I know these are all very serious feelings drudged up
Because when I’m around you, I can’t help but go nuts
I can’t seem to keep it cool, as I am not sure what to do
Try too hard to be the perfect girl that would be viewed by you

I know I’m a fool

Now I know my first love wasn’t so true as I thought
Because he never made me as nervous as when we talk and walk
I know I can’t love you, it’s not that deep, I’m fully aware
But I know from what has progressed, it’s down there

Let me play it cool

There are no set rules but I am not feeling blue
I have faith you will come around knowing it won’t be now
You give all the wrong ones chances to see, you’re scorned
But I promise I’m worth the rose with the thorns

People shopping at the mall
Stockings are hung for all
Christmas trees done up
Lights strung and hung up

But none of this matter to me
I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

Children laughing all the way
Reindeer hooked up to the sleigh
Eggnog all ready to go
With the mistletoe aglow

But none of this matter to me
I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

I enjoy all the spirit that lifts
But I would like Santa
To give that one special gift

I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

Just like the rain
You shower me with loving
You give me strength
Each and every day
What more can I say?

You brightened up my life
Like the moon and stars at night
You have me seeing rainbows in the sky
All because your love’s in plain sight
You know how to treat a woman right
I’m down to stay forever by your side

Like catching lightning
It happens intermittently
Finding someone like me
And really being happy

You brightened up my life
Like the moon and stars at night
You have me seeing rainbows in the sky
All because your love’s in plain sight
You know how to treat a woman right
I’m down to stay forever by your side

Snowflakes melt in the sun
I melt in your arms with your charms

You brightened up my life
Like the moon and stars at night
You have me seeing rainbows in the sky
All because your love’s in plain sight
You know how to treat a woman right
I’m down to stay forever by your side

Things sure did do a one-eighty
I’m worse off, this is crazy
And all I hear is maybe
I learned who was shady
And who to throw away

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

Getting my feet on the ground
I was so lost but now I’m found
Not sure how to get it done
But I’ll make sure I have won
Tell them they’ll see me when I’m done

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

It’s time to organize
And finally live my life

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

Things sure did a one-eighty
I’m worse off, this is crazy
And all I hear is maybe
I learned who was shady
And whom to throw away

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Not sure where to turn
But I sure have learned

Getting my feet on the ground
I was so lost, now I’m found
Not certain how to get it done
But I’ll make sure I have won
Tell them to see me when I’m done

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Not sure where to turn
But I sure have learned

It is time to organize
And finally live my life

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Not sure where to turn
But I sure have learned

Free from doubt
Free from insecurity
Like your love
Like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you
Free from me
And my demons
Like the untamed
Like the crashing waves
Free from society

A friend is someone who is true
Even when they can’t be near you
They’d still drop any and everything
When you feel confused and unsure

Friendship is a gift to treasure
Until someone tarnishes this
With jealousy and rudeness
Back-stabbing, hypocrisy…

Things change and so do we
With different paths which
We will independently need
But that doesn’t equal bailing
From someone totally when
You find a fill-in for a friend
Someone who will cater to
Your inability to yet mature

No one gets it all properly always
But admit you messed up things
You lost touch and now laugh
Jesting on your own behalf

Take it all in, because I now know
That I had long ago out-grown
Fake ways; acting which I wasn’t
I feel so free from the jealous one

(Outro)
You lost touch from reality and us and now laugh it up. Jesting on only your own behalf, because there is always another side; somewhere else the truth does lie.

I think at I’m pretty tough
I’ve been through a lot of stuff
Yet I’ve always managed to get up
But this is hitting me rough...

Sticks and stones never broke my bones
But your actions broke my inner core
Left me crying there on the floor
I loved you so, you’ll never know
As time past, we just couldn’t last
The reality is something I can’t grasp
No hand to lend, I’ll sit here frozen

Never felt this way before
Beat up, fetal on the floor
Didn't see what would occur
What I would have to endure

Sticks and stones never broke my bones
But your actions broke my inner core
Left me crying there on the floor
I loved you so, you’ll never know
As time past, we just couldn’t last
The reality is something I can’t grasp
No hand to lend, I’ll sit here frozen

It’s too late to stop, I’m  cold and distraught
A lesson was taught, but I’m worn out

Sticks and stones never broke my bones
But your actions broke my inner core
Left me crying there on the floor
I loved you so, you’ll never know
As time past, we just couldn’t last
The reality is something I can’t grasp
No hand to lend, I’ll sit here frozen

