You put yourself out there,
They shut you down,
Like the shade obscures the light.
Little do they know,
Darkness is just a contrast,
To the illumination of the soul.
The darker the shade,
the brighter the radiance.

The fire of the soul,
Burning hot with passion,
Burning all who touch,
Empowers all who master it.
But where is the line?
The fearful would say
The ashes from the corpse.
The wise would say
The fire incinerates all,
Who limit it with lines.

Soft as a dove,
Wise as a snake,
Love is complex,
Can you give what it takes?

Float like a butterfly,
Sting like a bee,
I'll keep sacrificing,
If love is what this can be.

That body so divine,
that soul so fine,
beauty from this galaxy to the next.
Depth deeper than the farthest stars.
Your meaning coursing,
through the veins of the unknowing.
Feeling closer to emptiness of the void,
But given the understanding of life,
With just the presence of your smile.
All is one and one is all.
Your love connecting all that is.

Billowing and treacherous,
A cavern below the water,
Are you scared of the cats death,
Or is the curiosity enough,
To seek beyond the fear,
Of drowning

Feelings rush in like tides from a storm.
Regret fills your being
Like shattered glass in the homes of all those burdened.
Sharp edges poking at your core.
You feel alone despite everyone around you feeling the pain.
All you can do is wait for the storm to pass.
Clean up the mess and be thankful you're alive.
But you can't help but wonder, what if..

Ever get that feeling,
That the end is near?
So calm and relaxed,
Your heart is all you hear,
Soothing you, keeping you calm,
Knowing it's going to break.
All you can do is trust,
The heart knows what it can take.
It's like I've know all along,
I've been preparing from the start,
Days go by and it's hard Everytime,
Heartbreak is a true form of art.

She creates
She mistakes
She cries
She takes
But the murale is renowned

No matter how much you know someone, you will never know the them that they know. You will never know what their anxiety feels like, you will never know what love they feel. You can never understand things the way they understand things. You only get what your own self creates of the experiences you go through with that person. You begin to form this identity for that person. You begin to feel like you know that person in and out. You feel so strongly. You feel so confident. But what do you do when they present a quality that you dont know? A quality you dont know how to deal with? Do you still know them? Is it someone else? Is the person you know just burried behind what you see now? Or has the person changed? Can people change? Who knows. Only they know themselves. But how can you love, or trust, or get to know, or be content with knowing that person, and the image you have of them, without feeling insecure about it all the time? How do you prevent fall outs, or a change in your chemistry together? How do you fix it if things do become imbalanced? What makes people finally say, "Now is the time." Why is it easier to hide yourself from the ones you love, than to just let it all out? To tell people you aren't okay? Why do we have our own dark spaces in our own minds when we are supposed to be creatures of light and energy? If we are supposed to be open and forthcoming, and love everything around us, why can we create so much resentment and hate and close off every connection possible? The mind is a mysterious place. It is so astounding that through all these years, one of the biggest puzzles, is our own minds. We dont even know ourselves enough to heal our pains. To enjoy our highs. To open ourselves to anything. I struggle with understanding myself. Understanding why I feel the things i feel sometimes. The things i think of in others. Why cant I be a master of my own brain? My own thoughts and feelings? Am I just a voice in the head of this shell we call humans? Am I hear for the ride, or am I the pilot? Do I control the stupid things this body does? Do I control how this body feels things? Why does it feel like im in control, but then other times I dont. Why can I control it sometimes and things go great. But other its like my voice walks away and my shell goes on autopilot? Why does my voice run away and not show up for a while? What am I doing wrong? Why does life just feel like something I have to go through in order to get to the end of something? It feels so pointless, with no signs to feel otherwise. I know what love feels like. I know I love her. I love our kids. I love our time together. But what about myself? I know myself so well. Or atleast I think I do. But for some reason, loving myself doesnt have a good or bad feeling to it. Its almost like I dont feel it at all. But why does that matter? Isnt loving others what matters?

Even on the darkest of days,
The sun comes out beaming with rays.
Doesn't matter the reason for the frown,
The right thought will turn it upside down.
I miss you with a heart so cracked,
But I wear a smile, guarantee backed.
No matter the outcome of the past,
I'll always be grateful for what we amassed.
I'm thankful for everything you taught me,
If you ever need my love, its here for you unconditionally.

You're the smell of rain on an April day,
The flowers blooming in the month of may,
You're the sun behind the clouds,
And the vibrations in the sounds.
Even though you're gone,
I've felt you all along.
The space next to me feels like you,
I'll never forget the sweet things you do,
I'll love you from afar,
One day ill be up to par.
I'll come to you as a better me,
My heart is what I hope you'll see.
Please don't ever forget.
Cuz I'm reminded of you with every sunset.

I don't know how to do this,
I don't know how to be.
I'm blinded by the light,
You're all that I see.
Smile so adorning,
Soul brighter than the sun.
Your love feels so pure,
Oh so badly, I want you to be the one.

Even in our distance,
It doesn't matter who you see,
I know you'll be looking,
for someone like me.

Because in my world,
I'll be looking for you,
With every woman I'm with,
In everything they do.


You came to me at nights end,
Because you loved it that way.
My comfort embracing you,
Knowing it would never fade away.

Running from our connection,
Our love and passion so overbearing,
But we will always look back,
Knowing our love, there was no comparing.

Storms of love and resentment crash through the night,
A lonely candle light fighting for its life.
The wick flickers and wanes as the wind tests its resolve.
Can your flames of love withstand the might of Mother nature?
Or does your heart succumb to the forces of the unknown?
You'll only know, if your hope lies in the flame to burn through the night..

If love could have saved you,
We'd still be alive today,
If love was the life preserver,
You wouldn't have drowned that way.

Your mistrust and shallow beliefs,
Dragged you to the bottom of the sea,
Where your heart is forced to pay the toll,
Living within the deepest losses, never to break free.

You found me,
When I was finding myself,
Shortly after what felt like forever,
Falling from the shelf.

Just like a picture frame,
Moments from the past,
Shattering before you,
All the joys you've amassed.

But as I collected the pieces,
I found one, familiar but not known.
It fit somehow,
it felt like home.

Because of you,
I'm creating a work of art,
So one day I can show you,
Just how you've mended,
This man's broken heart.

Broken dreams and love gone stale,
Burning resentments roaring like wildfire,
Surrounded by chaos caused by cupid,
Or maybe the arrow never landed, she was just a liar.