I position myself here
Between you and fear
The middle ground
This is where I can be found
Every time I get to close to you
I’m reminded of reasons to be in fear
Reasons To stay clear
Every time I turn to run
your eyes bring me back to you
The honesty I crave make it so hard to turn away.
The middle ground is where I must
Stay
How long must I lay
Eyes looking both way
How long do I stay,
Here
On this middle ground

It’s complicated
And with complicated
Comes complicated answers
And Complicated reasons
Which form complicated solutions
In the form of complicated plans
All of this causes Complicated feelings
with a complicated road to healing
complicated better be worth it dealing
With all these feelings I’m feeling

This person I knew
Couldn’t do these things
I learnt of you
This person I knew
Wouldn’t do these things
I learnt of you
This person I knew
Wasn’t you
This person she knew
Wasn’t you
And now you are new
Is this you?
Who are you?
I don’t have a clue
I hope this is you
How can you stop
This happening again
When you don’t know
How it began
Why you turned from me
To her without any care
You even cut you hair
All of this isn’t fair
Why didn’t you care?

I just can’t get out my head
How you took her to bed
You say you were easily lead
But it was you that chose to get into bed
It was you that Packed your bag and left
Left me crying in the bath
While you went out to have a laugh
Plans of roasts, walks along the coast
I heard you said all the right things
What are these things you said
To try and get her to bed with
Aims of a kiss followed by bliss
How did I miss all this?

I still can’t get my head around all this

We both were seeing a different man.
She was told she’d always been the “one”
What does that make me a two or maybe three?
Either way he never said that to me.
There was never talk of holiday plans
Marriage or Prams
I’m told the plans were for two
Yet I didn’t have a clue.
All of this he chose to hide
And I was taken for a ride
I still can’t decide what’s right and wrong
But the evidence shows that the feelings were strong.
If she didn’t end it and be so mean
I think he may be just as keen.
Asking to see her more
Sickens me right through the core
I don’t know if I can take any more

It is not weak to act with compassion
It’s not weak and understand,
And try and get the upper hand
It’s not weak to live trying to forgive
And It is not always weak to stay,
instead of just walking away
All of this shows strength and
I can hold my head up high
As all I’m ever asking is why
To understand and learn
Instead of just feeling the burn
It doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt
But that’s no reason to be curt
Compassion is the way through this
And it’s the only way I know
But this is how I Grow and grow and grow

I am only doing what I think is right
Not everything is black and white
And yes it’s true
I may not have a clue
But please let me do
What I need to do
To find my own way through