I was rewinding the clock
All those ticks that talked
Trying to turn back time
But the hours climbed
And I ran out of months

Yesterday's laid in cemeteries
With flowers on their memories
But all of sudden today forgot

That for all the tomorrows
There would only be sorrows
For all the yesterday's lost

I'm a disaster
Life has been hard to master
I've taken quite a few beatings
And still manage some laughter

Even though I'm a wreck
I've got an attitude like shrek
A face of an ogre
And a princess
That complains about it

Yeah
I'm a disaster
I'm the math of the after
When it was all too late
To create something better than
Actual

According to my calculations
There was a malfunction
In my creation
They forgot to implant
Obedience and cooperation
And installed complaining
Instead

They looked inside my head
And said
They need to rewire the whole mess
Because i should be agreeing
With everything

they say

I'm a disaster
I'm damaged
No good
A maniacal
Human imposter

I searched my thoughts then
It's not what i wanted
But maybe i am
The diaster they called me

             Well...


here I come

Looking at me
Back
The strands of your
Flaxen hair arching back
I remember the way
Your eyes tied
And twisted my mind
Into everything I liked
I was blind
But I felt everything with my hands
And I tasted you on every fingertip
I had
Where did you go
Where you at
Lookin back
At me
Turn your head
You've changed the color of your hair
And the feeling in your heart
I remember the way you were
And how I wished you'd change back
Until I found someone else
Who could be
Everything you couldn't be next
To me
Lookin at me
Back
The strands of brunette
Took my hands and made me forget
You were ever here to collect
My brokeness
And everything she fixed
Was on the list of everything you'd neglect
So I say you this goodbye
From  the smile off my lips    
I don't ever want to see you again
Lookin back
at me

Arrow in my heart
I'm not living

And I'm giving away my hope
If someone should take it
I think it's broke

Hearted

The arrow darted
A few days ago

I saw it come
But I couldn't run

Against Father time
I'm just too slow

Arrow in my heart
Is the knife to my throat
Slitting me in half
Hanging me
Till the end of rope

I'm giving away my status
As the apparatus
For the joke

It was on me
My fantasy was hope
And I gave that away
As I broke

Hearted
The arrow wanted
Me more than the world

And In my heart
My lovers target
Has hit the bull

A soft said
in a voice calm enough
To put you to bed

My love"

whispers crept
across my neck
With her tip toeing lips
Leaving red tracks on my skin

Embedded in a kiss
We dipped into the middle of the nights
Sweat
Panting and drips
Of sticky yes
Moaned while her tongue bit
Deeper into my flesh

My love"

In my ears
She chants
Every thing i want to hear
She does
What I ask
And In my ears
The softest laugh
The way she looks at me back
Playing my ears
Like a harp
Those magical fingers
Strumming my back

How could i not fall
Into this trap

Luring me with the love
I've always wanted
Teasing me with the allure of satisfaction
and what our bodies attracted

I'm  
falling through your trap door

you caught me

I didn't mean to be me

It happened so fast
It was hard to see

Me

Trying to be

I didn't mean anything
I was ignorant
Explaining things

I didn't mean
To be

Me

I was born with this image
I try to distinguish
But

I didn't mean it

I

Didn't mean
To be me

Maybe I should
Leave

Because
I didn't mean





To be here

Blue sky

You know why I cry
When the rain
Drops
And the clouds dark

Lightning strikes

I lay here in electricity
Shocked
I'm alive

When I look up
In that deep blue
Drop

I see clouds nine

And when the sun dies
The stars cry
In the blue blackened
Awe

I see the Gods
Thunder
Where the heavens part

Prepare the underworld

Is it so hard to love
To give
More than enough
To live for
God

Is it so hard
To believe
You were bought
So you could willingly slave for the Lord
And reprogram your robot

You were a thought
God sought
For his army of justice

Yeah
It's just us

Is it so hard to love your neighbor
Love your enemies
And labor for the love

Yes
It is

So hard

When you're flesh and human

To love
The habitat
That manufacturers demons

After the Good
Went bad
We became Man
And Woman

Now
it's so hard to love
When it's so much easier

To give up

The past
passed

After it dragged
And dragged

My body
Pulled by the rope of tomorrows

Pulled me through all kinds of towns
And different scenarios

The past
Passed

And everything that was...

