All the things that I should have said
And all the plans I should have kept
I’d do anything for that time back
But things change and you went away

Forever is only a moment in time
You can get lost in the blink of an eye
I wish you a bittersweet goodbye
You seem lost now, but eventually
We’ll be back together happily
Cheers to a goodbye so bittersweet

I promise you that you’ll go on
You will never leave my thoughts
But because you left too soon
I am distraught and I am blue

Forever is only a moment in time
You can get lost in the blink of an eye
I wish you a bittersweet goodbye
You seem lost now, but eventually
We’ll be back together happily
Cheers to a goodbye so bittersweet

One day bittersweet won’t be bitter
Until that day, your legacy will continue

Forever is only a moment in time
You can get lost in the blink of an eye
I wish you a bittersweet goodbye
You seem lost now, but eventually
We’ll be back together happily
Cheers to a goodbye so bittersweet

You can burn each thorn
And pick off every petal
I will get through the storm
No matter the kind of weather

I admit, you got the best of me
But it’s not over, you see
I will rise towards the sky
Like a lotus wins its fight
I will not be denied the light
Like the lotus, I will survive

I thought you had me buried
Instead, I was growing steady
The mud could not beat my soul
Which means, I finally let go

I admit, you got the best of me
But it’s not over, you see
I will rise towards the sky
Like a lotus wins its fight
I will not be denied the light
Like the lotus, I will survive

I made the past look picture perfect
But it was just one act, here’s to what’s next

I admit, you got the best of me
But it’s not over, you see
I will rise towards the sky
Like a lotus wins its fight
I will not be denied the light
Like the lotus, I will survive

I feel that I can not breathe
I’m in it now, way too deep
Life has been taking over me
Can’t even find words to speak

Whatever it is I have done
I regret to what it had to come
I always tried to do the right things
But every time it blew up in my face
Math sets up the equations to see
The highest probability is that it’s me
I mean, what else could it possibly be?
In the end it was me always replaced
They get to go on, while I’m a basket case
So alone and isolated is my place to stay

Said you’d always be there
But now I’m living in despair
And I don’t see you anywhere
I am seeing that you don’t care

Whatever it is I have done
I regret to what it had to come
I always tried to do the right things
But every time it blew up in my face
Math sets up the equations to see
The highest probability is that it’s me
I mean, what else could it possibly be?
In the end it was me always replaced
They get to go on, while I’m a basket case
So alone and isolated is my place to stay

And there’s no going back
To whet we used to have
There is no way forward
Life is ending, we’re at zero

Whatever it is I have done
I regret to what it had to come
I always tried to do the right things
But every time it blew up in my face
Math sets up the equations to see
The highest probability is that it’s me
I mean, what else could it possibly be?
In the end it was me always replaced
They get to go on, while I’m a basket case
So alone and isolated is my place to stay

At the other end of the looking glass
She sees the bunny, then runs fast
Fell into the hole and falling slow
Have time to think, where she’ll go
Then she arrives to a whole new world

Welcome to wonderland
Where anything can happen
Wonderland
Where there are sights of magic
Wonderland
Will give you quite a reaction
Wonderland, wonderland

New faces and places to see
They’re oddballs but friendly
But danger lurks where it’s red
Off with her head, the Queen said

This is wonderland
Where anything can happen
Wonderland
Where there are sights of magic
Wonderland
Will give you quite a reaction
Wonderland, wonderland

Eat me, drink me, shrink, grow, think
Speak up, stand tall, fix what’s been done
There was beauty here, bring back cheer

Welcome to wonderland
Where anything can happen
Wonderland
Where there are sights of magic
Wonderland
Will give you quite a reaction
Wonderland, wonderland

You try to flutter and realize you’re broken
From what you’ve gone through, the unspoken
Vivid, scary dreams seem like old memories
And you don’t know what truth to follow

Little fairy don’t you know you can’t get far
On hopes and dreams and wishing on a star
Your tattered wings can’t handle those things
Oh, little fairy stop daring the world to be uncaring
Little fairy know who is riding beside as you get by
You’d be surprised who isn’t on your side

Dressed in blue like your mood, it suits you
Damaged and swearing never, ever again
Will you go out of your way like you used to
Knowing not one soul is there in the end

