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95 · Nov 2019
The Picture I Hung
JaxSpade Nov 2019
I was on the level
But you tilted the bubble

There was a lean
That accounted you crooked

And I couldn't straighten you up
JaxSpade Apr 2020
The opening leaves
And flowering trees
Introduce a new Spring

And all the grew seeds
Planted water beads
In the dew morning

Dawn of the day
Sunshine and rays
The violet so ultra
My skin changes shades

And as our Winter coats Fall
Like the Autumn leaves

The changing of seasons
Exchange their peace
95 · Dec 2019
Mirror Mirror
JaxSpade Dec 2019
Beauty is in the eye of the mind

Even if you're blind
You could see inside
How the heart could be a prize

Underneath the paint
Beyond the canvass
Where the textures were born
And where the true colors harvest

Beauty is the state of mind
That keeps the beholder honest

It is the true love that gives regardless
Of what the outside world ponders as flawless
94 · Mar 2019
Weather or not
JaxSpade Mar 2019
There she was
Standing in the rain
Like a flower
With a sun shower on her face

Such a weird day

With the rain and the sun
Holding hands
While my thoughts escaped

There I was observing
The beauty of today
It didn't care about my mirror
Or the mole on my face

I was caught in a sun shower
And a beautiful girl
Wiping off her makeup
To reveal her how her true skin was made

She looked so much better
In the sun shower

Perhaps that is why it came
93 · Sep 2018
Pencils
JaxSpade Sep 2018
Pencils
            I need

Commit to nothing

I can cHANGE my mind
nothings inked

I can trace the lines
It wont bleed

Pencils
            I need

Erase the memories
I can chAnge the time

Or me

Pencils

Erase the whole **** thing
93 · May 2020
The Dots That Polka
JaxSpade May 2020
Velvet eyes
Smooth drive
Me out

Of mind


My oh
My

She had honestly

Had she
Honesty

I believed

Her voice climbed
With a harps harmony
And she struck every string

Like she struck me

When my saxophone breathed
Like the winds trees
I heard timber

The curving flesh
Of my girl whispered
Believe

Velvet eyes
Smooth talk
Midnight jazz

The cats walked
While alley cried
Dark

Are you with me

My oh
My

Kissing
The light
Shined the moons
Eyes
Beamed

Driving me
Crazy

Velvet eyes
Creamy thighs
I'm out of my mind

My oh
My

The whiskey
92 · Aug 2018
Impaired
JaxSpade Aug 2018
Thirsting for water
He lays on a desert sand
Drinking a mirage
Of what's not hear

Looking to the sky
Praying to the air
With nothing to quench
His dispair

A traveler comes near
To offer his share
Yet delusion won't allow
Him the care

He's dying of thirst
Believing the worst
When the water provided
Was there
92 · Dec 2018
Dehydrated Horse
JaxSpade Dec 2018
I gave a peace of my mind
With a portion of truth
To **** the lie
But you wouldn't subscribe
Because the piece that puzzled
Your try
Couldn't swallow the pride
You held inside
Whatever you decide
I will be right here by your side
To lift you back up
When you fail to listen to advise
92 · Mar 2020
Shooting Stars
JaxSpade Mar 2020
I was counting the stars
Because i ran out of sheep
And i just couldn't sleep
Anymore

So much on my mind
I've spent too much time
Worrying about this world

I keep trying to escape
My destiny's fate
But there's nowhere to run

Maybe i could dream
Of some type of scheme
That just might work

So I'm trying to sleep
And rest in some peace
I cannot find on earth

I'm out here counting stars
And I've got a trillion more

Before I'm done
91 · Dec 2019
Playing With A Fool Deck
JaxSpade Dec 2019
In the art of sublime thoughts
I hear the last shot
Ring a rang
In the barrel of the tarot
The cards turned their arrows
As the last card said
Bang
It was then I heard a sparrow
Chirp on a scarecrow
That couldn't scare the thoughts away
The cards on the table
Finished their fable
As the last one played
My last look at the deck
Before the noose wore my neck
I saw the jack of spades
In the art of a sublime poet
All his words went away
And before the world knew it
He disappeared in the fluid
That flowed in the back of his brain
Ring a rang
It was the last sound
That was never heard again
Bang
The only sound left in the room
Was the dropping of his pen
91 · Apr 2020
The Weather Channel
JaxSpade Apr 2020
The dragon
             Red skies
             And fire
                    Frogs
In mad men
Horns and heavens

