I see that you keep on trying
But I told you that you’ll never
Find somebody again like me
So why you trying to fight it

With me you had the real thing
Oh dang that’s such a shame
You had to play your games
And now that you do realize it
Trying to find someone like me

It could have been so great
But your ego went so crazed
And you said that I am crazy
Now where are you at lately

With me you had the real thing
Oh dang that’s such a shame
You had to play your games
And now that you do realize it
Trying to find someone like me

They all want me oh so bad
But they’ll never love me, sad
But your chance you done had

With me you had the real thing
Oh dang that’s such a shame
You had to play your games
And now that you do realize it
Trying to find someone like me

You make me feel special
Without gifts or even words
All just with our body language
No three letters getting you confused

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

It starts with the way you look into my eyes
You seeing just what is on my mind
The way you gently touch my skin
And know just what I am feeling

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

Suspense feeling so high
I don’t wanna come down

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

You would understand
Why I won’t take your hand
If you knew my indiscretions
From the lovers to the friends
And along came the judgements
From the most loved ones
But all I could do was land
So I came down to my sanity
And here you are, to rescue me
Make me feel human again
To have me matter once again

I’m always walking a thin line of my sanity
Wondering what’s going to cause volcanity
Starting up the profanity, a mess of humanity
Everyone caught up in their mundanity and vanity
It’s all insanity, as they uttered inanities
The mess is immanity, we need urbanity

Permanently looking for peace
Temporary couldn’t last a week
Sincerely, I didn’t even have to think
I guess in the moment I was weak

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

Couldn’t tell me any different
Made up my mind in an instant
Put my thoughts to the distance
Made sure there was no mentioning it

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

If I begged for forgiveness
Would I get other chances
Now it’s only ***** glances
But I had to take my stance

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

She’s too pretty to be sad
What kinda waste is that?
She’s too beautiful to have scars
But there’s hurt beyond those marks
They don’t understand at all
Silence brought her to these parts
Something cut her way too deep
So she just did it along the way, too
Yet she keeps standing on her feet
There’s a reason to her madness
It’s that she has not forgotten
These scars speak from the soul
She is still just as beautiful

I’ve always taken care of everybody
I was always put in charge of situations
I played “mommy” on every occasion
But when you’re down and out ...
They forgot

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

I used to be sad about losing each one of you
But I don’t cry anymore like a past life and I’m now new
I’m angry that I was clearly always used
20/20 vision looking back but I’ll pretend we never met
No more feelings left in me much longer to show and shed
I forget...

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

***** you for taking me for granted
***** you, making me second think
And ***** your for making me care

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

Engage me with your mind
****** me with your actions
Give me a portion of your time
Make up for what you’re lacking
Capture me with all your ideas
My needs, you should be hacking
Comfort me through my fears
Don’t dare ever leave me in tears
Later, take your time, do it right
Make sure that I’m screaming
Your name all through the night
Leave me yearning for more
Don’t let me down or bore
Show me what you mean
And tell what what I need

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

I went through a lot of hell just to get here
Won’t let you negate that I’m getting there
You can’t lie or belittle me now
I will not let myself down anyhow

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
an image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
one thing from me

You think you’re right and true
Well, I get an opinion for you
You give out falsified news
So take that trap away, too

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

I see more and more clearer
Nothing fogging my mirror

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

I must be insane, doing things
Expecting something else
Thinking it’ll all go well, this time
Just maybe it will all be fine
Said you would always be there
But now I see that you don’t care

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

Sick and tired of being tired and sick
You never understood what I struggle with
Right next to you, I am all alone
And I gave up on you long ago
You did not think I’d be okay
But I’m better without you, anyway

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

It is time for the harvest
You see, I got passed it

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed that would grow from your
Negativity, because I believed in me
I am so over your *******, you see

I must be insane, doing things
Expecting something else, I need help,
Thinking it’d all go well, this time
Saying maybe it would all be fine
You said you’d always be there
But I see you never even cared

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed that would grow from your
Negativity, because I believed in me
I am so over your *******, you see

Sick and tired of being tired and sick
You never understood what I struggle with
Being right next to you, I was all alone
I gave up on you, oh so long ago
You didn’t think I would be okay
But I’m better without you, I’d say

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed that would grow from your
Negativity, because I believed in me
I am so over your *******, you see

It is time for the harvest
I am all done charging

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed that would grow from your
Negativity, because I believed in me
I am so over your *******, you see

I don’t know water that’s crystal blue
To completely lose myself into
I don’t know snowcapped mountains too
How about, what about you?

