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1.2k · Oct 2019
Illuminating Darkness
KatInMyHat Oct 2019
You put yourself out there,
They shut you down,
Like the shade obscures the light.
Little do they know,
Darkness is just a contrast,
To the illumination of the soul.
The darker the shade,
the brighter the radiance.
267 · Sep 2023
Pespective
KatInMyHat Sep 2023
Mirrors within mirrors,
Reflection in ponds,
What is connection,
And what are bonds?
Love and harmony?
Or hate and trickery?
Do we utilize both,
And create our misery?
158 · Aug 2023
I want to help
KatInMyHat Aug 2023
If no one had said I love you,
Always know deep down, I do,
I don't know you and I don't care
Living alone with no love is unfair
You deserve it has much as me,
If I can have it, so can thee.
But what if I said its all an illusion?
Its really just a misunderstood confusion?
I can't love you better than you,
But in our world of math, that makes two.
If that isn't enough to inspire,
Lets talk, I'm sure the answers will transpire.
I won't give up on you when you need support.
But don't forget, self love starts with rapport.
150 · Jul 2019
Comes and goes
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
Before it all,
It was so dark,
Walking alone,
Then a spark.
What is that?
What's that feel?
My chest is glowing,
Is this real?
It's so warm,
I never want it to go,
My heart is so full,
What do I know?
In an instant,
After it all,
Walking alone,
I've done nothing but fall.
106 · Jan 22
Rare as a desert rose
KatInMyHat Jan 22
My love for you goes so deep,
You're as rare as a desert rose,
And as unknown as the reason,
Why the tides ebbs and flows.

As deep as the oceans,
And as loving as the warmest embrace,
Nothing has given me peace,
Like the moments I see your face.

You ease my heart with just a glance,
You give me solace in times of doubt,
You say the right words no matter the day,
And it seems all our seeds of love are starting to sprout.
102 · Feb 20
Wish upon a star
KatInMyHat Feb 20
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Wish a wish,
On our love tonight,

I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you so much..
I miss your lips,
And the way we touch.

I want you,
I need you,
I crave your affection
I long for your love,
I just yearn for connection.

Our love is deep,
Our love is pure,
We connected for a reason,
Of that I am sure.

I wish you may,
I wish we bond,
Cause it is you,
Who I am so fond.
97 · Oct 2019
Flames Of Passion
KatInMyHat Oct 2019
The fire of the soul,
Burning hot with passion,
Burning all who touch,
Empowers all who master it.
But where is the line?
The fearful would say
The ashes from the corpse.
The wise would say
The fire incinerates all,
Who limit it with lines.
96 · Oct 2019
Perception Of The Echo
KatInMyHat Oct 2019
Ever seen from the otherside?
A mirror of your own thoughts.
Does the reflection see you,
Or do you see the reflection?
Perception is an echo.
Ripples in a pond.
Ever changing,
Yet only
Expanding.
89 · Oct 2019
Presence Of The Stars
KatInMyHat Oct 2019
That body so divine,
that soul so fine,
beauty from this galaxy to the next.
Depth deeper than the farthest stars.
Your meaning coursing,
through the veins of the unknowing.
Feeling closer to emptiness of the void,
But given the understanding of life,
With just the presence of your smile.
All is one and one is all.
Your love connecting all that is.
84 · Jul 2019
Am I tough enough?
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
Can I be your light?
Can I be your Guide?
Ill show you through the dark,
Ill be by your side.
I may not be perfect,
I may not be the best,
But I will love you,
Or should I give it a rest?
I can give it all to you,
But what do you want?
Do I need a better view?
Or is it the size of my font?
All I know is that I'm here,
Ill take all the stress,
Ill give you the world,
Ill clean up all the mess.
I just need to know,
Will that be enough?
I know I can prove it all,
I just need to be tough..
83 · Mar 6
Wisdom Of Animals
KatInMyHat Mar 6
Soft as a dove,
Wise as a snake,
Love is complex,
Can you give what it takes?