A woman hath quoth the raven
   As locusts prophesied plagues

     If I could saying
What comprehends
          The payment
          Of being chosen
                                   For the gift
   The readings
On my needing
The words that brought me here

                  to their

                       What are you saying
When the metaphors keep slaying
              The secrets
No one reads to men

The dragon
     An angel
                    A ******
     Burning the souls
                                  Of demons

Countries and Kingdoms
      Priests and Religions
                          In the luxuries
    Of lifestylish

Ashes inbetween
                My toes
                Underfoot that
                              Those

Never understood
      How important
                              It was to Know
91 · Apr 2019
Me And Myself, I
JaxSpade Apr 2019
The impossible dream
Starring me
Killing myself
And I
Can't wake
Countless visions
Rhyming in sync
Appearing a ghost
Out of his shriek
The impossible dream
Starring me
Killing myself
And I
Can't wake
I strum my guitar
But I can't play
I don't have a guitar
Just a handful of strings
I've tried so hard
And hard has tried me
When I'm awake
I just want to sleep
So I can dream
The impossible dream
Starring me
Killing myself
And I can't wake
JaxSpade Nov 2019
You said the sky was blue
Yet it was me
The sky was grey
And it all rained

Down on me

The change of color
Your eyes would paint
A different lover
Than me

Was it the weather
That changed
The hurricanes
Or the way you looked at me

You said the sky was blue
Yet it was me
The sky was grey
And it all rained

Down on me

Your change of heart
Tore apart the artistry
And the lover you sought
You left cause you thought
He would be better than me

Was it the weather
Or the choice of color
You wanted to change
Or was it just another lover
Your eyes wanted to paint

You said the sky was blue
Yet it was you
That colored it grey

And it all rained

Down on me
89 · Sep 2019
too... pretty
JaxSpade Sep 2019
She's too pretty
For an old shoe
A walk in the park
    With an old sole

She's much too beautiful
For a gray sky
Much too...

For an old soul

              Pretty

For a silver moon
           Candlelight
           And a heart
                   Blue

She's much too everything
                 Yesterday knew

     For an old fool
A shot in the dark
By a sparks mood

She's much too pretty
For an old youth
   An old song
That was new

Pretty for...

           You

           Know
The way she eyes
Your old heart

             Inside

                    You know
She's much too pretty
To like

Beautiful
For a rusted mind
       Too everything
For what you might

Consider alright

   Pretty
Tonight
89 · May 2019
The First Words Sentenced
JaxSpade May 2019
Dead silences
Man I look alone
Walking blindly

Heading for the stones
      Into the graveyards
     Darkness evermore

Blindly digging deeper
Under a demons spell

The noose tightens tighter
                    Inevitable reaper

            Hanging pictures of chokes
Rope me a lasso for my last hope
88 · Mar 2020
Old Picture
JaxSpade Mar 2020
It was a picture she painted
She held in her arms
Corner to corner

A picture of a cat
Staring into a lonely old road

Was I the cat
   Or the road

I told her to leave it on the wall
It was a work of art
And It made everyone who saw it
Feel again

The poetry it read
Was a bouquet of words interpreted
By the imagination of each photograph

She left it on the wall

But it was more than just a decoration

Especially
If you're the road
JaxSpade Mar 2019
Through the cotton mist
We saw the rope of the lights lift

