Tender scalps
swollen lips
numb fingers
and bruised hips
tooth and claw
tear tender flesh
tears fall
the pain fresh
fingers clasped
sobs and gasps
...breathe
           I can’t
a sigh heaved
incant soft whispers
mantras in darkness
Chaos, my lover.

Once in a while
I creep
into the catacombs
of my soul
just to see
to take a peek
(and sometimes feed)
the beast
that sleeps
so deep inside of me.

Once upon a time
I did not know how
to accept true love
I did not know how
to open myself.

My soul is on fire
smoking as it burns
but the smoke detector is lying
gutted and useless
on the cold cement floor

My heart is smoldering
crackling and shriveling
but all the water is dripping
bitter and filthy
on the cold cement floor

My sanity is decaying
oozing and slipping
sliding and trickling
and my mind is in the basket
lost forever
on the cold cement floor

Frigid wind
whips willing skin
change of seasons
Sensual overload

(10-2012)

Every bruise heals

every tear becomes salt

a new day will dawn

Painful bliss
feathery wings felt
yet unseen
Mental mountains
gorges
euphoric highs
lows
morbid in their
faerytale fantasie

I am aware
of your
used acrid air
heavenly
on my skin
your flesh grinding
my brittle bones
Slick secretions slip
like liquid rotting fruit
gagging me, infesting my being

Your death is weaving
cold and desire charged through
my straining ribs
wrapping frost-bitten fingers around
my coal-pitted heart

-paralysis-

We are immortalized
together
I am forever stained
with your essence

Singular  collection    
          individuality
         invites cutting
high strung and stressed out
        beliefs
            images
                 words
          tainted with the
            personality
                       and fad
        of what we believe
          Now forgotten…
       And I see that I hear
        a violated form of
                silent
          communication

I am the open book

         no one bothers to read

I am the shoulder

         no one needs to cry on

I am the mind

         no one wants to be inside

I am the voice

         no one yearns to hear

I am the presence

         no one knows is missing

(11-2012)

Delicate Glass
  Mirrored Razor
Angles Random
        Harsh…

  I Take Comfort
         in the
     Fragments  
                        
     I Find Shelter
           in the
        Disorder

  I Seek Awareness
         in the
      Madness
                              
  A Fragile Serenity
    purchased with
         Blood.