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171 · Sep 2018
Leitmotif
JaxSpade Sep 2018
Where would I go to sleep
With my unkempt face
My tears of rain frogs
And katzenjammer gaze

Where would I rest my head
On what banquette or street
When I'm just a kiyoodle
In a world of hate

Where could I lay down
And rest in peace
When I'm just a 'blot on one's escutcheon
Laying couchant in disgrace

Where could I close my eyes
And slip slide away
Hidden in nolo contendere
Where could I disintegrate
171 · Oct 2018
Pythagorean Theorems
JaxSpade Oct 2018
The distance
Formed a triangle
Measuring the segment
When life pointed to their angle

Calculating a distance
Mathimatical
It was found out
That these two equaled
The area of the squares
Hypotenuse

For It takes two, to tango
A 90 degree angle

The problem is the distance
Solved by Pythagorean Theorem
In trigonometrys
Allegorical newfangled
Relationship to the distance
Of their love disabled

The distance was created
Hence what was calculated
Was the sum of their relationship
And what it equaled
169 · Jun 2020
Meta Morph (10w)
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Pain has changed me into a 5 year old child
169 · Jun 2020
Are You A Light
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Are you the light
When the darkness bites

Do you shine
When the wound bleeds bad

Will you stand
When the weak
Fall to their knees in tears

Could you carry the wounded
To the safety begged

For

You are the light
God's candle
A spark
To the fireside
Where it's warm

And comfort
Is just an arm away
In hugs

For no dark
Can take away love

Are you a soldier for Gods
Or yours

Are you a light
Or just a bright spot

Where do you get your power from
And I'll tell you why it's dim

Are you the Light
Within the Truth
Where the Way
Resides

If not
You better turn in on!

Before you get left
             In the dark
                  Tonight
169 · Mar 2019
Sitting By The Chances
JaxSpade Mar 2019
I was pierced
By reality

It stabbed me with sharpest
Knife in a series of allegories

It was a story of blood
And passionate suffering
For the sake of conciliatory
Outcomes in the aftermath
Of breaking the statutory

And it pierced deep
With the bite of ancillary teeth
Digging into my flesh
And my brains storm
Of what to do next
Other than weep

I was left on the street
Stuck and stabbed
Through my ****** rag of clothes
Which captured the last of my hearts beat

Murdered by reality
In a casket of
How could this ever happen to me
168 · Jan 2019
Offering Plate
JaxSpade Jan 2019
As we search for greed
We fail to abnegate
Because we lust for needs

And as we vacillate inbetween
Desire and ephemeral peace
We advocate the disease

Feelings of wistfulness
Become more vociferous
When we fail to possess the pristine

Selfishness consumes wealth and wish
And sacrifices Truth

And when that offering plate comes around
We never account for what's due

In God we trust
On every dollar we purchase
In search for the sickness
Of our doom
167 · Mar 2020
At The Windows Pane
JaxSpade Mar 2020
That fine line of pain
When you feel it burning
And you absorb
The length
The consistency
And eagerness
And you suffer
To no end
It's no longer a fine line
Or a dangling thread
It's going to be torture
On the nerve of nails bed
While the thorns pierce the flesh
Pain pays the toll
All it takes is a little suffering
To remember who is in control
The nerve of pain
To present itself
An electrical battle of circuitry
Burning me out
My lateral femoral cutaneous nerve
Is in a pinch I don't deserve
If only I had a doctor
To help me out
The fine line of pain
And how much it costs
To take it away
When suffering is all i have in the bank
167 · Dec 2018
ηooη
JaxSpade Dec 2018
ηow is the hour
For that sileηt souηd

So loud
ηo one could hear it

Yell

ηo oηe could see it comiηg
It was already there

Hiddeη iη the eyes
Liviηg iη the air

Iη the ηow of the hours
Haηds
166 · Jun 2020
2
JaxSpade Jun 2020
2
I tried to inspire you

