I see you living your life
As with me you stay quiet
I don’t understand your absence
I don’t understand your silence  
Only to come to me when you give up
I guess it’s you and not just my luck
You never did take me seriously
Gave everyone a chance but me
Yet you keep coming back anyway, endlessly
Tell me why, what do you seek of me?
What am I supposed to be, tell me?

You got me to fall for it like the rest
Had me feeling like I was the best
But the whole thing was just a lie
You had one foot out, on a flight
Just laughing I was down for the ride

And the worst thing that ever happened to me
Was the day I agreed to meet up with thee
Biggest fake and liar I ever did personally see
Can’t take away the regret and it sure does sting
Now I’m left fallen and sullen, saying oh em gee

I can’t express how much I cried
I no longer even wanted my life
That’s how deep you rooted in me
And that’s how blind I was being
Took so long to reach out and see

And the worst thing that ever happened to me
Was the day I agreed to meet up with thee
Biggest fake and liar I ever did personally see
Can’t take away the regret and it sure does sting
Now I’m left fallen and sullen, saying oh em gee

Should have left me be, I’d never grief
Should of said no thanks, not on any day
Should have saw the signs in time  

And the worst thing that ever happened to me
Was the day I agreed to meet up with thee
Biggest fake and liar I ever did personally see
Can’t take away the regret and it sure does sting
Now I’m left fallen and sullen, saying oh em gee

I seem to have a knack for bad situations
I mistakenly give them warm salutations
No matter how good I really do try and be
Trouble is always around the corner for me

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

Not being able to control is hard for me
I can’t manipulate things, driving me crazy
They tell me what to do to start the race
But they aren’t comprehending my pace

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

I’m so sick of living a lie
I’m tired of the constant fight

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

I have been trying so hard for a high
Seems like it is just an easy ride
For everyone else but surely not me
Don’t understand why this must be

I get caught up in the delusion that others are perfect
So imagine my confusion when I never feel worth it
Every time I’m thinking that I may have it down
I fall hard from grace with a frown, losing the crown
And then I feel like a clown for thinking I could be perfect
One thing I’ll give me, I’m good at being imperfect

The grass is greener on the other side
Though I know I shouldn’t compare lives
It’s very hard to hold on to my pride
I find it so difficult to try and get by

I get caught up in the delusion that others are perfect
So imagine my confusion when I never feel worth it
Every time I’m thinking that I may have it down
I fall hard from grace with a frown, losing the crown
And then I feel like a clown for thinking I could be perfect
One thing I’ll give me, I’m good at being imperfect

Believe me, I know it could always be worse
But today asking “why” must comes first

I get caught up in the delusion that others are perfect
So imagine my confusion when I never feel worth it
Every time I’m thinking that I may have it down
I fall hard from grace with a frown, losing the crown
And then I feel like a clown for thinking I could be perfect
One thing I’ll give me, I’m good at being imperfect

No *** and no guys
No being used, no lies
That’s how I’m living my life
They can all go fly a kite
They can all go take a hike
That’s how I’m living my life

I’m over figuring out, you see
What they want out of me
That’s how I’m living my life
I’m just gonna play shy
I’m not gonna say hi
That’s how I’m living my life

I get lost inside my mind
Thinking of the past times
I think of all my mistakes
And what I could have made
If only different paths I stayed

I’m just worn out, being me
Stuck inside this horrible body
I find it hard to keep my sanity
Getting by doesn’t come easy
I’m better off just daydreaming

I imagine what could be
If I were just someone else
A better version of myself
I stay daydreaming about it
My mind racing, never quits

I’m just worn out, being me
Stuck inside this horrible body
I find it hard to keep my sanity
Getting by doesn’t come easy
I’m better off just daydreaming

I’m choking on your lies
Flying at me like bullets
And your mouth is the gun
It’s time for goodbyes
I can not control it

