(Interlude)
Holding on to anger is poisoning yourself while assuming the other person will perish instead. Holding on to lost love is only chaining yourself to a ghost; you are still without them and now stuck in the past.

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Letting go is not a forgiveness
Doesn’t mean you forgot anything
It’s freeing you for your best interest
And cleansing your new beginnings

Hatred is a poison to your own heart
So moving on is where freedom starts
The other person still gets no excuse
You deserve peace and to be let loose

Chaining yourself to the past
Will continue to hold you back
In turn, keeping you from ever
Focusing on your new happiness

No one else needs to understand how
You can be civil to someone once cruel
You are the who lived it through
Dropping the grudge is what is mature

It may take us time to understand
Figure out how we stop giving in
And longer to heal and not care
As finding you, finds you out there

Letting go of anger is a free pass
Not for those who harmed you
But for your own soul to rest
Inner peace starts with ourselves

We all make some wrong choices
And do stupid things subconsciously
While some may have gone too far
Now that you said bye, cleansing time

So stop breaking your own heart
Learn your lessons and stay smart
Love should be more powerful than hate
Letting go is the beginning of strength

I see you living your life
As with me you stay quiet
I don’t understand your absence
I don’t understand your silence  
Only to come to me when you give up
I guess it’s you and not just my luck
You never did take me seriously
Gave everyone a chance but me
Yet you keep coming back anyway, endlessly
Tell me why, what do you seek of me?
What am I supposed to be, tell me?

I hope you don’t mind
I put down in words
How wonderful life is
Now that you’re in my world
I didn’t know it’d be this joyous
It is a blessing for us
I love having you around
And I want to tell the town

I don’t want to be another girl
Just another girl, in your world
I want it all and I will not stop
I’ll still be on cloud nine after it all

Always there when I need it
Always make sure I’m treated
Count on you through thick and thin
My lover but became my best friend
Now that you’re here with me
I just feel totally completed
You are the best that there is
And I will tell the whole city this

I don’t want to be another girl
Just another girl, in your world
I want it all and I will not stop
I’ll still be on cloud nine after it all

Times get tough, but we get rough
Life goes by, but you’re by my side
Communication is key for you and me

I don’t want to be another girl
Just another girl, in your world
I want it all and I will not stop
I’ll still be on cloud nine after it all

Treated me bad because it was easy
Never imagine you were so ******
Had me fooled with all the love talk
Now completely dead you can drop

If he dropped dead now I’d be happy
There would be no reason to be sappy
Because things went way beyond ******
And even though it’s been a long time
I’ll never forget how it made me feel inside
So he can just go right ahead now and die

I truly felt like such a fool
For always believing in you
Because it turned out to be
You could sell me out easily

If he dropped dead now I’d be happy
There would be no reason to be sappy
Because things went way beyond ******
And even though it’s been a long time
I’ll never forget how it made me feel inside
So he can just go right ahead now and die

Die, goodbye
I’m done this time
Die, goodbye
My love you won’t find

If he dropped dead now I’d be happy
There would be no reason to be sappy
Because things went way beyond ******
And even though it’s been a long time
I’ll never forget how it made me feel inside
So he can just go right ahead now and die

I am someone who can say
I’ve been through it all some way
I can not believe it to this day
So much immaturity and strays

Nothing lasts forever, anymore
It’s all a game that’s just for show
Where the truth lies, I don't know
Standards and morals are so low
Nothing lasts forever, no, no, no

The movies show it so nice
Like you’ll eventually get it right
But it’s not like that anymore
Can’t call that to be real life

Nothing lasts forever, anymore
It’s all a game that’s just for show
Where the truth lies, I don't know
Standards and morals are so low
Nothing lasts forever, no, no, no

If you only knew
What I’d go through
In the name of you

Nothing lasts forever, anymore
It’s all a game that’s just for show
Where the truth lies, I don't know
Standards and morals are so low
Nothing lasts forever, no, no, no

I love you and promise you this
You’re going to be my last kiss
Never worry sweating the small stuff
You’ll never have to fear not enough

