Sometimes I feel like the messenger
To bring others happiness
Without pursuing my own
Seeing them change
Seeing them smile
It feels good

Sometimes I wonder why I can't be part of their happy times
Then I remind myself
I'm merely a stepping stone to better times
That's what I've decided to be
I shouldn't regret when I can make them smile once more

Sometimes I wish I could have stayed their friends
Through bad and good times
Instead of fighting through the bad and falling back at the good
I miss them

Our fingers are laced together
Tied by a promise to not let go
The wind surrounds us with doubt
You're my eye of the storm

Sometimes a quiet moment is all I need
To remind me of all the reasons to stay
I want to prove your past wrong
The memory of me should bring you to smile

Shadows cling onto your light
Let me be the one to cut you free
Whether you take my hand or not doesn't matter
As long as I know that you can move on

Then I don't care what happens to me

Hello?
Please don't call me anymore
You've said enough
Stop

Hello?
It's me again
Please say something
You've been awfully quiet
Sometimes I can see you're not busy
Never mind
Forget I said anything

Hello?
This is how it comes to an end
Silence fills the line
I guess it's time to hang up

All this back and forth makes me wonder what happened

There is no past for me to cling onto
No future to pursue
I walk an ever changing path
My footsteps used to cross others, now they're alone

The aid is making me go numb
First I couldn't feel my body
Now I'm losing heart
Next I'll lose my mind

I recall this emptiness
I can't say I missed it
Will it fade to reveal the next step?
I can't help but wanting to turn away from that, stay on the path I've been making myself all this time

I've cornered myself, there's no way around it

Trusting my gut instinct is my survival
I turned it down
That ended in a cold stare out of the window
It ended without much of a fight

I said my goodbyes
As did she
I lost another part of me then
Now I'm left in ruins

You're what keeps me standing
Leave and I'll surely be my own demise
Is that why we don't let go?
We are each others core as it seems

Keeping myself alive proves hard
It's making me numb
Is it the right path?
Is it okay for me to keep you strung to me with a red string?

I don't know if we'll ever know

Just let me keep you to myself

I can't explain it
The desire to call you mine
Without knowing what I'm feeling
I can't tell you what's going on

I don't want to share you
I'm scared
I don't want to be put second best again
I felt it happened, you only talked about him

Arguments ask me why you hold on
Why do I hold on?
You'll always have control over a part of me
That's something I cannot change

You isolated yourself in my heart
I can't give half a broken heart out
Blood drips as I hold it in my hand
Inspections never lead to my hands emptying

What keeps us from letting go?
Is it the promises we've made?
Could it be the feeling of acceptance that we shared?
Or are we just fools, chasing our shadows in the dark

I've cornered myself, there's no way around it

We've hit the border again
Do it all again
I would
Not without changing

Decisions and words
They follow me everywhere
You tell me I'm wrong
I can't believe you

I've had it happen before
I won't let the cycle swallow you too
I'd lose you
That I can't bear

I want to hide you
Keep you safe
Why are you running the other way?
Into my depths of despair

Just let me keep you to myself