Float like a butterfly,
Sting like a bee,
I'll keep sacrificing,
If love is what this can be.
82 · Jul 2019
Give her space?
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
They say give her space.
They say give her time.
But how do I do that?
Do I pass it with a rhyme?
Will she move on?
Will she find another love?
Where do I find my answers?
Do they come from above?
I'm scared it's not in my favor.
I'm hopeful she loves me the same.
I don't know what to trust.
All I know is my own shame.
I did wrong, I made mistakes
But how do I prove my worth?
I don't know where to turn,
Are my answers here on Earth?
If they are in the stars,
How do I possibly reach?
I don't know how to fly,
I just want the lessons they teach..
79 · Nov 2019
What if..
KatInMyHat Nov 2019
Feelings rush in like tides from a storm.
Regret fills your being
Like shattered glass in the homes of all those burdened.
Sharp edges poking at your core.
You feel alone despite everyone around you feeling the pain.
All you can do is wait for the storm to pass.
Clean up the mess and be thankful you're alive.
But you can't help but wonder, what if..
78 · Oct 2019
Curiosity Killed The Cat
KatInMyHat Oct 2019
Billowing and treacherous,
A cavern below the water,
Are you scared of the cats death,
Or is the curiosity enough,
To seek beyond the fear,
Of drowning
73 · Jul 2019
What is love?
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
What is love?
Is it something from above?
Is it something created or something found?
Is it here forever, or does it leave without a sound?
Is it the same for everyone? or is there an endless amount?
I thought I knew love, but does that even count?
How can I know the real from the not?
I thought I had it all, down to the dot.
Here I am, empty, she doesn't even care.
She is happy as can be, this isn't fair.
I gave my all, my heart, my soul,
This really hurts, man its gonna take a toll..
72 · Jul 2019
She just wants to fly
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
Way above the mountains,
Soaring through the sky,
Riding the air currents,
She just wants to fly.
Her wings are beautiful,
Her soul is so light,
Her smile is divine,
Her love is so right.
Her heart is so warm,
Her eyes so deep,
She is meant for the world,
Do I take the leap?
My feet are off the ground,
I decided to test my trust,
heart falling through the sky,
does she save it or will it bust?
Only time will tell,
She just wants to fly,
riding the air currents,
Soaring through the sky.
Way above the mountains,
gliding over the sea,
Floating like a butterfly,
stinging like a bee.
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
Can I go through it again? Can i bare the breaking of my heart?
What if i knew it was my fault? What if i know i did my part?
Will I change for the better? Or will I just keep going down?
Will I keep swimming and get to shore? Or does the water over take, as i begin to drown?
The current is getting stronger, I feel the water engulfing me whole,
My breath is running out, I can't seem to find which way to go.
Do i swim up to salvage the wreckage? Or do I accept defeat and fall into the slient abyss?
I dont know yet, but here is too you, maybe its in the end, its me you miss.
67 · Jul 2019
The art of heartbreak
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
Ever get that feeling,
That the end is near?
So calm and relaxed,
Your heart is all you hear,
Soothing you, keeping you calm,
Knowing it's going to break.
All you can do is trust,
The heart knows what it can take.
It's like I've know all along,
I've been preparing from the start,
Days go by and it's hard Everytime,
Heartbreak is a true form of art.
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
A million stars in the sky
A soul just trying to get by
Are you alone? or is it just me?
What happened to us? What happened to we?
I hate to say it, but ive made a mistake.
Now i have to pay in space and a break.
A million lights in the sky
My wish is on your star flying by
I wish I may I wish I might
become a man, and make things right
The strength of your love, and all your care
keeps me afloat, feeling safe beyond compare
A million sparkles in the sky
Her beautiful soul just wants to fly
Absorbing the cosmos and taste the milky way
Feeling love and connection without a word to say
63 · Jul 2019
My heart says go
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
The cards say wait,
My heart says go.
My mind says resist,
My intuition says no.
I'm running in circles,
I don't know what to follow,
The meanings are wholesome,
But my chest feels hollow.
They say time heals all,
But do I have the time?
How do I not rush it?
I just want to be in our prime.
63 · Jul 2019
Hello, Im a mirror
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
What do you see when you look in the mirror?
Do you like what you see?
Is the reflection beautiful and wholesome?
Or can you not bare what you have come to be?
Im so good at showing others what they can fix.
But what about me, what about my reflection?
Can someone show me my flaws and fix them?
Or do I live my life as a mirror of deception?
58 · Jul 2019
Can I get a clean slate?
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
What do I know?
What will it be?
Will I get it?
Will I see?
Will I understand,
Or will I break?
Do I give?
Or do I just take?
I want it balanced,
I want it pure,
I want to love you,
I want to endure.
Can you say the same?
What did our time mean?
Our slates may be *****,