Set you on fire
So you could aspire to
Write something
Desirable

But I failed
You see
I'm not really a poet

I just try to be

Something I'm not

It's the only thing I've got
I tried to inspire you
So it could help me a lot

I tried to set you on fire
So you could desire what I want

Even though I'm not good enough
You could

Possibly be The One
God blessed
You could be the one
That gets everything I wanted here

Instead
You could inspire me

To be better
           Than

                            I am
166 · Aug 2019
Change of Heart
JaxSpade Aug 2019
Transformation

I saw a butterfly change back
Into a caterpillar

Anti metamorphosis
Was a backward mask
Of a record player

And all her colors
Faded back into a green exterior
I watched her inch forward
Noticing her wings would no longer carry her

And at that moment she knew she'd have to buy alot more shoes

I asked her why she changed back
Maybe she didn't like to fly
Or the way her colors portrayed her
perhaps

She said what is the difference
In what you're looking at
Do you not find beauty in each way I dress
Has it changed my laugh

But what about change
And what about
Growth I said

Then she replied that's exactly what I did

I changed by not changing at all
I didn't prefer the flight to the way I crawl

I fought nature with all my creature
To be myself

I am a caterpillar
Not a butterfly at all
166 · Aug 2018
Florescence
JaxSpade Aug 2018
i saw this glow
in the eyes nose

i could smell the throat
       of the light bulbed

             my site froze
as my scratched note

and phosphor coated
         the poems poet
164 · Aug 2019
My Frog Legs
JaxSpade Aug 2019
Out in the water

I swim
    paddle
         scoop

Arm over arm

Wading
In the
Deep

I am a frog
Disguised in a prince

And she's the darling
Who came out for a swim

Arm in arm
Over

Waiting for the kiss

That would ever change
Me from what I was

To what she wished
164 · Mar 2019
Picture On The wall
JaxSpade Mar 2019
I framed my picture
Even though he was innocent
I painted him the culprit

Responsible for crimes

I've committed
I'm committed

To hanging it on the wall
Where everyone could see what I once was

Before I was
Framed at all

It was all my fault

You could fast forward
rewind
Or pause

Even though he was innocent
I framed my picture
For what he was

I made it look like
It was all his fault

Because I needed someone to blame
For all I've done

So I framed my picture

           And myself hung
JaxSpade Mar 2020
On the roadside
I sit on the edge
Of a flat spare tire

All the cars fly by
Like Stallions
Toward their checkered flags

I stare into the dust
From where I was made from

And I beg for the return

Then flashing lights
Issue me a ticket

Their help is a threat
Telling me to get my car off the road

They returned to their box of donuts
While i remained in the cold

There was no one I could call
Or funds to be drawn

Just a blurry stare
At the end of the road
The end of the road stared at me
Mocking my raspberries
Those dusty eyes peered inside
My blurry eyes
And spit in my face

I was just another corpse
Laying on the floor
A skeleton of war
Another casualty bleeding out
The horror

Time was a crimson red
Dripping the last hours of victory
I laid their at the side of the road
A cold slab
Introduced to the ends mystery

I've heard about this before
There's only six feet more
Before the journey ends
And the nails are driven forth

I had no strength to drawn on
My prayers drew deaf to heaven
And now all I can do
Is drink the cup
I've been given

On the side of the road
It's just me here
Laying in the dust of my corazon
162 · Jun 2020
Hooked On The Look
JaxSpade Jun 2020
When I see your face
I'm in a daze

A trance
You make

Me feel like I'm
In a different state
Of mind

Your the kind
The one
I'd like to mate

I don't need a date
Just looking at your face
I already know I want a taste

Because when I see your face
I can't get it out of my mind for days
I'm that fat kid
Begging for some cake

When I look into your eyes
I see the starlight
And my heart aches

I want you to be my love
Because I'm tired of
The heart break

When I see your face
I just want to love
Make

Me feel like we are
Amore

When I see your lips
I want to kiss
And slide my hands
Down your hips

When I see your face
I appreciate the gaze
And I wish I could hold you by the waist