Little fairy don’t you know you can’t get far
On hopes and dreams and wishing on a star
Your tattered wings can’t handle those things
Oh, little fairy stop daring the world to be uncaring
Little fairy know who is riding beside as you get by
You’d be surprised who isn’t on your side

Bandaids can’t keep it all in anymore
Shout it out, they say the truth will set you free

Little fairy don’t you know you can’t get far
On hopes and dreams and wishing on a star
Your tattered wings can’t handle those things
Oh, little fairy stop daring the world to be uncaring
Little fairy know who is Riding beside as you get by
You’d be surprised who isn’t on your side

Broken-hearted, perfectly is started
I tripped and fell and got lost in a spell
Went down hard and I’m in so deep
That is why I scraped up my knee

I’ll give you my best, if you’d just let
Me have my sincere apology already
Because it doesn’t take psychology
To know that I need closure here
So far, you left me so insecure
And fighting off old and new fears
So won’t you give me what I need
Hand over my closure to me

I still crave your kiss, your touch, your love
But I’m trying to accept you had enough
While walking around, living like I’m tough
Now I must see that it’s over and done

I’ll give you my best, if you’d just let
Me have my sincere apology already
Because it doesn’t take psychology
To know that I need closure here
So far, you left me so insecure
And fighting off old and new fears
So won’t you give me what I need
Hand over my closure to me

This is my simple request
After you made me a mess

I’ll give you my best, if you’d just let
Me have my sincere apology already
Because it doesn’t take psychology
To know that I need closure here
So far, you left me so insecure
And fighting off old and new fears
So won’t you give me what I need
Hand over my closure to me

I can’t remember my name
Or my place, where I stand
I appreciate all I’ve been given
But it does not solve anything

If you compare it all in contrast
It could be worse, it’s not so bad
It is far from being good, either
Seems I’m just stuck in limbo here
Can’t pick sides; caught half alive
Since I drifted long ago, in between
I am forever stuck inside limbo

Trapped away, I’m feeling crazy
Because that’s what they want
For you to sink down and believe in
Because that is so just much easier

If you compare it all in contrast
It could be worse, it’s not so bad
It is far from being good, either
Seems I’m just stuck in limbo here
Can’t pick sides; caught half alive
Since I drifted long ago, in between
I am forever stuck inside limbo

I certainly know that it is you
Who can set me free from this
Misery; feeling so constrained
Half alive, but I am just as dead
Somebody wake me up and just
Free me from this draining of!

If you compare it all in contrast
It could be worse, it’s not so bad
It is far from being good, either
Seems I’m just stuck in limbo here
Can’t pick sides; caught half alive
Since I drifted long ago, in between
I am forever stuck inside limbo

I cannot be stuck, cannot be chained
I will fight my way, all the way up
Without your consent, because…
I refuse to choose secluded limbo

Stuck inside confinement
In limbo and I will break free
Free, me, finally, find peace

Can you feel it like I can?
My heart is beating fast
Things don’t always last
I honestly accept that
And I am no longer sad

It’s that time, I do apologize
But it eventually comes in life
One really doesn’t call it an end
Just a new cycle that’s beginning
As change happens to everything
There’s no reason to put up a fight
And I apologize, but it’s in my sight

My heart refuses to be closed
Before me, it already knows
My brain won’t stop running
Thinking about what I could do
To manipulate what is fading

It’s that time, I do apologize
But it eventually comes in life
One really doesn’t call it an end
Just a new cycle that’s beginning
As change happens to everything
There’s no reason to put up a fight
And I apologize, but it’s in my sight

I won’t forget the good times
But all I feel are the bad vibes
No goodbyes, just little lies
(As out loud we keep quiet…)

It’s that time, I do apologize
But it eventually comes in life
One really doesn’t call it an end
Just a new cycle that’s beginning
As change happens to everything

…I see it again, it’s starting
I’ll play too, knowing the truth
Distance, trying hard to fight
Lies, but all I can do is apologize

Everything seemed fine, until one day
You started acting up, became real shady
Never thought you’d play me this way
Why’d you go and do this to me, baby?

Oh heartbreaker, why’d you take me there?
To a place with tears, running down my face
I can not change your ways or this fate
It’s a choice you made and it is so unfair
But it feels like we are not done here
So heartbreaker, why give all those tears?