Serenity isn’t a place I know
It’s somewhere I never go
Serenity isn’t a thing for me
It’s a place that I’ll never be
My spot will never be serine
It’s just a space I’ll never see

I don’t know city lights so bright
Never seen the Grand Canyon in sight
I don’t know grass green and tall
A farm life, that is free for all

Serenity isn’t a place I know
It’s somewhere I never go
Serenity isn’t a thing for me
It’s a place that I’ll never be
My spot will never be serine
It’s just a space I’ll never see

I don’t know heaven
But I wish they’d let me

Serenity isn’t a place I know
It’s somewhere I never go
Serenity isn’t a thing for me
It’s a place that I’ll never be
My spot will never be serine
It’s just a space I’ll never see

Why did I ever try to settle?
It’s better on my own level
Like wearing my Rose Quartz
And loving myself a lot more

The full moon has arrived,
Again, and so has my pride
My wings are finally in sight
And I am eager to take flight

My shell holds me like a cell  
But my soul burns hot like hell  
Only, it is too holy to hold back
So now we work together, respect

I wash the day away with Selenite
I feel myself letting go, starting over
Starting fresh and getting a new try
Another day, go on, I find my way

And I may be the “crazy one”
That’s fine, at least now my
Chakras are aligned; like you’re fine  
So for the haters, I have no time

I see her in the mirror, even shards shattered
It’s the real girl and she’s not smiling there
She needs a sign of acceptance
That she’s not getting quick enough
First she must learn to love herself
Nurture the soul and kiss the heart
Then she will find she’s enough

Inside her mind screaming her lungs out
But poised on the outside showing no doubt
She has had to give up so much that it *****
But keeps on moving and testing her luck  
She doesn’t ask for much, just give her your touch
Help out by being available while she nurtures the soul
Kisses the heart and no longer comes apart

Within the shards she cries a lot
She can’t see what she’s actually got
Too busy smiling on the outside
She feels life is passing her by
The mirrored pieces tell no lies
The healing process isn’t too far
Nurture the soul and kiss the heart

I thought you were the sun and moon
Thought I was everything to you
Now I realize
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

I took too much time sit and to wallow
Looking back you were tough to swallow
Said you fell so fast
And I shouldn’t have followed
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

Had it all, was managing fine
This was a first in my life
As a matter of fact then
You were the only to make me cry
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

I won’t be silent anymore
I won’t take the BS one more time
I am still the same sweetheart inside
But, I will say what is on my mind
Because I was once told,
“If you stand for nothing, you will fall for anything”
From a patient of mine and a good remind
It’s hanging on my wall, now I understand
I now demand nothing but respect for myself
And I know where I stand, I won’t be silent ever again
I am who I am, but not who you say I am

Said he’d be there at eight
Showed up an hour late, then
Said this wasn’t a real date

Leaves turn to snow on the ground
Ice springs up flowers all around
The beach waves flow up and down
Everything changes but that silly clown

Went around bragging to friends
How he’d hit it then quit it again
Then later try to make amends

Leaves turn to snow on the ground
Ice springs up flowers all around
The beach waves flow up and down
Everything changes but that silly clown

Every clown has their day
Sorry, yours ain’t here to stay

Leaves turn to snow on the ground
Ice springs up flowers all around
The beach waves flow up and down
Everything changes but that silly clown

Six years ago, what we had was gold
But I guess for you, it eventually got old
So today you cut me loose, left confused
Looking back, you were right though
Because I no longer even miss you