And pull you closer
So you could feel the bulk
Of my praise

When I see your face
All I want to do
Is love

Because your face is the bait
And I'm hooked
JaxSpade Apr 2020
Waiting
For the freedom

To hug my friends
When I see them

Waiting out the hysteria
Of love becoming a bacteria

Waiting to get back to
Intimacy
And stop calling it a toxicity

Waiting for simplicity
How we used to live
In our past history

Fearing God
Instead of bureaucracy

I'm waiting to get back to mediocrity
Getting back to church
Where no one notices me

I'm ready to not wash my hands
And put toilet paper back on the stands

I'm ready to take on any disease
Known to man

Because I fear not a bacteria
A virus
Or a paramecium

I'm ready to ride bare back
And throw away all my condoms

I'm ready to not care anymore
And hug your ****** face!
162 · Mar 2019
Moon Rocks
JaxSpade Mar 2019
The moon cried spades
Tears of black
Fell on hearts attacked
With space
All the stars glowed faith
In the milkiest way
Spinning galaxies faster
Than my chase
The Sons reflection
Glowing in the nights complexion
Reminded me of my direction
And why those tears fall in pain
A puddle of spades
In the deck of cards played
On life's gamble for survival
Of the fittest out of shape
The moon cried spades
And alphabets committed crimes
With metaphors and paint
Everything spoke was said
In thousands of different ways
And it was read
Not yellow
In the marshes mellow
For the moon cried spades
In shapes of black arrows
That fell onto mother earths face
God shuffled the deck
And dealt me a Jax
Though tucked in my sleeve was the Ace
160 · May 2020
Cinderoni
JaxSpade May 2020
She smiled at me

Shot laser beams
She dropped her glass slipper
Purposely

She knew I would have to find her
The next day

But she should have dropped her phone number
To make it easier on me

She was a tender Cinderoni
And every time she smiled
It ****** me

I felt high
When I looked into her eyes
For she knows I drown
Everytime I see them
160 · Aug 2018
The dim side of the light
JaxSpade Aug 2018
You dimmed the lights
As I crawled toward your eyes
I found your lips first
And they sank inside mine
We created a moment
Separated from time

Without any clothes on our minds

As we tangled in bedsheets
In moans and mimes
Our passion plunged deeper
With thrusts and drives

You said come deeper

                            In me
                           Inside

And never let go of my eyes
160 · Dec 2018
s p a r k
JaxSpade Dec 2018
When I saw the light of the fireworks

The fountains
Showers of sparks
Shooting off
Emitting
Into the night of space

They drew my eyes looking
At the art burning
Passionately


When the fuse was lit


Suddenly there was a flame
And a sparked was touched

It rained constellations

                        Cats
                                 n
                                    Dogs

The Grand Finale came
And it was like the sky was outerspace

Blowning up a million asteroids    

When she lights fireworks
She makes sure there is an explosion
in your face

And after a  loud boom You find yourself trying to resume you

But you can't

When I saw the light of the fireworks
Shine in the sky of her eyes

I fell in love with the way she looked at the explosions in mine
160 · May 2019
red i
JaxSpade May 2019
The red in my eyes
           Closed them
It tried to take the pain away

The color was just temporary

  So I kept coloring
My lids got heavier
Red with delirium

It tries to take me away

But it won't erase the memories
No matter how far
           I fade away

The red in my eyes
                      Dyes
In a crimson cry
              Of pain