Take me away, darling, to the moon
I’m going to let your love consume
Others will be telling us to get a room
But it’s just love, it’s not promiscuous

I promise to never take you for granted
I’ll never give you a reason to go frantic
Never worry about my feelings leaving
I promise nothing here is deceiving

Take me away, darling, to the moon
I’m going to let your love consume
Others will be telling us to get a room
But it’s just love, it’s not promiscuous

Im not perfect but I’m perfect for you
Once things begin, you’ll see it too

Take me away, darling, to the moon
I’m going to let your love consume
Others will be telling us to get a room
But it’s just love, it’s not promiscuous

I always thought it’d be forever
I doubted our bond, would never
Be holding on by a string, unraveling
But you chose and it wasn’t me

And I’m not trying to be catty
Its just that I proclaim, seriously
I mean, she’s not even that pretty
But you chose and it wasn’t me

So you may be all their Prince Charming’s  
But open my storybook and you’ll see
The worst type of villain, I trusted you baby
And you were supposed to be a good one but Prince Charming -
Cheated -
And he wasn’t to me

Congratulations, you nearly were my demise
Round of applause, I bought your good-person disguise (the whole **** time)
Close the curtain, the show has come to an end
Hand the boutique over, you’ve certainly earned them
And now a calm has come and I’m all gone
Who knew it was an act all along? Award-deservant
An era concluded, you put on quite the performance

I’m well aware of all my faults
From my looks, attitude, to talk
You pointing them out isn’t a thing
I’m my own worse critic in that game
You can stand, judge, and cringe
But it’s none of your business

I don’t live for anyone else
And I still blossom by myself
Yes, I may be kind of a mess
But you’re not the one, so rest

They don’t think about me
What I can’t do or even eat
They don’t understand the pain
It’s not them, so why care
The truth is such a shame
Maybe my life is kind of lame, but

I don’t live for anyone else
And I still blossom by myself
Yes, I may be kind of a mess
But you’re not the one, so rest

I will fully blossom in time
Don’t believe me, that’s fine
Your opinion, wrong, is your right

I don’t live for anyone else
And I still blossom by myself
Yes, I may be kind of a mess
But you’re not the one, so rest
I will fully blossom in distress

I know you’re lying when so frustrated
Still I kept trying, leaving me in desperation
Everyone says let it go, she’s still just a kid
Having a lot to learn in this great, big world
But I’ve really been through most of it
Yet, even so, with a sincere apology
You seem to just want to fight with me
I give up, after I’ve been put through hell
But I’ll never forget the version of you I knew so well
I’ll hold on to my ladybug and the memories
It’s just an ending that’s bittersweet to me
I just can’t even cry this time, I sigh
Wishing for the best, but nothing I can do
Maybe we’ll rekindle, maybe we’ll become strangers
Like we never knew, I must accept the truth

What I wanted more than ever
Was you stay with me forever
Save me from the tide in my life
And do it for me just in time

The rain pours, the hail forms
My life is a serious series of storm
If you're really afraid of thunder
Beware that it always will form
Lightening will make you question
If you are safe in my direction

I guess I was just living a lie
I’m really all alone these times
But I still can’t get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to do any of it right

The rain pours, the hail forms
My life is a serious series of storm
If you're really afraid of thunder
Beware that it always will form
Lightening will make you question
If you are safe in my direction

If you fear the storm forming
Don’t dance with me while storming

The rain pours, the hail forms
My life is a serious series of storm
If you're really afraid of thunder
Beware that it always will form
Lightening will make you question
If you are safe in my direction

You promised me forever
Now it’s gonna be never
I won’t ever be happy again
Nothing else matters then

You took away the fire in my eyes
You stole away my future life
All I need to know is why oh why
You broke my heart with the lies
And all that was left is goodbye

I’ll never trust you again
Not for as long as I live
Your audacity to lie to me
Is too much to be believed

You took away the fire in my eyes
You stole away my future life
All I need to know is why oh why
You broke my heart with the lies
And all that was left is goodbye