I look and see the signs, trying to survive
I would get by as you held on for dear life
Was quite the times, must have been blind
To ever believe, you were the one for me
So I guess I’m okay, our love is deceased

Too bad you ended things, in a ****** way
A cheater forever, if a cheater that day
Now I know you were never the best
And I’m glad you left, even unexpected
You had some nerve, but that’s six years old

What a nutcase, her life is so fake
Afraid of anyone that comes by
Because she has so much to hide
Those who love the net but are
Extra private and also so hidden
Can’t keep up with all their lies
If they do slip up and complain
They just hit delete and pretend
It never happened in real life even

Only living through the Internet
Dishonest even with themselves
All about what people see and think
Making up a whole life on social media
Only posting things telling perfection
Even though we know their skeletons
Being too honest is one thing to hate
Then there’s pretend, how pathetic
And the ones with the most drama

I don’t see this with guys
They just simply keep quiet
Even though they are often
Still caught in all of their lies
Cheating; on social media sites
Found out usually all thanks to
The other female just making sure
That within his world’s concern
She has made herself fully known

You can say you traveled the world
Have only all the perfect pictures
Of you and showing off your loving
Boyfriend, kids, or even the hubby
Never fighting, never discouraged
Eventually they may believe it too
Even when everyone knows the truth
But lets them stay in their world

We are all guilty at times of parts
But most don’t take things so far
Because life still goes on off of there
And living IS about going up and down
Doesn’t mean airing all your soap opera
It’s a out being you; perfect is not real
And neither have been these people
So I always ask, what’s the point?

I took for granted the time that we had
Truth is I was nervous, liked him so **** bad
I made some mistakes, then he went away
But here he is, I feel it must be within fate
So here I am, I am going to wait and wait

I want him so **** bad
But he makes me so mad
Guess a hint I should’ve had
And be glad with any contact
But instead I’m determined
I’ll keep trying even though sad
I’ll have my way, patient to stay

Why can’t he see that I am different?
I’m not like the ones he has spent
Dealing with all of the others craziness
I know it’s hard, but he should give a chance
Twice is nice, we are older and more wise

I want him so **** bad
But he makes me so mad
Guess a hint I should’ve had
And be glad with any contact
But instead I’m determined
I’ll keep trying even though sad
I’ll have my way, patient to stay

Anyone would tell me to let it go like my Queen Elsa
But I’m stuck on ya ‘cause I feel love

I want him so **** bad
But he makes me so mad
Guess a hint I should’ve had
And be glad with any contact
But instead I’m determined
I’ll keep trying even though sad
I’ll have my way, patient to stay

Thought my chances for love
Were already gone and done
Then you came along so quickly
And changed everything for me

I finally knew without a doubt
What all the fuss was about
I had everything I could need
Until the day you left me

Someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, it will be all too late

Some people never experience
Such an amazing connection
Like loving each others quirks
Fitting in your arms just perfect

And enjoying the same interests
Sharing compassion and patience
Feeling comfortable; amazing ***
But you just pushed it away forever

Someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, it will be all too late

I would have stood by your side
Through anything and give you time
But you chose to run away and hide
While ripping apart my whole life

So, someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, I know, you’ll be too late

Somewhere down this long road
We all changed and stopped caring
And it can hurt deep inside to know
Wanting to try is wasting your time

But life has all different stops
And people’s paths will move on
Going in all different directions
Than the one you have traveled

Just have to learn to let go
Remember all of the good
Accept things weren’t meant
To stay where you once stood
Sure, it’s going to cause hurt
And while some have gone
Please remember others come

Feeling it deep inside your soul
But the others can’t see the toll
Have to accept what’s now known
Life has shifted each one’s course

Maybe no one even changed
It could only seems that way
Since things are so different
But it doesn’t stop the ache

Just have to learn to let go
Remember all of the good
Accept things weren’t meant
To stay where you once stood
Sure, it’s going to cause hurt
And while some have gone
Please remember others come

You can try to fight it all
But even you probably have
Forgotten to make some calls
Things naturally grow apart