Things seemed to be going so well
So what’d I do wrong, this I do dwell
Thought this was the one for the long haul
But instead you lead me to my fall

Oh heartbreaker, why’d you take me there?
To a place with tears, running down my face
I can not change your ways or this fate
It’s a choice you made and it is so unfair
But it feels like we are not done here
So heartbreaker, why give all those tears?

Please don’t ever do this again
My heart can’t take the suffering

Oh heartbreaker, why’d you take me there?
To a place with tears, running down my face
I can not change your ways or this fate
It’s a choice you made and it is so unfair
But it feels like we are not done here
So heartbreaker, why give all those tears?

I see you’ve developed an obsession
When I’m out of the equation
So why are you stressing?
There must be something...

I had him first, I know how he works
What he’s telling you, is nothing new

****** girlfriend, I don’t need him
It may have stung at first, but he’s a loser
Stop harassing me, you’re showing envy
Move on, because I’m over him, times a million
****** girlfriend

So what you won, it’s all over and done
So why are you doing the things you do?
Checking up on me all of the time
You must be out of your mind

I had him first, I know how he works
What he’s telling you, is nothing new

****** girlfriend, I don’t need him
It may have stung at first, but he’s a loser
Stop harassing me, you’re showing envy
Move on, because I’m over him, times a million
****** girlfriend

Quit playing games, so predictable
And so lame, insecure much, you crazy...

I had him first, I know how he works
What he’s telling you, is nothing new

****** girlfriend, I don’t need him
It may have stung at first, but he’s a loser
Stop harassing me, you’re showing envy
Move on, because I’m over him, times a million
****** girlfriend

Not long ago I was lost
Others, past lovers
They came with a cost
Leaving me distraught
And then came you
Straight out of the blue

I found proof that heaven exists
In your arms is a calming bliss
And I don’t want to miss a second
Of your love, you’re sent from above
Forever can’t wait, you’re my saint
Eternity is fine with me, bliss endlessly

I do thank God I found you
‘Cause what we have is true
Nothing can come between us
I’m just all about this here love
Because you came into my life
And now I believe that I ...

I found proof that heaven exists
In your arms is a calming bliss
And I don’t want to miss a second
Of your love, you’re sent from above
Forever can’t wait, you’re my saint
Eternity is fine with me, bliss endlessly

In the after life, I’ll still be by your side
They call it “ride and die,” that’s no lie

I found proof that heaven exists
In your arms is a calming bliss
And I don’t want to miss a second
Of your love, you’re sent from above
Forever can’t wait, you’re my saint
Eternity is fine with me, bliss endlessly

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

And now...

If you come back, baby just stay awhile
Let me think and relax, curl up by the fire
Let me warm up to you, like a little child

Because...

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

Just maybe...

You are back with some tape and glue
Wanting to start again all brand new
That would fix my filings going on
But how would I trust you from before

Since...

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

So tell me what went wrong then
Show me how it’s different now

No longer...

On a broken link in a chain, dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity
But now maybe we can start anew

Had our practice, now it’s until infinity

Hey ex
I don’t wanna play
Swipe next
Your games are lame
Like the rest
It’s such a shame
Even perplex
Go find a new dame
There’s no test
Your time has came
No less, god bless
Done with that mess
I do confess

I don’t know water that’s crystal blue
To completely lose myself into
I don’t know snowcapped mountains too
How about, what about you?

Serenity isn’t a place I know
It’s somewhere I never go
Serenity isn’t a thing for me
It’s a place that I’ll never be
My spot will never be serine
It’s just a space I’ll never see

I don’t know city lights so bright
Never seen the Grand Canyon in sight
I don’t know grass green and tall
A farm life, that is free for all

Serenity isn’t a place I know
It’s somewhere I never go
Serenity isn’t a thing for me
It’s a place that I’ll never be
My spot will never be serine
It’s just a space I’ll never see

I don’t know heaven
But I wish they’d let me

Serenity isn’t a place I know
It’s somewhere I never go
Serenity isn’t a thing for me
It’s a place that I’ll never be
My spot will never be serine
It’s just a space I’ll never see

Fly, butterfly, don’t fly away
You would be missed greatly
You have reasons here to stay
Always tomorrow will be a new day

Your troubles could actually fade
You just have to give your say
Push your troubles out to bay
Try, butterfly, this far you have made