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I guess this round you won
You kept pulling the trigger
Now you regret it, it figures
But get the hell out now
Because I’m done feeling down

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

Bang, bang, I’m gone
It’s time to say “so long”

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I didn’t want to give it all up
But it was just all too much
And now I can’t get enough

I was physically falling apart
Losing it all just one-by-one
Then he had to break my heart

Made a lot of mistakes
Yet caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I never wanted any goodbyes
But it was all too much drama and lies
And it all nearly cost me my life

Letting go is real hard to do
When do many left you *******
But everyone’s life’s go on too

Made a lot of mistakes
Yet caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Always getting too close, too soon
Always expecting to reach the moon

Made a lot of mistakes
Yet caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I see her in the mirror, even shards shattered
It’s the real girl and she’s not smiling there
She needs a sign of acceptance
That she’s not getting quick enough
First she must learn to love herself
Nurture the soul and kiss the heart
Then she will find she’s enough

Inside her mind screaming her lungs out
But poised on the outside showing no doubt
She has had to give up so much that it *****
But keeps on moving and testing her luck  
She doesn’t ask for much, just give her your touch
Help out by being available while she nurtures the soul
Kisses the heart and no longer comes apart

Within the shards she cries a lot
She can’t see what she’s actually got
Too busy smiling on the outside
She feels life is passing her by
The mirrored pieces tell no lies
The healing process isn’t too far
Nurture the soul and kiss the heart

It’s a very dark place to visit
Visitors are not permitted
I try and keep my own distance
From myself and everyone else

Through glass shards, I see me
I’m on my knees and I’m crying
But this is something you’ll never see
Only the girl in the mirror shows despair
On the outside, I’m smiling there
I have the girl in the mirror lost in fear

I can’t breakdown now
So I will just play the clown
So it’s never really seen
That I’m in desperate need

Through glass shards, I see me
I’m on my knees and I’m crying
But this is something you’ll never see
Only the girl in the mirror shows despair
On the outside, I’m smiling there
I have the girl in the mirror lost in fear

No one knows there’s two of me
I want you to see me on the outside
And that only

Through glass shards, I see me
I’m on my knees and I’m crying
But this is something you’ll never see
Only the girl in the mirror shows despair
On the outside, I’m smiling there
I have the girl in the mirror lost in fear

...To make things right
...To give me closure
So I can sleep at night

...To give me hope
...To end this war
That I fought for

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on  

...To resurrect me
...To direct me
Where I belong

...To be done
...Just for my ego
That needs love

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on

Get down on your arms and knees
Beg for me, screaming please

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on

Everything seemed perfect, yes, seemed
It was an illusion that you would beam
Took me for granted, I ask “why me?”

All of your lies that you conceal to hide
Always thinking that I wouldn’t grow wise
So hard I tried to hide the tears I cried
But starting now, I’m so done with it  
Because I realized my pride was missing
Broken promises were all you would give

I guess this is what it comes down to
You think you’ve won, one day you’ll lose
It will be in the stars, the biggest news

All of your lies that you conceal to hide
Always thinking that I wouldn’t grow wise
So hard I tried to hide the tears I cried
But starting now, I’m so done with it  
Because I realized my pride was missing
Broken promises were all you would give

I’ll cut you out of the memories in time
“Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind”

All of your lies that you conceal to hide
Always thinking that I wouldn’t grow wise
So hard I tried to hide the tears I cried
But starting now, I’m so done with it  
Because I realized my pride was missing
Broken promises were all you would give

Like a rose, a beauty in disguise
She is dreamily easy on the eyes
But something deeper does hide
While drawn in by her fragrance
You will get pricked by her thorns
That is if of course you’re not gentle
Like the others that badly scorned

They say that time heals everything
However, it is time that is infinity
So tell me, how do I get over anything?

