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Jennifer Jun 2019
If you are my heroine, he is my family
Begging me to stop
“You are better than this”
“You deserve so much more”
“I can love you better”
I see the truth in his words but you are my heroine.
I can not stop
I will shoot you up every chance I get
Reason will not penetrate these walls
You are my heroine
I will overdose on you with bittersweet pleasure
Jennifer Jul 2019
And I thought I was so strong. That I was better now. That I could indulge myself. That coming to see you wouldn’t set me back. But here I am drowning my wits in alcohol and my heart in you. Always it’s you and my tears fall as wet as they always have.....
Jennifer Apr 2020
I can let you spoon feed me your feelings dipped in sugar until I am choking on them
My easy smile will carry you broken into tomorrow
And maybe
Just for today
That can be enough
Jennifer Mar 2020
If you are dripping with light
I am dripping with colors
I am breathing in rainbows
I can feel every color and it is brilliantly deafening
Come here and I will paint your feelings beautiful
Take my hand and feel everything in color
Jennifer Aug 2019
You can try to stay away from me
    And me from you
But it is like trying to hold the ocean back from the shore
Eventually you will come crashing into me
I will be covered in you and I am afraid this is how it will always be
Me
Drowning
In you......
Jennifer May 2019
Oh how sweetly you weave lies into a straight jacket for my mind.....
Jennifer Jul 2019
The words on the page were like taking a picture of the way a moment felt
Can you feel it?
Read the words
Close your eyes
Let me fill you with words
Jennifer Jul 2019
The way I love you fills empty spaces I didn’t know I had
seceip noillim a otni em skaerb uoy evol I yaw ehT
I want to come home to you, I want your name and your ring
ytpme em tfel dna trapa em deppir evah uoy gurd a ekiL
Before you I never understood why a person would choose to build a life with someone
yako ton si uoy evol I yaw ehT
Jennifer Nov 2020
Sweet gentle girl
Learn to chase happiness with the same enthusiasm you use to chase heartbreak
Feed your soul sunshine instead of shadows and see what new things grow.....
Jennifer May 2020
Most people just want something pretty even if it’s fake.
Not me.
I want a mess.
Let me take your hand so we can jump off sea side cliffs together.
I want to set the world on fire,
I want to kiss in the rain and skinny dip in the ocean under the stars.
Let’s embrace the mess that is life and finger paint rainbows in the sky with our passion
Jennifer Jul 2019
Do not give me someone with an unbroken heart
Give me someone who has felt the shadows
Let me be the one who fills the cracks with sunlight
Let me remind them what it feels like to be loved
Jennifer Mar 2020
Oh beautiful boy,
You shatter sweet girls so elegantly

An exquisite dance of take and take

Lift her up
Spin her around
Make her believe she can fly

When she opens her eyes she will be surprised to find herself on an empty stage
Jennifer May 2019
Light pours out of you in waterfalls
You are dripping with it
Leaving puddles of brilliance in your wake
Most people are blinded by it
But I am drawn to the light
Like a moth to a flame
Jennifer Apr 2020
Isn’t it magic? The unspoken attraction between two people. The invisible magnet pulling you closer together until there is no space at all. Even the passing of time can’t change that kind of magic
Jennifer May 2019
I am an artist and words are my medium. I can write you any feeling you please. The feelings are splattered all over me like paint. You can’t see, but I’m covered in them. If you prefer, I can speak you a masterpiece instead? Like a sculptor I can twist words into whatever lie you’d like to buy.....
Jennifer Jul 2019
Sometimes all the space around me is so infinite I can’t even feel it’s edges
It’s just me and all this space
Coffee and space.
Lunch and space.
A book and space.
I fill so little of it
I just know that all of the empty space is  slowly leaking  into me and filling me empty
Jennifer May 2019
I
Don’t
Want to
But I miss you
I miss you simply
And I miss you complexly
I shouldn’t
I have no right
You can not be mine to miss
I know this
I KNOW THIS
Each moment was stolen
I knew I couldn’t keep them
It just wasn’t supposed to hurt so much
To give them back
Jennifer May 2019
You all say such nice things to me
Such pretty empty words
Paint me beautiful with compliments
But underneath all the colors run together
And it’s just a mess
Keep your sweet words
Give me something real
I am drowning and you are throwing flower petals at me
Jennifer May 2019
And when I met you
       I had no idea
That all the seemingly small moments
Would collect like raindrops in a storm

        I didn’t event stand a chance

Swept away

         But ,oh, the ride was beautiful
Jennifer Apr 2020
I
Dont
Want
To
Be
In
Pieces
Anymore
Jennifer Apr 2020
It was not my intention to let you become important to me. If I was paying attention you would be dust in the wind, but you caught me unaware and now I want you to stay
Jennifer Jul 2019
My bed smells like you and it makes me
smile
I wish it could always be this way
Waking up in a tangle of you
Jennifer Apr 2020
I fell in love
        On Tuesday
               Then you laughed
                        at my mistake
                                 On Thursday
Jennifer Apr 2020
You spin plain words into beautiful poetry and it falls gracefully around me
I pay you with a smile and for a sweet moment I let myself drink it in and feel it’s warmth
The early sun will sober me up, though
Stupid girl, the morning will say
Pretty words are like summer snow and their beauty isn’t meant to stick
Jennifer Apr 2020
The night brings a heaviness I can’t escape.

               As the sun goes down

                the demons come up
    Please sleep get to me before they do....
Jennifer Mar 2020
Come distract me from my messy mind
Make me feel whole for one stolen moment
Wrap me in all your warmth
Stay gently and not too long
Leave with the dawn so I don’t miss you in the light
Jennifer Jul 2019
The morning spills
    over you
             You look so peaceful
         in its light
                     I wish I could let you
                          stay like this
                                     In the light
                          you are beautiful
                                        with the early sun
                                dancing across your
                                                sleepy smile
Jennifer May 2019
Love is not the beautiful
                 fairytale I was told
It is crazy highs and lows
                  that leave me dizzy and sick
I am laughing and crying
                   and on my knees
It fills me and empties me completely
                   and I am so tired
Jennifer Jun 2019
You are the story I  will
tell my grandchildren
The boy who showed
up out of nowhere
Who showed me
who I could be and
taught me I was
worth fighting for
The boy who spoke
in song lyrics and movie quotes
who got my everything
without even asking
The story about falling
for someone you could never
fully have and learning to
find peace in that...
Jennifer Jul 2019
Then suddenly the storm ended
  
The chaos was over

The sun came out and shed it’s light on all the wreckage

It made the tears running down my cheeks sparkle like diamonds
Jennifer Mar 2020
I pick up a pen like some pick up a razor blade.
I pull the pen across paper and watch my emotions spread liquid and black across a sea of delicate white.
I can’t pick which ones I’m feeling.
I do not have that talent.
It’s all or nothing and it’s crippling.
For me it’s not a hobby.
It’s a compulsion, a release.
You are reading my self inflicted scars and calling it art.
Jennifer May 2019
Kiss me when you’re sober

Touch me in the light

Shhhhhh they might be watching


So you’re only mine at night
Jennifer Mar 2020
Build me castles made of empty promises
like everyone else and I will use your lies like bricks to build walls
Jennifer May 2020
You walk around handing out compliments like flowers
You throw sweet smelling bouquets at me until I am covered in a rainbow of petals
Sweet empty boy
Keep your flowers
I will not fall at your feet simply because you spoke to me
Show me the mess you keep hidden and the weeds choking your mind
Jennifer May 2019
I’d rather you throw words at me like rocks than use your tongue to forge chains

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