It keeps painting
          A faint me

                 Disintegrating
What's left of an old man
With a heart in decay

            My vessels
The color of devils
         Leave me mental
In a whole other state

  Closing my eyes
The color of why
I choose this earth
    Spinning in space

The red in my eyes
      Never subsides

As long as they continue to wake
JaxSpade May 2020
In the darks corner

Cornered

Where the shadows
And the leaves
Departed trees

Through the winds whispers

A tornado of ghosts
Legions

Upon the gray skies
Purple with black eyes
Of hatred

The dark
Has cornered
Your woman

It took her

You stood there
When the laughs echoed
Screaming
    Demons

You missed her

But she was possessed
By an evil
Deceiver

Dressed with
The believer

In the darks deeper

She fell into the sleeper
Mesmerized by the black coal
Theater

The shadows
Performed on the walls
Feature

Your woman
Took a seat there

You could see her

In the darks corner
Cornered
Where the shadows
Beat her
She was taken away
Deeper

A lost soul
Fallen to the depths

Into the grasp

Of the grimmest
Reaper
159 · Jun 2020
New Creatures
JaxSpade Jun 2020
You don't have to feel like a new creature
To be a new creature

You see what I'm sayin'

Change is a progress
It's a motion that takes time
To get where it's goin'

But it's growing
Be patient
You don't have to feel like a new creature
To behave good

Just work
Toward a better future
Sew the sutures
With a needle & twine

The fabric of the mind
Is a stitch in time
Everything seams to peace together
Just fine

The new you
Develops a feature
And everyone could see
The new creature

Even though you still have a long way to go

Just remember
You don't always have to feel
Like a new creature

To be one
159 · Nov 2018
Finish Line
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Walking along the side of life
I looked at the stride
And tried to pace it with time

It was running so fast
I couldn't catch up
And I fell behind

I was just too slow
So I gave up trying
And I sat down
In the middle of the road
While it passed me by

Then it called me an old man
When it left me to die

But I had a plan
With my bible in hand
There was a victory inside

Walking along the side of life
I decided to walk with Christ
Then Gods kingdom
Became eternally mine

And when I crossed the finish line
The Angels sang a chorus divine

To God be the glory!
For this is HIStory!
In the race of a man

He then raised my hand
And said my son
You didn't lose to life

         You won!
158 · Jun 2020
Free Fall
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Falling off
The edge of the world

Dropping down
To the emptiness
Into the void
Of lost consciousness

Falling

Off the edge of the world
Dropping down
To the emptiness
Into the void
Of lost consciousness

Falling

Off the edge of the world
Dropping down
To the emptiness
Into the void
Of lost consciousness

Falling down
Dropping
Off the edge of the world
Into the empty void
Of consciousness

Lost

Falling off
The worlds edge
Dropping down
To the emptiness

Falling off
The edge of the world

Dropping down
To the emptiness
Into the void
Of lost consciousness

Falling
Off

The edge of the world
I'm falling
Off the edge of the world
Into the empty void of nowhere

I'm a little scared
I don't know where I'm going
Or when I'll get there

Dropping down
Into the dark sullen unknown

To the emptiness
Where the void is endlessly
Long

Consciousness was lost
Where I found it
Off the edge of the world
I've fallen

Into the empty fall
Of consciousness
Lost

Falling off
The worlds edge
Dropping down
Into the emptiness
Of the bottomless

Pit
157 · Jun 2020
a blind man's sea
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Walking down the street
I see...

On the corners
In the alleyways

Caught in the stare

Maybe I don't see
Anything

The mad dogs glare
Is he ever
What makes him

Happy

Walking down the street
I see...

Nothing

At the parks
Where people are gathering
Slight of handshakes
Magicians create
Audiences

I see...