Is nothing really history?
Or are we just on repeat?
All of it is such a mystery

They say to open your heart to see
However, now mine is barely beating
When do I actually get to feel “like me”

And all that’s left are black butterflies
Fluttering all about, surrounding me
All that’s left is deadness in my eyes
Dust to dust, everything falls apart
It has been so long, I can’t even cry
Lost spinning in a full room all alone
I contemplate if I should still fight
As black butterflies fly in my mind

The darkness takes over and lasts
I keep having to mend the pieces back
As falling apart seems to be my knack
Ashes to ashes, everything falls apart
It seems like there are no new starts
Black butterflies have taken their flight
I ask to the dear heavens above, “why”
I’m seeing the world with black butterflies

Because all that’s left are black butterflies
Those black butterflies fly in my mind
The black butterflies have taken their flight
I’m seeing the world with black butterflies

We all have our moments
Good and bad, sweet and sad
Feeling glad, loving or mad
Just one does not define us
You should know, I’m just me

Don’t you see, I belong to me
Don’t need you to be complete
I can set my own self to be free
So please, just go and let me be
Love is great, but I’m loving me
You are good, but I’m not in need

Things constantly are changing
I had to learn the hard ways
That the most important thing
Is how to keep myself sane
So I found the best love I know

Don’t you see, I belong to me
Don’t need you to be complete
I can set my own self to be free
So please, just go and let me be
Love is great, but I’m loving me
You are good, but I’m not in need

I belong, I belong, I belong to me
Only me, only me, can set me free
Thanks, but you’re not what I need

Don’t you see, I belong to me
Don’t need you to be complete
I can set my own self to be free
So please, just go and let me be
Love is great, but I’m loving me
You are good, but I’m not in need

You would understand
Why I won’t take your hand
If you knew my indiscretions
From the lovers to the friends
And along came the judgements
From the most loved ones
But all I could do was land
So I came down to my sanity
And here you are, to rescue me
Make me feel human again
To have me matter once again

She’s too pretty to be sad
What kinda waste is that?
She’s too beautiful to have scars
But there’s hurt beyond those marks
They don’t understand at all
Silence brought her to these parts
Something cut her way too deep
So she just did it along the way, too
Yet she keeps standing on her feet
There’s a reason to her madness
It’s that she has not forgotten
These scars speak from the soul
She is still just as beautiful

Never got our fair shot, please take it now
I am letting you know that I am around
Please take note and don’t let me down
Get back to me, I beg of you, please

I wait to hear from you every night and day
I know exactly what it is I want to say
But you keep me waiting, I hate this game
Come back and stay, don’t go back away
Need you now, forever, know I sound lame

I promise I am different, don’t just listen
Let me show you, just invite me on over
I will prove it with more than words
I’ll be the best of best of a kind of girl

I wait to hear from you every night and day
I know exactly what it is I want to say
But you keep me waiting, I hate this game
Come back and stay, don’t go back away
Need you now, forever, know I sound lame

Maybe I’m stupid to keep holding on
When most of the time you are gone
But I just can’t help myself...

I wait to hear from you every night and day
I know exactly what it is I want to say
But you keep me waiting, I hate this game
Come back and stay, don’t go back away
Need you now, forever, know I sound lame

Things sure did a one-eighty
I’m worse off, this is crazy
And all I hear is maybe
I learned who was shady
And whom to throw away

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Not sure where to turn
But I sure have learned

Getting my feet on the ground
I was so lost, now I’m found
Not certain how to get it done
But I’ll make sure I have won
Tell them to see me when I’m done

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Not sure where to turn
But I sure have learned

It is time to organize
And finally live my life

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Not sure where to turn
But I sure have learned

When I lie down in bed
You’re never in my head
No, not anymore dread
I’m better off in the end
I just sit back and watch ya

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
That mean it could be the end

Finally got what you deserved
Thought you figured it out at first
Now you seem to have a thirst
Glad I’m gone from your curse
I just sit back and watch ya

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
That mean it could be the end