But while some have gone
Remember the very great,
New ones that have come

I locked me away inside
Looking back at my life
Wondering why, oh, why

You perpetuated the situation
Kept me waiting with confrontation
Had me staying so outrageous
Until I finally I said no more, baby

I don’t want to be that girl
Crying on the bathroom floor
Looking for a way out doors

You perpetuated the situation
Kept me waiting with confrontation
Had me staying so outrageous
Until I finally I said no more, baby

I finally found my freedom
Letting go of the bums

You perpetuated the situation
Kept me waiting with confrontation
Had me staying so outrageous
Until I finally I said no more, baby

So young and vulnerable,
things are rushing by so quick
Still too naive to understand it,
but that changes nothing

Don’t let anyone dull your affect
Shine just like you should, Starlet
It’s not their business, it’s your life
To live and not regret, rise Starlet
All day putting on a smile, but secretly every night crying
After all if you spoke up, no one would understand your pain

You’ve been strong for so long
So shine away now, Starlet
Make all of your own decisions
You’re the one living it, Starlet
Take hold, no looking back
Focus on your own track

Then you’ll be where you belong
Straight to the very top, Starlet
Your tears are dry and gone
You showed them you’re strong

Because you never gave up
Starlet, so bright, just shine
It is due time, you are a Star

I’ve spent so many of my nights
Wondering how you and I died
I know it was there, the love
However, it just was not enough

Stay with me, don’t go away
Be close, don’t you go astray
Love me, just like you used to
That’s what I need you to do

I try to forget you but I fall
Back into a trance of it all
I can’t stand to let you go
And I will let anyone know

Stay with me, don’t go away
Be close, don’t you go astray
Love me, just like you used to
That’s what I need you to do

Okay, so I guess we may be really gone
They say someone new will come along
Yet I still long...

Stay with me, don’t go away
Be close, don’t you go astray
Love me, just like you used to
That’s what I need you to do

What I wanted more than ever
Was you stay with me forever
Save me from the tide in my life
And do it for me just in time

The rain pours, the hail forms
My life is a serious series of storm
If you're really afraid of thunder
Beware that it always will form
Lightening will make you question
If you are safe in my direction

I guess I was just living a lie
I’m really all alone these times
But I still can’t get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to do any of it right

The rain pours, the hail forms
My life is a serious series of storm
If you're really afraid of thunder
Beware that it always will form
Lightening will make you question
If you are safe in my direction

If you fear the storm forming
Don’t dance with me while storming

The rain pours, the hail forms
My life is a serious series of storm
If you're really afraid of thunder
Beware that it always will form
Lightening will make you question
If you are safe in my direction

There is a rain cloud sitting just above, fogging my judgement quite enough
I need my umbrella, until the sun breaks through this stormy weather
And my colors shine brighter, than my dark side could ever
Through snow, ice, or sleet, I won’t settle for defeat by being weak
There is a rain cloud sitting just above, fogging my judgement quite enough
I need my umbrella, until a rainbow appears above, giving me a break, showing love

I always have gotten kicked down
I have always been talked about
But each time I got on back up
Proved each naysayer wrong
Showing how strong I really was

But I’m afraid that this time
I won’t win this continuous fight
My life’s been at a complete stop
For the longest period ever now
And on how, I don’t see any way out

I swear there is no hate or resentment
I watch through others what I’m missing
The love and fun in my home states sun
Living to the full, I don’t have the control
I can feel my crying, entrapped soul dying  

It must be better than feeling stuck
Am I a curse or is it just random “luck?”
I would like to keep hold of some hope
But I feel as if I’m just in someone’s joke
Am I strong enough to release the cuffs

Destruction to form creation
Beauty out from chaos
That’s nature’s way of life
Starting again for newness
Never forgetting the memories
Now loving what was hated
No longer feeling jaded
Sacrifice has been beautiful
It has cleansed everything anew
Undeniable is the admittance
Strength is the commitment
Admirable after the struggle
Better this time than the other

As the breeze passes, I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp, as I really start to fly
Lean back and swing, into a fantasy
Images in my head, swaying
Daydreaming, no where else to be

Free from doubt, free from insecurity
Like your love, like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you, free from me