But I don't tell anybody
155 · Jan 2019
Sun Raise
JaxSpade Jan 2019
I found the sunset
Orange in footsteps
With yellow eyes of crayon
I just kept walking
No one could stop me
Ever again
We sank down
Into the earths round
And burned our rays
You can still hear us
In the whispers chorus
Carried by the wind
I found the sunset
On the horizons doorstep
And it invited me in
155 · Nov 2018
The Last Me
JaxSpade Nov 2018
The last me
Changing legs and dreams
Remember my old face
Gone
Who I used to be
Trapped in memories
Walked on
The last me
Lost in octagons
And hexadecagons
A calculated sum
Gone
Remember my old shoes
Worn on avenues
My old voice and song
The last me
Changed my arms
My hands laws
Reborn
I had to leave you
So
I could move on
From the last me
Left along
The burning sun
A new morning comes
To take away the past
Wrongs
The last me
Changing energy
And a woman
Gone
I had to be myself
And learn about
My God
Leaving you behind
In thoughts
Of what you didn't want
To believe
The last me
Had to change
The old future names
Called
Because I wanted
Love
154 · Oct 2019
Save Your
JaxSpade Oct 2019
If I was hanging by a web
With life around my neck
Would you save enough breath
To keep me from my death

Would you keep my silver cord
In tact
Before It would snap
If it were around my neck wrapped
Would you loosen the strap

If my broken was back
Would you heal what had cracked
Could you save me from my God
And his wrath

If the noose was closing in
Digging in my skin
Would you help me get away
From my sin

If I was at
The end of my man
Would you take me by the hand
Save me from my plan
Understand
And still love me again
JaxSpade May 2019
Ears for the crowd
Lips for the writer
Rain for the clouds

Purple wears a jacket
And blue dances with the moon
He writes in rainbows
For the gold in a girl

If he could've bought her diamonds
It would've saved him the pain
Liquor for the violins
Numb for the brain

If he could've been a different man
Perhaps she would've stayed

Love for despair
Cowboys for angels
Trotting on mares

There are gardens for a woman
snakes for the scare
Poison for an old man
Decisions for mirrors

Black wears boots
While miracles wear truth
He wrote to her in metaphors
Deciphered in ****

A tree sheds its garments
Fall comes through
Seasons change everything
She was for you

Nothing last forever
Time is for youth
Broken is for the hearts
That thought eternal was true

Tears for an alligator
A crocodile for luggage
Traveling out of town
Looking for another

A forest found a lover
In an ocean of lingerie
Fish were found plenty
At a partys masquerades

Souls are for lovers
Lust is for lemonade
When life gives you lemons
Leaves give you shade

Fruit for the summer
The same as her name
Gone faster then she'd come here
Fools are for blame

Yellow wears a melody
Of blue turning green
New is for the calenders
Beginning of spring

He started a joke
But the joke was on he
Every one was laughing
As you know he was me
154 · Apr 2019
John 15:16 & 15:5
JaxSpade Apr 2019
I woke up in Generation X
In the flesh of a baby
And this is what they made
In the winter
Of Octobers labor
I traveled through the millennium
A poor figure
Forming saxicolously
On the earths behavior
I'm all ready in enough sin
That I voraciously devour
And my abstruse mind
Adroit yet intertwined
With why me? empowered?
Oxygen? blood of the lamb?
24 hours
Into generation Z
Amorphously they move forward
And I'm trying to survive
The atomic powers
With my nuclear family
While government downwards
I woke up
But now I'm tired
The people have lost their minds
And morals are a thing of the past
There is no more shame
In the way we act
I was born into the aftermath
Of a Gods punishment for a devils path
And in that path was a man and rib
And a proclaimation I was chosen
Not I that chose him
John 15:5 claims I am the limb
And from thy vine
fruit produces in men
I can do nothing
Will all my somethings I sin
I am a withered branch
without the Lord within
Here I am born again
Bearing the fruit
Of the husbandman
153 · Jun 2020
the dream i had
JaxSpade Jun 2020
I dream of a little stream
That'll float me away in peace

Yes a lil river
That snakes like a slither
But without its legs to deceive

I ponder a wonder
In a heaven asunder
The world and its wicked ways

I dream of a means
To discard all my being
Whatever this cost
I will pay

I dream of gun powder
Or a voice louder
For a god to hear what I pray

Yes the last hour
Or some divine power
To make this life
Worth the stay
153 · Apr 2019
Under Stones
JaxSpade Apr 2019
It was the coldest ice
He had ever said
It left her in a cold sweat
Shivers and shakes
How could this be love
Anger and hate
How could a kiss be a fist
In this religion made
Poor woman beaten to death
While the men mock
All that she loved
153 · Jun 2020
A Peace Of Me
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Yeah she broke my heart
So what