Stuck in a corner under a rock
You just didn’t know when to stop
So I just sit and watch as you’re

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
That mean it could be the end

It only seems like such a tragedy
Burning bright and sparking
When it started out blue
That’s what makes it beautiful, too

Fire growing more vibrant now
I’m feeling it inside and out
The heat has me pumped
Now I can’t get enough

It is just another part to me
Getting stronger and I’ll follow that fire
Even though you lit the match as a starter
It is now mine to use to climb higher

You thought you had burned me
But that blaze focused my daze
And now I can take on anything
Thought you won, but I changed

Her eyes are all dry
From crying inside
Battling the thoughts
Of becoming distraught
Love became a mirage
As he became a facade
Now she sits in silence
As calm as a statue
Her emotions are drained
There’s nothing to say

As the breeze passes
I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp
As I really start to fly
Lean back and swing
My way into a fantasy
Images in my head swaying
Daydreaming
No where else to be
Simplicity and happy

Free from doubt
Free from insecurity
Like your love
Like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you
Free from me
And my demons
Like the untamed
Like the crashing waves
Free from society

You speak “the truth” like a politician
Engaged with others in a conversation
You steal the show at another’s event
So, do you care what’s even meant?

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know how to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy?

You know how to twist a truth into a lie
Just as if it were you trying to save a life
You’d have someone fall for a laugh
So, would you leave me in a draft?

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know how to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy?

It’s all about you, you, you
Forgetting how to act
Not knowing what to do

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know how to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy?

I have loved the moon too fondly
To ever be fearful of the night
And I mustn’t forget this
The stars shining so bright

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

I could get forever lost
Inside the moon’s touch
As it’s controlling my being
For it I’m truly always fiending

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

Come with me and play
Let go of your mind’s decay
I am so fond of the moon
That the night leaves so soon

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

The tide rolls in and out
I can feel it in my heart

Love is a habit of the brain
It can make you happy
Or just drive you insane
It’s addiction at its finest
With both water and fire
Then the natural response
With both lust and desire
Love is definitely something
That must be acquired

You wish and pray
For that special day
The moment you touch
Love and no more lust
Then one day, once yours
Is finally all given away
You may get heartbreak
And wish you never knew
What you now had to lose

You may also have to break
Hearts that you didn’t take
It can become complicated
Love and no more lust
Just not feeling your part
Then your heart may feel guilt
Even if it necessarily shouldn’t
You may wish you never knew
What all love can really do

Love is a habit of the brain
It can make you happy
Or just drive you insane
It’s addiction at its finest
With both water and fire
Then the natural response
With both lust and desire
Love is definitely something
That must be acquired

Alone here with the girl in the mirror
I can’t help but have a growing fear
She’s familiar, though neither of us know
What are the truths and what are the lies
I feel I can’t trust anything through her eyes
I couldn’t even tell you which is the real deal
Which way is the truth, behind the mirror

There is a rain cloud sitting just above, fogging my judgement quite enough
I need my umbrella, until the sun breaks through this stormy weather
And my colors shine brighter, than my dark side could ever
Through snow, ice, or sleet, I won’t settle for defeat by being weak
There is a rain cloud sitting just above, fogging my judgement quite enough
I need my umbrella, until a rainbow appears above, giving me a break, showing love

I know these are all very serious feelings drudged up
Because when I’m around you, I can’t help but go nuts
I can’t seem to keep it cool, as I am not sure what to do
Try too hard to be the perfect girl that would be viewed by you

I know I’m a fool

Now I know my first love wasn’t so true as I thought
Because he never made me as nervous as when we talk and walk
I know I can’t love you, it’s not that deep, I’m fully aware
But I know from what has progressed, it’s down there

Let me play it cool

There are no set rules but I am not feeling blue
I have faith you will come around knowing it won’t be now
You give all the wrong ones chances to see, you’re scorned
But I promise I’m worth the rose with the thorns