Had

The future  had the last laugh
That began with my embryo

Ever since that first day
The past left me behind
After it tied me to tomorrow

And it dragged  me through the mud
Mangling my body
and spilling my blood
Breaking my bones
And carving out the marrow

The past
Passed

I had wondered
How long it'd last

It stayed

Until the passed
Past

Was gone

It's a slow
Slide
Down
The arrow s
Heart

Where your soul pumps blood
Near the knife
she left inside

There's no need for you to cry
For no pain
Can ever take away

Her eyes

And there's no way
To change the blue
To sky

When your world has said goodbye

It's a slow
Slide
Down
The hurt

Sometimes the pain
Is so much

You can't feel at all

You suffer
Yourself

Down the slide
Of the lonely
lost

Deep inside your
Clusterf#!$k

You find..
     your thoughts

Waiting for the world to happen
There's a whole lot of distant staring

A cold fog galavants around town
And thickens in the glaring

The glass of my eyes crack
As the world looks back
And asks
Where I am going

But I couldn't reply
Because of my
Lack of
Knowing

I'm just waiting for the world to happen
I hear its going to end in some dramatic fashion
Yeah I've lost my passion
And everything I write deserves a trash can

There's a whole lot of distant staring
And a whole lot of prayers for someone caring

I hear there's hope in the end
If I just pretend
There's a god out there
To help me with the coping

Yeah I wish I was joking
While I'm waiting for the world to happen
I was hoping I could hold your hand and
Disappear in the moment passing

I know I sound creepy
To want a woman who needs me
Because without one I feel myself weaken
I'm like the last of the mohicans
Hoping to last longer than this weekend

Waiting for the world to happen
I wish I could be like everybody else laughing
As the world revolves
I resolve to just forget about it all
While I'm photographin'

Waiting for the world to happen

It was a cold burn
Piercing through flesh
The temperature shivered
With cold breaths

It was an aberration
Of happenstance
A bullet abject abstruse
Yet adamant

The harrowing set
Was a scene set furtive
Said grandiloquent

It was a smoking gun
From a hypochondriac
Speaking exorbitant words
In hopes to exonerate
Explicitness flagrant

In a sanctuary city

Facilitating fait accompli
A Blase' bureaucracy
Brusque and dernier cri

It was a deleterious empirical
Fight for a miracle

Shown as a harbinger

With all disregard
Hoist with one's own petard

In the darks corner

Cornered

Where the shadows
And the leaves
Departed trees

Through the winds whispers

A tornado of ghosts
Legions

Upon the gray skies
Purple with black eyes
Of hatred

The dark
Has cornered
Your woman

It took her

You stood there
When the laughs echoed
Screaming
    Demons

You missed her

But she was possessed
By an evil
Deceiver

Dressed with
The believer

In the darks deeper

She fell into the sleeper
Mesmerized by the black coal
Theater

The shadows
Performed on the walls
Feature

Your woman
Took a seat there

You could see her

In the darks corner
Cornered
Where the shadows
Beat her
She was taken away
Deeper

A lost soul
Fallen to the depths

Into the grasp

Of the grimmest
Reaper

I just wanted some sleep
You know
A few hours of shut eye

Where I could escape
The reality I face
Everytime I awake
To my life

I just needed some rest
From occupying the stress
That's left for me to acquire

So I can accomplish the tasks
That I have
With the energy left

I needed some more rest
Dyer

Change your mind
That old clothing
Made for floors

You used to like that dress
It complemented your eyes

What you think about now
And how it changed color
Now it's too faded
And it's time to change

Your mind

It used to think about
What to wear

Shifting through the hangers
Behind the closet doors
Wishing you could still fit in
What you did before

He matched with everything
You ever wore
But now he's no longer
In your dresser drawers

When you changed your mind
He changed more
Some things you can never find
In a department store