Hey there, Genius
Don’t you already know
You’re not supposed to
Go and catch feelings

Suggestion, cut your heart out
Lock it up and throw away the key
Do so, before anyone else
Can rip it out for keeps

You won’t need it anyway
Because the one you play with
Aren’t looking for commitment
Or to handle a heart with care

Advice, stop thinking twice
Don’t let it be seen you are
So vulnerable and in need
Before they turn away and flee

Stop your heartbeat, no butterflies
Inside there, going crazy for somebody
Listen to resin, the heart is misleading

So smart, yet so dumb
Cautious until you let
Yourself get caught up
And stuck on just one

Don’t act stupid, when love
Is just an elusive emotion
With no proof, protect you
Before you are ruined

So, why did you go and catch feelings?
You have learned you’re fragile like glass
Told you no, but the heart doesn’t listen
Hey Genius, why’d you catch feelings?

She is too pretty to be sad
What type of waste is that?
She’s too beautiful to have scars
But there’s hurt beyond those marks

So many myths on love and life
Did I ever get a real try?
Senses are all deceived
You’ll have to prove it’s for me
If myths are unbelievable
Will one make me feel unreal?

They don’t understand at all
Silence brought her to these parts
Something cut her, way too deep
Yet she keeps, standing on her feet

So many myths on love and life
Did I ever get a real try?
Senses are all deceived
You’ll have to prove it’s for me
If myths are unbelievable
Will one make me feel unreal?

There is a reason to her madness
It is that she hasn’t forgotten
These scars speak from the soul
She is still just as beautiful

So many myths on love and life
Did I ever get a real try?
Senses are all deceived
You’ll have to prove it’s for me
If myths are unbelievable
Will one make me feel unreal?

It’s a very dark place to visit
Visitors are not permitted
I try and keep my own distance
From myself and everyone else

Through glass shards, I see me
I’m on my knees and I’m crying
But this is something you’ll never see
Only the girl in the mirror shows despair
On the outside, I’m smiling there
I have the girl in the mirror lost in fear

I can’t breakdown now
So I will just play the clown
So it’s never really seen
That I’m in desperate need

Through glass shards, I see me
I’m on my knees and I’m crying
But this is something you’ll never see
Only the girl in the mirror shows despair
On the outside, I’m smiling there
I have the girl in the mirror lost in fear

No one knows there’s two of me
I want you to see me on the outside
And that only

Through glass shards, I see me
I’m on my knees and I’m crying
But this is something you’ll never see
Only the girl in the mirror shows despair
On the outside, I’m smiling there
I have the girl in the mirror lost in fear

I just wanted to escape
All the pain and misery
I made it through the rain
But lost myself that day, anyway
The years come and go, but I stay

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
So soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I fell from my pedestal all the way
It came crashing down on top of me
All that was left was darkness surrounding
I could no longer make it through life
But that time is slowly passing by

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
So soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I stay the same, lost in anxiety
Loneliness, is putting it mildly

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
So soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I just wanted to escape
All the pain and misery
Made it through the rain
But lost myself that day, anyway
Years come and go but I stay

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
Soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I fell from my pedestal all the way
It all came crashing down onto me  
All that was left; darkness surrounding
I could no longer make it through days
But that time is starting to be passing

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
Soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I stay the same, lost in anxiety
Loneliness is putting it mildly

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
Soon enough, I’m going to be okay

You use them dry, make them cry
Move right along, to the next one
Play innocent, be a trick, become a *****
Now they’re stuck, know they’re ******
You ****** them in, they’re out of luck

Eventually learn, don’t play your ****
Won’t get burned, you have no worth
So they turn and you act all innocent
Like you didn’t do the same thing again
Like the one before, yet you never GO

Keep coming around, I’ll show you how
A real woman can really put it down
I’ve seen all of your ugly games played
From old, useless lovers and friends
I learned I can do things even better
So I know how it goes, you’ll lose all
Smarter than you, but with class too
So get a clue here and just GO soon

Don’t come to me, don’t mention me
You totally created your own mess
Leaving me with the absolute best
No reason to keep on with the texts
Anyways, won’t ever fool him again

When there are no more attachments
Can’t find a new one to take advantage
That doesn’t mean you go backwards
We are moving forward, so be gone
You will never be wanted in this town
Keep coming around, I’ll show you how
A real woman can really put it down

