I close my eyes and I see
The beach and waves crashing
Tropical birds surrounding me
Little lizards burrow in the grass
Palm trees swaying in the wind
Suns rays beaming off a heat blast
Colorful skyline
Rainbows and butterflies
Happiness and love
Until I open my eyes
Realizing it is all just a dream
Back to reality of work and stress I go
But soon I will return
To this glorious dream of fantasy
When I close my eyes and wonder into deep sleep soon enough....

Tossing
Turning
Asleep
Awake
Tossing
Turning
Asleep
Awake.....
Wide awake
Frustrated and so tired
Slowly falling asleep
20 mins later
WIDE AWAKE
As morning approaches I finally fall asleep
Only to be waken up by my alarm
Guess 3 hours is better nothing
Time to get up even though I’m beat...

One night stand
Night after marriage
First time
Wild child
Unprotected one time
Not even trying.....
Equals= pregnant

8 years
Hoping and praying
Trying to hard
Never happening
Why me?
Why us?
Will it ever?
What’s wrong with us?
Upsetting, depressed, hurt, annoyed....

Being surrounded and constantly seeing or hearing throughout the world
“We’re pregnant “
Faking a smile even though your heart hurts
I try to be happy but always come back to “why me”
“Why not us?”

Glimmer of hope I still hold on too but losing grip of the hope I have...

Swimming wild and few
Through shards of glass
Like walking through the world
Being bullied and attacked
Words hurt and cut deep down
Even with a surface scratch
You’ve attacked my body
Leaving scars left behind
But it had made me stronger
As I still continue to swim
Through those shards of glass