Fly, butterfly, don’t fly away
You would be missed greatly
You have reasons here to stay
Always tomorrow will be a new day

I have loved the moon too fondly
To ever be fearful of the night
And I mustn’t forget this
The stars shining so bright

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

I could get forever lost
Inside the moon’s touch
As it’s controlling my being
For it I’m truly always fiending

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

Come with me and play
Let go of your mind’s decay
I am so fond of the moon
That the night leaves so soon

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

So, these are my confessions
I learned some hard lessons
Made my share of some messes
Couldn’t help all that happened
And I can’t make the crap end
So, there is no time for resting
Somewhere here there is a message
I swear these are my confessions

One, two, three, kept getting caught
As the victim and to be later distraught
Took away my innocence and choice
Left me a scared little girl over and over
Don’t know how to say NO

Friends come and go after many years
Thought I had a hold on my dears
Always said cheers, then my worst fears
One by one over nonsense they were gone
That’s what happens when they change

Now, these are my confessions
I learned some hard lessons
Made my share of some messes
Couldn’t help all that happened
And I can’t make the crap end
So, there is no time for resting
Somewhere here there is a message
I swear these are my confessions

Guys wasted time and I was so blind
Even when in love he even bit the dust
Leaving me guilty and never touched
Like I was never ever really enough
To not a single body, not to anyone

Family got torn and now it’s like thorns
Even my own blood has come for me
But never to my face, ain’t that great
Always wanted a big and happy tree
But now I just leave it be

Health declined more and more
I am so done keeping the score
It seems I’m losing it anyway
With more wrong daily these days
I officially have lost my way

There, these were my confessions
I learned some hard lessons
Made my share of some messes
Couldn’t help all that happened
And I can’t make the crap end
So, there is no time for resting
Somewhere here there is a message
I swear these are my confessions

How easy, they can forget me
Like a flower, caught in the breeze
Just there wailing away and flaking
Unsteady, like the ground shaking
It is water boiling over the edge
And me standing on a ledge
Birthdays always have me a mess
Sad days make me feel less

Another year goes by
I guess it’s true that time flies
But I still feel like I’m stuck
Inside four walls, in a rut

How easy, they can forget me
Like a flower, caught in the breeze
Just there wailing away and flaking
Unsteady, like the ground shaking
It is water boiling over the edge
And me standing on a ledge
Birthdays always have me a mess
Sad days make me feel less

Don’t feel that I have survived
Instead I feel over and over-victimized
Birthdays mean nothing more
They just cause me to be more insecure
And unsure...

How easy, they can forget me
Like a flower, caught in the breeze
Just there wailing away and flaking
Unsteady, like the ground shaking
It is water boiling over the edge
And me standing on a ledge
Birthdays always have me a mess
Sad days make me feel less

I  don’t always have all of the answers
And I must take a chance here and there
In fact, more questions may arise
Than would I could handle at a time

A flower blooms, a petal falls
The wind picks up and swirls it all
Where it ends up, is anyone’s call
That is life, you’re taking a draw

A flower is picked, used for its beauty
The prettiness fades, it’s no longer newly
We get our time to shine on this planet
Like a flower grows when it’s planted

Good times come, bad times go
It is like playing a game of tug-a-war
Wake me up before it’s time to die
Let realize what I have in life

A flower blooms, a petal falls
The wind picks up and swirls it all
Where it ends up, is anyone’s call
That is life, you’re taking a draw

A flower is picked, used for its beauty
The prettiness fades, it’s no longer newly
We get our time to shine on this planet
Like a flower grows when it’s planted

Changing seasons, changes reasons
It is the stroll of life we’re in

A flower blooms, a petal falls
The wind picks up and swirls it all
Where it ends up, is anyone’s call
That is life, you’re taking a draw

A flower is picked, used for its beauty
The prettiness fades, it’s no longer newly
We get our time to shine on this planet
Like a flower grows when it’s planted

A soul as pure as snow
Lips as red as a fresh rose
Body language that’s not cold
Looks like she’s not too old

Mysterious and beautiful
But no one seems to know
Where she comes from
Like a real Cinderella

Hair like sunlight beams
A laugh so intoxicating
With a mischievous smile
But she only stays awhile

Mysterious and beautiful
But no one seems to know
Where she comes from
Like a real Cinderella