Oxymorons, because I’m not that easy, so don’t stereotype me
I hate what I love and love creating what I hate
I even hate love itself, but need it more than anything else

Complicated is what makes us, individuality is what teaches us
Ignorance and what’s not know, drives us to stupidity and hatefulness
Communication and acceptance could build more bridges

Yin and yang, sun to moon, black and white, rain or shine
Destiny and choice, high to low, hot or cold, I am sold
I believes in them all, like a prism, from one side to the finish

Like a rose, a beauty in disguise
She is dreamily easy on the eyes
But something deeper does hide
While drawn in by her fragrance
You will get pricked by her thorns
That is, if of course, you’re not gentle
Like the others that badly scorned

Mixed together like the colors in a rainbow...
Opposites attract, as long as you’re on board the same paths
We may have different ways, but we’ll both get to the same place
Eventually, it’s okay to have different choices in the process made

Mixed together like the colors in a rainbow
We yin and yang each other, can’t tell me no
You know it makes sense, so let’s go with it
It all sounds pretty legit, opposites attract
Now let’s forget our fears and run with that

I know you’re afraid and so am I, we’ve both been devastated
I’ve been jaded and you hated, but together we could be elated
Too bad it’s the rarity we have in common with each other
Punishing ourselves and something great because of another

Mixed together like the colors in a rainbow
We yin and yang each other, can’t tell me no
You know it makes sense, so let’s go with it
It all sounds pretty legit, opposites attract
Now let’s forget our fears and run with that

You like “this” while I like “that”
You know “what” and I know “where at”
I cruise “left” when you cruise “right”
But we should stop putting up a fight

Mixed together like the colors in a rainbow
We yin and yang each other, can’t tell me no
You know it makes sense, so let’s go with it
It all sounds pretty legit, opposites attract
Now let’s forget our fears and run with that

Many guys all fawn over me
But they’re not looking for keeps
And my eyes are only for you
I really want to know you more, too
At least as friends, even if that is it
Just say the word and let me in
I believe you won’t be disappointed
Because my eyes are only for you

Six years ago, what we had was gold
But I guess for you, it eventually got old
So today you cut me loose, left confused
Looking back, you were right though
Because I no longer even miss you

I look and see the signs, trying to survive
I would get by as you held on for dear life
Was quite the times, must have been blind
To ever believe, you were the one for me
So I guess I’m okay, our love is deceased

Too bad you ended things, in a ****** way
A cheater forever, if a cheater that day
Now I know you were never the best
And I’m glad you left, even unexpected
You had some nerve, but that’s six years old

Lies
Straight to my face
Can strike like a knife
To my weakest point

Cheat
Hurts my soul
It cuts real deep
To my heart too

Then I realize I’m better
Off without you, babe
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more time for fakes

Sneak
Around on me
It goes notices
Hurts my ego

Anger
Scares my being
Bruises me whole
Gets out of control

Then I realize I’m better
Off without you, babe
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more time for fakes

All the tears I cried
They end tonight

Then I realize I’m better
Off without you, babe
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more time for fakes

Life goes by quick, agony sits slow
Moments seeming like forever ago
The future feeling like it’s too close
And the present just seems so hectic
So the past we often drift back to
Even when not correctly viewed

Memories hold precious pieces of us
And by lost ones, we are touched
Heartbreak takes some life away
And new life gives breath to they
Fears stop everything that’s around
Hope can being you off that ground

Tick, tock, tick, tock, goes the clock
Take careful count of worth you got
Your time, energy, tears, and years
Remember what is important, dear
Then you will be all right in life
If you believe that hope is in sight

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

And now...

If you come back, baby just stay awhile
Let me think and relax, curl up by the fire
Let me warm up to you, like a little child

Because...

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

Just maybe...

You are back with some tape and glue
Wanting to start again all brand new
That would fix my filings going on
But how would I trust you from before

Since...

