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Julieann Jonson Jan 2019
Today I had a tough day
A day I can’t decide how I feel
A day I was once looking forward to

Today I am nervous
Nervous that you read my poem
Nervous about how you felt if you did

Today I tried to hide
Hide from you finding out the truth
Hiding the way you make my cheeks hurt from smiling

Today my body ached
My fingers tingled with the touch of your cold hands
My stomach felt odd for I know was butterflies

Today I lied
I lied about my feelings
I lied about my answers

Today I was jealous
Jealous of your friendships
Jealous of how you don’t feel the way I feel?

Today I am sorry
Sorry for bothering you
Sorry for feeling and acting the way I do when around you

Today I wish I wasn’t me
Julieann Jonson Jan 2019
Dreaming
Dreaming about you
Dreaming about us
Dreaming about what it would be like to be with you

Wishing I could stay asleep

Dreaming about our lips touching
Dreaming about our hands interlocking
Dreaming about you holding me close
Dreaming about you never letting go

Wishing not to wake up

Dreaming about looking up into your eyes
Dreaming about you looking into mine
Dreaming about your shy smile
Dreaming about the way your voice sounds when you say my name

Wishing to sleep forever

Dreaming about the way you make me laugh
Dreaming about your laugh
Dreaming about our conversations
Dreaming about everything

Wishing not to wake up
Wishing this was more than just a dream

I am awake
I am no longer dreaming
No longer dreaming of you

Wishing I was dreaming of you
Wishing this wasn’t just a dream
Julieann Jonson Jan 2019
Falling hard for things I should not
Falling for happiness
Falling for something that will never exist
Falling for you
I am falling
Feeling things that I should not
Feeling content when around you
Feeling guilty for feeling those feelings
Feeling that I truly have fallen for you
I am feeling
Failing...
Failing at hiding my emotions
I am failing
Failing to see if what I am feeling may be wrong
I am failing to see if you feel the same
Do you feel the same?
Falling and feeling free when I am around you
Am I wrong for feeling free?
Freer then I’ve ever felt before
You make falling and failing feel so freeing
I am falling
I am feeling
I am failing, but above all
I am Free.
Julieann Jonson Jan 2019
Tall, handsome, sweet and shy
Looking into those eyes like the sea
How I wish I could kiss those lips sweeter then tea
Butterflies come around everytime you are near
Can’t help myself from smiling ear to ear
Blushing at every word you speak
A feeling I’ve truly never felt before
May it just be me, all in my head
These questions we ask each other?
Remembering each day that age is just a number
To shy to say what I am really feeling
So I say to you a good day and good evening

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