The rarest one known
Rushed out the door
Just like a real Cinderella

Mysterious and beautiful
But no one seems to know
Where she comes from
Like a real Cinderella

I’m addicted to the way you keep me
At arms length, but I keep on reaching
Got me addicted to you, what do I do?
When you go ghost, I want you the most

I have gone just a little crazy
With the way you cause me waiting
With how you’ve treated me lately
I know that I am wrong for staying  
Your actions have consequences
And now you are going to get them
A good girl placed into your world
It’s a fact, turns bad, that is for sure
It’s your charm and it is your lure
But you’re oblivious, making me crazier
So crazy, crazy, crazy, I have a lot to stir

I know it’s not smart to play the game
But I can’t help it, I’m not even ashamed
You got me playing by all new rules
And I have been acting out like a fool

I have gone just a little crazy
With the way you cause me waiting
With how you’ve treated me lately
I know that I am wrong for staying  
Your actions have consequences
And now you are going to get them
A good girl placed into your world
It’s a fact, turns bad, that is for sure
It’s your charm and it is your lure
But you’re oblivious, making me crazier
So crazy, crazy, crazy, I have a lot to stir

Just give me your attention, now and then
I promise not doing so would be a miss
Bring my sanity back, stop acting whack

I have gone just a little crazy
With the way you cause me waiting
With how you’ve treated me lately
I know that I am wrong for staying  
Your actions have consequences
And now you are going to get them
A good girl placed into your world
It’s a fact, turns bad, that is for sure
It’s your charm and it is your lure
But you’re oblivious, making me crazier
So crazy, crazy, crazy, I have a lot to stir

I seem to have a knack for bad situations
I mistakenly give them warm salutations
No matter how good I really do try and be
Trouble is always around the corner for me

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

Not being able to control is hard for me
I can’t manipulate things, driving me crazy
They tell me what to do to start the race
But they aren’t comprehending my pace

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

I’m so sick of living a lie
I’m tired of the constant fight

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

Maybe I have missed my chance
I could have messed up my plans
Might have taken away my stance
Everything that I tried to do, I can’t

All my life is spent daydreaming
You’d think that I keep believing
But it’s all just lost it’s meaning

Chances, I was about to take
But I just needed a break
So it turns out, didn't work out
I was only bound to stay down

All my life is spent daydreaming
You’d think that I keep believing
But it’s all just lost it’s meaning

I guess I’ll try that chance again
I ask what I have to lose then

All my life is spent daydreaming
You’d think that I keep believing
But it’s all just lost it’s meaning

Oxymorons, because I’m not that easy, so don’t stereotype me
I hate what I love and love creating what I hate
I even hate love itself, but need it more than anything else

Complicated is what makes us, individuality is what teaches us
Ignorance and what’s not know, drives us to stupidity and hatefulness
Communication and acceptance could build more bridges

Yin and yang, sun to moon, black and white, rain or shine
Destiny and choice, high to low, hot or cold, I am sold
I believes in them all, like a prism, from one side to the finish

And all that’s left are black butterflies
Fluttering all about, surrounding me
All that’s left is deadness in my eyes
Dust to dust, everything falls apart
It has been so long, I can’t even cry
Lost spinning in a full room all alone
I contemplate if I should still fight
As black butterflies fly in my mind

The darkness takes over and lasts
I keep having to mend the pieces back
As falling apart seems to be my knack
Ashes to ashes, everything falls apart
It seems like there are no new starts
Black butterflies have taken their flight
I ask to the dear heavens above, “why”
I’m seeing the world with black butterflies

Because all that’s left are black butterflies
Those black butterflies fly in my mind
The black butterflies have taken their flight
I’m seeing the world with black butterflies

Didn’t know what I was in for
Once you closed that door
Started out okay, later went a wrong way
Did things I did not even ask for
And you didn’t warn me about them before
When I protested, didn’t make a difference
So I got scared and let you finish your business
Got a bit abusive and even more intrusive
Afterwards wouldn’t let me leave
Held my hostage with thee
Thought about gong to the kitchen
To grab a knife for my protection
But it was a big iffy question
Confused because at first I gave permission
Revoked it after it wasn’t my intentions
But it had made no difference
So yet again, I was the victim
Told no one else about it
So this is my admittance
Bad mouthed me after the fact
Upset me and that was whack
All might not believe here all that I’ve said
But at least it’s no longer locked in my head
I guess that’s the end, heaven send me strength