I’ve seen all of your ugly games played
From old, useless lovers and friends
I learned I can do things even better
So I know how it goes, you’ll lose all
Smarter than you, but with class too
So get a clue here and just GO soon

It’s time to grow up and learn respect
If you want it nice, then do it right
Otherwise you will be your own demise
It’s so justifying for all of your lying
So just start somewhere else and GO

A goddess in any shape or size
The human body was made divine
Not shameful to fear and hide
Skin is not what is distasteful
Actions make good and bad people
Not pride in your natural appearance

She tries to hide her natural gifts
Her beauty, including her imperfections
Even if those qualities make her
The person she is compared to others
Standing out from being just anybody
So, making everybody a somebody

Pressure is suffocating on our looks
Women can be enemies of the worst
Tearing away at each others looks first
But a naked being is how we’re created
And appreciation should be encouraged
Yours to share as you see fit in society

Learning to love the body you’re in
And feeling comfortable in your skin
Knowing who you are inside to out
Is not a disgrace, but simply amazing
Acceptance, class, and much dignity
A goddess is inside of every lady

I see how much you love life
I dream to see it through your eyes
You don’t ever let it past you on by
You don’t sit home to whine and cry

A big heart and golden dreams
But second chances aren’t given
And I may be down for the count
But don’t you dare count me out

I cry at night so no one will know
Spare you of what shouldn’t be a go
Hiding the worse, I make sure though
And I try my best daily not to let go

We go in circles, we go unnoticed
Yeah, we fight the invisible forces
Unknown, every day is our course
Your views need broadened for sure

A big heart and golden dreams
But second chances aren’t given
And I may be down for the count
But don’t you dare count me out  

I’ll be a warrior, but don’t play the fool
I promise you don’t know, what we go through
Just take a chance and learn for yourself
It’s health and maybe you could help

A big heart and golden dreams
But second chances aren’t given
And I may be down for the count
But don’t you dare count me out

I see so much you love life
I dream to see it through your eyes
You don’t let it ever pass you by
You’re not sitting at home to cry

Big heart and golden dreams
But no second chances are given
I may be down for the count
But don’t yet count me out

I cry at night so no one knows
To spare you of what you don’t know
Hide the worst, make sure to though
I try my best daily not to let go

We go in circles, we go unnoticed
We fight the invisible forces
Unknown each day is our course
Your wviews need broaden more for sure

Big heart and golden dreams
But no second chances are given
I may be down for the count
But don’t yet count me out

I’ll be a warrior, but don’t play the fool
I promise you don’t know what I go through
Take a chance and learn for yourself
It’s health and maybe I need your help

You promised me forever
Now it’s gonna be never
I won’t ever be happy again
Nothing else matters then

You took away the fire in my eyes
You stole away my future life
All I need to know is why oh why
You broke my heart with the lies
And all that was left is goodbye

I’ll never trust you again
Not for as long as I live
Your audacity to lie to me
Is too much to be believed

You took away the fire in my eyes
You stole away my future life
All I need to know is why oh why
You broke my heart with the lies
And all that was left is goodbye

I was so in love and happy
But you decided to rob me

You took away the fire in my eyes
You stole away my future life
All I need to know is why oh why
You broke my heart with the lies
And all that was left is goodbye

That part of my life is over
I shall turn over my shoulder
I surrender to my new self
As I went and found peace
I even surrender to self-love
And it is so everlasting
I commit to letting go
Of all that I cannot control
I commit to success
And stride with pride
For me, myself to impress
And achieve my goals
I promise to remember
My body is a gift of mine
Too divine to waste my time
As I align with you, Universe
I give my all, to your blessings
I pray you take care of everything

Red hot lips, five inch heels
Fishnets, long blonde hair
Corsets - don’t touch!
Only made to stare
Toxic green eyes
Now lost in all she hides
It is all a big lie
Once a good girl
No longer cares
Walking with dark angels
To the devil’s lair
Thinking you’re gonna
Bring her back from there

I’m certain there’s many great
Places to be called home
But there’s just one that I know
It is right where I’ve grown

Proud to be in this country
Home to the brave, land of the free
I love my nation just so much
A big part of North America
The great USA is a wonderful place
Happy it’s where I occupy my space

Come on justice, let freedom rise
Let’s continue to fight for rights
Equality and plenty of respect
That’s what I think is best