I was so in love and happy
But you decided to rob me

You took away the fire in my eyes
You stole away my future life
All I need to know is why oh why
You broke my heart with the lies
And all that was left is goodbye

There is a pattern here
Rest assured, I see it there
To myself, it is not fair
But let go, I don’t dare

I can’t escape you, no matter what I do
And each time I fail, let us be real
You have a hold on me, that’s the deal
But I have no shame, you, I can’t escape

The more I fight, it’s like quicksand
I just get stuck in there deeper then
I continue to be glued to you
No matter what it is I do

I can’t escape you, no matter what I do
And each time I fail, let us be real
You have a hold on me, that’s the deal
But I have no shame, you, I can’t escape

I have no excuse in this case
I can’t escape your embrace

I can’t escape you, no matter what I do
And each time I fail, let us be real
You have a hold on me, that’s the deal
But I have no shame, you, I can’t escape

It feels easier to exist in the distance
Rather than to pass in the spotlight
I recognize every face within the crowd
But I don’t know any of the souls around

That includes when I look at myself
She is a stranger inside the mirror
With no more definition to her
Just trapped searching in there

Much despair because of all the hope
That was wasted on the wrong folks
A puzzle piece no one else can fill
Tried that but don’t get anywhere

Defined so long by other people
Not knowing where to start over
I find ideas that do not fulfill
Because I’m still not the right girl

She’s sweet, bright and beautiful
Quirky, girly, with some attitude
I do know all of my potential
That’s why there’s misery at all

Living to appease others now
Aimlessly trying somehow
To see a path and a future
To find this lonely … lost girl

The sun may not always shine
As it’s no surprise that I’ve seen
Many clouds lingering my whole life
But as the storms begin rolling in
The difference there now days is
I know you’re there by my side

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

Life hits me hard and sometimes
I fall down, but I get up to fight
At times it’s hard to always continue
But now I know someone else patiently
Wants to also see me get through
And that person is wonderful you

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

I never knew love could be so strong
A bond that keeps me going, going on
The power of being in love with someone
Like you can make a woman here feel
Incredible; I only need your love forever

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

All I ever need to continue to persist
So in love, never before; my best gift

I was in a good mood and thought you were cute
You asked for my number and I just approved
Everything was going smooth and I felt unlike I had in years
Until you disappeared ...
And I hadn’t felt like that in a long time either, I fear

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

He said all the right things
Leading up to ensure getting his way
Until, I guess, he got bored and no longer wanted to play
How come they never seem to stay?
The good things always eventually fade

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

I promise I will learn this time, to protect my heart and mind
Go back to my heart being lazy, what’s your favorite - I don’t care, baby
I rather be alone forever and look crazy

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

I see that you keep on trying
But I told you that you’ll never
Find somebody again like me
So why you trying to fight it

With me you had the real thing
Oh dang that’s such a shame
You had to play your games
And now that you do realize it
Trying to find someone like me

It could have been so great
But your ego went so crazed
And you said that I am crazy
Now where are you at lately

With me you had the real thing
Oh dang that’s such a shame
You had to play your games
And now that you do realize it
Trying to find someone like me

They all want me oh so bad
But they’ll never love me, sad
But your chance you done had

With me you had the real thing
Oh dang that’s such a shame
You had to play your games
And now that you do realize it
Trying to find someone like me

I can’t do this anymore
Locked away behind this door
I’m ashamed of who I’ve become
I just need to run and run

It will all be okay
Promised that each day
Who gives a ****, anyway

Moving faster through the day
Can’t find a way to escape
Maybe I’m where I belong
Maybe that’s how far I’ve fallen

It will all be okay
Promised that each day
Who gives a ****, anyway

No matter what
Gotta keep being tough

It will all be okay
Promised that each day
Who gives a ****, anyway
Well I do ...