You make me feel special
Without gifts or even words
All just with our body language
No three letters getting you confused

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

It starts with the way you look into my eyes
You seeing just what is on my mind
The way you gently touch my skin
And know just what I am feeling

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

Suspense feeling so high
I don’t wanna come down

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

Eyes like emeralds in an amethyst dress
Shining ruby lips, with with strands of pearl necklaces
Platinum heels, ready to take on the world
Golden locks, falling gracefully down in curls

Precious and witty
Coal turned pretty
Beauty such a pity
Looking into the gritty

As the sun begins to fade in an opal sky
Eyes blurred with sapphire tears held back
As she looks to her reflection
Flawless and tough like a diamond cutting glass

Precious and witty
Coal turned pretty
Beauty such a pity
Looking into the gritty

She hides behind jewels with flawless beauty
Not knowing she’s a gem already inside her heart
Made of more precious gifts than elements on earth
She’s from the stars; one with the universe

Precious and witty
Coal turned pretty
Beauty such a pity
Looking into the gritty
She’s ready

Why’d Babygirl have to die
I can’t believe it was her time
Her love was far too strong
She was needed back home

News was too hard to believe
I really did not want to see it
Had so much left to do in life
And it hurt like a sharp knife

Don’t find angels here on earth
But back then I was already sure
One of the best here was Babygirl
And I will hold to that for forever

Wondering what could have been
If this angel would have just lived
But now we will never, ever know
Because off she has already flown

Rest In Peace doesn’t sound like enough
Hope you know how great you were loved
And how it will continue you with you above
Until we meet again, Babygirl, the way it was

When I look at the bigger picture
I get anxiety
Therefore, I take smaller steps
To guide me
I look towards the future
To be free
I pace myself above all
To be happy
I wait for the greater things
To see what I’ll see

Crazy a tad, many messes I’ve had
Like the moon, always in a phase
I go through life dreaming in a daze
All of the crisis, but still sure feisty
I always get back up on my feet
I’m not going to accept defeat
After all, I’m broken but not beat
Another round, feet on the ground

I miss being a little girl
Expecting life to be fair
You grow up and realize
Nothing is organized right
But you must keep trying
All day long and at night

But difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just must make the journey

I miss simplicity, because obviously
Then we’d get along and all agree
Everything would work out eventually
I grew up and did not realize in life
Attachments could be cut aside
Strongly now, everyone has pride

But difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just must make the journey

Can’t go back, complicated is where it’s at
Can’t let go, have to remember to grow

But difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just must make the journey

I’m choking on your lies
Flying at me like bullets
And your mouths the gun
It’s time for goodbyes
I can not control it

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I guess this round you won
You kept pulling the trigger
Now you regret it, it figures
But get the hell out now
Because I’m done feeling down

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

Bang, bang I’m gone
It’s time to say so long

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I was looking forward to tomorrow
Now I’m filled with so much sorrow
Bad news came and took away
The promising lookout I had from today
But that’s okay, now I just have more to say  

Suddenly, I’m ready to start a fight
I’m ready to go in, hit strong, and win
Suddenly, I know everything will be alright
My eyes have a sparkle and my face a grin
I see the finish line close by, in my sight
And I feel the fire in me, alive, deep inside  

I see an obstacle in my view
And it seems to me, that it’s you
Not cool, so here’s what we gotta do
Go face-to-face, put you on the spot
Prove why you’re nothing that’s hot

Suddenly, I’m ready to start a fight
I’m ready to go in, hit strong, and win
Suddenly, I know everything will be alright
My eyes have a sparkle and my face a grin
I see the finish line close by, in my sight
And I feel the fire in me, alive, deep inside

When I was weak, you gave me no mercy
Death’s the only way you’ll have me beat
And it is your ego on the winning streak

Suddenly, I’m ready to start a fight
I’m ready to go in, hit strong, and win
Suddenly, I know everything will be alright
My eyes have a sparkle and my face a grin
I see the finish line close by, in my sight
And I feel the fire in me, alive, deep inside

Thought we were down
Like someone decent I found
Yet through out all your lying
Got me shading, just like Mariah

Moved on to a better love
Someone with the right touch
He and his love are both on fiyah
Got me whistling, just like Mariah