Change your mind
What can you afford
What are you shopping for
Something you already had

Worn

Yeah she broke my heart
So what

I still have half of one

It's a bit damaged
But
It still works

Man
And it still hurts

Yeah she broke my heart

My wallet
My patience
  My love

The only way to get out
Was to cut my heart in half
And bail

She should have gone to jail
But everyone does crime now

Morals are ancient artifacts
If you find one you have to preserve it
To make it last

Yeah my heart broke
And I lost hope

But you brought it back

And even though my heart is half
It beats for your laugh
And you gave me half of yours
So now we match

Yeah she broke my heart
So what
I still have half of one

It's a little bit damaged
But it still works

I lost my feet
On a walk
Through the streets

I was robbed
In a trot
Where my thoughts believed

On the road less traveled
Less road unraveled
And I became lost
In the gravel
Underneath

I kept on walking
While the sun kept stalking
My every being

The moon had followed
While sun produced tommorows
And yesterdays swallowed me

I realized this path
Was a God of his wrath
And a judgement would have
What my blood had reaped

The end of time
Kept showing the signs
And the signs showed I'm
A lost sheep

Tommorow gets murdered everyday by yesterday as today just stands around and watches her slow death

Inside my head
Inbetween the the collapses
At the point of my synapses
My neurons fire

At the state of panic

This world is damaged
And I'm trying to manage

Sanity

When no one has it

People suffer wickedness
With a viciousness
To destroy all good
For their lusts
And lasciviousness

These people are sick
And evil has already consumed
Any soul they had

Inside my head
I just can't comprehend
Why God continues
To allow the bad


Inbetween the madness
I feel the sadness
Take over and drain
My strength
And passion

To live

Charcoal eyes
Dipped in red
Chocolate flesh
Melting on my lips

Who made the night
Who hung the stars

They were all aligned
            In a lovely form

Temptress whispers
In fashion and force
Made their entrance
With passion adorned

Charcoal eyes
    Mesmerized

The way her dress
   Had hypnotized...

I
         dyed
                    in
                         red

And I cried for more


Who made the night
Who hung the stars

How
       could
                 my
                         dream

                     Be yours

Smile
Save me from
Desolation
Cure my desperation
Despoil my sadness
And take away the world

Smile
Love me
Like a mother does a child
Put your arms around me
And hold me still

I need a smile
To change the way I feel

Doleful and funereal
Crestfallen and miserable

Smile
Save me from from
Myself

I need you more than anyone else

Smile
Could you love me somehow
And save me from my woes

Take away morose
And my heart that's broke

Smile
Could you give me some hope
So I could cope

I need your love
                      Smile
Smile
I need your love

Sittin on the curb
I put my head down
And I saw a few words

They were laying in the dry gutter
Someone must of lost them
When they tried to utter

         You I love

             Love you I

    I love you

These words I found
I arranged them in different arounds

I
  you
     love

No matter which way it comes
Sounds
           Good

I found these words
And I think ima give away some

If you put out your hand
I'll put mine in yours
And we could be love

I found these words
Sittin on the curb
And I was just hoping

You'd like to do one

I need money
And all its tummy
I need to be fed
but it's running
And I'm broke instead
And I'm broke
Again
I've lost my cents
And due is rent
All I've worked
Is spent
I've prayed for help
But my God can't
I need money
More than him
Because on earth here
I owe men
My itchy hands
And devious plans
Fight for ways
To get my ends
I need money
To survive plan B
I just wish it had
The need for me

I lit a fire
In the nights iris

And upon a star
I cast a thought

I
wished

It burned in the flames
Of the atomspheric change
While the temperature rained
My sweat