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

I went through a lot of hell just to get here
Won’t let you negate that I’m getting there
You can’t lie or belittle me now
I will not let myself down anyhow

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
an image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
one thing from me

You think you’re right and true
Well, I get an opinion for you
You give out falsified news
So take that trap away, too

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

I see more and more clearer
Nothing fogging my mirror

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

ou’ve run out of chances
It’s just not meant to be
I’m over your reasoning
It has no real meaning
I can’t take anymore lies
I’m really done this time

They say never say never
But I think I’ll be alone forever
I must be cursed and doomed
My view on *** and love ruined
There’s too much that’s negative
I must stop letting it all in, so toxic

I no longer trust you, that’s through
And you’re no longer going to
Have me up in arms, all confused
I keep playing inside of my head
All the things that you’ve said
I look to all the signs I misread

They say never say never
But I think I’ll be alone forever
I must be cursed and doomed
My view on *** and love ruined
There’s too much that’s negative
I must stop letting it all in, so toxic

You’re no good for me
So I’m setting us both free
No more games, you see...

They say never say never
But I think I’ll be alone forever
I must be cursed and doomed
My view on *** and love ruined
There’s too much that’s negative
I must stop letting it all in, so toxic

There is no escape, fear this time it’s too late
It’s never been this bad, taking all I have
I try, but it’s a lie, I’m not doing all right

I can’t do this, even though I’m used to it
It’s tearing me apart, ripping out my heart
So I cry myself a lake, in bed wide awake
With pain controlling me, I can’t even drink
Bump in the road is too big, I can’t do this

It changed my whole world, since a girl
Now I’m grown, it’s worse I’ve ever known
I try, but I can’t lie, I’m not doing all right

I can’t do this, even though I’m used to it
It’s tearing me apart, ripping out my heart
So I cry myself a lake, in bed wide awake
With pain controlling me, I can’t even drink
Bump in the road is too big, I can’t do this

Tired of the fight, taking over day and night
I try, but I can’t lie, I’m not doing all right

I can’t do this, even though I’m used to it
It’s tearing me apart, ripping out my heart
So I cry myself a lake, in bed wide awake
With pain controlling me, I can’t even drink
Bump in the road is too big, I can’t do this

This is my cry for help now as I break down

Lies
Straight to my face
Can strike like a knife
To my weakest point

Cheat
Hurts my soul
It cuts really deep
To my heart, too

Then I realize that
I’m better off without you
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more being fake

Sneak
Around on me
It goes noticed
Hurts my ego

Anger
Scares my being
Bruises me whole
Gets out of control

Then I realize that
I’m better off without you
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more being fake

All the tears I cried
They end tonight

Because I realized that
I’m better off without you
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more being fake

Catching the breeze was easy
I want to have your attention
I want to have your everything
From beginning to forever’s end
The good, the bad, and
The seemingly unimportant

Hugs and kisses
These are my wishes
I love with all my heart
Right from the very start

I feel it would all be worth it
With a sign you’re ready
To stop and join this
Forever is in my plans
Along with making
You my last man

Hugs and kisses
These are my wishes
I love with all my heart
Right from the very start

It’s all going to work out right
Because I should be there
Or you should be here

Hugs and kisses
These are my wishes
I love with all my heart
Right from the very start

You couldn’t wait and stay
Now I feel we’re worlds away
How can I change our fate?
It shouldn’t have gone this way
But now there you are, here I am

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

It didn’t end the way I wanted it to
Now I feel like I have been a fool
Seems life threw us a curve
And sent you and me on a swerve
But now there you are, here I am

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

I want to be where you lay
I can’t stand things this way

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

Always dream of being someone I’m not
I get stuck in there, in all of my thoughts
I just want to be my true self, not asking a lot
But to achieve this, it must be fought
The truth I seek inside cannot be taught

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

It can be so hard, leaving who you are
But who you can be is not very far
You may be slightly out of touch
However, you are never out of reach
Soon there will be no stopping me

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

I just had to see I can do the same
I just had to know I can be the change

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

When I was young at least I could dream
Now it all seems to be past tense to me
Because it all never ended up fading
And now I’m more than ever going crazy

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

Now that I have become older
It seems to be more torture
I am still losing without answers
Tired of this waltz, I’m no dancer

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

I admit it’s more than I can bare
Start from A went to Z
That’s all I can take from me