I still have half of one

It's a bit damaged
But
It still works

Man
And it still hurts

Yeah she broke my heart

My wallet
My patience
  My love

The only way to get out
Was to cut my heart in half
And bail

She should have gone to jail
But everyone does crime now

Morals are ancient artifacts
If you find one you have to preserve it
To make it last

Yeah my heart broke
And I lost hope

But you brought it back

And even though my heart is half
It beats for your laugh
And you gave me half of yours
So now we match

Yeah she broke my heart
So what
I still have half of one

It's a little bit damaged
But it still works
153 · Jan 2019
Guns Are People Too
JaxSpade Jan 2019
I took a picture of you last year

Us

Playing in the snow
And I noticed a smile in one of them

It was under the laughter we created
Building a snowman

We were laughing at his buttons
And carrot nose we brought to clothe him

I haven't seen you smile like that once
This year

Because this year was the worst
We've ever known here
Or anywhere

And when you came home
And unpacked your semi automatic weapon
You threw your bullet proof vest on my desk
And said they deserved it

The news shape shifted into the narratives
They selected

And there was a war against guns

Because your crime had nothing to do
With your mental illness
Or the reality you came to
When you thought about shooting everyone

That poor gun needed some medications
So it could've controlled the retaliations
And learned how to be a much better one
With its choices
153 · Jun 2020
A Thorns Life
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Sux
Being a thorn
When I could have been

The 🌹 Rose

Adorned
  Adored

                    I guess
I'll have to protect it

               From what
               ..The world

                       The 🌹 Rose
Such a beautiful red dress
Of petals

Fragrantly spread
Across feminine
Tones

     The scent
Makes a man
Moan

Sux being a thorn
      We get cut off

Before a woman
    Ever holds us

But the Rose
Gets her hold

I was supposed to protect
But no one protected me
From the humans

You know what they're doin'
They'll cut you off
For their own good

Sux being a thorn

When I could have been
The Rose

Adorned
  Adored
151 · Oct 2018
Diman
JaxSpade Oct 2018
These old bones of afterthoughts
           Piled in a skeleton
         Shed its turgid skin
        And plethoric home

Falling to the dusted ground
                     And dirt it'd come
From dust to dust succumbs

But it shall rise to the skies
                  Of Heavens womb
Returning to his
        Mother God

Her loving arms

His born again
        Shall roam
151 · Jan 2019
Knife on Film
JaxSpade Jan 2019
The knife hit the floor