Proud to be in this country
Home to the brave, land of the free
I love my nation just so much
A big part of North America
The great USA is a wonderful place
Happy it’s where I occupy my space

The red, white, and blue
I say a blessing for you

Proud to be in this country
Home to the brave, land of the free
I love my nation just so much
A big part of North America
The great USA is a wonderful place
Happy it’s where I occupy my space

💜💎 Gypsy, a kind and courageous soul
Gives so much out, it must take its toll
Empathy, carrying her own weight
And then the weight of the world, too
Wearing many hats as mom, friend, and counselor
Patience that no degree can spur
An unique soul, you can’t hold down
No matter how some try to make her drown
Colorful and hiding many talents
She won’t show you everything, she keeps her balance
Free spirit and magic in the making
She gives much while life is taking
Caring for each individual, no matter how seemingly small
She is there to answer your call
Just a spec on others radars, but she knows
You matter, we are all equal with our own woes  
A sensitive soul, nothing but beyond cool
Gypsy, a kind and courageous jewel 💎💜

Everything seemed just right
I made him my whole life
Now I’m questioning why
After I caught him in a lie

I said he had to be joking
Thought I had his devotion
I was under his potent potion
He played with my emotions
Causing all kinds of commotion
Guess I never really did know him
Now to move on, I must be open

What a slap in the face that day
Realizing things would never be the same
I thought we were brought together by fate
Now I’m regretting ever seeing his face

I said he had to be joking
Thought I had his devotion
I was under his potent potion
He played with my emotions
Causing all kinds of commotion
Guess I never really did know him
Now to move on, I must be open

Thought, you’re kidding right
But jokes on me this time

I said he had to be joking
Thought I had his devotion
I was under his potent potion
He played with my emotions
Causing all kinds of commotion
Guess I never really did know him
Now to move on, I must be open

I will haunt your very thoughts
When you least expect my presence
Not from the biggest moments
But by the smallest remembrances
And deep within, uncontrollably
You shall love every second of it see
As I will haunt your very being
Until you finally see me...

I let so many people get close to me
And it ended with most of their greed
Getting in the way of what might be
Could be an us going down in history

If someone told me you would be gone
I would have told them they are wrong
If I knew one day you would not stay
I would not have bothered with all the pain
If I looked inside my crystal ball and saw
All the trouble you would have caused
I would have just one day brushed on by
And just said to you to “have a nice life”

I am not only talking about lovers lost
But the best of buds and family also cost
You all clouded my judgement down
And just left me with a ton of loss

If someone told me you would be gone
I would have told them they are wrong
If I knew one day you would not stay
I would not have bothered with all the pain
If I looked inside my crystal ball and saw
All the trouble you would have caused
I would have just one day brushed on by
And just said to you to “have a nice life”

In the moment I would not have believed
Because I am always so **** trusting

If someone told me you would be gone
I would have told them they are wrong
If I knew one day you would not stay
I would not have bothered with all the pain
If I looked inside my crystal ball and saw
All the trouble you would have caused
I would have just one day brushed on by
And just said to you to “have a nice life”

Have you ever wondered...
If you’re really on the right path
Will it lead you on and on to just crash?
If you really think this happiness will last
Will you end up again feeling like trash?

Have you ever thought..
That it may be time to have your dream
Trying not to over analyze what it all means
Thinking this is how it’s finally meant to be
Trying not to sabotage your own self and flee

When you don’t know what to do, have you...
Have you ever told yourself
Others don’t always have a clue
Have you ever decided
To look inside yourself for the truth
Have you ever realized
It’s what’s inside
And everyone else’s opinions
You don’t have to abide

Have you ever not cared...
If all the others disagree with you
Knowing they don’t know what to judge to
If you know what’s in your heart is true
Knowing **** well it’s not for them to choose

Have you ever been aware...
That you don’t have to be so scared
See, in the end you can find a way to take care
Show you have your own mind to share
See that you have your very own flare

When you don’t know what to do, have you...
Have you ever told yourself
Others don’t always have a clue
Have you ever decided
To look inside yourself for the truth
Have you ever realized
It’s what’s inside
And everyone else’s opinions
You don’t have to abide

It’s all that cheesy stuff, to not give up
It’s a look inside yourself, to get help
It’s to trust in your choices, not negative voices
Have you ever yet?