I wanted you until infinity, but you broke a link in that chain
Now I’m dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity

So tell me what went wrong then
Show me how it’s different now

No longer...

On a broken link in a chain, dangling from the missing piece
There’s no repairs, left in despair, until infinity
But now maybe we can start anew

Had our practice, now it’s until infinity

You were like a best friend
One I always confined in
Helped me to get on by
Always were by my side
At least through online

Our friendship was ruined
On the day that I met you
Oh yeah, I was very confused
Because you were so cool
Until the day I actually met you
Then you were such a big tool
So stupid and such a fool
Then our time came to a duel

I was unhappy with the truth
Didn’t be what I thought of you
But how did you even contemplate
Leaving me stranded in another place
Your actions, cool to you, a disgrace

Our friendship was ruined
On the day that I met you
Oh yeah, I was very confused
Because you were so cool
Until the day I actually met you
Then you were such a big tool
So stupid and such a fool
Then our time came to a duel

Karma comes back in time, your *** is mine  
Because your actions were so unjustified

Our friendship was ruined
On the day that I met you
Oh yeah, I was very confused
Because you were so cool
Until the day I actually met you
Then you were such a big tool
So stupid and such a fool
Then our time came to a duel

Just wanted a goodbye kiss, acknowledgment
Wanted to know what was legit
Just needed to get pass all of the *******
But you just would not quit it

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

I actually want to see you more happy in some way
To know leaving me was the right way
And that even for me it wasn’t a mistake
But I am not sure I’ll find that day

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

Now it’s time to say so long to all the memories
Maybe the good ones I’ll still keep...

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

Dandelions blow away in the wind
But my love for you will never end
It may seem scattered and faded
But the daisy petals I count daily
Roses have thorns, but are loved
Lilies are my passion for both us
The lotus describes how I fight
So our bloom never, ever dies

I have nothing to gain but pain
Let it pour, let it rain on my parade
Let the tears fall down the drain
Things will never, ever be the same

Really late at night I’d lie awake
And cry about this life sometimes
Not always understanding why
Feeling like I must go ahead and die
But something said keep on and try
Though I still live with the fallout inside

Lessons learned, can’t take it back
Emotions and responsibility lacked
Feeling as though I was under attack
Who knows, maybe I was in fact

Really late at night I’d lie awake
And cry about this life sometimes
Not always understanding why
Feeling like I must go ahead and die
But something said keep on and try
Though I still live with the fallout inside

Funny how change remains the same
Suppose they say it will one day be okay

Really late at night I’d lie awake
And cry about this life sometimes
Not always understanding why
Feeling like I must go ahead and die
But something said keep on and try
Though I still live with the fallout inside

I’m not crazy, delusional, naive
I know eventually it all leaves
Even to the best of them like me
But during our time, best believe

In time love will end, but till then
Love me hard, love me strong
Love me large, love me long
Be all in and win me over again
Tonight and forever, ever then
Do not even fight, love me right

Focus on the here and right now
‘Cause in this moment I could drown
It’s so heavenly how now we feel
Do t dare tell me it can’t be real

In time love will end, but till then
Love me hard, love me strong
Love me large, love me long
Be all in and win me over again
Tonight and forever, ever then
Do not even fight, love me right

It’s not about the future and what it brings
The present is now and  I’m all in this thing

In time love will end, but till then
Love me hard, love me strong
Love me large, love me long
Be all in and win me over again
Tonight and forever, ever then
Do not even fight, love me right

Always dream of being someone I’m not
I get stuck in there, in all of my thoughts
I just want to be my true self, not asking a lot
But to achieve this, it must be fought
The truth I seek inside cannot be taught

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

It can be so hard, leaving who you are
But who you can be is not very far
You may be slightly out of touch
However, you are never out of reach
Soon there will be no stopping me

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

I just had to see I can do the same
I just had to know I can be the change

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

I should let it go like Elsa said
And move on to what is next
But I always somehow think,
As I hate having any enemies,
There’s something left to mend
I further sink like the Titanic did