The floor hit faces

Emotions stabbing
The motion stabbing

Even the shadow
Had blood splatter

The wall was a movie screen
Screening a movie scene

Seen moving

Those bodys
Twitching in your pupils
Memory

Woke you up
To see

The knife hit the floor
And slammed the front door
Never returning to a steak

The floor hit faces
And soaked in places
Emotions mirrored in a lake

As the blood puddled
Body's huddled
the last of the breaths
Left to take

Emotions stabbing
The motion stabbing

Even the blood splatter had a shadow

The floor hit the knife
The faces hit the floors

In a ****** puddle of life
150 · Feb 2019
We used to drink
JaxSpade Feb 2019
Moonshine
Filled your eyes
And your stagger
Stood there
Wobbly
On the rocks
Stirring steadily
I salute your glass
And drank heavily
Till the task danced
With the medly
As we came together
With the night so friendly
Our hearts sank into the bottles empty
But the moon couldn't shine all night
And we woke to the ugly site
Of the morning in goodbye
Sober and ending
Us
150 · Oct 2018
His Mural
JaxSpade Oct 2018
He wasn't great at anything
Never a sculpture
Or an encyclopedia portrait
A rather odd logo
From a different establishment
Energy was intermittently governed by spirit
And spirits
His name was also a number
Socially secure yet alphabetically altered
His design was simple however obscure
But they named him manure
He was the waste product of nature
The skin was his dirt and cologne
For he damaged the earth with his birth
And his thoughts of worms dug through the soils worth
Burning in the minds hot hearth
He begged for the waters thirst
geyers
Like elephant trunks in between tusks
He was the dung on the bottom of foot
Trampled rug wipe your feet with a welcomed hug
Water
Washes away the sand castles daughter
He was a father not a prince or a knights armour
And as he walked his path that time slaughtered
God's wrath bought hurt but hadn't cured
What he wanted
Was it greatness
Or the value of a dollar
That makes him feel like a God
Naturally
For what is his nature
Should you label him normal
Awkwardly
Difference is his individuality
Occuring in nature independently
Frequently
What it so great about the one guy, no one knew
that would matter to a disappeared world
An earth visited by a clock
Fathered by Mother
He discovered
Life is a matter
Suspended in a black hole pattern
Ghostly dimensions of spiritual gathered
Out of his control or design
What his labeled read when applied
Property of eternal deaths life
He wasn't great at anything
Until the end of time
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Dear Diary
I need something to inspire me
I'm just too plain
And no one knows my name
Or desires it

I haven't any friends
Just my pen
And what ever I write
No one cares

Man

I need something to inspire me
Someone to desire me
Dear diary

Your the only one
That listens to me

But what I need is some inspiration
Something to help my motivation

Because I lack all it takes to be
Successfully making it

Dear Diary
I need something to inspire me
And set me on fire D

I need some inspiration
But i can't find the invitation
Someone must have misplaced it

What's going to drive my thoughts
My heart
My soul
To write down something
Better than this bull

****

Dear diary
Are you tired of me
Begging for inspiration

Like a baby
I'm not patient
For breast milk

I'll cry
Until I *** the ******

Dear Diary
I was hoping something
Would inspire me
I guess I'll be retiring
But it was fun trying here
Anyway

Perhaps
I should try

Inspiring you
149 · Nov 2018
Caustic Sin
JaxSpade Nov 2018
Broke another mirror
My face of ugly
Is devastating
My wretched flesh
With a terrifying texture
I am a monster
Under my own bed
Inside my own closet
Wearing claws
And fanged jaws
A wreck of havoc
A ruination of habits
Reflected in the mirror
My kiss toxic
How could she press
So deep into my soul
Her lips buried into the depths
Of my miserable control
I am a beast and she is the beauty
Of this old tale told

Of this old tale told
I am a beast and she is the beauty
Of my miserable control
Her lips buried into the depths
So deep in my soul
How could she press
My kiss toxic
Reflected in the mirror
A ruination of habits
A wreck of havoc
And fanged jaws
Wearing claws
Inside my own closet
Under my own bed
I am a monster
With a terrifying texture
My wretched flesh
Is devastating
My face of ugly
Broke another mirror
148 · Apr 2019
where the dust settles
JaxSpade Apr 2019
Invisibly
        She sat miserably
In a bubble of space and time

   He was on the other side
       Drowning in whiskey
And anything else he could find

        Back to back
Instead of face to face
        Their choices
     Sculpted design

                  And the misery
                  Lived infinitely
In the backs of their tortured minds

As the dust settled
On the shelves middle
A polish somehow arived

      And they were wiped
          From their sorrys
        And belated armies
That never fought for their lives
148 · May 2020
Itz OK 2 RollerSk8
JaxSpade May 2020
It's ok
We can rollerskate

Hold hands
Like old times
When we used to date

It's a different age
                        but
Love is the same
If we do it
It's ok

We can rollerskate

I can roll with you
While the music tunes
               Our harmony

We can take off our shoes
Put on some skates and cruise
Like we used to do
Back when we could
Love