So soft, I can’t get out my voice
Try so hard, can’t make a noise
It is illusive here like in a dream
I break free just so I can scream

Wake me up inside, make me feel alive
Happiness I strive, I’m on the wrong side
I have dived into this pool of despair
I don’t want to stay here, perform a repair
I am calling out screaming, hear meeee

Stuck here and I can’t even feel
Numb to the core, need to heal
Don’t know which direction to turn
When will I wake up and learn

Wake me up inside, make me feel alive
Happiness I strive, I’m on the wrong side
I have dived into this pool of despair
I don’t want to stay here, perform a repair
I am calling out screaming, hear meeee

Release me from this grave I’m in
Dirt pours, don’t let in be my end

Wake me up inside, make me feel alive
Happiness I strive, I’m on the wrong side
I have dived into this pool of despair
I don’t want to stay here, perform a repair
I am calling out screaming, hear meeee

Hey there, Genius
Don’t you already know
You’re not supposed to
Go and catch feelings

Suggestion, cut your heart out
Lock it up and throw away the key
Do so, before anyone else
Can rip it out for keeps

You won’t need it anyway
Because the ones you play with
Aren’t looking for commitment
Or to handle a heart with care

Advice, stop thinking twice
Don’t let it be seen you are
So vulnerable and in need
Before they scare and flee

Stop your heartbeat, no butterflies
Inside there, going crazy for somebody
Listen to reason, the heart is misleading

So smart, yet so dumb
Cautious until you let
Yourself get caught up
And stuck on just one

Don’t act stupid, when love
Is just an elusive emotion
With no proof, protect you
Before you are left ruined

So, why did you go and catch feelings?
You’ve learned you’re fragile like glass
Told you no, but the heart doesn’t listen

Everything seemed fine, until one day
You started acting up, became real shady
Never thought you’d play me this way
Why’d you go and do this to me, baby?

Oh heartbreaker, why’d you take me there?
To a place with tears, running down my face
I can not change your ways or this fate
It’s a choice you made and it is so unfair
But it feels like we are not done here
So heartbreaker, why give all those tears?

Things seemed to be going so well
So what’d I do wrong, this I do dwell
Thought this was the one for the long haul
But instead you lead me to my fall

Oh heartbreaker, why’d you take me there?
To a place with tears, running down my face
I can not change your ways or this fate
It’s a choice you made and it is so unfair
But it feels like we are not done here
So heartbreaker, why give all those tears?

Please don’t ever do this again
My heart can’t take the suffering

Oh heartbreaker, why’d you take me there?
To a place with tears, running down my face
I can not change your ways or this fate
It’s a choice you made and it is so unfair
But it feels like we are not done here
So heartbreaker, why give all those tears?

Make me feel special
Without gifts or words
Just use body language
And don’t get confused

Tie me up and close the curtains
Make sure to check and be certain
Because if it is not tight enough
Then there is no pleasure hurting
I can take it all, don’t look back
Having my legs tightly wrapped
Don’t be a miss, take me to bliss
This loving proves heaven exists

The beauty and the *****
Not afraid of what she wants
And that’s okay, rough love
With you it’s still emotional

Tie me up and close the curtains
Make sure to check and be certain
Because if it is not tight enough
Then there is no pleasure hurting
I can take it all, don’t look back
Having my legs tightly wrapped
Don’t be a miss, take me to bliss
This loving proves heaven exists

Like ecstasy, are you feeling me?
Bodies entwined, let’s do this right  

Tie me up and close the curtains
Make sure to check and be certain
Because if it is not tight enough
Then there is no pleasure hurting
I can take it all, don’t look back
Having my legs tightly wrapped
Don’t be a miss, take me to bliss
This loving proves heaven exists

Alone here with the girl in the mirror
I can’t help but have a growing fear
She’s familiar, though neither of us know
What are the truths and what are the lies
I feel I can’t trust anything through her eyes
I couldn’t even tell you which is the real deal
Which way is the truth, behind the mirror

Alone here with the girl in the mirror
I can’t help but to have a growing fear
She’s familiar but ...
We are known to see different truths and lies
I can’t trust anything through her eyes
I couldn’t even tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

So which would they choose
I admit, too, I’m rather confused
Would they want me?
Or is she their dream that they’d rather I be
I believe I need to know if it is her or me
Since I couldn’t even tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

I feel her trying to control us both
I try and try to hold on to my hope
Are we both lost?
I am screaming inside but she looks so quite
Maybe she’s already got it figured out
And still, I couldn’t tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

