What do you do when your stuck in a loop,
Just use Another excuse for all the abuse.
happiness you should pursuit or live with the noose,
No matter the decision you choose somebody will lose.
Feeling overly complacent about the place you've been placed in,
Accusations are outrageous from ppl who will remain nameless,
There exaggerations are as Limitless as their imagination
Nothing is adjacent and your patience has reached it's expiration,
But what's left to give after you've given everything you got,
What's left to live when you know  you already lost .
When all you can do is wonder  about what  they did and can they stop,
Now just hoping you don't trip trying to make it back to the top.
Looking for a price tag on everything so you can know what it really cost
To know what you might pay so at the end of the game you're not stuck in shock.
Used to talk a lot but now you rather live in silence,
peace is what you need cuz your so sick of the violence,
To easily swept off your feet by ones you would call your highness,
Even after you suffer defeat you still **** them with kindness.
Maybe you were blinded maybe you were  misguided
You cant rewind it you can only be reminded
So that when the same dilemma is rising in the present you can use the past to help you decide it.
Overthinking has become my new hobby,
Try drinking to help but that just makes it foggy
Try to sleep it all away but that just makes me groggy,
Not one to cut corners but I'm  so exhausted feeling sloppy.
Still I'm over analyzing every aspect of what was the cause of the effect,
I almost wish I didn't inspect but what do you expect,
Should have known the deeper you dig the dirtier it gets.
Not knowing how to react when finding out they had cruel intent.
Trying to make sense of their pretense,
Can't  help but feel so much offense as you put up your defense.,
As they take shots all over social media at your expense.
Then they think saying sorry does some sort of cleanse,
Like it's not a pattern that happens again and again,
It has more weight behind it if change was what they intend.
Nope, they rather play stupid instead and sit and pretend,
Fragments of the truth they blend with whatever else they make up in their head.
Cuz Not everything is as it seems,
Not every person gets what they need,
Not everything you find you get to keep,
Not every King deserves to have a queen.
Nothing's unbreakable and everybody bleeds,
Let your actions speak for you cuz talk is cheap,
Might be easy to sell a story but sooner or later nobody will read.
Apply what you preach don't disguise what they see,
Keep it real with integrity and truth in your speech
Squeeze and release all of your defeats,
Mistakes can only break you if kept on repeat.
The past never leaves it stays to teach,
Accepting the lesson and having peace in the present creates a future to succeed.
Life is a beach and in parts of those sands you will sink,
If your not careful the wrong step could be fatal or you could fall in too deep.
Yes I know victory is sweet and not reaching it can be kind of bitter,
As long as you're able to view what you did and know what to fix you'll always be a winner,
And keep your good nature neglect every hater cuz karma is the one who's going to have them for dinner.
Always be a giver and expect nothing from Noone,
Everyone is a sinner so saints I don't know one,
All I see is hate so emotions I show none,
The land of ten thousand fakes the home Minnesota.
I know I've done alot of wrongs but atleast I can own them,
My character defects sometimes get the best of me but I'm trying to control them.
And if I can't I can at least say that I tried,
Ppl just make me laugh whenever their trying to tell lies,
I see through them like glass so there is no reason to hide
Telling ppl go take off their masks and show the real side.
Easier said than done after you keep getting crushed makes it hard to show people love when you're close to just giving up,
Close to the cliff when you feeling like you should just jump.
Just remember strength is gained by outdoing what's measured,
Knowing your own potential is half the battle of doing better,
Some heights take time to climb some sights take time to find but one day you'll know what you truly treasure,
And sometimes the weight maybe too much to take but diamonds aren't created without pressure.

Love as much as you can afford,
Cuz if you give it your all just to fall you'll lose much more,
Explanations keep them short,
Cuz if you get put on trial they'll use it in court.
Take all your vulnerabilities to use as artillery
Make you out to be something your not and quickly turn into a liability,
Make you feel incapable like you have a disability,
To everyone your no longer available and prevents you from your responsibilities.
Forces your attention starts to steal your time,
Evem after you give them every single second of affection they are never satisfied,
So you cut off the entire worlds detection rather you and your lover just hide,
But even after all the wasted effort a crime is what they find..
Regaurdless if one was ever committed they will go sniffing,
If you look for something hard enough you'll find it even if it never existed.
No matter the words or context they find a way to make them twisted,
Your feelings mean nothing no more cuz they are always the victim.
Rights and wrongs aren't where they belong and they don't understand the difference,
Fights drag on way too long and
Every toxic Instance has become too consistent,
Hoping and wishing that things could be different,
Maybe you need just a little distance but they get so resistant,
Should you leave or should you stay it's a hard decision..