And rollerskate

Through the whole summer
Down on the Huntington Beach Pier
Ocean breeze salt in our hair

We can rollerskate
Me and my date
It's ok
It's not a crime
To ******* some wheels
And glide

Away

The speed of the day
Burning in the rays
Of Southern Californ

IA

It's ok
We can rollerskate
After COVID-19
goes away

We can rollerskate
Hold hands
Touch face
Just like the old days

When we used to love
And kick off our shoes
You know what I'm sayin'
What we could do

Rollerskate

Me
&
You

And the whole world
We're on top of

It's ok to love

And hold hands

   And rollerskate

      It's ok
If we do it
147 · Aug 2019
The Poetic Hills
JaxSpade Aug 2019
The hills came crashing down
Like a wave of rabid dogs

Gnashing and clashing
Their chompers
Dripping blood on their claws

And there I was on tbe bottom
In the middle of it all
I didn't know what was happenin

As I got peeled off the floor

slaps..

in the face with some water
To wake me up..


  To
  Wake
         Me...

     Up


Oh the hills came crashing

They came crashing
Down

Like a tidal wave fallen
On the beaten shore
Every thang a disaster

Ripped apart

The hills came grappling
Wrestling with gravities
Extraordinary thwart


Pushing
Pulling
Torquing
In the core of the earth

And there I was laughing
Like a crazy man does

On the bottom of nasty
Left in the dust

Oh the hills came crashing
Like a waterfall

Like a river
Fallen down and smashing
On the rocks below

There I was gasping
For my lungs
On that beaten shore

When the hills came crashing
Right where I Stood

I was in the flotsam and jetsam
Ripped apart in the wood

On the bottom of the aftermath

Waking up...

Oh!
The hills came crashing
They came crashing down

They came and they slaughtered


And #@$!kt me up
146 · Jun 2020
The End Of Sky
JaxSpade Jun 2020
Blue sky

You know why I cry
When the rain
Drops
And the clouds dark

Lightning strikes

I lay here in electricity
Shocked
I'm alive

When I look up
In that deep blue
Drop

I see clouds nine

And when the sun dies
The stars cry
In the blue blackened
Awe

I see the Gods
Thunder
Where the heavens part

Prepare the underworld
144 · Dec 2018
(-.--)凸
JaxSpade Dec 2018
Don't fucc around
                They said

These weren't words from my pastor
Written in red

But the message was there

                 If you fucc around
You eventually get fuct yourself

Middle fingers and knuckles
SLinging

Sayin fucc the world

The world said fucc you back!

And said"
?who the fucc are you

D'ont fucc around

       Listen or learn
How to behave yourself

Because Mr.Hardway
Is always in town
Lookin for men

Who fucc around
143 · Oct 2018
She Dropped The Bomb On Me
JaxSpade Oct 2018
Her face shined
  Like cobalt and gold
The fall out was radioactive
  Her heart measured in millisieverts

Proving it to be uninhabitable

She was the bomb salted
  With mushroom toppings

Plutonium-239
  With a dash of uranium-235

Hold the neptunium-237

She was an americium girl
With a hydrogen aftertaste
Her eyes like gamma x rays
Explosive lens radiate

I stood there with deuterium
And tritium, offering some fission

It was in this cloud I was lost to listen
It all became nuclear

The power and energy was a force
That provided super critical mass

It all happen so fast...
143 · Dec 2018
So Long
JaxSpade Dec 2018
For long
However love comes
Maybe it'll be stonger than him

No matter how much he gave
He couldn't give enough of it

For long
However she's gone
He has to be stronger than he is

No matter how much he cares
He didn't care enough to have it

For longer than he managed
To live
143 · Aug 2018
Pans Door
JaxSpade Aug 2018
I found it on bottom of a box
It looked like a bird of solid rock
As a dove flew by
Resembling the look
It dropped an olive branch
On my Ark
I was floating my boat
In the depths of hope
I knew I should have kept the box closed

But I looked
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