Too elusive to catch, yet try if you must
You’ll get near and think that you’ve won
But don’t joy in haste, as soon as you think
You’ve won, I’ll be gone in a different pace
If I comes by my own lot, you got me caught

Until then, I will swing away
Free from life, free from everything
And the demons, like the untamed
Like the crashing waves, free from society

As the breeze passes, I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp, as I really start to fly
Lean back and swing, into a fantasy
Images in my head, swaying
Daydreaming, no where else to be

As the breeze passes
I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp
As I really start to fly
Lean back and swing
My way into a fantasy
Images in my head swaying
Daydreaming
No where else to be
Simplicity and happy

I love you and promise you this
You’re going to be my last kiss
Never worry sweating the small stuff
You’ll never have to fear not enough

Take me away, darling, to the moon
I’m going to let your love consume
Others will be telling us to get a room
But it’s just love, it’s not promiscuous

I promise to never take you for granted
I’ll never give you a reason to go frantic
Never worry about my feelings leaving
I promise nothing here is deceiving

Take me away, darling, to the moon
I’m going to let your love consume
Others will be telling us to get a room
But it’s just love, it’s not promiscuous

Im not perfect but I’m perfect for you
Once things begin, you’ll see it too

Take me away, darling, to the moon
I’m going to let your love consume
Others will be telling us to get a room
But it’s just love, it’s not promiscuous

I see you living your life
As with me you stay quiet
I don’t understand your absence
I don’t understand your silence  
Only to come to me when you give up
I guess it’s you and not just my luck
You never did take me seriously
Gave everyone a chance but me
Yet you keep coming back anyway, endlessly
Tell me why, what do you seek of me?
What am I supposed to be, tell me?

Sometimes I take advantage
Of all your kindness that’s given
I forget that you’re also only human
I apologize to infinity if I ever was
Unfair or demanding to you ‘cause

You’re the best person I know
I could not love you any more
Than I already do, so thank you
For just being you and all you do
Which is a lot, it’s not forgot

I wish I had the ability to give
Back all you’ve always did
And continue to do, I love you
So once again, I thank you too
I appreciate your generosity

You take it all on like wonder woman
And if you give blows, they’re cushioned
But you manage to make most right
You’re always up for the fight
So I could truly never say it enough
Thank you for all of your love

I was so lost and cold inside
A feeling I can’t really describe
Didn’t know what to always do
But then I just listen to you

You saved me from drowning too deep
And you gave me hope to believe
Deserve even more love than you receive
Thank you everyday for completing me
God gave us you here on earth to happily be

Your strength gave me an advantage
Rubbed off on me, you’ll never vanish
You always say what I need to manage
No matter day or night, awake or asleep

You saved me from drowning too deep
And you gave me hope to believe
Deserve even more love than you receive
Thank you everyday for completing me
God gave us you here on earth to happily be

I promise to never take you for granted
You make this place a better planet

You saved me from drowning too deep
And you gave me hope to believe
Deserve even more love than you receive
Thank you everyday for completing me
God gave us you here on earth to happily be

I didn’t want to give it all up
But it was just all too much
And now I can’t get enough

I was physically falling apart
Losing it all just one-by-one
Then he had to break my heart

Made a lot of mistakes
Yet caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I never wanted any goodbyes
But it was all too much drama and lies
And it all nearly cost me my life

Letting go is real hard to do
When do many left you *******
But everyone’s life’s go on too

Made a lot of mistakes
Yet caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Always getting too close, too soon
Always expecting to reach the moon

Made a lot of mistakes
Yet caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I didn’t want to give it all up
But it was all just too much
And now I can’t get enough

I was physically falling apart
Losing it all just one-by-one
Then he had to break my heart

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I never wanted any goodbyes
But it was too much drama and lies
It all nearly cost me my life

Letting go is pretty hard to do
When so many had left you *******
But everyone’s life’s go on too

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Always getting too close, too soon
Always expecting to reach the moon

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I regret every teeny and tiny thing
And in some ways I’ll take the blame
I guess I should have known better
What lurked behind those eyes ever