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

I remember those feelings
That you would always give me
Didn’t realize then, how much
I would be longing for your touch

When we were together
Everything just felt right
Now I want it for a lifetime
I’m waiting on you to decide
You have the ultimate power
To go ahead and change my life
I do not want to sit and play shy
Pretty please, please do it tonight

Come back and I’ll show you
That it was the smart thing to do
We can do it right this time
Don’t make me beg and cry

When we were together
Everything just felt right
Now I want it for a lifetime
I’m waiting on you to decide
You have the ultimate power
To go ahead and change my life
I do not want to sit and play shy
Pretty please, please do it tonight

One more chance, one last dance
One more show, I know it’d be forever

When we were together
Everything just felt right
Now I want it for a lifetime
I’m waiting on you to decide
You have the ultimate power
To go ahead and change my life
I do not want to sit and play shy
Pretty please, please do it tonight

Let us get to first-thing-first
I hope long term really hurt
And you got what you deserved
I hope you observed and learned

When you said goodbye
All the happy moments died
We both cried and cried
And I kept asking why
But you went on with the denies
Continuously, you would lie
As time went by, I, I, I
No longer knew you inside

You were a big part of my heart
But now that’s been torn apart
You acted so in love with glee
Didn’t see you would forsake me

When you said goodbye
All the happy moments died
We both cried and cried
And I kept asking why
But you went on with the denies
Continuously, you would lie
As time went by, I, I, I
No longer knew you inside

I’ll always wonder what went wrong
Knowing though, you were the problem

When you said goodbye
All the happy moments died
We both cried and cried
And I kept asking why
But you went on with the denies
Continuously, you would lie
As time went by, I, I, I
No longer knew you inside

On another regular day, you flew away
And became an angel that way
I wish I didn’t take for granted
All the chances that you gave
I thought things wouldn’t ever change
And now I’m crying, left with that fate

I’ll keep us in my heart together
You will be with me forever
You are always one I treasure
See you again, never say never

So now you are in heaven
Watching me go in circles lost
I never knew what loving you,
As I do, could actually cost
I hope you still feel my love
That will never go untouched

I’ll keep us in my heart together
You, will be with me forever
You are always one I treasure
See you again, never say never

In sweet time, we will reunite
So I will never need to say goodbye
It is all only a matter of time

I’ll keep us in my heart together
You will be with me forever
You are always one I treasure
See you again, never say never

Yeah, I have problems
But you can’t solve them
So don’t even bother

Apologies, but I will not divulge
I must keep my circle small
It is not for you to understand
Respect that or move on then

You keep on trying
I don’t see why you fight it
It’s an endless battle

Apologies, but I will not divulge
I must keep my circle small
It is not for you to understand
Respect that or move on then

Just let me do my own thing
I promise I will be okay

Apologies, but I will not divulge
I must keep my circle small
It is not for you to understand
Respect that or move on then

I feel I did all that I could
But none of it was good
Not enough at all for you
Just couldn’t get through

I tried to be all you need
Didn’t work, what a ****
I needed to be all you want
That sure was something

I think that I tried hard
To keep you by my side
Not enough at all for you
Just couldn’t get through

I tried to be all you need
Didn’t work, what a ****
I needed to be all you want
That sure was something

You blew it up
Our love fell apart

I tried to be all you need
Didn’t work, what a ****
I needed to be all you want
That sure was something

I know nothing worthwhile
Comes without sorrow in life
As I try to do what’s right
I know the line is blurred, so I fight
My feeling dissipate to black and white

You heard the lies and said your goodbyes
You often cry, others your numb at times
But deep down inside you know
The butterflies just died

Easily slipping to that dangerous place
I know I can’t quickly or easily escape
Feeling weak, but I know it’s all me
Being stubborn got me there to begin
I respect that, but getting out is difficult

You heard the lies and said your goodbyes
You often cry, others your numb at times
But deep down inside you know
The butterflies just died

I won’t let go of the good to the bad again
But if it’s been too long, please come searching

You heard the lies and said your goodbyes
You often cry, others your numb at times
But deep down inside you know
The butterflies just died