But we can wipe it clean.
58 · Jul 2019
Who pulled the trigger?
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
Does she love me?
Does she not?
Does she hate me?
Have I been shot?
How did we get here?
Where did it go wrong?
I know I made mistakes,
I know I'm not strong.
How do I fix it?
Will you ever forgive?
I really did it this time
How do I even live?
52 · Sep 2023
You are an artist
KatInMyHat Sep 2023
She creates
She mistakes
She cries
She takes
But the murale is renowned
KatInMyHat Sep 2023
Even on the darkest of days,
The sun comes out beaming with rays.
Doesn't matter the reason for the frown,
The right thought will turn it upside down.
I miss you with a heart so cracked,
But I wear a smile, guarantee backed.
No matter the outcome of the past,
I'll always be grateful for what we amassed.
I'm thankful for everything you taught me,
If you ever need my love, its here for you unconditionally.
50 · Jul 2019
Mysterious minds
KatInMyHat Jul 2019
No matter how much you know someone, you will never know the them that they know. You will never know what their anxiety feels like, you will never know what love they feel. You can never understand things the way they understand things. You only get what your own self creates of the experiences you go through with that person. You begin to form this identity for that person. You begin to feel like you know that person in and out. You feel so strongly. You feel so confident. But what do you do when they present a quality that you dont know? A quality you dont know how to deal with? Do you still know them? Is it someone else? Is the person you know just burried behind what you see now? Or has the person changed? Can people change? Who knows. Only they know themselves. But how can you love, or trust, or get to know, or be content with knowing that person, and the image you have of them, without feeling insecure about it all the time? How do you prevent fall outs, or a change in your chemistry together? How do you fix it if things do become imbalanced? What makes people finally say, "Now is the time." Why is it easier to hide yourself from the ones you love, than to just let it all out? To tell people you aren't okay? Why do we have our own dark spaces in our own minds when we are supposed to be creatures of light and energy? If we are supposed to be open and forthcoming, and love everything around us, why can we create so much resentment and hate and close off every connection possible? The mind is a mysterious place. It is so astounding that through all these years, one of the biggest puzzles, is our own minds. We dont even know ourselves enough to heal our pains. To enjoy our highs. To open ourselves to anything. I struggle with understanding myself. Understanding why I feel the things i feel sometimes. The things i think of in others. Why cant I be a master of my own brain? My own thoughts and feelings? Am I just a voice in the head of this shell we call humans? Am I hear for the ride, or am I the pilot? Do I control the stupid things this body does? Do I control how this body feels things? Why does it feel like im in control, but then other times I dont. Why can I control it sometimes and things go great. But other its like my voice walks away and my shell goes on autopilot? Why does my voice run away and not show up for a while? What am I doing wrong? Why does life just feel like something I have to go through in order to get to the end of something? It feels so pointless, with no signs to feel otherwise. I know what love feels like. I know I love her. I love our kids. I love our time together. But what about myself? I know myself so well. Or atleast I think I do. But for some reason, loving myself doesnt have a good or bad feeling to it. Its almost like I dont feel it at all. But why does that matter? Isnt loving others what matters?
Less of a poem and more of a heart spill
50 · Sep 2023
April showers
KatInMyHat Sep 2023
You're the smell of rain on an April day,
The flowers blooming in the month of may,
You're the sun behind the clouds,
And the vibrations in the sounds.
Even though you're gone,
I've felt you all along.
The space next to me feels like you,
I'll never forget the sweet things you do,
I'll love you from afar,
One day ill be up to par.
I'll come to you as a better me,
My heart is what I hope you'll see.
Please don't ever forget.
Cuz I'm reminded of you with every sunset.
41 · Aug 2023
My calling?
KatInMyHat Aug 2023
I think I've found my calling,
Maybe I'm wrong, am I falling?
Right into the trap with the bait?
Distracted by all the fake love and forced hate?
What if my heart says I'm supposed to fix it all?
Does everyone feel like they were gifted with a reason to call?
The bluff is so deceptively truthful,
Streams of White lies by the mouthful.
I believe I'm here to turn the frowns upside down,
Here to be a guiding light, not messing around.
41 · Aug 2023
Blinded by the light
KatInMyHat Aug 2023
I don't know how to do this,
I don't know how to be.
I'm blinded by the light,
You're all that I see.
Smile so adorning,
Soul brighter than the sun.
Your love feels so pure,
Oh so badly, I want you to be the one.
34 · Aug 2023
Love, hate, fear
KatInMyHat Aug 2023
Love is living on valued energy
Hate is harboring aggressive tasteless energy,
Fear isĀ 
F everything and run
Or face everything and rise
KatInMyHat Jan 22
If love could have saved you,
We'd still be alive today,
If love was the life preserver,
You wouldn't have drowned that way.