Hey ex
I don’t wanna play
Swipe next
Your games are lame
Like the rest
It’s such a shame
Even perplex
Go find a new dame
There’s no test
Your time has came
No less, god bless
Done with that mess
I do confess

Not really, completely
The person I used to be
I changed, exquisitely
And now my frequency
Vibes are set too high
So, not gonna deal with lies

If they don’t like who I am
Then, also gotta say goodbye
Like Obsidian and Tourmaline
Rid them on out of my life
I am over making things right
I just seek peace, no more fights

I wish upon the stars and time
As magic requires a touch  
I know, dare, will, and keep shush
I only tell the moon my secrets
She helps me when I’m sleepless
I pray to the universe and spirits

For the best possible outcome for all
Harmony; I feel full inside of my heart
Happy right now, but I know I’m fragile
I know just how easily I could fall apart
Fall, just a random piece, like a shard
But I will stay strong, I will hold on
(this time)

Whenever you are near
Is my favorite time of year
Every day is a vacation
When you’re next to me
With no cancellations

I love him, I need him
I want him, I fiend him
And I see him, I feel him
I can’t ever get enough
Of my feelings for him

My flower in the spring time
My sunny day summer lover
He’s my fall back behind
My snow bunny all the time
My date each Valentine

I love him, I need him
I want him, I fiend him
And I see him, I feel him
I can’t ever get enough
Of my feelings for him

I can not get enough
I need all his love
Because ...

I love him, I need him
I want him, I fiend him
And I see him, I feel him
I can’t ever get enough
Of my feelings for him

Believe me, I don’t want to die
I crave to live the fullest life
However, I’m tired of the lie
I try, but I’m not that alright
I’m tired of watching life pass by

I hold on to strength
Except for that one day
And for that, I am sorry
I try to be complete, even fake
So I don’t burden your brain

I do what needs to be done
But I’m not as strong as I once was
I suppose one more thing was too much
It has already been so much stuff
I pray all day with much love

I hold on to strength
Except for that one day
And for that, I am sorry
I try to be complete, even fake
So I don’t burden your brain

They say thing will get better
Therefore, I’ll keep fighting the weather
But some days, it seems like never

I hold on to strength
Except for that one day
And for that, I am sorry
I try to be complete, even fake
So I don’t burden your brain

Been damaged so much, is it beyond repair?
Look out in the distance, caught in a glare
I call your name, but your mind is elsewhere
Stopping your focus, I don’t even dare

I can’t see the blue sky when it’s night
Like I can’t see the light in your eyes
Something went wrong and now you’re lost
To survive, you must give it all you’ve got
I don’t know what it feels like to be you
But I have had my share of troubles, too
I know the sun always rises after the night
So until then, can you just hold on tight?

You lock yourself away like Rapunzel
You won’t admit it, but I know you feel awful
You’re no longer the person I once knew
You are all confused and feeling very blue

I can’t see the blue sky when it’s night
Like I can’t see the light in your eyes
Something went wrong and now you’re lost
To survive, you must give it all you’ve got
I don’t know what it feels like to be you
But I have had my share of troubles, too
I know the sun always rises after the night
So until then, can you just hold on tight?

You will make it through the rain
Come out better than when you came

I can’t see the blue sky when it’s night
Like I can’t see the light in your eyes
Something went wrong and now you’re lost
To survive, you must give it all you’ve got
I don’t know what it feels like to be you
But I have had my share of troubles, too
I know the sun always rises after the night
So until then, can you just hold on tight?

Lord I’ve tried, to be alright
An endless battle, every time
I feel I’m always in a fight

Its just like I’m in prison
Shackled up, handcuffed
Oh my gosh, time is up

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

Another work in progress
And I always try so hard
Feels like I have to go far

Just more misery, fix me
Why is that a hard need?
I need to finally be free

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

This time, I hope it’s right
This time, I hope it’s my time

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

Bruised my soul, out of control
Bliss be told, we’re on our own
The truth will always be shown

It’s not that I wanted to die
I didn’t really want to give up life
I just didn’t know how to live
I didn’t know what else to give

Tick, tick, goes the clock
Stop in amazement
Do not engage in it

It’s not that I wanted to die
I didn’t really want to give up life
I just didn’t know how to live
I didn’t know what else to give

Things get a little too tricky
Life got a little too wicked

It’s not that I wanted to die
I didn’t really want to give up life
I just didn’t know how to live
I didn’t know what else to give