I’ve cried and been hurt a lot
Then you come and change my lot
I don’t know what to do without you
I’m so stuck on to you like glue
I don’t want to take it slow, too

Blood rushing through my veins
I really hope you feel the same
Give it some time and let me know
Boy, I don’t wanna ever let you go

I’ve made my share of mistakes
If I’ve done any to you, forgive me
But now for you my body aches
I have had many worries in life
But you make them all right

Blood rushing through my veins
I really hope you feel the same
Give it some time and let me know
Boy, I don’t wanna ever let you go

We’ll be stronger than ever
Because I plan on forever

Blood rushing through my veins
I really hope you feel the same
Give it some time and let me know
Boy, I don’t wanna ever let you go

I locked me away inside
Looking back at my life
Wondering why, oh, why

You perpetuated the situation
Kept me waiting with confrontation
Had me staying so outrageous
Until I finally I said no more, baby

I don’t want to be that girl
Crying on the bathroom floor
Looking for a way out doors

You perpetuated the situation
Kept me waiting with confrontation
Had me staying so outrageous
Until I finally I said no more, baby

I finally found my freedom
Letting go of the bums

You perpetuated the situation
Kept me waiting with confrontation
Had me staying so outrageous
Until I finally I said no more, baby

look up to the stars
And pretend that you aren’t far
I want to know, are you looking too?
So then I would be joining you

I miss you so much, I daydream
I get lost inside of everything
I’d do anything to feel your caress
But the way things ended was a mess

I look up to the stars
And think to myself real hard
Could we have been saved?
Could we both be happy that way

I miss you so much, I can’t sleep
All I want to do is fill this void and eat
I would do anything to feel your touch
I’m holding onto you like a crutch

I look up to the stars
And wish to bottle this view in a jar
Then I would always feel your near
Even though you’ll never be back here

Friendships don’t always last forever
I should have been prepared for never
Because there is and end to eternity
Cheers to the end of you and me

I’ve known you a quarter a century
Said you’d always be there for me
But you traded me off so simply
Told me “that’s that” so easily
I had to accept the bad or walk away
Was hard but dignity told me don’t stay
So now you turned us into enemies

Obviously, we’re no longer meant to be
I wish earlier I could have foreseen
I can do better without your fake ness
Now all I see in you, is shameless

I’ve known you a quarter a century
Said you’d always be there for me
But you traded me off so simply
Told me “that’s that” so easily
I had to accept the bad or walk away
Was hard but dignity told me don’t stay
So now you turned us into enemies

Sometimes I miss our memories
But also feel saved in reality

I’ve known you a quarter a century
Said you’d always be there for me
But you traded me off so simply
Told me “that’s that” so easily
I had to accept the bad or walk away
Was hard but dignity told me don’t stay
So now you turned us into enemies

One wants to start over slow,
And hide me from the show
Another often disappears
From me right in thin air
I attract and get infatuated
With the ones acting like babies
They haven’t grown up to settle
I always get stuck in the battle
I always find the immature ones
Afraid, having commitment issues
They all have excuses they give you
But can’t man up and share what’s inside
Leaving me crazy and feeling deprived
Only I can stop this game they play
Throw in the towel, finally call it a day

It all goes dark in a matter of time
You’ll waste more, the harder you try
To fight what nothing can escape
Not even millions of light years away

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on or off
All depending on the odds
Even the stars far in the sky
Eventually burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

Lightening wakes up the night
A fire burns warm and bright
Forever is only a comforting lie
Changes are the universe and maker
Of death being apart of each life

The more energy you put in
You will not receive back
You will just burn away the wax
Quicker and miss out on living
So smartly use what you’re given

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on or off
All depending on the odds
Even the stars far in the sky
Eventually burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

We take everything for granted
Wanting what we cannot have
Life always looks more bright
Dreaming up the future you idolize
Not dealing with what’s in sight

It’s easier to run and lie, alright
Hide and play pretend tonight
It won’t stop the morning lights
Once there is only darkness left
You haven’t left the cycle yet