Felt jaded, our spark faded
It’s over now, I lost somehow
Not that shocked, still oh my god
I think what the world would be
Without you in it still breathing
So choke on that and that’s a wrap

I don’t know how it started off so well
Only for you to put me through the hell
I take fault that I never, ever saw it coming
But still you are sure as hell something

Felt jaded, our spark faded
It’s over now, I lost somehow
Not that shocked, still oh my god
I think what the world would be
Without you in it still breathing
So choke on that and that’s a wrap

I have no forgives left within me
So just deal with it and burn you SOB

Felt jaded, our spark faded
It’s over now, I lost somehow
Not that shocked, still oh my god
I think what the world would be
Without you in it still breathing
So choke on that and that’s a wrap

The devil is in control of my life
I just can’t seem to get it right
Just when I think I see the light
I am thrown back to another fight

I feel defeated and beaten
I wanted better, I do mean it
I must realize it’s out of my hands
It is up to higher above’s plan
To save me from the devil’s land
I need to accept what I can’t change
Fine a way to live with the deranged
The devil took my life away,  I’m not the same

I feel misery, just about constantly
Sometimes it is hard to breathe
I need the real me to be let free
Because surely, she is just buried

I feel defeated and beaten
I wanted better, I do mean it
I must realize it’s out of my hands
It is up to higher above’s plan
To save me from the devil’s land
I need to accept what I can’t change
Fine a way to live with the deranged
The devil took my life away,  I’m not the same

When asked how I’m doing,  I hide
Back the tears I have already cried
Can’t explain it to a soul, so why try
Kicked in the gut, left in the dirt
Pain is too much to have endured

I feel defeated and beaten
I wanted better, I do mean it
I must realize it’s out of my hands
It is up to higher above’s plan
To save me from the devil’s land
I need to accept what I can’t change
Fine a way to live with the deranged
The devil took my life away,  I’m not the same

I have nothing to gain but pain
Let it pour, let it rain on my parade
Let the tears fall down the drain
Things will never, ever be the same

Really late at night I’d lie awake
And cry about this life sometimes
Not always understanding why
Feeling like I must go ahead and die
But something said keep on and try
Though I still live with the fallout inside

Lessons learned, can’t take it back
Emotions and responsibility lacked
Feeling as though I was under attack
Who knows, maybe I was in fact

Really late at night I’d lie awake
And cry about this life sometimes
Not always understanding why
Feeling like I must go ahead and die
But something said keep on and try
Though I still live with the fallout inside

Funny how change remains the same
Suppose they say it will one day be okay

Really late at night I’d lie awake
And cry about this life sometimes
Not always understanding why
Feeling like I must go ahead and die
But something said keep on and try
Though I still live with the fallout inside

I’ve been lost, more than once
Felt like the only one, all alone
Like the ones that get shunned
Just one of the forgotten ones
Forever being stuck in the middle
The cycle goes on and continues
And everlasting never comes
No one else around, it’s just me
And that’s how it’ll always be
Just one of the forgotten ones

Let us get to first-thing-first
I hope long term really hurt
And you got what you deserved
I hope you observed and learned

When you said goodbye
All the happy moments died
We both cried and cried
And I kept asking why
But you went on with the denies
Continuously, you would lie
As time went by, I, I, I
No longer knew you inside

You were a big part of my heart
But now that’s been torn apart
You acted so in love with glee
Didn’t see you would forsake me

When you said goodbye
All the happy moments died
We both cried and cried
And I kept asking why
But you went on with the denies
Continuously, you would lie
As time went by, I, I, I
No longer knew you inside

I’ll always wonder what went wrong
Knowing though, you were the problem

When you said goodbye
All the happy moments died
We both cried and cried
And I kept asking why
But you went on with the denies
Continuously, you would lie
As time went by, I, I, I
No longer knew you inside

I beg you, don’t miss out on the key
Passion just gets better and better
While lust is temporary and fleeting
Grab yourself something with meaning
The key of passion is to freely dream
Don’t let the real thing pass you by
While you’re focused on the wrong type
Shouldn’t settle for s temporary lie
Strive for the key to be happy