A beam from a lighthouse cliff
Pulling us in from the highs and lows

Bobbing
Like a fish for his bait
The Light moves up & down,
We crave
It gets bigger every minute we take
This lighthouse,
Unto our swim
She brings land & hope within
Thank you Lord for the light of my fins
& allowing the shore
          My skin
86 · Mar 2020
The Hunger For You
JaxSpade Mar 2020
Sadness devours
The smile on you
And it's hard to repair
The broken rear view

You keep driving yourself mad
And you keep swerving into sad

Your mind is a falling star
And I
Saw you crash real hard
And your eyes
Were a fountain of scars
And I
Drowned in their war

Sadness devoured
The love in your heart
It drained all the blood
And all of your warmth

Who would have thought
you'd change your mood

And who would have thought
You once were good

Your mind is a falling star
And I
Saw you crash real hard
And your eyes
Were a fountain of scars
And I
Drowned in their war

Sadness devours
As your life feeds the pain
You used to know love
But now you know hate

Remember the light you used to see
Now your in darkness constantly
Remember the smile you used to be
Now darling
Do you remember me

Your mind is a falling star
And I
Saw you crash real hard
And your eyes
Were a fountain of scars
And I
Drowned in their war
86 · Apr 2020
Love Is Blindness
JaxSpade Apr 2020
When we first met
And our eyes drank enough to make us sick
We fell on the floor of what the future did

Swallowing us whole
And devouring years
Somehow all the good times
Disappeared

Who knew that day was cursed
For the better of the worst

We vowed that forever
Was just a lonely word

When we first met
We believed in dreams
          And togetherness

But it all left in a heart beats
Bitterness

When we first met
We never knew
This would be the end

And we never should have started
What we began

Now we stand alone
Away from the home

We used to love
                To live

When we first met
We couldn't see

Because we were...


       Blinded
By the Love
86 · Mar 2020
Chocolate Lovers
JaxSpade Mar 2020
She gave me a kiss
But it was Hershey's

And I ****** on it
With a loud slurping

I told her I loved chocolate
And this could be you
If you really wanted

She gave me a kiss
But it was her lips
And I ****** on it
Like it was Hershey's

I told her I loved chocolate
So she gave me some more droplets
I put her in my mouth
And ****** on her every ounce

Until she melted
84 · Sep 2018
Fly eyes
JaxSpade Sep 2018
The walls didn't have a pen
84 · Jan 2019
Deaths Bed
JaxSpade Jan 2019
Your eyes opened
And saw the sun in the sky floating
It was too bright to stare at the light
But you stood there hoping
It was the last time
You've awoken

The night came
And fell on your name
A blanket of darkness
Tucking you in

You laid there sleeping
As morning came creeping
You arose weeping
Because it wasn't the last time
You were seeking

Another sunrise
In the worlds demise
Of evil beings
You're still alive

Yet the sun killed the night
And your dreams

To live
To die
To live in another place
You could wake to peace

Comes nigh

And you await
Another days fate
Hoping you won't awake
The next time

Tick
         Tock

        As the Suns clock

Waves its last goodbye
84 · Sep 2018
Gone
JaxSpade Sep 2018
SHE'LL BE GONE
HEAR THE NEWS

TAKE YOUR DREAMS
   AND YOUR PETALS

TAKE YOUR PENNIES
  AND YOUR MARBLES

           MOON IS BLUE

SHE'LL BE GONE
LIKE THE WIND
WITH THE LEAVES
I'LL SOON SETTLE

I'LL MAYBE MAKE
                  A MOON
    A STAR

I'LL PAINT A WORLD
    ACROSS HER FEET
SHOW HER THINGS
AND MAKE HER SMILE
         TOUCH HER FACE
FOR MY LOVE
     IS FOR YOU

