Those were your last words
Sometimes I ask myself if I could have saved you
Should I have confronted her?

I know you don't think so
I know that I couldn't have done more
We weren't that open with other information
There was no one for me to call
Yet I can't help the doubts that claw at my heels

I dropped into a dark place after you left
I knew I had to stop trying to save everyone
I won't ever regret reaching out to all those people
My efforts mainly payed off
Starting with small smiles to laughter

I just wished that I could have done the same for you

It fills me with an unknown pain
Should I question why I am so attached
My mind can't help but wonder where you are
How you are
That's something we don't get the chance to ask anymore

Quick messages
Rushed replies
Hours of waiting
Hoping your day isn't hurting you
Wanting only the best for you

Hating this feeling takes so much
I feel drained each day
Thinking of a happier you
Would you want a happier me?
Would that make it better?
Am I good enough the way I am?

This might be the hardest thing to endure
A slow agonizing throbbing
It cuts deep
Who knew I would be the one feeling this way
When it was you that said dependency was your issue