Into the ashes
My dust to dust went

For my oxygen lost the wind
As I melted in flesh

I lit the fire
But it was my desire
That conspired
With my lust

Witch tempted me
To jump in
Gasoline
And burn what I was

Every thing under the sun
Lays in the sum of the world
Homosaphiens calcuate science
In the memories of the past
And as they multiplied
They tried to understand their historical graphs
While the sheeps get slaughtered
And children are taught our
Habits repeating their tasks
I heard a man say
We are living in futility
Each of us owned by talents
And abilities
Behind the flesh of a mask
Our hearts beat separately
Together yet differently
We survive the good
tempered by bad
Nothings really matters
As matters are gathered
Their futile in the bed of our death
Yet what is our path
Following time
With the sun and moons ryhme
We spin on the earth in a skeletons
Worth
never knowing why thoughts
Control minds
We contemplate
Reason in four separate seasons
Completing the days into years
But have you asked yourself the question
Why the answer is a lesson
You still haven't learned as a man
Why are you here
Living in the fear
That your age just may not last

A few tears to the alchemy

Add
A lil pain
Pulsing frantically

The reaction
Is the chemical balance
The tightrope lends

Steady now
There is no net

Safety
Is in your head
If you fall

No regrets

The potion in your cup
Is yours to drink
Thirst for your quench

Even it hurts to live

A few tears to the alchemy
Changes everything

After the rain
We grown again
A new spring

And the grasses grow green
If you water them

They bring happiness

After a lil pain
You appreciate
Them not happening

Add a lil strength
And the alchemy becomes great
With a prayer to the Almighty

A few tears to the alchemy
Is just what you need

For the perfect chemistry

The stars won't shine tonight

One is gonna fall
One is going to burn into the night

Ice cold
Shooting star

Leaving us

Thank you
For visiting the universe

We loved your shine
But we know

You were just a meteoroid

The minutes passed
through the windows draft
I felt the breeze pass
across my face
Into my path

60 of seconds
60 of minutes
Sick to my stomach
As hours diminished


An anvil crashed
On my cerebral cortex
And I vomited a vortex
Of months in accordance
With another year

The pattern
Each way I move my steps
Retrace where the last one went
A circle-less circle
Following my lead
Following me to repeat
The same thing over again

I asleep I awake
The sun replays the same day
Adding to my age

The pattern
The same me
In different scenarios scattered
And nothing of it matters
To my current being

Material items accumulate
Even though the only thing
I take
is my soul

Bound to a heaven
Or punished to a hell
I'm painted into my patterns
Desire to free will

Walking through His story
He molded a man
Unworthy of His glory

To follow a pattern
Of matters
in space time and matter

A circle-less circle of manners
Repeated in gestures for each culture
Of his habits

The minutes passed
Then the day grasped
The ends faceless mask

When the recognition of pattern
Proves our geometrical figure
To the sum of Master
Sinner

We will then begin to learn
What was asked
And why we kept repeating
The same disasters
In every act of our


Pattern

Walking along these streets
I hear the birds tweet

As people post what they think
I heard the news fake

And people take

            Seriously
False narratives
Continuously

I look over my back
And back my over

For every movement
At this point is covert

As I stride along
People and pawns

I check the mate
And take the queens arm

On this chessboard of war
For time and it's law

I've been walking along these streets
But maybe I should

Run

The darkness pulls down her eyes
It wraps around her heart with thorns
And crys wicked knives

Piercing through the thrusts
That stabbed her life
She bleeds inside
A victim of the night

She sat down on the jack O lanterns porch
Staring at the torch
Inside him flicker

This was the only light
Shining in a goblins bite
Yet the darkness kept pulling down her eyes

It was quicker
Than her sight
And cloaked with a dagger
Penetrating fright

Slicing at the throat of candle
She shivered down her spine
And as her mind grew sicker
The darkness grew bigger
Than the flame that melted in the fire

She was blind
And her eyes bled the sight
That the darkness pulled down
In her desires

Behold the hope
At the end of your dreams rope

I can see it
Hanging by its throat

It's dangling on the thread
                 You tried to sew

But if it hasn't broke
You still have time to hope

Because you never know

You could be saved
      By the unknown

And if you can't
              Hold on

Maybe you should let go...