It may seem to be insignificant
But by special as it has went
I’m speaking of a blip on the meter
But of all things, it can be the center

What matters most of all, is what’s small
It’s the little things that make everything
It is in the memories that I tend to gain
And for the negativity I just try to refrain
It’s the little things, doesn’t seem so strange

Something tiny may occur
Making the rest all a blur
It puts up a strong fight
Then it shall stick for life

What matters most of all, is what’s small
It’s the little things that make everything
It is in the memories that I tend to gain
And for the negativity I just try to refrain
It’s the little things, doesn’t seem so strange

The best things are the little ones
That inspire to be memorable times

What matters most of all, is what’s small
It’s the little things that make everything
It is in the memories that I tend to gain
And for the negativity I just try to refrain
It’s the little things, doesn’t seem so strange

About our love, I can’t keep quiet
So happy to have you by my side
Want you right there all my life
I’ll take every thing in stride

Could you be the one?
Wait, I have more questions
Need to be sure giving my love
Should I trust this feeling?
Or are you here to play?
I have no time for games
Tell me you’re here to stay
Do you say I get my way?
Or does this just fade?
Are you the one, baby?

Been put though the ringer time again
Just been looking for my special friend
And I think I found the one that fits
A feeling of safety over me rushes

Could you be the one?
Wait, I have more questions
Need to be sure giving my love
Should I trust this feeling?
Or are you here to play?
I have no time for games
Tell me you’re here to stay
Do you say I get my way?
Or does this just fade?
Are you the one, baby?

When I don’t know where to start
And I can’t find it looking in my heart
It seems to always point towards you
You’re a blessing I never really knew

Could you be the one?
Wait, I have more questions
Need to be sure giving my love
Should I trust this feeling?
Or are you here to play?
I have no time for games
Tell me you’re here to stay
Do you say I get my way?
Or does this just fade?
Are you the one, baby?

I admit, I miss my past and think constantly why nothing could last
I know I’m forgetting the bad and focusing on the good I had
So I’m lying to myself, as I weep to myself about it all
That’s why I’m stuck in what was and not here all the way full
So lonely, it hurts deep inside to not have one in my life
I want my one and only, that will forever be by my side
I can’t lie, I’m traumatized and I deserved so much better
But right now I’m stuck in the past seemingly forever

Congratulations, you nearly were my demise
Round of applause, I bought your good-person disguise (the whole **** time)
Close the curtain, the show has come to an end
Hand the boutique over, you’ve certainly earned them
And now a calm has come and I’m all gone
Who knew it was an act all along? Award-deservant
An era concluded, you put on quite the performance

I look up to the sky, so pink and orange
As I nearly trip, as I’m running toward
Freedom, as the waves hit against the shore
The now dark sky, blending with the ocean line
I could get lost right here, all the time
The sands so smooth, I lay myself on down
As the water crashes over me, on the ground
Everything is so peaceful in the now

I have loved the moon too fondly
To ever be fearful of the night
And I mustn’t forget this
The stars shining so bright

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

I could get forever lost
Inside the moon’s touch
As it’s controlling my being
For it I’m truly always fiending

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

Come with me and play
Let go of your mind’s decay
I am so fond of the moon
That the night leaves so soon

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

Didn’t know what I was in for
Once you closed that door
Started out okay, later went a wrong way
Did things I did not even ask for
And you didn’t warn me about them before
When I protested, didn’t make a difference
So I got scared and let you finish your business
Got a bit abusive and even more intrusive
Afterwards wouldn’t let me leave
Held my hostage with thee
Thought about gong to the kitchen
To grab a knife for my protection
But it was a big iffy question
Confused because at first I gave permission
Revoked it after it wasn’t my intentions
But it had made no difference
So yet again, I was the victim
Told no one else about it
So this is my admittance
Bad mouthed me after the fact
Upset me and that was whack
All might not believe here all that I’ve said
But at least it’s no longer locked in my head
I guess that’s the end, heaven send me strength