BUT SHE'LL BE GONE
    DRINK THE *****
  STASH YOUR HEART
  AND YOUR MEDALS

FOR THE THING THAT IS GONE

IS IN HER
AND IN YOU

SHE'LL BE GONE
           IT'S NO USE
TAKE THE FEELINGS
            HALF NIBBLED

FOR YOUR HEART
                 IS A HALF

WHEN IT'S TWO
83 · Mar 2020
Loved By A Virus
JaxSpade Mar 2020
I feel a scratch in my throat
Am I supposed to panic now
And change my vote

I tried lemon and honey
And gargled mouthwash plenty

I've been bathing in hand sanitizer
For no good it did any

Now this **** scratch
I can feel in my throats back
Before the onslaught of attack

I hate to be sick
Now matter what virus it is
Yet somehow all my precautions
Had zero effect

I'm never changing my vote
They could shut down the whole world
Because no matter how sick I get

I'll never be sicker than them
81 · Apr 2020
Nightfall
JaxSpade Apr 2020
The night fell
She
Let down her hair
I saw
The way she looked
At me
When I stared
I couldn't help myself
The night fell
And I caught a star
That shot across the universe
When she looked up
The night fell
Like a blanket
It covered in a dark
Statement
But all I saw
Was a silhouette of her
And a shadow of her form
I looked with my hands
And I felt her in
My palms
The night fell
She did
I swear
Right into my arms
77 · May 2020
I'm The Dumbest Dude
JaxSpade May 2020
Maybe i'm a fool
Foul
Forever

Baby I would do
For you
Worse or better

Shall I die
Without your eyes
In mine
Glittered

Shall I be the dunce
In the corner
Different

Maybe I'm a fool

Maybe I'm a

      Cold
C
O
L
D
     Cold
  
     Shiver

A flood
A storm
A raging river

I'd do anything for you
Baby I'm a fool
For you

Forever

I'm the dumbest dude
For you

Maybe I'm a fool
Or I'm the sharpest tool

Cutting

I'm not dull

But maybe
I am a fool

For you...

For
   You

I'm nothing
75 · May 2020
The Princess Of Love
JaxSpade May 2020
She kissed him
With magic of a magician

And he consumed her
As a potion from a sorcerers
Wisdom

They fell in love
And trusted the system

They held each other close
And would boast
How much they most

In love
Existed

She kissed him
And his frog turned
Into a Prince when

True love
Met them

A cloud of smoke
Appeared
After a few words spoke
A spell
Corrected the victim

When she kissed him
It was magically delicious

She was his lucky charm
And he was her wishes

After the kisses

Of the Princess

Of love
74 · Mar 2020
The Flower Without A Vase
JaxSpade Mar 2020
I left my love
On the petal she pulled

He loves me not
He loves me

Not as he should
But as she could

Not

As each petal dropped
I was the last one caught

She turned it over
And read what she thought

It was love

But now she doesn't
Got

A flower to ***

Because she picked me
All apart
72 · May 2020
Protecting me from myself
JaxSpade May 2020
All I wanted was a pepsi
Before the white coats get me
They wanted to institutionalize my brain
So they could forget me

I went to their schools
I was born in their churches
But somehow my mind became a dysfunctional malfunction
Worthless

You came to the assumption
I must be on drugs or something
To think for myself
Where did i get this notion

All I wanted was a pepsi
And a sweet girl to sit next to me
Because I'm not into drugs
For love is my ecstasy

But they said I was crazy
And continued their hating
They didn't like my mind
And what it debated

They're driving me crazy
Insanely

All I wanted was a pepsi
And they wouldn't give it to me
They said it had too much caffeine
And I already had enough energy

I was driven to an institution
That was the only solution
To deal with what they found in my mind