Tortured, I never feel at peace
Unless Mariah’s singing to me
Learned the best things aren’t free
As there’s always a price to pay
Like when they are taken away
And I’ve had many of them days

Been hurt too many times
To the point it’s been crimes
Always easy to use like a fool
It’s being too nice but it’s not wise
Always being put down for who I am
Still gonna wear my crown to show them

I’ve been cracked open like an egg
Learning the most of any other day
But it’s not always bad, I have had
Some things that make me glad
Guess we all go through things like I do
Just certain times it’s hard to get through

Feeling sick all the time, called a liar
I went from a butterfly to “frequent flyer”
Every day is a struggle to feel just okay
In health it never, ever goes my way
I’ve given up twice but that is alright
Here for a reason, gonna keep believing

I’ve loved so much, just not myself
I’m still a rainbow, with an awful storm
This is my truth, I don’t care what you do
Over-loved so much, just not myself
I’m still a rainbow, with a big, big storm
This is my truth, hope someone it moves

I have waited so very long
For a moment to visualize
After I have always realized
It’s all about you, the way you do  

If I say I love you, if I eagerly reach for you
What would you say, what would you do?
Could I get to you, could I phone through?
Would it be a catastrophe or could I get to?
How could I get an answer, how to be sure?
If I eagerly come to you, what would you do?

Longing each day, longing each night
Really hope you don’t put up a fight
Need you so bad with all my might
It’s just what has always felt right

If I say I love you, if I eagerly reach for you
What would you say, what would you do?
Could I get to you, could I phone through?
Would it be a catastrophe or could I get to?
How could I get an answer, how to be sure?
If I eagerly come to you, what would you do?

Merely, eagerly reaching out
And eagerly singing aloud

If I say I love you, if I eagerly reach for you
What would you say, what would you do?
Could I get to you, could I phone through?
Would it be a catastrophe or could I get to?
How could I get an answer, how to be sure?
If I eagerly come to you, what would you do?

So soft, I can’t get out my voice
Try so hard, can’t make a noise
It is illusive here like in a dream
I break free just so I can scream

Wake me up inside, make me feel alive
Happiness I strive, I’m on the wrong side
I have dived into this pool of despair
I don’t want to stay here, perform a repair
I am calling out screaming, hear meeee

Stuck here and I can’t even feel
Numb to the core, need to heal
Don’t know which direction to turn
When will I wake up and learn

Wake me up inside, make me feel alive
Happiness I strive, I’m on the wrong side
I have dived into this pool of despair
I don’t want to stay here, perform a repair
I am calling out screaming, hear meeee

Release me from this grave I’m in
Dirt pours, don’t let in be my end

Wake me up inside, make me feel alive
Happiness I strive, I’m on the wrong side
I have dived into this pool of despair
I don’t want to stay here, perform a repair
I am calling out screaming, hear meeee

Sometimes I still think
Of you as eight years old
Yes, just that little girl
But you grew up somehow
Turned into a woman now

And you are beautiful
The out and in the soul
And you are dutiful
You can have it all
So of all the things
That I could sit and tell
Know that I wish you well

You begin a new chapter in life
A journey that takes might
But I know that you have strength
And you also got the brains
The little girl left, you came

And you are beautiful
The out and in the soul
And you are dutiful
You can have it all
So of all the things
That I could sit and tell
Know that I wish you well

No, there is no can’t here
You are on your way there

And you are beautiful
The out and in the soul
And you are dutiful
You can have it all
So of all the things
That I could sit and tell
Know that I wish you well

Things did not go as planned
I believe I need a helping hand
To guide me though the mistakes
To help overcome the heartbreaks

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

I hope there are second chances
And new beginnings to enhance
Just like a caterpillar and butterfly
I too one day will again fly high

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

Change is inevitable, go with the flow
You never know so I must just let go  

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name