Have them haters everywhere
I feel the jealousy in the air
Leave them girls crying because
I don’t know her, just like Mariah

Stuck inside the bad, bright light
It makes me wanna start a fight
Got me hiding from fluorescent lighting
So got my shades on, just like Mariah

Pow and pow, it is so very hot tamale
This will have you on the floor crawling
My taste will have you in the corner crying
Rocking that ensemble, just like Mariah

Love ya, appreciate ya, just like Mariah

A goddess in any shape or size
The human body was made divine
Not shameful to fear and hide
Skin is not what is distasteful
Actions make good and bad people
Not pride in your natural appearance

She tries to hide her natural gifts
Her beauty, including her imperfections
Even if those qualities make her
The person she is compared to others
Standing out from being just anybody
So, making everybody a somebody

Pressure is suffocating on our looks
Women can be enemies of the worst
Tearing away at each others looks first
But a naked being is how we’re created
And appreciation should be encouraged
Yours to share as you see fit in society

Learning to love the body you’re in
And feeling comfortable in your skin
Knowing who you are inside to out
Is not a disgrace, but simply amazing
Acceptance, class, and much dignity
A goddess is inside of every lady

Amethyst on my wrist
Assists me to coexist
In this world, so that I  
May feel contentment
My intuition, so strong
Pendulum in chakras  
Have my Rubies in my pocket
To make sure that I sock it
Passionately deep, like its pink
I will overcome challenges
And correct imbalances
I rather make a ripple
Than stay still, crippled
And I will be alright
As I got that liquid light
From my wand of Selenite
Daily, clean away the negativity
No longer phased by others’ activities
It took a long time, but I’m good
And I see things as I should
My new ways, I embrace
I thank the Universe, always

It’s that time of night again
All alone with my feelings
In the cold bed, inside my head
I get so lost inside of there
It’s hard to bare, in a gaze I stare

Yes, it’s time to let loose
Take the mask off and try to cry
But my eyes are finally too dry
Since this is my reality every night
A prisoner in my mind, no escape to find

It’s that time of night now
All alone to let myself out
The smile fades away
The demons come out to play
It’s so hard to go through what I do

Yes, it is lonely but necessary
The true me must stay buried
In the dark corners of my mind
I need to shine a flashlight, since I’m
A prisoner in my brain, such a shame

Festive memories being made
Children laughing all down the lane
Today is that special kind of day
Of the year for magic to appear
Because you’ll hear that sleigh
Knowing Santa is on his way

Oh **, it comes just once a year
A time for all to laugh and cheer
A feeling of merriment all around
And bells ringing that special sound

Festive memories being made
Children laughing all down the lane
Today is that special kind of day
Of the year for magic to appear
Because you’ll hear that sleigh
Knowing Santa is on his way

That mistletoe hung up above
Lights all lit up while nicely strung
Songs being sung down the street
Spying on gifts as the floor creeks

Festive memories being made
Children laughing all down the lane
Today is that special kind of day
Of the year for magic to appear
Because you’ll hear that sleigh
Knowing Santa is on his way

People shopping at the mall
Stockings are hung for all
Christmas trees done up
Lights strung and hung up

But none of this matter to me
I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

Children laughing all the way
Reindeer hooked up to the sleigh
Eggnog all ready to go
With the mistletoe aglow

But none of this matter to me
I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

I enjoy all the spirit that lifts
But I would like Santa
To give that one special gift

I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

You started these things out
Purposely broke my heart
And now you will find out

They say that payback is a *****
I hope someday you both meet
And you’re left with a dying itch
So the truth you can finally see

You have the circumstances backwards
Thinking with your *****, not actions
So it is time you found out

They say that payback is a *****
I hope someday you both meet
And you’re left with a dying itch
So the truth you can finally see

I remember it all
Karma will resolve

They say that payback is a *****
I hope someday you both meet
And you’re left with a dying itch
So the truth you can finally see

I’ve always taken care of everybody
I was always put in charge of situations
I played “mommy” on every occasion
But when you’re down and out ...
They forgot

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

I used to be sad about losing each one of you
But I don’t cry anymore like a past life and I’m now new
I’m angry that I was clearly always used
20/20 vision looking back but I’ll pretend we never met
No more feelings left in me much longer to show and shed
I forget...