Confusion
Inspired by song : Institutionalized By Suicidal Tendencies
68 · Dec 2018
The Olde Town
JaxSpade Dec 2018
The old town
       Yesterday
Where the old smile
                 Used to live
Walking around
Visiting
The same surround
        That used to be        
Before it let me down
All the pleasentries
That used to come
                 Found out
I was gone
         Home
It couldn't figure out
What had gone wrong
Maybe it was just me
                   Or my heart
Broken down
It could have been the breeze
                        Or something else
The old town
Of sullen sound
        Tommorow
Won't stay around
                    Too long
Yesterday spit me out
Onto the dead leaves
        And ***** ground
But i knew to get back up
As the world turns me upside down
There is always a yesterday found
                     Maybe it was the *****
That left me with a frown
But i just can't wait
               To go home
64 · May 2020
Hearsay
JaxSpade May 2020
What did you hear

Say

The rumor
Of the day
What your ear
Ate

I heard you repeat
Through your teeth
A thought
You yourself
Didn't make

Hearsay
   Gossip
And news fake

It's entertainment
Aside from the truth said

What did you hear

Say

Before you believe
What is the source paid

To deliver you a message
Or display a truth
                     Bent

Over
Your
        Head
63 · May 2020
Deep Shidt
JaxSpade May 2020
Swallowing the waves
She swam into the grave

She didn't know how deep
She was

It's all too late
Because nothing can change

What she gulped

Washed upon the shore
A whale once more

Full of the sea
She flopped

Hoping somehow
The Gods would allow

Her life
To miraculously
Come back
JaxSpade Mar 2020
The rain sleeps in the bed of my sullen eyes
And the lighting crashes inbetween the synapses in my mind

Losing Eden
I remember the way Eve looked
When she died eating

Her face used to be
Redolent roses
On the palette of her cheeks
A soft cotton sweet

Her ******* were the purest peace
She had a heart of gold
Before she sold it to the beast

And as his thunder rolled in the deep of the cold
I lost the glow in the woman given to me

She gave
And I did eat

And that's when we became human
After we consumed some of the wickedest tree

That's when the rain came
And slept in my eyes swollen veins

They were black skies
Embedded in the darkest gray
That sang an orchestra of pain

It was just one mistake
Perfection had to make

Because it's just too hard
For our flesh to obey
The One who'd create

The Snake🐍
55 · Feb 2020
The Hand That Helps
JaxSpade Feb 2020
The hand that helps
Is encouraging
When it's felt

Lifting someone up
After they fell
Is an act of love
That comes with a hug
And leaves with a smile

The friend that helps
Encourages your health
And you should help him
Because sometimes he could help you
More than you could help yourself

It's encouraging when felt
Positivity picking you up
Out of your hell

The act of love
From someone else
Is a boost of adrenaline
A hundred miles an hour

The hand that helps
Caresses the heart
And blesses the soul

Take it when you see it stretched out
Offer it when you see someone struggling
With the rest of the world

Because when we lift each other up
We need not worry

How we fell down
55 · Mar 2020
Poetical Suicide
JaxSpade Mar 2020
All these words jumped off a cliff and splattered here

I was looking at a few mangled
Split open in the catastrophe

Which ones could i salvage
They were all so damaged
I couldn't tell if some were English
Or some kind of Spanish

But there was blood
They called ink
And the paper was a skin pink

Splattered all over the earth
I began my search
Picking up the pieces
Of any kind of word

I was looking for one
That would cut like a sword
But i was so desperate
I just picked up as much as I could hoard

I had to find some storage
Because there's not a whole lot of space
Upstairs

I didn't get discouraged

I decided to put them in poems
So they could flourish

The only problem was
No would read them
because they were too boring

And that was end of my beloved vocabulary
The words died
Without even being buried

So I went to the cliff
And i dove into the abyss

Because I'd rather be dead
Than to be without poetry
55 · Mar 2020
The Frog Life
JaxSpade Mar 2020
I just wanted your dress
To hit the floor when we kissed
I just wanted you to slip into something more comfortable
So i could take it off

I just wished
You felt the same about me
Before you left

That somehow i would be someone
You wanted to know best

I just wanted your dress
To expose your *******
So i could pet them with the wet of my lips

Because i miss
Your poems
your mind
and your wish

Yeah
I just wanted to be your prince
But im just a frog
Ribbit!!
JaxSpade Mar 2020
How did it all turn out

Did you dare to be happy
Have comforted yourself
Did you find your smile
Are you comfortable now
Did you revel in success
Did you buy the biggest house
Have you made yourself beautiful
Did you expand your wealth
Are you happy
With how everything turned out
Do you have enough

What do you want now ?