We all have our moments
Good and bad, sweet and sad
Feeling glad, loving or mad
Just one does not define us
You should know, I’m just me

Don’t you see, I belong to me
Don’t need you to be complete
I can set my own self to be free
So please, just go and let me be
Love is great, but I’m loving me
You are good, but I’m not in need

Things constantly are changing
I had to learn the hard ways
That the most important thing
Is how to keep myself sane
So I found the best love I know

Don’t you see, I belong to me
Don’t need you to be complete
I can set my own self to be free
So please, just go and let me be
Love is great, but I’m loving me
You are good, but I’m not in need

I belong, I belong, I belong to me
Only me, only me, can set me free
Thanks, but you’re not what I need

Don’t you see, I belong to me
Don’t need you to be complete
I can set my own self to be free
So please, just go and let me be
Love is great, but I’m loving me
You are good, but I’m not in need

There is no escape, fear this time it’s too late
It’s never been this bad, taking all I have
I try, but it’s a lie, I’m not doing all right

I can’t do this, even though I’m used to it
It’s tearing me apart, ripping out my heart
So I cry myself a lake, in bed wide awake
With pain controlling me, I can’t even drink
Bump in the road is too big, I can’t do this

It changed my whole world, since a girl
Now I’m grown, it’s worse I’ve ever known
I try, but I can’t lie, I’m not doing all right

I can’t do this, even though I’m used to it
It’s tearing me apart, ripping out my heart
So I cry myself a lake, in bed wide awake
With pain controlling me, I can’t even drink
Bump in the road is too big, I can’t do this

Tired of the fight, taking over day and night
I try, but I can’t lie, I’m not doing all right

I can’t do this, even though I’m used to it
It’s tearing me apart, ripping out my heart
So I cry myself a lake, in bed wide awake
With pain controlling me, I can’t even drink
Bump in the road is too big, I can’t do this

This is my cry for help now as I break down

If I continue to go on
Will my fight ever be won?

If I’ve become too sick
Will they fully understand it?

If I break down and cry
Will someone be at my side?

If I never recall my past torture
How long will those scars hurt for?

If you are not with me
Am I ever fully complete?

If you returned in my life
Would everything turn out all right?

If I truly needed you
Would you help to see me through?

If again we lost each other
Could my heart ever recover?

If you break a heart unintentionally
Is that person still held as guilty?

If a friendship ends maliciously
Was it ever really meant to be?

If you make one more mistake
Are you then labeled as a flake?

If I fail an important task
How long shall my shame last?

If I counted up all my sins
Would good intentions still win?

If I sought out my own vengeance’s
Did I create bad karma in the end?

If my dreams continue to repeat
Is that some kind of message to me?

If if they never believe in me
Will my mind ever be free?

If I go on and continue to live
Will there be a purpose to all of this?

If I have no choice in the end, but to fail
Did my presence ‘til then have a place here?

If I continue to question my universe
Then I will continue to strive for my answers

If as look as I am asking
Then I am continuing

Always ask when you can, “if”
And hold out for what may be given

Are  you gonna ignore me, for how long?

Being ghosted breaks my heart
I know a truth is a pill hard to swallow
Never should have said anything
But a misunderstanding started

And just because him and I
Don’t  see eye to eye on one thing in life
Didn’t mean you had to take sides
Disagreements are quite alright

What happen to fixing up you hair?
You were so passionate about makeup
No, you didn’t need it, but is was fun
So where have those things gone?

Does this really mean that 10 plus years
You suddenly can’t hear what you don’t
Wanna here, like the others I’ve know
Is that time worth throwing away?  

What did he say, I do wonder?
Did you laugh, agree, or pass it off
I’m sure it wasn’t nice at all
But I’m the one paying, feeling small

Are you going to ignore me, for how long?

Could have had a difficult chat
But you were too chicken for that
So I left you there, me a mess
As you proceeded to text your next ex

I hope you die and I would not cry
Cause you were never really on my side
You were my lover and my friend
I thought we were down until the end
Now I wish you dead, in a coffin
So much for real love it seems then

You thought that I was so stupid
But I figured out the truth quickly
Yet you still had nerve to tell lies
Now I want to see a final goodbye

I hope you die and I would not cry
Cause you were never really on my side
You were my lover and my friend
I thought we were down until the end
Now I wish you dead, in a coffin
So much for real love it seems then