In time and space, even stars die
It’s never goodbye, just goodnight

I want you to know I love you all the way
Don’t always show it, but it’ll never change
I know you don’t always understand
But you’re always there hand-in-hand
Thank you for also being my friend

As a girl, you took me to all the doctors
As a child, you were there for field trip offers
I enjoy our time spent, so glad we have it
We’ve bonded over a lot and I’m grateful
I feel we’re closer now more than ever

To this day I still lean on you
I know financially it isn’t easy
So thank you for spending
Your hard earned money on me
I’d be lost without you helping my needs

You’ve taught me a lot and helped me grow
For that respect I can never fully show
I just hope deep down inside you know
You are a very wonderful father for sure
One of the best persons on this Earth

It’s okay, call me naive
Because I choose to believe
In dreams coming true
Mermaids swim in the blue
That there is life after death
And their are ghosts among us

See, I want to believe
Angels are watching over me
With animals around for guiding
While stars are there to wish upon
Same for coins, thrown in a pond
And the Magic’s inside the wand

Yes, I need to believe
That there must be
Those lost pots of gold
At the ending of each rainbow
And in the woods, playful fairies
Are hiding amongst the trees

So, call me naive
But I’m inclined to be
The adoring princess
That wins her awakening kiss
Forever in charming bliss
Together in a castle so big

Dream like a child
Don’t forget to smile
Watch the flowers flourish
And the butterflies adorn them
Relax and enjoy the beauty
Stop and see the simplicity
... when you believe

Chase me like I’m your mission
Need you to grab my attention
Make me laugh, it is a cinch
Take things slow, don’t blow it

I’ve tried everyone from A to Z
But I can’t find my compatibility
Maybe there’s no Mr. Right for me
Guess I’ll try a little less and see
Out there, it is really not so easy

Gotta handle all of my emotions
There’s good and there’s commotion
I need your undying devotion
Don’t fool around, I’m not joking

I’ve tried everyone from A to Z
But I can’t find my compatibility
Maybe there’s no Mr. Right for me
Guess I’ll try a little less and see
Out there, it is really not so easy

I hope to strike right one day
Find a guy like me who will stay

I’ve tried everyone from A to Z
But I can’t find my compatibility
Maybe there’s no Mr. Right for me
Guess I’ll try a little less and see
Out there, it is really not so easy

Been damaged so much, is it beyond repair?
Look out in the distance, caught in a glare
I call your name, but your mind is elsewhere
Stopping your focus, I don’t even dare

I can’t see the blue sky when it’s night
Like I can’t see the light in your eyes
Something went wrong and now you’re lost
To survive, you must give it all you’ve got
I don’t know what it feels like to be you
But I have had my share of troubles, too
I know the sun always rises after the night
So until then, can you just hold on tight?

You lock yourself away like Rapunzel
You won’t admit it, but I know you feel awful
You’re no longer the person I once knew
You are all confused and feeling very blue

I can’t see the blue sky when it’s night
Like I can’t see the light in your eyes
Something went wrong and now you’re lost
To survive, you must give it all you’ve got
I don’t know what it feels like to be you
But I have had my share of troubles, too
I know the sun always rises after the night
So until then, can you just hold on tight?

You will make it through the rain
Come out better than when you came

I can’t see the blue sky when it’s night
Like I can’t see the light in your eyes
Something went wrong and now you’re lost
To survive, you must give it all you’ve got
I don’t know what it feels like to be you
But I have had my share of troubles, too
I know the sun always rises after the night
So until then, can you just hold on tight?