Your mistrust and shallow beliefs,
Dragged you to the bottom of the sea,
Where your heart is forced to pay the toll,
Living within the deepest losses, never to break free.
30 · Aug 2023
Smile for the clouds
KatInMyHat Aug 2023
When it rains it pours..
With every cloudy day
is another chance to
remind someone of the sun
29 · Aug 2023
Space cruise
KatInMyHat Aug 2023
Throw me to the cosmos,
Let me drown in the stars,
Float through the infinite,
Maybe mosey around Mars.

Unfathomable galaxies to explore,
Stretches beyond your mind to implore,
Our hearts yearn for intimacy and depth,
The string of life, serving you until death.
27 · Jan 22
Dancing Flames
KatInMyHat Jan 22
Storms of love and resentment crash through the night,
A lonely candle light fighting for its life.
The wick flickers and wanes as the wind tests its resolve.
Can your flames of love withstand the might of Mother nature?
Or does your heart succumb to the forces of the unknown?
You'll only know, if your hope lies in the flame to burn through the night..
KatInMyHat Feb 25
Even in our distance,
It doesn't matter who you see,
I know you'll be looking,
for someone like me.

Because in my world,
I'll be looking for you,
With every woman I'm with,
In everything they do.


You came to me at nights end,
Because you loved it that way.
My comfort embracing you,
Knowing it would never fade away.

Running from our connection,
Our love and passion so overbearing,
But we will always look back,
Knowing our love, there was no comparing.
23 · Feb 17
Cupid's chaos
KatInMyHat Feb 17
Broken dreams and love gone stale,
Burning resentments roaring like wildfire,
Surrounded by chaos caused by cupid,
Or maybe the arrow never landed, she was just a liar.
21 · Mar 8
Because Of You
KatInMyHat Mar 8
You found me,
When I was finding myself,
Shortly after what felt like forever,
Falling from the shelf.

Just like a picture frame,
Moments from the past,
Shattering before you,
All the joys you've amassed.

But as I collected the pieces,
I found one, familiar but not known.
It fit somehow,
it felt like home.

Because of you,
I'm creating a work of art,
So one day I can show you,
Just how you've mended,
This man's broken heart.

— The End —