Wouldn’t go back, want your ashes
Or your bones in a wooden casket

I hope you die and I would not cry
Cause you were never really on my side
You were my lover and my friend
I thought we were down until the end
Now I wish you dead, in a coffin
So much for real love it seems then

I know you’re lying when so frustrated
Still I kept trying, leaving me in desperation
Everyone says let it go, she’s still just a kid
Having a lot to learn in this great, big world
But I’ve really been through most of it
Yet, even so, with a sincere apology
You seem to just want to fight with me
I give up, after I’ve been put through hell
But I’ll never forget the version of you I knew so well
I’ll hold on to my ladybug and the memories
It’s just an ending that’s bittersweet to me
I just can’t even cry this time, I sigh
Wishing for the best, but nothing I can do
Maybe we’ll rekindle, maybe we’ll become strangers
Like we never knew, I must accept the truth

I miss the intimacy
I miss there being a you and me
I miss everything that we used to be
But you had to leave...

I miss your face
I miss your embrace
I miss the way your lips taste
But you went away...

I miss you singing our song
I miss your text and phone calls
I miss how you were so strong
It is all wrong you’re gone...

I miss all of our days
I miss your silly little ways
I miss our favorite place
But now I’m dazed...

I miss hearing your dreams
I miss your smile that would beam
I miss all of the little things
But life can be so mean...

I miss the way you smelled
I miss the stories you would tell
I miss you so bad it hurts like hell
Because from earth you fell...

I miss you, that is for real
What we had was the real deal
That’s how I feel...

You don’t want me anymore
I don’t fulfill your world
I’m good enough for fun
But I’m just not the one

I’m so, so sorry to say
But you made a mistake
And one day you’ll pay

You’re so, so immature
But I wanted it to work
Woke up and around I turn

I know you knew all along
Had your plan from the start
Thought I was dumb enough
To keep giving my time and love

I’m so, so sorry to say
But you made a mistake
And one day you’ll pay

You’re so, so immature
But I wanted it to work
Woke up and around I turn

Someday you’ll see
What you were to blind to believe

I’m so, so sorry to say
But you made a mistake
And one day you’ll pay

You’re so, so immature
But I wanted it to work
Woke up and around I turn

I have been trying so hard for a high
Seems like it is just an easy ride
For everyone else but surely not me
Don’t understand why this must be

I get caught up in the delusion that others are perfect
So imagine my confusion when I never feel worth it
Every time I’m thinking that I may have it down
I fall hard from grace with a frown, losing the crown
And then I feel like a clown for thinking I could be perfect
One thing I’ll give me, I’m good at being imperfect

The grass is greener on the other side
Though I know I shouldn’t compare lives
It’s very hard to hold on to my pride
I find it so difficult to try and get by

I get caught up in the delusion that others are perfect
So imagine my confusion when I never feel worth it
Every time I’m thinking that I may have it down
I fall hard from grace with a frown, losing the crown
And then I feel like a clown for thinking I could be perfect
One thing I’ll give me, I’m good at being imperfect

Believe me, I know it could always be worse
But today asking “why” must comes first

I get caught up in the delusion that others are perfect
So imagine my confusion when I never feel worth it
Every time I’m thinking that I may have it down
I fall hard from grace with a frown, losing the crown
And then I feel like a clown for thinking I could be perfect
One thing I’ll give me, I’m good at being imperfect

I have made a lot of mistakes
But hasn’t just about everyone?
I’ve been through a lot of fakes
But that is not just anyone

I know they’d be better off
And I know that I’m the cause
Of most of their life’s drama
They’re too good to admit it
That’s only why I can’t quit it

I don’t know what to do
To fix all that’s abused
I don’t know what to say
To make it all back okay

I know they’d be better off
And I know that I’m the cause
Of most of their life’s drama
They’re too good to admit it
That’s only why I can’t quit it

I am sorry I am not perfect
I am sorry I am not worthy

I know they’d be better off
And I know that I’m the cause
Of most of their life’s drama
They’re too good to admit it
That’s only why I can’t quit it

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

And now...

If you come back, baby just stay awhile
Let me think and relax, curl up by the fire
Let me warm up to you, like a little child

Because...

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

Just maybe...

You are back with some tape and glue
Wanting to start again all brand new
That would fix my filings going on
But how would I trust you from before

Since...

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

So tell me what went wrong then
Show me how it’s different now

No longer...

On a broken link in a chain, dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity
But now maybe we can start anew

Had our practice, now it’s until infinity