They left and I wondered and cried
Confusion, had to open my eyes
Whether they were ever true or not
Their time with me did come to a stop
Learned the void I filled was no longer in need
So they tossed me out, so selfishly
It’s left me with more confusion, though
Now wondering who will come just to go
I’m a convenience, a stepping stone
I know this, because I was informed so
Now I go about my way, cynical as hell
I guess, the confusion taught me well

💜💎 Gypsy, a kind and courageous soul
Gives so much out, it must take its toll
Empathy, carrying her own weight
And then the weight of the world, too
Wearing many hats as mom, friend, and counselor
Patience that no degree can spur
An unique soul, you can’t hold down
No matter how some try to make her drown
Colorful and hiding many talents
She won’t show you everything, she keeps her balance
Free spirit and magic in the making
She gives much while life is taking
Caring for each individual, no matter how seemingly small
She is there to answer your call
Just a spec on others radars, but she knows
You matter, we are all equal with our own woes  
A sensitive soul, nothing but beyond cool
Gypsy, a kind and courageous jewel 💎💜

They say when it rains, it pours
And you feel you can’t take anymore
You no longer feel like yourself
And it seems like no one can help

Have some faith inside of you
You are stronger than you knew
Even though you don’t know what to do
The skies will eventually clear fresh and new

Like a tornado blowing on by
Feeling you can’t take more in life
It seems things will never feel right
But that’s really just a blimp in time

Have some faith inside of you
You are stronger than you knew
Even though you don’t know what to do
The skies will eventually clear fresh and new

Hold on to your inner strength
Don’t let go of your inner faith

Have some faith inside of you
You are stronger than you knew
Even though you don’t know what to do
The skies will eventually clear fresh and new

Sometimes I can’t even bear it all
I often feel the universe wants me to fall
Day by day, you can never really know
What exactly life is going to throw

I am a warrior inside
I wear my armor all the time
I know I can win this fight
No matter how seemingly tight
In this battle, I still thrive
I am a warrior inside for life

I am going to keep being strong
No matter what may go wrong
Because I was taught that
You must help yourself back

I am a warrior inside
I wear my armor all the time
I know I can win this fight
No matter how seemingly tight
In this battle, I still thrive
I am a warrior inside for life

Faith with inside yourself is the start
Even when you feel you’re falling apart

I am a warrior inside
I wear my armor all the time
I know I can win this fight
No matter how seemingly tight
In this battle, I still thrive
I am a warrior inside for life

Free from doubt
Free from insecurity
Like your love
Like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you
Free from me
And my demons
Like the untamed
Like the crashing waves
Free from society

You may be my confidant
As I talk that talk
And reveal my thoughts
You just keep them locked up
It’ll be our secret, only between us
Does that sound like a plan?
I may also need a helping hand
Shh, you are here to listen
So no questioning anything
Now just trust me

How can I be sleeping beauty
If there’s no such Cinderella
How can I find my Prince Charming
If there are no decent fellas

Call me naive
‘Cause I want to believe
In this cute little fantasy
But that’s just not happening

I’d rather it be my destiny
Where fairytales could find me
No choice of this, I won’t fathom
Anything surreal can happen
Even the unbelievable
Good will triumph over evil

How about a fairy godmother?
Someone to help me go under cover
An Angel or some pixie dust
Something I can’t see, but I can trust

If it’s delusions, that’s okay
Anything else is a mistake
Helpful creatures and the dwarfs
Leave me be with the singing birds

Trust me that I know it’s untrue
But dreams are what I hold on to
With none, what else would I do
But to get lost into a world
That’s just way too cruel

A story with happy endings
No more lies or just pretending
There has to be some magic out there
Or this world is just too unfair

It may seem all like beauty
Through all the scrutiny
There is more to see
Take the hurt and pain
And watch what you paint
Make my sorrow worthy

Behind those eyes, the tears that cry
From having my butterfly dreams
And rainbow means, even if the glitter stings
I won’t let go of all my dreams

Even without sunshine
She bloomed like a rose
Starved from the water
Up and open she grew
Thorns from the others
Protecting her, she knew

Behind those eyes, the tears that cry
From having my butterfly dreams
And rainbow means, even if the glitter stings
I won’t let go of all my dreams

The battles are done, the war is over
Thought I’d lost, but it was an eye opener
I am still here, dodged a bullet there
Can’t fight too long, when you’re in the wrong
I know it is time to move along

Behind those eyes, the tears that cry
From having my butterfly dreams
And rainbow means, even if the glitter stings
I won’t let go of all my dreams