It fills me with an unknown pain
Should I question why I am so attached
My mind can't help but wonder where you are
How you are
That's something we don't get the chance to ask anymore

Quick messages
Rushed replies
Hours of waiting
Hoping your day isn't hurting you
Wanting only the best for you

Hating this feeling takes so much
I feel drained each day
Thinking of a happier you
Would you want a happier me?
Would that make it better?
Am I good enough the way I am?

This might be the hardest thing to endure
A slow agonizing throbbing
It cuts deep
Who knew I would be the one feeling this way
When it was you that said dependency was your issue

Such a simple word
Seemingly obvious
Although many keep it away from prying eyes

An asset if used well
You failed
I harbor it too
Yet you and I are not the same
Self-reflection is something you seem incapable of

Through that
So alike
Yet worlds apart
I am not you

However I am like you in a way or two
Not an insult to me
I can use it well
I will never be you
No matter how many times we overlap

I am me
and
You are you

You say it's not what it used to be
I want to disagree
But how can it be the same when so much has changed?
Our days have changed yet again

I've grown still
As still and cold as the bottom of the sea
A place I myself cannot explore
It's impossible to breath

You've grown distant
As if disappearing behind a wall of mist
I long for you yet know that I cannot move
You asked for time and that I give
To what price do we play on the surface
Ignoring to depths of both our thoughts

The doubt claws at the door to my mind
Leaving scars that I can hear and feel
I want to ask if you feel the same
Yet I cannot seem to find your name

There's one thing that drags me to my knees
I'm scared to ask for what I may find
Do you love me the same?

"Go into bed"
I thought you'd decide to relax
Take the rest that you more than deserve

"Warm up"
I wish I could wrap you up in blankets
Be the warmth that fills you with joy

"Maybe fall asleep"
I smiled, ready to bid you goodnight as usual
To wish that I could be there with you

"Maybe cry"
It tugs at my heart with phrases like that
A stab into my hopes and dreams for you

"Life is full of surprise"
Something I cannot deny
All I know is that I'll be here for you

This is what you said to me
I hope I can change that when I have the chance
You're an Angel to me
I hope to be yours in those times

What do you see
Do you see a friend or a foe
Do you think of my love
Do you think about the hurt

If I could go back in time
I'd rethink my actions
Many say that
The difference is that I mean it

I want to show you
The world that you deserve
Will you take my hand
Can I lead you through the crowd

Your eyes, will they stay on me
Will they stray
Our hands, will they stay intertwined
Will you let go

If I asked you, would you be honest?

The stem is cold against my fingers
I do not feel it
I'm numb as can be
The winter wind has long frozen me to the bone

The petals are withering yet radiating life
I crouch down to see
I'm not as blind as they thought
The winter has stopped time as nothing moves

The thorn ****** my finger
I cannot feel it
My gaze followed the stream of crimson
The evidence for my life stains the snow

The flower is my shadow
A Skeleton Flower
Alive yet frozen
The chance to move on must not be missed again

For I shall wither fully within the next winter

Are you there?
It was a rhetorical question
I know you're there
You can't exactly hide from me in my own body

Sometimes I can't see if you're foe or friend
You have my back no matter what
Yet your claws and fangs are always stabbing me in the back

I've faced you many times
Tie after time it was a war fought with bare hands
Other times it was a delicate touch to the cheek with a smile
You may be within me but you don't define me

I could thank you
You've helped me make friends
You've shaped me to who I am

I could curse you
I shall not
You are still parts of me

I cannot simply abandon you