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

***** you for taking me for granted
***** you, making me second think
And ***** your for making me care

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

...To make things right
...To give me closure
So I can sleep at night

...To give me hope
...To end this war
That I fought for

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on  

...To resurrect me
...To direct me
Where I belong

...To be done
...Just for my ego
That needs love

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on

Get down on your arms and knees
Beg for me, screaming please

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on

Alone here with the girl in the mirror
I can’t help but to have a growing fear
She’s familiar but ...
We are known to see different truths and lies
I can’t trust anything through her eyes
I couldn’t even tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

So which would they choose
I admit, too, I’m rather confused
Would they want me?
Or is she their dream that they’d rather I be
I believe I need to know if it is her or me
Since I couldn’t even tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

I feel her trying to control us both
I try and try to hold on to my hope
Are we both lost?
I am screaming inside but she looks so quite
Maybe she’s already got it figured out
And still, I couldn’t tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

I admit, I miss my past and think constantly why nothing could last
I know I’m forgetting the bad and focusing on the good I had
So I’m lying to myself, as I weep to myself about it all
That’s why I’m stuck in what was and not here all the way full
So lonely, it hurts deep inside to not have one in my life
I want my one and only, that will forever be by my side
I can’t lie, I’m traumatized and I deserved so much better
But right now I’m stuck in the past seemingly forever

Why did I ever try to settle?
It’s better on my own level
Like wearing my Rose Quartz
And loving myself a lot more

The full moon has arrived,
Again, and so has my pride
My wings are finally in sight
And I am eager to take flight

My shell holds me like a cell  
But my soul burns hot like hell  
Only, it is too holy to hold back
So now we work together, respect

I wash the day away with Selenite
I feel myself letting go, starting over
Starting fresh and getting a new try
Another day, go on, I find my way

And I may be the “crazy one”
That’s fine, at least now my
Chakras are aligned; like you’re fine  
So for the haters, I have no time

Took too much of your love
Overdosed in a short period
Got caught up in all the fun
Now it’s like a hallucination

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

Things are not very clear
You’re no longer really here
I take a step back to reality
Only to be withdrawing

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

I’m sick without your drug
I can’t get quite enough
Because I’m on too much
Then turned and cut me off

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

Permanently looking for peace
Temporary couldn’t last a week
Sincerely, I didn’t even have to think
I guess in the moment I was weak

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

Couldn’t tell me any different
Made up my mind in an instant
Put my thoughts to the distance
Made sure there was no mentioning it

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

If I begged for forgiveness
Would I get other chances
Now it’s only ***** glances
But I had to take my stance

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

Pop, pop, sip, further you slip
Pop, pop, sip, further you slip

I let so many people get close to me
And it ended with most of their greed
Getting in the way of what might be
Could be an us going down in history

If someone told me you would be gone
I would have told them they are wrong
If I knew one day you would not stay
I would not have bothered with all the pain
If I looked inside my crystal ball and saw
All the trouble you would have caused
I would have just one day brushed on by
And just said to you to “have a nice life”

I am not only talking about lovers lost
But the best of buds and family also cost
You all clouded my judgement down
And just left me with a ton of loss

If someone told me you would be gone
I would have told them they are wrong
If I knew one day you would not stay
I would not have bothered with all the pain
If I looked inside my crystal ball and saw
All the trouble you would have caused
I would have just one day brushed on by
And just said to you to “have a nice life”

In the moment I would not have believed
Because I am always so **** trusting

If someone told me you would be gone
I would have told them they are wrong
If I knew one day you would not stay
I would not have bothered with all the pain
If I looked inside my crystal ball and saw
All the trouble you would have caused
I would have just one day brushed on by
And just said to you to “have a nice life”

I have made a lot of mistakes
But hasn’t just about everyone?
I’ve been through a lot of fakes
But that is not just anyone

I know they’d be better off
And I know that I’m the cause
Of most of their life’s drama
They’re too good to admit it
That’s only why I can’t quit it

I don’t know what to do
To fix all that’s abused
I don’t know what to say
To make it all back okay

I know they’d be better off
And I know that I’m the cause
Of most of their life’s drama
They’re too good to admit it
That’s only why I can’t quit it

I am sorry I am not perfect
I am sorry I am not worthy

I know they’d be better off
And I know that I’m the cause
Of most of their life’s drama
They’re too good to admit it
That’s only why I can’t quit it