Do you have enough
With how everything turned out
Are you happy
Did you expand your wealth
Have you made yourself beautiful
Did you buy the biggest house
Did you revel in success
Are you comfortable now
Did you find your smile
Have you comforted yourself
Did you dare to be happy

How did it all turn out
JaxSpade Feb 2020
This program is corrupt
I could smell the smoke
Of burning electronic
Before i threw up

Another malfunction
Malformed in conjunction
With some burnt hair on my girlfriend
Who said Trump is the best President!

But the media said no he's not

I've got a corrupt program
That somehow deleted 30,000 emails
After November guess what we'll remember in 10 years

A stain on a blue dress
A bullet made of pen
A peach with orange hair

This program is corrupt
What we'll remember
Will already be past

Republican
Independent
Democrat

Swamped in corruption
While we pay the tab
JaxSpade Mar 2020
She wore these glass slippers
That matched her dress

And I could see through her transparent zippers

Her flesh

She revealed her beauty concealed
Behind a wide smile
While her eyes killed

And she smelled like a lilac kiss

She must've read my mind
Because she knew my wish

As we slide across the ballroom dance
We marinated in the romance

But after the song dissolved
The clock struck twelve

And she left
43 · Mar 2020
He Wears A Sugar Coat
JaxSpade Mar 2020
Here come the handcuffs
I guess my words were too strong
For your weakness

Are you in fear how I speak this

Perhaps you need to censor
The whole **** ship

I saw a man steal the paint
Off another mans palette
Because he didn't like his story
Or the way he'd tell it

Imagine the art you make
And having another man
Tell you how to sell it

Here come the handcuffs
Take creativity and lock it up
It must be a crime to be so passionate

Make it do time
With all the other rhymes

That were just too much

For another mans mind
To respect
42 · Mar 2020
Glass Slipper Girl
JaxSpade Mar 2020
I told her it was her eyes i liked
And the way her hair shone in the sunlight

But I lied

It was her lips
And the way she kissed
That left me weak in the knees
And made my heartbeat quick

I liked the feel of her waist
Even better than way she'd taste

Feeling her curves
Pressing against my nerves
While i was lost in her gaze

Into my ears
I heard a soft whisper

She said she loved the way i danced with her

That night at the ball
After midnight would fall
She'd be gone

Less a glass slipper
41 · Mar 2020
The Sinners Grief
JaxSpade Mar 2020
It wasn't my life
There was nothing here for me
To call my own

Just a pile of years
Cluttered with time
Spending my fear

Begging for a home

They were never my possessions
All i ever owned was the obsession
Yeah I owned a few prayers
But no one would ever listen

It wasn't my life
It was always his right
To treat me like a *****
And pet my head lice

I was caught off guard
And I lost the good fight
Because i was caught
Like a deer in the headlights

Frozen in time
Wondering why
This light is so bright

It wasn't my life
I would never create an image of me
Alike

It was always his
To take or give
Day or night

It never was mine
And now he'll take it back
For I gladly surrender it outright

It wasn't my life
When the Lord
Cut the silver cord
With his knife

It was always his right
To create the story he likes
And even though I may not
Like the story he writes

If I don't obey and abide
I won't be by his side
And I can't be one of his Israelites

But it was always his
It was never my life
To give or sacrifice

I'm just a man
Caught in a history
Given a gift of life's misery

It remains a mystery
How a life that is given
To live in a world of sinning
Could be offered an infinity

I'm sorry Lord
I apologize
But It was never my life

You gave

It was always yours
So I lay it at your door
Now I'll rest in peace
And say my goodbye

To what was never mine

— The End —