The rather reckless thought in her mind
Implanted in her by the constant chatter between us
The chatter that is all about how deep I long for her
The chatter that makes me a lover unafraid of the sacrifices I have to endure to make her a part of me
The words, the gestures and the whispers are just a hammer forged for a very purpose
The purpose of striking the intends of mine deep down into her

With the passage of time we drifted apart
Neither forced nor built upon the bitterness of our bond, but rather a natural action
We drifted so far from each other that we wake up as strangers
The influence of each other has totally been wiped
For others to take the place where she dwelled was no tedious task
She is nothing but a person of the past

Now a mysterious thought keeps my eyes wide open at dusk
The chatters of the past always have a beginning, a time of ultimate joy and an end regardless of the individual I  happen to share these moments
These questions arises within me, questions that are truly unfruitful
Did she ever matter to me?
Was it her I longed or the chatter of getting to understand her better?
When we grew apart did I ever miss her?
Or was it the need for the constant chatter?
Was this an infatuation that I had or was it just her initial charm that failed to excite me as the seasons passed?

Unsettling thoughts are all I have left and questions that I fail to answer
My mind battles itself to understand whether I was the only heartless or was it her as well
In this toxic cycle of unfaithfulness and chatter only to charm the other
Was I the one in wrong all along?
Or is she no different from me in this cycle of deviousness

One gloomy day is all that took to find you
Sharing our stories and bonding with the progression of time
Our moral connection strengthening and there is nothing that we together can't go through
So interdependent in each other to find that mutual bliss

I knew everything about you and you about me
But we were just confined to the virtual world
Experiencing each others presence in the mortal realm was our everyday chatter
We finally found time to make that dream a possibility and struck with excitement, we rested

The next morning I woke up, so merry to finally meet you
To my greatest fear you seem no where to be found
Your identity is non-existent, you disappeared from the face of all social matrix and your so called friends seemed something out of a fairy tale
Heartbroken and left alone, going through an alienated feeling which is severely hard to express

I thought and thought about our memories, an odd yet controversial thought
How can a mortal just fade away from your life in an instance?
Is it cause you're carried away by the hardships faced by a teen or am I one among the party of virtual friends who are bewildered by your disappearance
Made me question my virtual bonds and the many virtual beings that shaped my life

The skies were bright and the vegetation so green
Whispers from the grown and infants were heard aloud
The slow breeze submerged with joy blew far and wide
The miseries of man travelled like an uncertain tide

Then it came so calm and mellow at first
The mortals underestimating it's might lived with no fear
It knocked on doors and took the elders and the young with such ease
It grew on them and consumed their souls till they were just bodies left in the cold to freeze

The bravest of men fought like the knights at war
The weak had fallen to the grim reapers arms
The joys were faded and the moralities were torn
Earth was was ****** and left to scorn

It erased the desires of men which burned like the flaming sun
The place they called home turned into their tomb
To those who walked it's hardest road
It thought beauty of life is so far fetched yet so broad

The night is all black
And I feel that I've lost track
I'm all alone
And this loneliness gets my heart torn


I keep walking and it feels like I'm back in the same place
I could feel my heartbeat, resonating in me like a thumping bass
Don't know where I'm heading and how I'm gonna survive
The time for me to leave has come and I feel less alive


When everything seems lost I spot a teeny amount of light
In this darkness it shined really bright
As I got closer I figured it was a firefly
I've found something which will help me survive though it's smaller than my eye


It was there ahead of me showing me the way
In its I felt gay
Though it was tiny it had a huge soul
It's light faded away when I reached my goal

I wish I had a chance to go back
To the days where I was a child
Those days where I never kept track
And where I used to see the dreams which are wild


I want to go back to those days again
Where the consequences of my actions were not much to be taken care
My sins would wash away like the dust after the first rain
And I was relieved of the troubles an adolescence had to bear


When I was experiencing childhood little did I know I would grow up so fast
And undergo a sudden shift in my perspective and views
Looking back at those days I'm astonished to know all my childly experiences are past
Memories about the forgotten episodes is like an ocean of happiness where I would want to cruise


Time is like a glacier and glaciers don't go around
I want to do wonders so that in the future I can look back at myself with happiness mount
My past should be my company when there's no one around
I should start acting on the present cause every action count

Love isn't meant to be searched they say
No matter the obstacle your lover will always find a way
These feeling crawled inside me when I saw you far away
My eyes were fixed on you and everything else around seemed grey
I took my eyes of you and you disappeared and all I can feel is my heart tending to sway


I didn't know who you were and wether you've seen me stare
Into your eyes and I could feel a strong flare
But now you're nowhere to be found and the pain is something I couldn't bare
Hope is something which I wouldn't give up and I stood still and felt the air
Flow all over me and I knew that I should find you though another chance of seeing you is so rare


I looked for you in the depths of the ocean to the peak of the mountains so high
In the whispering medows and the deserts so dry
In the forests so dark and in the extremes of the deep blue sky
Searching in the midst of dusk till the end of dawn I wondered wether your beauty was a lie
I knew I couldn't go much further in my search for your love and I could never sigh


When all hopes were lost you came upto me out of the blue
You talked to me like I was someone you knew
After hearing your voice I was sure that there is no other girl for me than you
You gave me all this hope then you told that your lover is waiting for you and flew
I thought you were the one but all this time there was someone else for you and you left me with no clue

An ordinary girl they say
But she was something more
Her subtle smile made them gay
And she was hard to ignore

Look her in the eye and see it gleam
She's seems to be the princess for the bravest knight
Winning her love is any man's dream
It's going to strike you faster than a beam of light

That slightly faded streak of green in her hair
Made it hard to let her go
She shined more than the brightest flare
She's fairer than the mid winter snow

She can melt the toughest heart even if, it is made of stone
Seeing her pass by you might feel that you've skipped a heart beat
Her love is something which is very hard to own
And her love will make your life complete