And fall into
     My arms

The guards lost·
Against her lips
She infiltrated his
·Something the night did
On the battlefield~

Love is a casualty
A pain in the faculties

It's a stake in the heart left
Beating erratically

The guards lost·
Against her kiss
Her tongue bludgeoned his
·Something the night did
On the battlefield~

Love is a battery
An assault on humanity
Breaking so many hearts

The guards lost·
Against her hips
And he infiltrated with
·Something the night did
On the battlefield~

The pain
It owns the hours
As it screams
Receipts

You waited in line

But the cash didn't register
Your fate

Because what you spent
Was flesh

How much does it cost
To keep someone else lot

You thought
Was yours

A man could lose the whole world

For what
It cost

The pain
Reminds the brain
Who is control
And it's not man's
Ghost

Every excruciating ache
Accompanied with a prayer
To take
It all away

Repeated again

The pain pulses
It beats and throbs
Relentlessly compulsive

I cry
As my veins bulge
And strain
And beg
For a microscopic
Mercy to
   Please
Remember I'm
Just a man

Tortured by the pain
Scorching
Burning up in flames
My tears boil in my
Name

Changed
To mud

The pain
It suffers me
In a weakened strength

That pushes me
To the edge of the razors blade

Sometimes you get cut trying to shave
Perhaps I should just grow a beard

And endure
The pain
To the story's end

That never comes

She sent her picture on purpose
She knew I'd stare at it
And worship

She was always
An angel in my eyes
Even though she wasn't
She tried to be perfect

She said a few lies
When she sent a picture of her thighs
No lie
They were open

Wide

Was her smile
She sent it with sparkles
In those filters I like
Man I wish I could trust her lies

I know she's an angel
But not from heaven above

She sent me her picture
So I could reminisce
About when I used to be with her

Staring at her face
I remember how I used to kiss her
And rub against her texture

The way she smells
Feels
Melts
At certain temperatures

I remember that right spot
And the way she shakes
When I make her erupt

I know how much is enough
When we make love

She sent me this picture
So I would remember
How I used to eater
And lick her

She was always
My babydoll
In the midnight
When I would
Call her over
For a time
To remember

How we used to picture
Love

After midnight the frogs came
Croaking along the moon phase
Amoung the fireflies
Near the riverside

I laid

Staring at the skies lake
And all the stars above

The only thing we could make
Was love

After the rain came
The sun reigned
And all the trees greened
Amoung the sunshine
Near the love blind

I laid

Staring out her backside
Just they way I liked
By the fires eyes
It burned all night

And the only thing that we could make
Was love

After midnight
She ran for the hillside
She lost her slipper on the gong strike
And she ran away

I found her in the moonlight
And everything was alright

We laid
While all the forest creatures did the same

And the only thing that they could make
Was love

Ban my heart
For its violation
You can stop it from beating

I don't care
And I'm not afraid
Of what you're threatening

You can ban my heart
For its thoughts
At you aiming

I'm not scared
Of any word
You could say to me

You could ban my heart
Because I don't care
About your complaining

It won't ever be yours again

The effort it took
For a gain
The price of the same
Strenuous work
A little elbow grease
For the product to sell
An empty shelf
These things
For the wealth
Of a better self
On a temporary earth
The effort it took
Was a payment that could
Never repay
What it cost
For the worth

I thought If I cried
It would help release
The feeling inside

I thought if I drained every last
Pain
Every last tear
Would dry

So I squeezed it all out of my mind
And every thing that remained
I cried

It left me dry
With desert eyes
And the vultures
Picked away at my sides

But I still felt the hard
As I begged for the vultures
To eat my heart

And they swallowed my pride

I thought If I cried
Mercy would somehow
Fall beside
My eyes

But the only thing that fell

Was I

Out of luck
And time
I wanted to wave goodbye

But there was no one there
To see me

Die

It was one of those car rides
Windows down
And the wind blows moribund

As you beg for the cliff
On the edge of your prerogative
You wish you could crash
To ecape your roguish metamorphosis

What ever happened to that old you
You never used to drive with such turpitude

You used to hug those curves
And sing with the radio
Smiling with your eyes fastidious in stereo

It was one those rides
With redolent flowers on the countryside

You pulled into the rest stop
To tilt your head back
And regain your consciousness

It was one of those rides
When you decide

I shouldn't be driving like this